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about me

22 yrs old scientist

she/her

i go by Liz

dms open, just be around my age pls (18<x<25)

this is a vent page. please recover if you can, pro for me not for thee. if you don't have a disordered relationship with food turn back, you don't want this

sw 177.6 lbs

cw 171.0 lbs

Total Lost: 6.6 lbs

Height: 67 in

Gw1: 170

GW2: 160

GW3: 150

GW4: 140

Regained followed by relapse. hoping to get down to my adult lw (142.2) and then lower

why tf did i come back here

coldbrewbunny

sleeping with a pillow between my knees so i can’t feel my thighs touching

5ad-4ng3l

“Being skinny won’t solve all your problems” -Someone who’s been effortlessly skinny their whole life while eating whatever they want.

vicksnightmare

Get worse 🤭

plague-vulture

washing dishes is evil because you go "oh fuck there's so many dishes this is gonna take foreverrr" and then you enter the dish abyss and emerge with your abdomen somehow covered in water and your hands all wrinky and then you look at the clock and what felt like half an hour was actually 10 minutes

sparklyunicornayaya

there’s genuinely nothing i hate more than gaining it all back.

#i hate having to lose it all again #it feels humilating

crispiekitty

Why couldn't I be blessed with the stress response that makes you not want to eat...

i knew post grad life would trigger this and im ok with it

#liz thoughts #at least i have a job and will be living on my own soon!

its going down but i need it to go down faster </3

#liz thoughts #too high of a sw

t0r1r3xiaaa

I hate when people with AN look down on ppl with bulimia or BED like do you not realize that could be you. people with AN end up developing BED or BN all the time