There Is A Skeleton Inside You

Horror, gore, and venting. You can call me Faun. My emotions are as non existent as my gender. (They/them)

[faithtrustandbonedust]

I feel like I’ve recently woken up from an awful nightmare state of existing and I’m so overwhelmed with everything I have to do to fix my life even tho I’ve been doing an okayish job with certain things. But even tho I finally feel like I’m in my own body and I don’t want to actively do it harm. I still want to run away. I still want to off myself. I have more direction. More connections. I feel real. But I still feel like shit. I still hate being alive. Why? Why am I finally conscious in my own body but I still want to die like this?

[faithtrustandbonedust]

I’m pretending like I’m not actively Suicidal but honestly I think I’m just more scared of the repressions if I fail and that’s why I haven’t acted on it

[faithtrustandbonedust]

*literally is having a bad anxiety attack and coming in and out of dissociative states at this moment right now*

Idk I just think I’m faking it and it would be annoying and manipulative to reach out to my friends or family for help

[faithtrustandbonedust]

Maybe they’re sick of me. Maybe they are closer to other people now. Maybe it’s all fine and I’m crazy. Whatever it is, it’s fine. I love them and I hope I’m just crazy and they’re just busy. But I’ve made new friends before. I’ve had cycles of best friends. I’ll be okay. I’m gonna be okay. Things are gonna get better. I’m gonna get better. It’s sad. I’m sad. But not always. Not forever.

[faithtrustandbonedust]

I feel really really bad! Like worse I’ve felt in a while which is insane bc I’ve been feeling p Not Good. But I don’t think anyone cares or wants to talk to me or about it! I think I’m ruining my life! I think I should stop trying!

[pencil331]

Mom i'm okay!

[atomic-chronoscaph]

The Lair of the White Worm (1988)

[midnightmurdershow]

From Beyond (1986) Directed by Stuart Gordon

[galleriegrotesque]

Olivier de Sagazan

Untitled Sculpture 5

Mixed media

51.2 inches

[galleriegrotesque]

Rembrandt

The Anatomy Lesson Of Dr. Deijman, 1656

Amsterdam Museum, Netherlands

Oil on canvas

100x134 cm

[dt75artblog]

// YOU CAN’T SEE ME

// BEHIND THE SCREEN

[kuutamosonaatti]

Well, no pajama party for you, Mr. Graham.

[cinemamind]

Faith Unholy Trinity Atari covers

[ex0skeletal-undead]

by Eugene Korolev

[therapture-deactivated20240927]

[atr-xx]

Lunatic Lovers // Shintaro Kago

[faithtrustandbonedust]

I just don’t think my best friend really likes me that much anymore :/ I think he’s a little actually mad/bitter I moved away from everyone but he’s happy with his new little group (that he does include me in) but I don’t think I really fit in with them anymore.