Meg's Dreamworld

A place where I make some things up, then talk about other made up things, but mostly ramble about things that may or may not be true. I have published things and will be publishing more things in the future. I may or may not be making a huge...

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via bree newsome bass on twitter: 

“The widely circulated timeline created by @Zerflin does a great job in showing how recently slavery & segregation occurred & that they lasted longer than the modern era. 

“I’d like to offer this timeline as another way of viewing the same period of history to show the constancy of both Black resistance in US & efforts of the white power structure to maintain racial caste since 1619.”

https://twitter.com/breenewsome/status/986427881680228354

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When I was a bit older, we got a family dog. Her name was Midnight. I was abusive to that dog. I hit her. Over nothing. I was just angry. Angry because mom loved her so much. She was so kind to her. She'd dumped the dogs I wanted to adopt off on the side of the road. Neglected and abandoned them just like she had neglected and abandoned me in so many ways when I was a kid.

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My uncle started being really abusive to me starting around the time I was four. Mom - technically my grandmother, but I called her mom - never stopped him. He was 10 years older than me and mentally challenged so I'm sure it was a complicated situation. But it was still her job to protect me and she never did. She just screamed at us to stop fighting. Even when it was a 14-year-old punching and kicking a four-year-old.

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Smoking shouldn't be more important than someone you love. I learned that at 3. But not well enough I guess. By the way, if you smoke, quit today. I intend to.

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I dissociate sometimes. I'll believe I'm someone else or become detached from my reality. I'll lose my memory for a time.

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I can still feel the pain in my neck.

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My uncle Matt started copying her. When he got mad at me. He started choking me too.

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It's a flashback. When my narcolepsy paralyzes me before sleep I remember my grandmother holding me down as she strangled me.

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As I'm falling asleep I'm paralyzed. I feel myself reach up to my throat. I'm gasping for breath. And I hear myself pleading, saying "No mommy, no!"

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I have narcolepsy too, or so I believe. And when I fall asleep I have vivid, scary nightmares related to my fears. Sometimes when I'm still paralyzed and falling asleep, and sometimes while I am waking up. And because I have narcolepsy I can fall asleep anywhere and at any time, and directly into a nightmare. Or I can wake up into confusion. Or I can fall into a memory, like the memory of my grandmother choking me.

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Finally Telling the Truth - The Diaries of a Complex-PTSD Sufferer.

She smoked before bed and the smoke would make me cough.

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Finally Telling the Truth - The Diaries of a Complex-PTSD Sufferer.

Age 3:

Every night as I was falling asleep, my mommy would choke me to make me fall asleep.

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Help Desperately Needed!!! Severe Winter Weather in Texas

Texas has been impacted by severe winter storms, leading to power outages across the state. My group home has been left without power for almost two days. Though our power has finally come on, we have no food and because of frozen pipes we have nothing to drink. 

Help would be greatly appreciated in this time of needed, for myself and the other mentally and physically disabled people I live with. 

I have a ride to the store if you can send some money to help. Any small contribution would be greatly beneficial right now. Anything that is left over I will put toward my insurance payment for next month. 

Bless those who have helped me with all the other things I have needed. 

https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/legitwritingtips

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Help Desperately Needed!!! Severe Winter Weather in Texas

Texas has been impacted by severe winter storms, leading to power outages across the state. My group home has been left without power for almost two days. Though our power has finally come on, we have no food and because of frozen pipes we have nothing to drink. 

Help would be greatly appreciated in this time of needed, for myself and the other mentally and physically disabled people I live with. 

I have a ride to the store if you can send some money to help. Any small contribution would be greatly beneficial right now. Anything that is left over I will put toward my insurance payment for next month. 

Bless those who have helped me with all the other things I have needed. 

https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/legitwritingtips

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I wrote up the story of my ordeal with the severe Texas winter storm on my Twitter if anybody wants to read about it - I think it might be important for some people to hear more about this experience so you can see just how horrible this experience was for many, many people, myself included. 

Texas REALLY mishandled this. 

https://twitter.com/legitwritermeg/status/1361823661250945024?s=20

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Help Needed - Donations Post

Even if you can only help with a little bit, a donation would really help. I need medication more than anything else right now. I’m having seizures almost daily, which has hindered my job search. And I desperately need to find a new job right now because my old one has basically laid me off.

Unfortunately, I’ve tried and failed to get disability. Our government is a joke.

Right now I need approximately $50. Love to all who donate or reblog.

Donation link here -

https://www.paypal.com/donate?hosted_button_id=9C7MJ8ZT7ARFJ

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The result of my seizures and why I need help - to prevent this!

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Donations Desperately Needed

Even if you can only help with a little bit, a donation would really help. I need medication more than anything else right now. I’m having seizures almost daily, which has hindered my job search. And I desperately need to find a new job right now because my old one has basically laid me off. 

Unfortunately, I’ve tried and failed to get disability. Our government is a joke.

Right now I need approximately $75. Love to all who donate or reblog.

Donation link here -

https://www.paypal.com/donate?hosted_button_id=9C7MJ8ZT7ARFJ

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It’s very important I get some help. I blacked out yesterday and can’t remember much. Love to those who’ve reached out!!!

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Epilepsy Progress and Donations Needed

Hi! Still having numerous medical problems and I am very much in need of help, especially by the first. Blessings to all those who have given any support, I am so grateful. I am sorry to have to be so desperate but epilepsy along with bipolar disorder (which often occurs with epilepsy) had made things incredible challenging.

As for progress with my health - 

My neurologist is taking me off one of my medications and putting me on a new one. Of course, that does mean I need a little bit of financial help. Not too much since there is a financial assistance program with the new meds. I also still need a little bit of help because my insurance is due soon.

As always, if you help me and reach out I am always willing to do a little editing or critique work for you. Right now my immediate need is about $300 for the insurance I need to get everything set up for the coming month and the year ahead.

Good thoughts and love to all those who have send good thoughts and love my way. Epilepsy really, really sucks and I’ve been dealing with this since 2014 now. It’s hard but I’ve been fortunate to have virtual strangers supporting me even if I don’t have a ton of people in my real life to help.

My donation information:

Paypal.me/legitwritingtips

Venmo- @meg-moore-87

Cashapp - $legitwritermeg

At the moment, my need is urgent due to recurring seizures and the importance of getting my insurance paid for and keeping it going as well as getting a new plan set up for the coming year, so please help if you can <3 Love to those who have helped and sent words of encouragement.

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Really need help! Any little bit is appreciated ❤

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I am sharing the following video of one of my seizures to help raise awareness and also show people what I am going through with my seizure disorder.

Please do not watch if seeing a seizure may be distressing to you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oUeL-d7XHWI&t=199s

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Please, please help if you can! I am currently trying to get insurance set up for next year + get some other vital things taken care of.