Fallsed

only love and death change all things wattpad : ascxlla

[fallsed]

You don’t care about me anymore, maybe you never did, but now you care for her in the same way and It makes my chest burn because I know we could have been the lightness that sleeps in you every night. You said I made you happy how does that go away how can you so easily bury our potential in somebody else’s heart how can you so easily disregard me like something that didn’t once keep that stupid crooked smile on your face

maybe im drunk and this reads like the rough edges of the boy who wont let me sleep

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When he looks at me now, it’s like he doesn’t even see me. He’s forgotten my head on his chest, arms around his waist, the beating of his heart as we crossed invisible, irreversible lines. I’m a stranger to him now, and that hurts way more than screaming and swearing and locking doors.

please miss me like i miss you 

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I never thought you liked your girls placid. I’m sorry I burn instead of freezing.

never what anyone wants

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I don't want to feel anything, anymore.

please steal my feelings from me

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The highs only make the lows hurt more

miss the abscence of feelings

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does his love make your head spin?

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i thought you loved me too

why not me 

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Requited love, my dear, isn't meant for people like us.

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This love wasn't ever ours.

timing, my darling.

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“I just never thought it would hurt this much to be without him, you know?” She was crying in the fictitious way movie-stars do, the single-mascara-stained-tear blue-eyes kind of way. “Never thought I’d be that girl- the one who depends and victimises and I don’t know, fucking loves.”

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I miss the emotion, I guess. I miss him tearing me apart and putting me back together again. I miss the highs, the lows, his hands, his eyes, those stupid black t-shirts. The socks with holes in, the heart with holes in. That most of all, probably- the dysfunctionality. Only bad things make you feel this vigorously.

beat me to the ground

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Earth boy,

are you hurting like I am?

Or has this just been one summer long delusion?

I wouldn't mind , but earth boy the leaves are starting to change

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How many times am I going to let you hurt me?

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There has to be some fucking nobility in being always being the one who cares more.

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I'm glad that you found something in her that you couldn't find in me.

im not hurt im not hurt im not hurt

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and i think i actually felt my heart crack; seeing you looking at her that way.

- for such a pathetic nihilist im pretty optimistic when it comes to tall boys with nice hands.

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I think part of recovery is realising that if someone never cared they probably never will. And it's not your demons causing this, it's theirs.

you never even visited me in hospital. your fault, not mine.