ok people here is the deal - i have moved blogs so that i can start fresh ( again lmfao ) so if you’d like to follow me the new blog is right here. keep in mind that i’m still setting everything up and remaking my icons but for now please please please just go admire the new theme that @ofdoeeyes made for me. for tonight i’ll be trying to make as much icons as possible, maybe a header and also a promo picture and then i’ll start following people and hopefully start roleplaying either tomorrow or the next day!
ok guys hello it’s me rose I’m here -waves at u all- over the next few days I may be re-viving my clarke, most probably on a new blog. because I just watched the season premiere and honestly I got so so much clarke muse back. I’ve been getting some clarke muse back over the past few days but this was just a giant overload and so I want to come back to my baby and ruin everyone’s lives ( including mine ) with the feels again. ( pls like this if you’re happy to see me back — if I come back tonight and this doesn’t have any likes I hate u all ) -whispers- I’m back bitches.
PARIS — for those who may be wondering, those who know that I’m from France, I am okay. I’m on my Erasmus year in England right now and even when I was living in France I was no where near Paris. Most my family don’t live in Paris either so they’re fine. I have an uncle who lives right next to where one of the attacks took place, and he’s okay. I also have friends who were near the different attacks at the time but they managed to get home safe/get shelter. Everyone I know is okay — however so many people are not. With more than 100 dead, 300+ injured, and so many people in critical situations, so many people are not okay right now. My heart goes out to the families and friends of the victims, but also those who may have witnessed any of these deaths, who have been victims of a mere touch from the attackers’ hands. My heart also goes out to every other location in the world right now that have gone through the same thing as Paris. Because it’s not only Paris — it’s so many other cities, small towns, airports, schools. My heart goes out to all the victims and anyone suffering from all of these barbaric acts.
alriiiiight people. you may have noticed ( or not lmao ) a slight decrease in activity on my clarke ( not that I have any other blogs atm ) and I have a few reasons for that. whether they seem valid or not in your eyes isn’t really any of my concern and I wouldn’t usually spend much time explaining myself when I don’t feel the need to but — clarke has been ( and will always be ) one of my babies so lets do some brief explaining: I’m doing my erasmus year in england and I am so, so happy right now. I can finally find the desire to actually go out with the friends I have made. I am involved in societies. I also have a shit tone of coursework but lets not speak about that — I’m just so content. and I feel like with all the above, I’m just so so busy, and also don’t really feel that rping has become something that I want to do, anymore. because yes, that too — tumblr and its updates has made it harder for me to just come onto this website and enjoy its features. it’s just honestly put me off and I don’t really feel the need to check and use this website whenever I have free time. so yeah — those are some of the reasons as so why, from today, I will be on a hiatus. now, I don’t know if I’ll be coming back. I may, I may not. for now I won’t be, because I feel like I’ve reached a point in my life where I don’t really want or need bby clarke anymore. but if there’s one thing I do know, it’s that I’ll never forget you guys and everything you and I have built ( or even the people I hadn’t gotten the chance to talk to ) between our characters, the friendships, and just everything. I will check this account once in a while — might send you guys some messages, lurk in the background, etc, and I’ll also be available on skype for those who wish to remain in contact, but for now it’s time for me to say goodbye to clarke. and for my clarke to say goodbye to you guys. ( and now for some shoutouts because I’m a fucking mess when I leave a blog. )
@ofdoeeyes - nessa I think you will always be at the top of these lists even if our characters have absolutely nothing to do with each other. and we haven’t been talking recently and I guess that’s because we’re both rather busy bees. I’d like to thank you, as always, for being one of the best people in the world. for accepting me, for being my friend and for always agreeing to listen to whatever bullshit I have to say. I could never stress this enough but you’ve helped me so much, through some things that had been weighing me down so much. not even a thousand letters would allow me to express how grateful I am for you to have entered my life. I consider myself a really lucky person to have crossed paths with you. our stelena will always have a very special place in my heart, as will you. ♥
@oficethronisms - you goddamn asshole. I think I remember how we started talking but that doesn’t matter. what matters is the fucking book series that we have written about kateri and clarke. I hope you know that all our painful headcanons, plot ideas, meme answers and mostly ic skype threads will always break my heart. I also hope you know that you’re not done with me and that I’ll forever throw pain at you because it’s what you deserve for giving me kateri/clarke ideas. you’re also such an amazing person and I adore your love for wells and also for kateri and the development you have built up for her. always coming with new but concrete ideas and headcanons for her. the magic in having an original character ( created for the world of a tv shoc / movie ) is that when they have a good writer, you start actually imagining them in said series, interacting with all the canon characters. you’ve made me believe that kateri is actually a canon character and it ruins my life every day.
@ultriix / @nctreal / @komtriikru / wherever you are - laura. laura laura laura. ♥. it all started with clarke and lexa. our special clarke and lexa. I have never been able to write as comfortably with any other lexas that I’ve come across on here. with you it was always so easy because I feel like our characters knew each other so well. clarke and lexa may be soulmates on the show, but my clarke and your lexa are also soulmates in the whole rp community. I hope you know that you’re also — as well as a wonderful writer — an absolute sweetheart, a wonderful person. you’re probably like me, hella busy with uni right now because you got into that school you wanted to get into, and so I hope you’re having a great time there and that you’re enjoying what you’re doing. because it seemed really important to you and you obviously deserve everything wonderful in the world. I hope we will get the time to catch up sometime! :)
@imqetuous - another asshole, great. lemme tell you, paula, how you have broken my heart. you. are. an absolutely. wonderfully. talented. writer. that’s how. your writing — I’m not even kidding I have no words to describe it — is just kjskajskajs. that’s all. it’s that good. it’s absolutely golden. and then we have eli. and ira but mostly eli. I have so much love for him. so so much. he is a beautifully written and built character, and I can only thank you for bringing him into this world and into clarke’s life, -nods towards our painful verse-. and as a person, as the writer behind eli and ira, I’d just like to give you a million hearts. you’re a brazilian cutie pie and I love you so ( I admitted it again pls don’t use it against me or else I will get some grave revenge ).
people I will forever love from afar because we haven’t talked that much ( or at all — or quite a bit and then just went out separate ways somehow ) but I still appreciate you dearly & people I’ve written with and with whom I’ve gotten to realize that, whenever I write with someone, there always has to be pain and heartbreak or else it’s not funny: @oformiti ( we’ve never plotted but you need to be on here because of something you may remember — I will though, forever remember everything that you did for me on that day. all the support and the advice and just you in general trying to calm me down. the fact that you so willingly offered your help just even more proves that you’re a wonderful person. I will forever be grateful for you and what you did for me in that moment, and for sticking around even afterwards, and would love to continue talking to you ♥ ), @clarkkes ( I’m actually so sad because we had started to plot a thing and then I actually, stupidly, forgot all about it and thus never posted a starter for you or came back to you about it. your clarke is one of my favorites out there and I just ♥ ), @flooredunder ( I don’t think we’ve ever even talked but oh my god your octavia is literally the actual octavia ♥ ), @arkhealer ( u asshole ♥ ), @earthmedic, @rcsponsible / @commanderiiisms, @reclaimingsecond, @raisedbetter, @fiiercehearts, @chancellorisms ( you will forever be the abby to my clarke ♥ ), @groundfallen ( I will never ever forget the plotline that we came up with for our two babies — it was honestly one of the best I’ve come up with, with someone. thank you for being part of this perfection, the bunch of painful but also wonderfully beautiful headcanons we created, and the love story that I’ll probably always remember. if I come back I’ll be sure to message you right away so that we can continue the magic ).
oooo i was supposed to do this awhile ago - but there was a mixture of me forgetting and me being lazy..technically the laziness won over and then i just forgot. love me and forgive me?
..on to the thing. uhm i am not good with words but i want to thank all of the people who followed me for giving kateri a chance and uhm – yup.
this is going to be a follow forever and a small giveaway cause…reasons yeah reasons. well the giveaway will come later - so ON WITH THE PEOPLE – NAMING STUFF..YEAH THAT’S WHAT I MEANT.
the baes (people i agitate and bother outside of tumblr)
@fadedsolace, @paisiible(and your other ones), @thefamouselena @cmdrlxa, @azgeda-kwin-nia, @disillusionedhumanity, @princepsterrae, @neverthere, @sncwblind, @silver-argents, @firesofthejazzgirl
hello - i love you (and also afraid to interact with most of you)
@imqetuous, @reclaimingsecond, @torturxdforhxr, @cxntcontrolme, @grounderiisms, @poliscommander, @warbuilt, @banishedgreed (along with your other blogs), @obliiitus, @frctello, @notimminent, @clarkkes, @alleyspat, @allthesolutions, @provendurable, @suendhaft, @wallfighter, @ourbrokencrowns, @ofabnegation, @imnobodysson, @vertounda, @constantdriift, @vitiosuscorda
this is all from the top of my head and if i forgot anyone i am so sorry dfshkfdsnfjd
what could have made her peaceful with a mind that nobleness made simple as a fire, with beauty like a tightened bow, a kind that is not natural in an age like this, being high and solitary and most stern? why, what could she have done, being what she is? was there another troy for her to burn?
[30/10/15 04:10:29] your conscience: BUT BIANCA
[30/10/15 04:10:37] your conscience: -grabby hands @ pillow-
[30/10/15 04:10:52] ice queen kateri: get the pillow
[30/10/15 04:10:58] ice queen kateri: and go the fuck to sleep
when u realize who ur true friends are @oficethronisms
my muse will tell you something about you they hate, something they love, and something they would miss if you left.
I HATE YOU ( BUT NOT FOREVER )
one thing I hate is the control you have over me.and the way you think I don’t care — can’t you see?if you really don’t want this, if that’s why you try to flee,then just tell me you don’t love me, and I’ll set you free.
I LOVE YOU ( FOREVER )
the way your eyes shine in the moonlight — and your innocence.the way you wait for me to sleep before you allow yourself to.the way you take your time in the morning to put on your war paint.the way your fingers trace figures on my neck before you say‘ I’ll be back — I promise. ’ and leave to war against the enemy.the way you smile softly before leaning in to kiss me goodnight,the way you accidentally said ‘ I love you ’ when the time was right.
take these things away from me and what’s left is the broken heartof a broken girl. but that doesn’t matter because when you gaveyour heart to me that night you told me you loved me — I took itwith open arms and the softest of touches, told you that I’ll look after it for you when it gets dark, that I’ll link it to my own so thatthey can beat in unison. I told you I’ll try to fix it — and you noddedto me before handing it over — as well as your trust, your soul, andyour love. ~ and yes baby, I love you too.
I MISS YOU ( PLEASE COME BACK )
all of the above plus the way your lips would linger on mine whenyou weren’t ready to break our kiss just yet. I miss you, I miss you.all of the above and also the way you’d mutter three simple wordsinto my ear when you’d think I was sleeping. I miss you, I miss you.all of the above and god, the way your breath would break into twohitched breaths whenever my nails would run down your back andwhenever I’d kiss your neck. I miss you, I miss you, god, I miss you.
but mostly the way you made me feel whenever I told you I had tocarry a whole mountain upon my back. the way you’d scoot overnext to me, embrace me, and carry the weight with me. please docome back soon — you made me whole again. I miss you, I missyou, I miss you.
ps. my body cannot live without a heart. and I know you took it withyou because when you left that morning without saying goodbye, Ifelt the tug in my chest as you yanked out the only thing that mademe feel human — along with yourself.
Put "Hate me, Love me, Miss me." In my askbox and my muse will tell you something about you they hate, something they love, and something they would miss if you left.
guys you may have noticed my slight ( lol ‘slight’ rose pls ) drop in activity — but don’t fret, I’m not leaving clarke! I just have a shitload of coursework, essays, and reading to do at the moment. I don’t really know when things are gonna go back to normal but for sure, one day they will. my activity will be very spotty until things do eventually manage to clear up. but just bear with me and I will love you forever. ♥
in the mean time, before I skip off to read some more, lemme just do a little promo because there are some pretty amazing people out there. bianca my babe who crafted an absolutely wonderful original character called KATERI ( whom clarke loves very much ). bri whom — I hope — has managed to get rid of her cold and who writes an amazing CLARKE. and paula who is an absolute asshole but you should go follow her original character ELI because she’s coming back from hiatus soon and -reluctantly admits- you’ll be glad to have her and eli on your dash.
