Faith & loyalty

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Always choose you

Don’t cry over the past, nor should you worry about the future. Things come as they come. Always treat others like you want to be treated. Just for your sake and yours only. Always be honest, friendly, helpful and loving - even though you seem to be the only one. Set an example. Be a rolemodel others can learn from. Never speak words without actions, you know how that can hurt you too.. Choose you. Always. Because the ones you walk with might not even bother crossing the street for you.

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Says enough...

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Let me be patient, let me be kind. Make me unselfish without being blind. I may have faith to make mountains fall, but if I lack love then I am nothing at all.

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Just a little

It’s the 3rd night alone here. All alone since a long time. The past days I’ve been having these small flashbacks to when he just left. The silence when I sleep alone in his bed. The smell of his freshly washed clothes I’m folding – while the sun is entering his bedroom. A heartbreaking feeling. And now I’m sitting here with these flashbacks and everything just comes crashing in to me. So many feelings run throuh my stomach, so many held back tears in my eyes and so many thoughts.Eventually, with all the understanding I have got, I can’t help but feel forgotten. Just a little. So many feelings and maybe most of all misunderstanding. Sometimes I can’t put my finger on him anymore.  I want to be there for him like I have been from the very beginning. But I can’t do much if I don’t know what is going through his mind. I’m wondering what happened to all those things he wrote me. I’m fearing for things that might not even happen, but like he says: you just never know.. There is one thing he once said that I can’t get off my mind: Maybe when I’m all back again I might want to start everything over, even this.. Everytime I think of that I get kicked in the stomach. Especially on a night like this. What if he actually thinks about that? What if he doesn’t know what his feelings are again? Not even meant selfish.. But what if I get cut off after this. The fear of how I am going to feel then get’s me everytime. I can’t help but feel like this. Just a little. And then, after I wrote every thing down, I burst in to tears. Because I don’t understand either. I can’t always get a hold of him, but I always keep myself strong and think of all the good and beautiful things. But nobody can keep themselves from feeling insecure when you can’t always understand the one you love. Fact. Because you don’t know where you stand. You can’t always feel his feelings like you did before. Sometimes I feel everything all at once and sometimes I can’t feel anything at all. You can see it in someone’s eyes, you can see it in someone’s attitude or in the way someone speaks. I can’t always read him anymore. That hurts me so much, because all the love I have for him will never stop me from trying to understand him - even if he doesn’t speak. 

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Stand tall - Stand your ground

Stand your ground. You count just as much. Don't be the type of person who goes the extra mile for someone who wouldn't bother crossing the street for you. Value yourself. Only when you are truly at peace, nothing can bother you. Nothing anyone says or does. You've got to be thát much in touch with yourself, so no negativity can touch you.  Once you realize you deserve better, letting go will be the best decision to make. You will attract the right things when you have a sense of who you are. Never chase anyone. A person who appreciates you will walk with you. Value yourself. Stand tall.

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Time so precious.. time so rare.. Time that flies by.. Time too short to enjoy, yet time enough to cherish.

[dojazarah]

My first outfit of today perfectly describes me. I don’t mind if it freezes, i will still wear croptops.

Bomber: Zara Woman Cropped sweater+scuba pants: H&M Socks: Urban Outfitters Shoes: Air max 90 GS at Footlocker

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An inspirational thing for many

A bird on a tree is never afraid of falling because her trust is not on the branch, but on it's own wings.. You will learn the hard way that you cannot always count on others. Being a good person doesn't guarantee that others will be good people too. Making you believe that they are not like all the others. And you know what, they are right. They are even worse. And you, you only have control over yourself and how you choose to be as a person. As for others, you can only choose to accept them or walk away. There are somethings money can't buy, like manners, morals, loyalty and respect. Cherish those people, and free yourself from those who only manage to dissapoint you.

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Don't go chasing waterfalls, please stick to the rivers and the lakes that you're used to..

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Headaches

From te moment I wake up my mind starts working. There are a lot of questions on my mind, things I wonder but don't want to know. It's holding me back. You should say what you're thinking, not what you think you should say. I don't even get why my mind works this way. Because it's such a stupid thing to do. I should speak my mind, no matter what it's about. But still, sometimes I'm afraid to speak my mind because I'm scared of how the other will react or what will be said.. When something bothers me I hold it back so long it gives me headaches.

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Spread the honesty

I don’t even want to talk no more, I don’t want to speak my mind again. My head is already spinning and my heart is jumping around even more. All these questions I don’t even want to ask anymore, because the perfect answers will roll right out of their sleeves with dishonest. What happened to honesty? What is it that made people tell lies instead? Are they scared of the truth themselves? Or are they telling lies with a reason only they know? Fooling themselves, hurting those that still stick around. And believe me, even though those people still stick around, they will be soon to leave. They see you. They saw you a long time ago.

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Three times the carm

I had some serious doubts and trust issues after being screwed over and lied to in the past. I made my mind straight not to love like that again. Probably because I had to learn the hard way. I think everyone has that one ex that changed them completely, and so I promised myself to become a bitch when I was being mistreated again.. But I always stumble upon the same things everytime because, with some reason, I'm always two steps ahead. Despite what those two steps are, whatever I come across, I'll never be a bitch. Because that's just not who I am.  I'm not a girl that speaks her doubting or angry mind, even when I should have. Simply because I like to live happy, care free. I like to not assume anything, but still knowing it's all good. I'd like to know what I mean to someone, ofcourse, because I'm sure he knows what he means to me. Especially in the situation we are in right now.  But still, I fell. I fell for love, the feeling I have when I'm with him, that no one could ever give me. The thought of it being meant to be, that we found eachother at the right time. Because we both were lost and we both were scared to trust love again. He made me grab all my insecurities, doubts, anger and fears back together. I was sure, whatever would come our way, I wanted to give it a try. Because I deserve it, he deserves - and he seems to be so different. Whenever I'm alone with him, there's nothing to worry about. I'm appericiated for being there. We'll have our conversations, laugh like kids, hug like it's the last time we ever will and kiss with passion. There's just no place I'd rather be. He'll tell me he loves me and so many other things. Expecting he means every word he says to me. But some things that have been said and done make me wonder.. But still I won't always speak my mind that easily, I'm afraid to get hurt again. 

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Appericiation

I wonder if the things done out of love for someone, are actually seen by that special someone. I'm talking about the good things that are done by a person with a pure heart and a beautiful love-mindset. Whether it's the words that have been said and the actions that fit those words perfectly. Or the little things being done to make the other feel even more happier for a moment than they are themselves. Just to show that special someone they are being loved, that someone truly cares about them. Because it often seems to be all taken for granted.. What about the silent hugs that are shared, the smiley kisses, the comfort you find with eachother. The trust, honesty and respect as a solid fund.  A connection like that is more than enough.  Appericiation is all that's needed.

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Do what no one does, to have what no one has

Dedication