—the fiction that we’re living in, says i should pull the pin. should i just pull the pin ? should i just PULL THE PIN.
mcu - based winter soldier as programmed by ███ [𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃]
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—the fiction that we’re living in, says i should pull the pin. should i just pull the pin ? should i just PULL THE PIN.
mcu - based winter soldier as programmed by ███ [𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃]
Ị HỌPẸ THẸY CANNỌT ṢẸẸ THẸ LỊMỊTLẸṢṢ PỌTẸNTỊAL LỊVỊNG ỊNṢỊƊẸ ỌF MẸ… 𝑻 𝑶 𝑴 𝑼 𝑹 𝑫 𝑬 𝑹 𝑬 𝑽 𝑬 𝑹 𝒀 𝑻 𝑯 𝑰 𝑵 𝑮.
mcu - based winter soldier as programmed by ███ [𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃]
Ị HỌPẸ THẸY CANNỌT ṢẸẸ THẸ LỊMỊTLẸṢṢ PỌTẸNTỊAL LỊVỊNG ỊNṢỊƊẸ ỌF MẸ… 𝑻 𝑶 𝑴 𝑼 𝑹 𝑫 𝑬 𝑹 𝑬 𝑽 𝑬 𝑹 𝒀 𝑻 𝑯 𝑰 𝑵 𝑮.
mcu - based winter soldier as programmed by ███ [𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃]
Ị HỌPẸ THẸY CANNỌT ṢẸẸ THẸ LỊMỊTLẸṢṢ PỌTẸNTỊAL LỊVỊNG ỊNṢỊƊẸ ỌF MẸ… 𝑻 𝑶 𝑴 𝑼 𝑹 𝑫 𝑬 𝑹 𝑬 𝑽 𝑬 𝑹 𝒀 𝑻 𝑯 𝑰 𝑵 𝑮.
mcu - based winter soldier as programmed by ███ [𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃]
𝑪𝑼𝑻 𝑶𝑭𝑭 𝑶𝑵𝑬 𝑯𝑬𝑨𝑫… ░░▒𝙲𝙾𝙼𝙼𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙸𝙽𝙶▓▓𝙳𝙰𝚃𝙰▓▓𝚃𝚁𝙰𝙽𝚂𝙵𝙴𝚁▒░░ ( this blog has been archived.)
… 𝑻𝑾𝑶 𝑴𝑶𝑹𝑬 𝑺𝑯𝑨𝑳𝑳 𝑻𝑨𝑲𝑬 𝑰𝑻𝑺 𝑷𝑳𝑨𝑪𝑬.
𝑪𝑼𝑻 𝑶𝑭𝑭 𝑶𝑵𝑬 𝑯𝑬𝑨𝑫… ░░▒𝙲𝙾𝙼𝙼𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙸𝙽𝙶▓▓𝙳𝙰𝚃𝙰▓▓𝚃𝚁𝙰𝙽𝚂𝙵𝙴𝚁▒░░ ( this blog has been archived.)
… 𝑻𝑾𝑶 𝑴𝑶𝑹𝑬 𝑺𝑯𝑨𝑳𝑳 𝑻𝑨𝑲𝑬 𝑰𝑻𝑺 𝑷𝑳𝑨𝑪𝑬.
𝑪𝑼𝑻 𝑶𝑭𝑭 𝑶𝑵𝑬 𝑯𝑬𝑨𝑫... ░░▒𝙲𝙾𝙼𝙼𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙸𝙽𝙶▓▓𝙳𝙰𝚃𝙰▓▓𝚃𝚁𝙰𝙽𝚂𝙵𝙴𝚁▒░░ ( this blog has been archived.)
... 𝑻𝑾𝑶 𝑴𝑶𝑹𝑬 𝑺𝑯𝑨𝑳𝑳 𝑻𝑨𝑲𝑬 𝑰𝑻𝑺 𝑷𝑳𝑨𝑪𝑬.
𝐵𝐸𝐻𝐼𝑁𝐷 𝑇𝐻𝐸 𝑀𝐴𝑆𝐾 - - - ⁍ hullo tumblr fam. i hope all is going well for each and every one of you reading this and that life has been treating you favorably. ❀◕ ‿ ◕❀ i’ve been absent these last few months for a number of different reasons. without going into too much detail, for a while now i have been struggling with some really ugly mental issues that, as of late have started to have a noticeable impact on my physical health as well. the ugly combination has in turn impacted my ability and passion to write. that being said, the buck-ster is still alive and kickin’ in this brain o’ mine and i am not sure i am ready to let him go just yet. i’ve been considering this for a little while now and i think - after six years - it might be a good idea to finally start anew ! ( sorta / not really ) i think a reboot of my blog might help jumpstart my muse again. i know it will certainly delight my ( slightly obsessive ) need for organization.
fresh new blog with a new ( kickass ) theme. updated rules / verses and a restructuring of my tags - the whole shebang. i can even begin to rebuild my follower count, clear away some of the inactive blogs and start to once again make some meaningful connections with people / plot some new ideas. i hope a clean dash and a smaller follower count will help me become more active and more alive in the community again.
so that is kind of where i’m at, working on this transition. my ocd loves the idea of starting something fresh and clean, but that same ocd tendency is going to make the move all the more tedious and exhausting. o(*>ω<*)o i will not be dropping any of my current threads because i ADORE every single one of them ( && my partners ) far too much, so they will be carried over. once again, i just ask for some continued patience from all of you while i work on things. i would like to get everything updated and finished before officially moving over ( because if i don’t do it now, i will never finish it ) but once i’m all done, i will post a link to the new blog for all those still interested in following / writing with me.
it is important though that i emphasize that my lack of activity and communication has nothing to do with my love and appreciation for any of you. unfortunately, the constant exhaustion and mental fatigue makes many every day tasks all the more difficult to handle - even enjoyable activities. i am hoping this move helps to boost my muse and maybe even my mood. (^_^;) ok ! thanks for reading this. i’ll be re - posting this a few times while i work on things. please stay safe out there everyone ! xxo
𝐵𝐸𝐻𝐼𝑁𝐷 𝑇𝐻𝐸 𝑀𝐴𝑆𝐾 - - - ⁍ hullo tumblr fam. i hope all is going well for each and every one of you reading this and that life has been treating you favorably. ❀◕ ‿ ◕❀ i’ve been absent these last few months for a number of different reasons. without going into too much detail, for a while now i have been struggling with some really ugly mental issues that, as of late have started to have a noticeable impact on my physical health as well. the ugly combination has in turn impacted my ability and passion to write. that being said, the buck-ster is still alive and kickin’ in this brain o’ mine and i am not sure i am ready to let him go just yet. i’ve been considering this for a little while now and i think - after six years - it might be a good idea to finally start anew ! ( sorta / not really ) i think a reboot of my blog might help jumpstart my muse again. i know it will certainly delight my ( slightly obsessive ) need for organization.
fresh new blog with a new ( kickass ) theme. updated rules / verses and a restructuring of my tags - the whole shebang. i can even begin to rebuild my follower count, clear away some of the inactive blogs and start to once again make some meaningful connections with people / plot some new ideas. i hope a clean dash and a smaller follower count will help me become more active and more alive in the community again.
so that is kind of where i’m at, working on this transition. my ocd loves the idea of starting something fresh and clean, but that same ocd tendency is going to make the move all the more tedious and exhausting. o(*>ω<*)o i will not be dropping any of my current threads because i ADORE every single one of them ( && my partners ) far too much, so they will be carried over. once again, i just ask for some continued patience from all of you while i work on things. i would like to get everything updated and finished before officially moving over ( because if i don’t do it now, i will never finish it ) but once i’m all done, i will post a link to the new blog for all those still interested in following / writing with me.
it is important though that i emphasize that my lack of activity and communication has nothing to do with my love and appreciation for any of you. unfortunately, the constant exhaustion and mental fatigue makes many every day tasks all the more difficult to handle - even enjoyable activities. i am hoping this move helps to boost my muse and maybe even my mood. (^_^;) ok ! thanks for reading this. i’ll be re - posting this a few times while i work on things. please stay safe out there everyone ! xxo
𝐵𝐸𝐻𝐼𝑁𝐷 𝑇𝐻𝐸 𝑀𝐴𝑆𝐾 - - - ⁍ hullo tumblr fam. i hope all is going well for each and every one of you reading this and that life has been treating you favorably. ❀◕ ‿ ◕❀ i’ve been absent these last few months for a number of different reasons. without going into too much detail, for a while now i have been struggling with some really ugly mental issues that, as of late have started to have a noticeable impact on my physical health as well. the ugly combination has in turn impacted my ability and passion to write. that being said, the buck-ster is still alive and kickin’ in this brain o’ mine and i am not sure i am ready to let him go just yet. i’ve been considering this for a little while now and i think - after six years - it might be a good idea to finally start anew ! ( sorta / not really ) i think a reboot of my blog might help jumpstart my muse again. i know it will certainly delight my ( slightly obsessive ) need for organization.
fresh new blog with a new ( kickass ) theme. updated rules / verses and a restructuring of my tags - the whole shebang. i can even begin to rebuild my follower count, clear away some of the inactive blogs and start to once again make some meaningful connections with people / plot some new ideas. i hope a clean dash and a smaller follower count will help me become more active and more alive in the community again.
so that is kind of where i’m at, working on this transition. my ocd loves the idea of starting something fresh and clean, but that same ocd tendency is going to make the move all the more tedious and exhausting. o(*>ω<*)o i will not be dropping any of my current threads because i ADORE every single one of them ( && my partners ) far too much, so they will be carried over. once again, i just ask for some continued patience from all of you while i work on things. i would like to get everything updated and finished before officially moving over ( because if i don’t do it now, i will never finish it ) but once i’m all done, i will post a link to the new blog for all those still interested in following / writing with me.
it is important though that i emphasize that my lack of activity and communication has nothing to do with my love and appreciation for any of you. unfortunately, the constant exhaustion and mental fatigue makes many every day tasks all the more difficult to handle - even enjoyable activities. i am hoping this move helps to boost my muse and maybe even my mood. (^_^;) ok ! thanks for reading this. i’ll be re - posting this a few times while i work on things. please stay safe out there everyone ! xxo
𝐵𝐸𝐻𝐼𝑁𝐷 𝑇𝐻𝐸 𝑀𝐴𝑆𝐾 - - - ⁍ hullo tumblr fam. i hope all is going well for each and every one of you reading this and that life has been treating you favorably. ❀◕ ‿ ◕❀ i’ve been absent these last few months for a number of different reasons. without going into too much detail, for a while now i have been struggling with some really ugly mental issues that, as of late have started to have a noticeable impact on my physical health as well. the ugly combination has in turn impacted my ability and passion to write. that being said, the buck-ster is still alive and kickin’ in this brain o’ mine and i am not sure i am ready to let him go just yet. i’ve been considering this for a little while now and i think - after six years - it might be a good idea to finally start anew ! ( sorta / not really ) i think a reboot of my blog might help jumpstart my muse again. i know it will certainly delight my ( slightly obsessive ) need for organization.
fresh new blog with a new ( kickass ) theme. updated rules / verses and a restructuring of my tags - the whole shebang. i can even begin to rebuild my follower count, clear away some of the inactive blogs and start to once again make some meaningful connections with people / plot some new ideas. i hope a clean dash and a smaller follower count will help me become more active and more alive in the community again.
so that is kind of where i’m at, working on this transition. my ocd loves the idea of starting something fresh and clean, but that same ocd tendency is going to make the move all the more tedious and exhausting. o(*>ω<*)o i will not be dropping any of my current threads because i ADORE every single one of them ( && my partners ) far too much, so they will be carried over. once again, i just ask for some continued patience from all of you while i work on things. i would like to get everything updated and finished before officially moving over ( because if i don’t do it now, i will never finish it ) but once i’m all done, i will post a link to the new blog for all those still interested in following / writing with me.
it is important though that i emphasize that my lack of activity and communication has nothing to do with my love and appreciation for any of you. unfortunately, the constant exhaustion and mental fatigue makes many every day tasks all the more difficult to handle - even enjoyable activities. i am hoping this move helps to boost my muse and maybe even my mood. (^_^;) ok ! thanks for reading this. i’ll be re - posting this a few times while i work on things. please stay safe out there everyone ! xxo
SEBASTIAN STAN in THE FALCON and THE WINTER SOLDIER
Daisy Johnson Appreciation Week ● Day 3 ➼ Emotion(s): Contentment (a state of happiness and satisfaction)
“ hope is dangerous. ”
misc. / @fallencomrade
feet shuffle in the darkness and there’s something akin to holding up five hundred pounds on his shoulders (as if he were sickly and frail yet again) in the way he shrugs. for every day he moves toward the future, it’s another weight to add onto the metaphorical boulder he’s carrying up the hill, or perhaps it’s the howling voices in his head that don’t know how to quiet. remember when you failed him? your brother. your family.. you failed him. it’s not the first time he’s been reminded, and he knows, just as much, that it won’t be the last, either. teeth grind together as the muscles in his jaw work, clenching, cowl held between two hands as he stares down at the white ‘A’ painted across the forehead.
times have changed, he’s certainly aware of that. some things haven’t, such as the way the world loves him, the man who holds the shield and upholds the preach of justice and freedom. it’s everything he continually fights for–– everything he hopes that the world could achieve one day (he knows, in the back of his head, that it won’t ever turn out that way). he hopes there will be more people like him some day, stepping up onto the stage to be recognized for who they are instead of a label.
“ hope keeps us alive, buck. ” or so he thinks he knows what he’s talking about. ever since becoming captain america–– not the clown punching a fake hitler on stage over a hundred times–– he’s had to pick up the motivational speeches. to a degree, he never quite wanted to be a leader, but it comes naturally, so it’s what he does. step into the shoes of a man, rogers. the people look at him as the hero, and there are days he’s not sure who they’re talking about. (he knows they glorify captain america, not the man behind the shield.) “ without hope, people can’t survive. they’ll give up. and once you give up… ” voice low, he trails off, thoughts rushing around in his mind. who am i? what am i worth? he puts the cowl on, straps it, and stands up. “ let’s just say that it doesn’t end happily ever after. ”
𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐈𝐄𝐑 𝐈𝐒 𝐔𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐎 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐒. hydra had relied on many different techniques in order to regulate ( restrict / CONTROL ) their asset’s movements. it does not surprise him that shield ( or whoever they are now ) utilizes the same methods. two sides of the same coin, pierce had always surmised through wry lips. around each wrist and both ankles, he is bound by high - tech military restraints. the shackles continue - traversing up his forearms, snaked around his calves and securing him in place, a large magnetized metal tether looped around his torso. even his chair is bolted to the floor. his arm has been decommissioned for the time being by some kind of device they tacked onto his forearm. whatever it is, it is sending a continuous electrical signal up and down each transmitter, short - circuiting the cybernetic. it does not hurt - or, if it does, the asset does not register the pain. all his mind acknowledges is the DEAD WEIGHT pulling on his left shoulder, and an inability to move metal fingers.
some might take in the sight and call it OVERKILL. egregious. unnecessary. he has barely moved an inch while in their captivity, but the soldier commends their caution. PARASITES GROW IN BETWEEN THE CRACKS OF CARELESSNESS. that is how hydra took root ;; that is how they thrived. with the ashes of their mistakes still chalky in their mouths, it seemed shield was finally learning from their mistakes. they are smart to take such precautions. his body, his mind - both are AUTOMATED now more than anything else. his default, his instinct, his impulse, his nature is VIOLENCE. it is his natural state - regardless of want, desire, opinion, choice or motivation ... HE IS A GUN AND VIOLENCE IS ALL HE KNOWS.
the captain keeps coming back ... to talk. he tries to make conversation with the soldier, tries to get him to talk as well - which was baffling at first. 🇼🇪🇦🇵🇴🇳🇸 🇩🇴 🇳🇴🇹 🇭🇦🇻🇪 🇴🇵🇮🇳🇮🇴🇳🇸. 🇼🇪🇦🇵🇴🇳🇸 🇩🇴 🇳🇴🇹 🇲🇦🇰🇪 🇦 🇸🇴🇺🇳🇩 🇺🇳🇱🇪🇸🇸 🇫🇮🇷🇪🇩. his old handlers did not like it when he spoke. pierce did not like it when he used his voice, but steve rogers seems almost desperate for it. ocean blue eyes piercing - searching, HOPING - to find JAMES BUCHANAN BARNES ? the man whose face he wore as a mask ... so far, he believes he has left the captain disappointed, although his efforts have not been completely futile. the asset cannot deny the stirrings of DEAD MEMORIES, kicked up like dust around devastation. the whispers of ghosts slipping through the cracks of his programming. sentiment - its bearer long gone but the echo still carrying. the remnant of james barnes still exists within this body ;; within this mind ... but it still does not make him james barnes.
the captain remains so hopeful. despite the exhaustion aging his face, the heartbreak && anguish decaying the shine in his eyes - he continues to HOPE. && the asset knows, somehow he just knows - the dumb fool will continue to hope until it DESTROYS him.
𝐇𝐎𝐏𝐄 𝐈𝐒 𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐒.
it is a WARNING. ( it is a plea )
—— 𝘛𝘏𝘐𝘚 𝘞𝘐𝘓𝘓 𝘒𝘐𝘓𝘓 𝘠𝘖𝘜 𝘚𝘛𝘌𝘝𝘌 𝘙𝘖𝘎𝘌𝘙𝘚.
𝐇𝐎𝐏𝐄 𝐊𝐄𝐄𝐏𝐒 𝐔𝐒 𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐕𝐄.
the one he calls buck stares back with eyes, empty && bleak. — how he knows. oh, but how he knows.
❛ for a while. ❜ he draws back. flat. emotionless. the soldier does not know, but the remnant piece of james barnes does. hope is what kept him alive ... for years.
IT IS ALSO THE THING THAT DESTROYED HIM.
the memories ... float close to the surface - and the soldier pushes them away. for a brief moment though, a flicker of grief - of great SORROW flashes in the void of his eyes, but it is quickly doused. he blinks it away and settles back into inertia.
❛ is that what keeps you alive, captain ? ❜ he asks, head tilting slightly, eyes blank and voice devoid of any emotion. ❛ HOPE ? ❜
𝘊𝘏𝘈𝘙𝘈𝘊𝘛𝘌𝘙 𝘚𝘛𝘜𝘋𝘠 - 𝘗𝘙𝘌𝘍𝘌𝘙𝘌𝘕𝘊𝘌𝘚
𝖩𝖠𝖬𝖤𝖲 𝖡𝖴𝖢𝖧𝖠𝖭𝖠𝖭 𝖡𝖠𝖱𝖭𝖤𝖲. 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦 : 𝗋𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝗂𝗌 𝗌𝗁𝗈𝗐𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗈𝗇 𝗆𝗒 𝖺𝗋𝗆𝗈𝗋 ( current - day )
COFFEE or tea
early bird or night owl INSOMNIAC
CHOCOLATE or vanilla
SPRING or fall
silver or GOLD
pop or ALTERNATIVE
FRECKLES or dimples
snakes or sharks ( no preference )
mountains or FIELDS ( traumatic )
THUNDERSTORM or lightning ( traumatic )
EGYPTIAN or greek mythology
IVORY or scarlet
FLUTE or lyre
opal or DIAMOND
BUTTERFLIES or honeybees
macarons or ECLAIRS
typewritten or HANDWRITTEN
SECRET GARDEN or secret library
ROOFTOP or balcony
SPICY or mild
opera or ballet neither - negative associations with both.
london or PARIS
vincent van gogh or CLAUDE MONET
denim or LEATHER
potions or spells ( no preference )
OCEAN or desert
MERMAIDS or sirens
MASQUERADE BALL or cocktail party
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Emily Dickinson, The Complete Poems of Emily Dickinson