(my very random diary entry from back in the days when i was struggling with void and shit)
"i am human, and that is magic. not the loa, not the this and that, but me. i am magic. magic happens within me and around me because i make it happen. and i let it. limits don't exist within me because they're not magical, but i am. i am magical. and there's no limit for the magic. my magic. void isn't magical, i am. i am the magic void needs, without me, it is nothing. and it will remain so until my mind plays with it. everything i touch, think, and every get involved with, in any sort of way it magical in the duration of my involvement with it. otherwise, it is nothing. void is nothing. that's why they call it that way. but when i get involved, it is magical, cause it has all my magic now. and that is the only way void can be something and truly, everything, for me. just for me. cause it is my void then. but until and unless i give it my energy or thought, it is nothing. nothing special. but i am. and even if i don't enter the void, my magic will always make moves to work things out for me. void is a blank canvas but so is my reality. and if i do what i do with void, my reality, too will bend to my will. because i am the magic these empty spaces and blank canvases need. anything is a blank canvas, and i can do my magic however i want and however i like. i can have it all because i have the potential, not people something or some entity "lets me", i let myself. no one "lets me in" the void, i enter. nothing's stopping me, but also nothing's feeding me, because although human, i am still the operant creator of my reality. and what a better creator than the one with magic. so, everything is up to my will and it will have to hold up to my vision, assumptions and desires. void ain't shit, i am."
instead of struggling with void and if you can't get your act right with it and bitch and moan about it. just affirm and shit. commit to something else. this is still your reality. shift, void, or just assume, it's still a way. void is your canvas but so is the world you live in, do whatever works for you and makes you at easy and doesn't make you feel like shit. be relentless about your desires and go after them like it's a war and it's your birthright, which it is. and the life you create for yourself will always be your country. be patriotic. stand firm in your beliefs about what your reality should be and your desires that you can't put down, and you shouldn't btw. do you and fuck it all.