Live in a hurricane

* 29y/f bi from Finland *

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Depression keeps me eating myself alive. Crying almost every day and night.

[pleaseletmedeletethisblog]

[elegyforadream]

[everybody-wants-me-dead]

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S-ketamine

Experience was awesome with one of my favorite people in this world.  We took about 50mg dose. It was my first time and amount was pretty good.  We had so much fun. Maybe some day again. 

[hotkniferuwu]

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Started take some Voxra again. Feelin' bit better, but still lonely and depressed.

[bluepuffinessbeneathereyes]

[elegyforadream]

[rizvynavin]

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Last time to go see my psychologist. Sad moment, because I just started to realize some things and become attached to talk with her.

Still working on things and my life. I start going to work next month. When I'm not feeling great, I can only talk to my friends. And that can be very hard because not everyone understands how I feel right now.

[honigimohr]

“Only you can save yourself, and that’s the hardest part.”

— makivelii, Learning  (via wordsnquotes)

[dxchne]

yeah heartbreaks hurts but have you ever binged on a food you were looking forward to and it just tasted sad and disappointing and all you’re left with is feeling like a overblown whale

[thoughtkick]

“I still catch myself feeling sad about things that don’t matter anymore.”

— Kurt Vonnegut

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Mental breakdown

Nothing helps. Now using cannabis, alcohol and amphetamine if get it somewhere. > Still living <

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Almost cried all this day. Feel so dumb and lonely. Nothing goes like I wanted. Don't know is this my thoughts or this new medicine trying. Feel free to dm if you have same experiences with this.

- weird thoughts

- dry mouth

- odd and sometimes so real dreams (really not like most of them)

[elegyforadream]