FaePunk's Stuff

I make strange things mostly art. I also post a lot of things about my health n' stuff so just keep that in mind. This is a journal for me then a place for others. A public journal. 23y/o transfem. I don't post typically NSFW stuff on this blog but still don't follow me if you're a minor i don't think interacting with kids a good thing. if you bothered to read this far a warning. you do not like me. you will not enjoy my company you will find me fundamentally frustrating and annoying to be around. I'm intolerable. So before even trying to start a conversation remember that I do not have the time or energy to hide who I am and I am tired of people lying to me that they like me hoping I'll get better. I won't and you're just making it worse.

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This my main blog mostly going to be art and life updates I want to have a blog for more sharing what I like soooo... @cecilia-the-spider is my side blog I will be NSFW on occasion so absolutely don't follow if you don't want to see that. This blog will still remain as my journal. Life updates art and posts I think are important. Everything else(reblogs, conversation posts and my occasional yearning posts) are getting moved to that blog

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The lions mane has been tamed

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Holy shit I'm actually drawing faepunk myself for once? What??? Crazy I know but it needed to be done.

Evil woman alert

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I did art? Like... I was in the mood to paint but I don't have painting supplies sooo I fucker around with airbrushes it scratched the itch at least

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Finally more work on this I've been so exhausted but 5 hours on work to finish 2 panels today!

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I really need to take better care of myself I need wayyy more sleep than I'm getting I want to have my old sleep schedule 4-6 hours every night wake up and I'm refreshed now if I actually want to feel refreshed it's like lay in bed for 4 hours take a nap wake up don't have your legs work so keep laying then sleep for 12-16 hours...

Anyways my point is hades 2 and the new nightreign dlc are really fun and sleep is for dorks who think health is important

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Sorry I've been gone a while busy as hell and haven't felt like doing art enjoying too many great games. It's not a huge update but I wanted to remind people I exist and so yeah I do have other wips in the back but they're beating my ass right now so continuing on the big one though I'd be remissed if I didn't at least share the wips and sketches Ive goofed off with recently. I also moved so I'm in a much better living situation my health hasn't been much better but hey I'll take it.

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Okay art update I'm officially halfway done kinda been creatively bankrupt so tadaaa

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I know almost everything is like health or art on this blog sometimes yearning. But being honest I'm fucking exhausted. I woke up at 10 couldn't even get out of my bed to take meds till 12:30 then I have to leave for my labs and then I'm sitting in the waiting room for 50 minutes to get into neurology to basically get told I have so many symptoms and you shouldn't expect to get better which is whatever sure. But then I get picked up from the hospital and like it's 15:00 I'm fucking beat I know that I don't have to leave for dnd till like 16:20 but my partner wanted to bring people out with us so sure why not. But in 2 and a half hours. Literally all I did btw I got so unbelievably exhausted from just 2 and a half hours of sitting down and waiting that I was falling asleep sitting up before dnd and we couldn't even do it. I had to be driven home early. Why is it that I literally can't fucking do my doctors appointments without wiping me out so thoroughly I might not even get out of bed tomorrow at all. Who deserves this? This constant fucking fatigue that's so ever consuming and it's not even my main issues. It's a side thing. This on its own would be enough to pretty much leave me bed bound 90% of the time. I can't clean or do chores most days can't even get up and sit and my desk to play games I lay in bed and struggle to get up to do my physical therapy. This is just fucking torture. Idk

I needed to rant. Sorry for the lack of art recently and also the extent of health posts. I went to visit my family. Spent 8 of the 11 days I was there completely bed bound then my plane caught fire on the way back so it took 3 extra hours in the airport to even get home than it should have. So I literally slept the whole next day.

anyways I'm gonna try and recover and hopefully I'll get to play a game tomorrow if it goes well

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Health post again under the break :3

Okay out of the hospital. So I am officially diagnosed with CMS(or chronic migraine syndrome) basically I suffer from constant headaches and then migraine systems with infrequently get added on top which is a lock in. Then he split the remaining symptoms into two possible diagnosis neither of which he seemed inclined to actually diagnose. First a lot of symptoms that are surprise surprise inline with pots. Now he's a neurologist not a cardiologist so he can't diagnose that and he admitted that the cardiologist notes were extremely dismissive. Finally he put my balance issues and stuff and said this is likely a functional neurological disorder though which one he didn't want to guess as of right now until we can clear some symptoms off the board to narrow it down further. And those are typically extremely difficult to treat if not untreatable so that's not good prospects. I am going to see my primary next week and we'll discuss future steps.

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I kinda hate being away from home. I miss holding people. I'm so greedy. Also really upset I've lost so much muscle mass lately. I've gone from solidly butch to now being.. crippled punk? Idk I'm still not very femme most days but I don't really feel I'm super butch either anymore. I wanna like be carried while I'm digging into someone's back. That's what I'm in the mood for. I just want to have a warm body to hold and tear.

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Okay 2 in one today health post and a WIP update

Firstly art (you can ignore my health it'll be after the break)

Okay health! Hiii people who care love you. Okay so I don't have an autoimmune disease (yayyy) but I am immunocompromised (boo) and I don't have any news about the brain half of things (also boo) but I might also have like iron stick into my blood better than most which is bad(I take an iron supplement since I can't have any of the iron rich red meat) also. Airports kinda suck if you have to walk with crutches. Anyways that's all goodbyeee I'm gonna sleep for another week

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Another health post sorry. The mobility aids have been helping a lot. I've been going to physical therapy which has revealed some weaknesses beyond my balance. I have a very weak right leg which crumples a lot if it has to support a majority of my body weight so we've been working on that. I'm going to be getting my test results back soon from my last doctor visit. These ones are for autoimmune disorders since I have always gotten sick for long periods of time and also get sick super easy plus having arthritis at 6 points to having one. So hopefully we'll get news on that. I'm taking antidepressants now which is nice too though taking 14 pills everyday really sucks. Energy levels have been super low for like... A few days? That's why there's no updates on art. I'm going to go on a plane to visit my family this month. But that's really terrifying I can't walk without my aids more than a couple feet so I don't know how I'm going through an entire airport. I was told that my ticket as my marked as needing help with mobility but not being legally disabled I don't know how that's gonna work. im very anxious about it. No real new updates on my health outside of being sick again it's been like a week and a half so I'm keeping an eye on it.

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I'm on a groove today!! So much done

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Oh my God this section took so long 11 days just on it I'm so relieved to have it done we passed the anniversary 2 days ago now so it is officially late I think this is gonna take me months I'm not even halfway done but I'm happy so far

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Another update on the MTG mat! This is definitely not getting finished for our anniversary but I'm making progress I might cull the canvas size a bit just to save my time and energy but honestly? I don't know. This is a very demanding project but I'm so happy with it so far.