whateva

if i softblock you for following me its not you its me, i just dont want anybody in my zero-follower fortress of solitude

[f-slur]

i wish i could let people follow me on here itd be awesome having mutuals but unfortunately i am insane and have to purge my followers regularly im sorry

[youweremovingyourfeet]

but he will be here forever. he'll haunt you both until he's dead and niall's-

[normalhumanblogger]

thinking about my dead friend niall kennedy makes me feel sick im gonna throw up

[f-slur]

i think ive escaped the half man curse at last its like im still thinking about it but theres room for other things in my brain too finally

[f-slur]

despite rgadd clearly not wanting half man to be a straightforward victim narrative thats kind of how the story ended up reading to me anyway. which is not a bad thing imo its just interesting. like throughout the show he clearly wanted to create this looming sense that niall mustve done something truly heinous to deserve ruben coming for him like revenge personified (the ominous "he knows what he wants and he takes it" before we find out what it is he took etc) but even with the full picture revealed i feel like nothing niall did ever came within light years of the kind of physical, verbal, and sexual violence ruben inflicted on the people around him, niall most of all. the fact that niall stole and lied and was addicted to drugs and sex and said yes to fatherhood for all the wrong reasons and acted like a selfish dick and kept returning to ruben despite everything and kept loving him and hating him and wanting to hurt him back – to me none of that really changed the fact that he was ultimately just a guy who fell in love with a controlling man when he was very young and was raped and murdered for it like so many women have before him. niall being a flawed person with the capacity to hurt people made him a more interesting protagonist but it did nothing to negate his status as ruben's victim in my mind

[iamfetish66666]

[larval-tear]

dude i think i might be The Other

[dogpuppy]

[evilvillain123456789]

can i be super super honest with you? im in no way trying to downplay your experiences but i have to speak my truth here. i don't believe that your shitty ex was a man. i just don't. i don't think men have a rich enough inner world to be evil, or insane. based on your stories about "him" i think youre describing an intelligent actor with a robust theory of mind, capable of behaving with intentional malice. not a straight man. basically i think you're lying, and i think youre a lesbian. thats all.

[f-slur]

how it feels to use a public toilet

[f-slur]

i love tragedy and horror where the heart of the misery stems from rape and childhood sexual abuse im sure this preference has nothing to do with my own personal history or deepest darkest fears

[f-slur]

i want to play fear & hunger so bad for the rape and pedophilia horror elements unfortunately i cannot play games that dont have a powerful and instant dopamine hook because im a brainless ogre i need shoot i need smash i need instant gratification

[f-slur]

all the male bus drivers in my area are such hardasses i feel like they all hate me because i look like a faggy pimply teen delinquent and they see me as the boy that was once beaten out of them but im thirty and a woman and i just need to get places

[achillesinhighheels]

[etchif]

Isn't it fucking insane that so many people think that IQs are real. Like people genuinely believe you are born with one set level of intelligence that can be measured on a scale from 1 to ~200. As if intelligence wasn't extremely nuanced and completely subjective. And the fact that the majority of scientists that have advocated for IQ tests in the past have been eugenicists doesn't seem to concern anyone either

[f-slur]

there has never been an evil fish

[f-slur]

i live like two steps from the docks and i can just go sit by the water and see the birds anytime i want and im still like "my life shit" i was born ungrateful

[f-slur]

theres so much fish in the bay i should just start fishing for protein since im dirt poor but i dont think i could ever take a fishs life theyre so beautiful and innocent