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warnings: mature/explicit angst (!), 18+ (minors dni!), hate, incest, otto c'nt tower, chrispin orange and men too hot to handle. aegon is just a drunken fool (clearly not supporting the shit that is going on in the series).
authors note: this is first chapter of the madness series. i‘m also updating on wattpad (maybe even faster on it than here) let me know what you think :)
word count: 2.3k
It was the mid 116 AC, when a scream echoed through the halls of the realm. A day when the sun shone brighter than ever. The air shimmered with heat as Rhaenyra struggled to control her breathing. Hours of labor had brought her to the edge of her strength, and the strain was clearly visible on her sweat-soaked face.
"You have to let us help princess," she heard the midwives pleading, their voices echoing through the hot, stuffy room.
Every moment seemed like an eternity as she desperately wanted to push the baby out of her exhausted body. Pain after pain. Hours after hours.
She paced the room in the crumbling heat. She could no longer lie in bed. The midwives rushed after her, their foreheads furrowed with worry.
Rhaenyra clutched at her hair in desperation. "Where is Leanor?" Her voice cracked with tension. She was on the verge of tears. The midwives looked at each other in despair. "Someone find me my husband. The least he can do is to be with me while I give birth to his child."
The midwives exchanged helpless glances. "The guards have looked everywhere, Princess. It seems he's gone with Jacaerys to get a dragon egg."
A deep sigh escaped Rhaenyra's lips.
She stood still with her hands behind her back. The pressure on her shoulders and the persistent tension in her limbs became unbearable due to the oppressive heat. It was too warm. Far too warm. The piercing sunshine and the stuffy air seemed to take her breath away as the heat washed over her in waves. Beads of sweat formed on her forehead and ran down her neck in small rivulets.
The surrounding midwives noticed her condition and tried to give her some relief with cloths and fans. But the mild gusts of wind seemed to have little effect.
Suddenly, Rhaenyra felt her strength waning. A feeling of weakness spread through her body, as if her energy was being sucked out of her.
She had to support herself somehow. Anywhere.
Her head spun and the environment around her became blurred and distorted. Colors and shapes blurred, and she felt like she was standing on a rocking boat. Her heartbeat quickened, but her limbs felt heavy and immobile. The pain that flickered through her back like burning flames threatened to overwhelm her. She fought the feeling of powerlessness, remembering the calm birth of her first child, Jacaerys. But this time was different, and the fear for her baby and the absence of her husband made the situation unbearable.
The world around her began to spin, faster and faster, until she could barely distinguish between heaven and earth. The sounds turned into a distant murmur and her vision was obscured by a billowing veil. Before Rhaenyra could collapse, the midwives grabbed her and pushed her onto the bed. She allowed herself to be pushed onto the bed without much effort, completely dazed by the pain. As they placed Rhaenyra on the bed, she felt the mattress beneath her, already marked by the contractions. Sticky and sweaty.
The heat rising inside her seemed to penetrate every fiber of her body, while sweat dripped from every pore. She felt like she was suffocating on the bed, unable to breathe. She couldn't stay on the bed. "I can't," she whispered, her breathing uneven and hoarse. The sweaty sheets clung to her body, another obstacle in her desperate attempt to sit up. "I have to get up," she stammered, her voice barely louder than a whisper.
With every movement, she felt the pain in her abdomen intensify, a throbbing, unrelenting ache that almost overwhelmed her. Every breath was agony, the heat and the narrowness of the room made her gasp. Her hands clutched the edge of the bed, her fingers clawing into the fabric as she tried to pull herself up with all her might.
Sweat was pouring down her face, her nightdress was soaked and sticking uncomfortably to her skin. It was as if the air around her had become thicker, harder to breathe. But before she could sit up, she felt the midwives' hands pushing her back onto the bed. "It's time," they said quietly but unmistakably. "You need to push." Their words permeated the room.
Rhaenyra gathered the last of her strength and began to push. Every muscle in her body tensed, she could feel her vision blurry again. The pain was intense, overwhelming, as if her body was urging her to push. Her breathing was erratic. No matter how hard she tried to regulate her breathing, the unbearable pain prevented her from doing so. With each breath, the urge to push intensified, pulsed relentlessly inside her.
She started pushing.
How long was it? Minutes? Hours? She didn't knew how long she was pushing. She lost all sense of time. Her body seemed to float in a state of rapt surrender, enveloped by the damp, sweat-soaked sheets of the bed. Hours passed into minutes as she surrendered to the incessant rhythm of the contractions. Her world was reduced to the pulsing intensity of her own being, every feeling, every sensation amplified by the veil of trance that surrounded her.
"Keep breething." The midwife said. Rhaenyra tried to control her breathing. She was at the end of her rope after hours of labor.
"And push." She pushed. She pushed with all her strength for as long she could.
"I c... I can't." She could only gasp in pain. Her head fell back on the pillow. She had no more strength. She just wanted to close her eyes and rest.
"And again." She had tears in her eyes. "Push."
"The head." She cried with joy, it was almost over. Soon she would hold her baby in her arms. She pulled herself together and pushed again as hard as she could. Pushed and pushed.
"Just a little bit more. It's almost done."
With one last strong push and a cry of relief, her child was born. Suddenly a cry filled the room. No, it wasn't hers, but that of a child that had finally been born. The tension fell away from her and a wave of relief washed over her. The heat, the sweat, the pain all faded in the face of the miracle she had just performed. Rhaenyra sank back exhausted, her eyes filled with tears.
The midwife cut the umbilical cord in one swift motion, causing the baby to start crying, which also made Rhaenyra sniffle, as she just wanted to hold her second-born. "It's a girl, Princess," the midwife announced to the princess, who just wanted to hold her child in her arms.
It was over. Her daughter was here. Here by her.
"Praise mother," echoed through the room, but Rhaenyra just wanted to hold her child. She wanted her baby in her arms. Wanted to inhale her scent, look at her little face and kiss her till her lips were cracked. She just wanted her baby.
"Healthy?" Rhaenyra asked anxiously. Not hearing the cries of her baby anymore. Was she healthy? Why did she not cry anymore? She could feel the tears welling up in her arms.
No. No. This couldn't be happening.
"Kicking like a goat," the midwife replied with a smile, and Rhaenyra breathed a sigh of relief. She closed her eyes for a moment and smiled.
As the midwifes tended her daughter she could not take her eyes off them. She had been cleaned and the sheets on her bed had been changed, and all the while she had never taken her eyes off the women. She was afraid that something would happen to her little baby, that she would disappear if she looked away for just a minute.
"Bring her to me. I want to hold my daughter," Rhaenyra pleaded desperately, reaching out longingly for the bundle that held her daughter. Finally, the midwife seemed to take pity on her and walked over to the bed, handing the baby to Rhaenyra. As Rhaenyra held her delicate body in her arms, she could not hold back the tears anymore.
She would never tire of looking at her daughter, so tiny and perfect. Most women wanted a son, a heir, but Rhaenyra could not think of anyone more perfect than her daughter. "My beautiful baby girl," Rhaenyra whispered to her newborn, tears dropping out of her eyes. The baby's cries were heard and then Laenor came into the room, "It's a girl!" Rhaenyra burst out. She had always wanted a girl. Since she was a little girl begging her mother for a sister.
"She looks so much like you, Princess. A true reflection of her mother," the midwife remarked sympathetically, and Rhaenyra could only smile in agreement.
Her daughter was undoubtedly the spitting image of herself. The few blonde hairs on her head gave it away. She had Rhaenyra's features, like the same nose and eye shape. It was like looking in a mirror. But when she opened her eyes for a few seconds, she saw a glimpse of brown. Brown like the eyes of her firstborn Jacaerys.
Brown like the eyes of her true father.
"She looks just like you." Leanor whispered to his wife and a smile formed on her lips. Looking down on their sleeping daughter she told: "I think that she has your lips." Leanor smiled at her knowing the truth but nevertheless saying silent. Eventough he knew that he did not share the same blood with the new born girl in her arms, he knew he would love her more than everything on this world. Like he also did with Jacaerys, and Rhaenyra knew she was more than grateful for him. For everything he did.
Rhaenyra gently stroked her daughter's tender cheek, as gently as if she feared to hurt her. She was so small, even smaller than her firstborn. So small and fragile. So fragile she thought she could break her. But also so beautiful. The most beautiful baby Rhaenyra had ever seen.
"What would you like to call her?" came the midwife's question. Rhaenyra turned with difficulty to look into her husband's exhausted eyes. A soft smile stole to her lips. Laenor looked at her questioningly. "I think you should be the one to decide. After all you've been through," he whispered affectionately.
"Aelyn. She should be called Aelyn. Aelyn Valeryon," Rhaenyra said her voice weak, and a deep silence filled the room as she lowered her gaze tenderly to her little daughter.
"Aelyn Valeryon. Like a true dragon," Laenor murmured, nodding in agreement, giving his wife a smile.
Rhaenyra placed a kiss on her daughter's head as she slept, Rhaenyra slowly moving her child to her husband for Laenor to hold, he hold her and began to rock her back and forth, planting a kiss on her forehead. "My little dragon."
"Was it very bad? How are you?" She heard Laenor's voice as she closed her eyes just for a moment. The tiredness came over her out of nowhere. "Hm.. I think I called the midwife a cunt." She grinned with her eyes closed and Laenor also couldn't help to smile.
When the door opened and uncertain footsteps approached, she immediately recognized who it was. The unsteady footsteps, more like the waddling, left no doubt - it could only be Jacaerys. Her son. A smile crept across her lips as she felt his presence. "I think someone wants to meet his sister," she remarked quietly as she looked away from her daughter to see her three-year-old son standing beside her. Laenor gave his daughter back in the arms of her mother.
His eyes lit up with curiosity as he asked, "Mommy, can I see her?" She gently moved the blanket around her daughters face away to accommodate his request. "This is your sister Aelyn." It was as if nothing in the world could make ever her happier than the look on her son's face as he saw his sibling for the first time - so full of love. Her eyes filled again with tears. "She is so tiny."
Jacaerys reached out carefully, as if afraid to wake his little sister. With gentle fingers, he stroked her tender cheek, a loving smile on his lips. "I have chosen the most beautiful dragon egg for her," he whispered, bearly to hear. "Her dragon will be the most beautiful that has ever existed. Even more beautiful than mine."
His mother smiled warmly and placed a hand on his mop of brown hair. "I believe you, my boy," she said gently, stroking his hair lovingly.
"And when she's big and strong like me, we'll ride our dragons together." Jacaerys' eyes lit up with joy and both his parents smiled at him.
Jacaerys looked at his sleeping sister for a moment. "But when will she wake up? She is just sleeping." He asked his mother. Rhaenyra chuckeld. "She has to sleep so she can grow. You also did just sleep in the first few weeks." Jacaerys eyes got big. "A few weeks?" He groaned. He couldn't wait that long. He'd had to wait so long for her to finally be here and now she just wanted to sleep.
Jacaerys looked back at his little sister. His hand gently stroked the little hair that grew on her head. Blonde. The color of his mother's hair. The hair color he wouldn't have - could never have.
And so he sat next to her crib, looking at her delicate face and her little hands that sometimes reached for him, knowing that he would do anything to keep her happy and safe. No matter what, she was his little sister, and he was her brother. Her protector. And that was all that mattered.
Jacaerys leaned down to his little sister and whispered in her ear, so that only she could hear: "Grow up quickly so that we can play together."
“I? What have I done but what was expected of me? Forever upholding the kingdom, the family, the law. While you flout all to do as you please. Where is duty? Where is sacrifice?”
“All my life, I’ve endeavored to serve both my house and the realm. And somehow none of it matters.”
summary: Yuta shows up to his new school with a single goal in mind: stay under the radar. Only he lands in the direct path of the school's outcast- you, with your hemp cigarettes and permanent scowl. An unlikely friendship, dark pasts, and sweet nothings.
warnings: mature topics, TRIGGER WARNING: dissociation, description of self-harm, suicide
pairings : yuta x fem!reader (as teenagers and adults)
contents: slow burn, hurt/comfort, time jumps, no curse au, not canon, reader has piercings/tattoos/dyed hair (mentioned), aged-up in next part
wc: ~7k
“You’re in my seat.”
So much for laying low, Yuta thinks, which he has been successful in accomplishing up until this moment. He raises his head to see your steely gaze threatening to tear him to pieces and his mouth goes dry. He's too startled to get a proper look at you, but he immediately notices your septum piercing and the dark kohl lining your eyes.
“Oh, sorry!” he says lamely. He scrambles clumsily to his feet and resultantly knocks his binder to the floor. You're staring daggers at him as you lower yourself into your unassigned-assigned seat, and he bends to retrieve the fallen binder with shaking hands.
The desks in the classroom are arranged in pairs, most of which were already filled by a body or a backpack when Yuta walked in several minutes ago. Upon a quick survey, he sees that the only remaining option is the desk to your left, and something tells him there's a reason why it otherwise sits empty. He smiles at you nervously in hopes to dull the tension, but you've already looked away to pull a pair of headphones and a book from your dark green tote bag.
It's his third attempt at his first day of upper secondary school, and Yuta has already decided that there will not be a fourth. In his head, he'll joke that three schools in six months is probably some kind of record, but the reality is that it's embarrassing. His introversion and awkward nature already make socializing difficult for him, so his new plan to avoid it altogether. The two vices have only increased in intensity since leaving primary school, but he's grown accustomed to being alone.
It's normal to him, to lay awake into the early hours of the morning as the knife of loneliness cuts through him and twists savagely. It's normal, he thinks, to daydream about having tons of friends who sling their arms around his shoulders at parties as they hand him a red cup made of plastic. Everyone eats their lunch by themselves outside on the sidewalk...every day. Even if he is aware of the truth deep down, it's much easier to cloud his conscious mind and live as though he's not really there. As though he is an observer of his own body, watching the movie that is his life from above.
But you looked right at him and ripped him from that daydream he so desperately clings to without awareness. Before he can put his head down and lull himself back to safety, the tardy bell rings, and the cacophony of students' conversations quiets as the teacher commences roll call.
Yuta is painfully aware of when she goes straight from Ogawa to Ryu, skipping right over his own last name. His pulse jumps- he knows what's coming, and regardless of how many schools he's been in and out of, he always hates this part. No one really cares to know him, but he obliges to limit the awkwardness and speed up the exchange.
"Please welcome your newest classmate," the teacher says, gesturing toward him with a smile. "Yuta Okkotsu, stand up, please."
But he's already standing, so he waves awkwardly as every head in the classroom turns in his direction. Except for you, whose eyes remain trained directly on the book in your hands, and Yuta swears he hears you tsk under your breath. "Please call me Yuta."
There is a unified murmur of empty welcomes and the teacher allows him to retake his seat. Yuta eyes dart around the room, doing everything he can to avoid pissing you off further. He catches sight of the perfectly painted black polish on your nails and pauses at a nasty looking scar stretching across your knuckles. Otherwise perfect hands marred by silvery tissue knitted over bone. You catch him trying to read the title printed on the cover of your book and you scowl, placing your tote on top of the table to block his view.
Yuta sighs as he opens his binder. He wonders briefly if the next six months will be like this, every day spent a few inches away from someone who despises him. It's not his fault if there aren't any other open desks, but somehow guilt riddles him anyway.
The next several hours pass without incident, and Yuta is shocked to see that you've done nothing but read for the entire class. The teacher seems to ignore you largely, even skipping over you when she goes around the room with handouts. You've said nothing more to him, so Yuta adopts the attitude that everyone else seemingly exhibits toward you.
There's a tap on his shoulder, startling him, and Yuta flinches as he turns around to glimpse the assailant.
"Sorry," says a boy with pinkish dyed hair. "Do you have a pencil I can borrow?"
Yuta waits for the jests and laughter to follow, but it doesn't come. The boy holds his stare until Yuta realizes he isn't being cheeky, and stutters out a reply. "Yeah, hold on."
It's already a few minutes before lunch and this guy is just now asking for a pencil?, Yuta thinks to himself. But he doesn't voice the thought, only twisting to hold out the utensil as the boy smiles. "Thanks, uh..Yuki?"
"Yuta," he corrects gently. The boy laughs nervously as he rubs the back of his neck.
"Right, sorry. I'm Yuji, just so you know. Thanks for the pencil."
Yuta nods, but as he turns around he struggles not to cringe visibly. Everything about the exchange makes him want to crawl into a hole and die. He curses himself for the ineptitude of his social skills as the teacher wraps up the rest of her lesson.
The second that everyone is dismissed for their lunch break, you're on your feet and tearing out of the room without a word. You are distractingly strange, from the piercing in your nose to the odd scar painting your hand. As he pulls last night's leftovers of kimchi stir-fry from his bag, Yuta's wondering where you've gone in such a desperate hurry. He doesn't notice Yuji standing beside him until the other boy drops something on his desk unceremoniously.
"Here," Yuji says cheerfully. "For giving me your pencil."
Yuta pauses to take in the packaged sweet bun that now graciously sits before him. He looks up at his classmate as though the kid is God himself.
Yuji gestures at the seat beside him. "She's scary, right?" he says. "I'm surprised she let you sit with her."
Yuta lets out a breathy nervous laugh. "Yeah, I don't think she likes me very much."
Yuji's leans in, straight-faced as he holds eye intense contact with Yuta. "Nah, she doesn't talk, like, ever. Ever ever."
There is an uncomfortable pause until Yuji suddenly pulls back and smiles. "You seem like a cool guy, so don't let someone like her get your mind twisted. Where are you from?"
Yuta decides he likes this Yuji kid very quickly. Since the seat next to him is yours, Yuji stays upright to chat while Yuta picks at his lunch. Before he knows it, Yuta has spent the entire break period talking (mostly listening), until the bell rings and snaps him out of the conversation. His heart is pounding, but he can't deny that it was a nice chat.
You, on the other hand, slide back into your seat two seconds before the tardy bell goes off. He considers asking you where you went, but his thoughts get interrupted when he sees you pull a pen and an actual notebook out of your bag. The lesson after lunch is biology, which is one that Yuta doesn't care much about, but you seem to be perking right up as you date a blank page.
The end of the day arrives at last, but the teacher has apparently decided that the torture of an eight-hour span of learning is not enough. Before dismissing the class, she announces a quarter-long group project that "is to be completed with your tablemate".
Yuta feels like he's been dipped in acid the way his body tenses uncomfortably. Anxiety deprives his mind of words, but fuck, he has to ask you because it's worth 30% percent of his final grade. And he's trying to be a better student, a better person, blah blah blah. So he follows you as you sprint out the door, unwilling to back down.
He opens his mouth to call out your name only to realize that he doesn't know it. You had given no introduction, not acknowledging him or anyone else the entire day. In the haze of his desperation, Yuta thrusts his hand out and wraps his hand tightly around your forearm.
You flinch and gasp loudly as you whirl around to face him, eyes wide with panic. Upon realizing it was him, your shock turns to irritation with a nasty scowl. "What?" you snap. "What the fuck, let me go!"
He loosens his grip and drops his arm to by his side, highly aware that you just screamed "let me go" at him in a crowded hallway. However, no one seems to be paying attention to either one of you in their hurry to escape.
"Don't run," he says firmly.
You're gripping where he'd grabbed you with your other hand. "That fucking hurt, you asshole."
He ignores you, even if he does feel a little bad for grabbing you as hard as he did. "We need to figure out our project stuff."
You laugh, sharp and humorless laugh right in his face. "I'm not doing that shit."
It's not often that Yuta gets angry, but he can't help but to feel irritated by your flighty attitude. He had come to this school for a fresh start with a plan to do well and keep to himself. He, of all people, understands the hatred of group projects, but you still have to do them. He wants to argue with you and remind you that it's not just your grade at stake, but he knows that it's useless. You're already halfway down the hall, and he knows that you aren't going to look back.
***
Yuta walks into the classroom with a set jaw and squared shoulders. There are exactly two days left until the deadline to submit the first draft of the project. True to your word, you have contributed absolutely nothing and have not offered to help once. And Yuta can't stop putting it off any chance he gets because at heart, he is a procrastinator, and it's complete bullshit that you get to blow it off without consequence.
So, he is on a mission, channeling every ounce of confidence that he's capable of producing. He's crafted his approach very diligently; he's going to demand that you participate in this project. No stuttering, no softness, no taking "no" for an answer. The shred of confidence he's got holds true as you walk through the door with your head already buried in a book.
You're late, as usual, and Yuta finds himself wondering how you haven't been kicked out of the school with your observably poor attendance record. He's come into this expecting to be shot down, or for you to yell at him or maybe slap him with one of your hardcover novels. He does not expect the simple and submissive "okay" that escapes your parted lips.
Yuta blinks at you. "Okay?"
You shrug, closing your book after marking your place with a sticky note. You're looking at him head-on with no trace of evidence that you might be messing with him. "If I say no, you'll probably cry, and I don't want that on my conscience."
A part of him screams that he should argue against such a statement, but the surprise at your cooperation overshadows the usual bite of your disrespect. Yuta relaxes visibly as he launches into phase two of his mission: organizing the project.
He explains, "Well, the first draft is due in two days, so we should work on it as soon as possible," noticing how you frown at the end of his sentence. "What?"
"You haven't even started?" you say dubiously, drawing your brows together.
Yuta's jaw drops. How are you going to turn this around on him when you insisted you weren't going to help in the first place? But as usual, he holds his tongue and replaces the quip with the first words that come to mind. "Well, I- I've been busy and I'm not good at science-"
As is typical of you, you interrupt him mid-sentence once again. "One: you're a terrible partner, and two: how can you be bad at science? Literally all you have to do is read." You sigh sharply and pinch the bridge of your nose. "It seems you really do need my help."
If tolerating your backward insults was what he had to do to get you to help, then so be it. Your jests were something he was growing used to, anyway.
"When should I come over then?" you ask nonchalantly.
A normal teenaged boy would be doing somersaults at the prospect of having a girl ask to go to his house, but Yuta can only feel his anxiety soar as he grimaces. Every millisecond seems to last a full minute as he tries to think of answer. He hadn't thought about the fact that he was going to have to see you outside of school.
You can't come to his house, not with the state of it right now. Yuta would rather die than you lay eyes on his place. The lamest excuse tumbles out of his mouth. "Oh, my mom doesn't let me have-"
"God, fine," you groan, rolling your eyes. "You can just come to my house after school, I guess."
Yuta blanches. "Today?"
You glare at him, and he raises his hands defensively.
"You said "as soon as possible"," you spit matter-of-factly.
"No, no, it's fine," he says quickly. "Thank you."
He's never been to a girl's house before under any circumstances. He's nervous, no- he's terrified to be alone with you.
"Don't think this means I like you," you say as you jab your finger at him.
Yuta shakes his head insistently as if to prove just how much he understands.
***
The rest of the day drags on, and by the time the dismissal bell rings, Yuta's nails are nothing but bitten-down stumps. He is so nervous that he's sure there will be sweat stains when he takes his uniform off later. He has a mental image of a bedroom with black-painted walls and a spiked coffin in place of a bed.
The walk to your house is short and painfully quiet. You move surprisingly fast, as though as you can't stand to slow down in fear of wasting time. And he's disappointed by the quaint house that you approach with your keys in hand. He'd half-expected a vampire's den, but the place is nothing of the sort. There's a lawn statue designed to look like a cat sitting by the front door. There are several large pothos plants hanging from the spandrels, lush and bright green- clearly well taken care of.
"My mom gets home at 8:30, so we have a few hours," you say as you turn to unlock the front door. "Want a snack or anything?"
The offer is kind and so uncharacteristic of you that it takes him aback slightly. He declines, silently trailing behind as you lead him into the kitchen.
Something soft brushes at his ankles and he glances down to see an orange cat head-butting him. Yuta smiles and bends to rub its ears as it purrs against his hand.
"That's Momo," you say. "She's super friendly." The cat rushes to your side when you say its name and you scoop it up easily with one hand. You're not smiling, but there is a softening of your gaze as you scratch behind Momo's ears, who has their eyes closed purring contentedly.
"Want to give her a treat?" you ask. "She'll love you forever."
Yuta grins. "Hit me." And you're handing him a blue tube with pinkish gel creeping out the open end. Momo goes ballistic, springing out of your arms and racing over to Yuta's ankles once again. He bends down to give it to her, laughing at the zeal with which she devours the treat.
He glances up to see you smiling a little, and it's shocking. "Churu's her favorite."
"I can tell."
You snort. "Let's go up."
Yuta follows with Momo on his heels as you ascend to the upper level. The anxiety has really settled in as he realizes he's about to be alone with a girl in her room.
He sheds the backpack hanging from his shoulders and retrieves his binder in search of the incomplete project outline. Your desk is impeccably organized and Yuta notices a pair of succulents on top. The single window in the room sits behind the desk, overlooking the street below.
"You can take the mushroom," you point to an impossibly tiny mushroom-shaped stool in the corner. Yuta doesn't dare risk facing your wrath by declining, so he drags it over to your desk and settles himself down awkwardly.
"So, I was thinking we do a visual," Yuta starts.
You hum, peering over his scarce notes with your brows drawn in concentration. "Sure."
Yuta has spent every day of the last two weeks sitting a couple of inches to your right, but it feels very different doing so in your room. You're still wearing your school clothes, but your hair is clipped back and strands of it fall into your face as you write down ideas. The light here is different, and he sees you from other angles. More than once, he finds his gaze straying to the exposed flesh of your thighs spreading across your desk chair.
It's a lot of back and forth, but eventually the outline looks decent enough that Yuta is satisfied. He's writing out the remaining formulas, feeling burnt out as he tries to recall the specific elements. A quick glance at his phone tells him that it's 8:02PM, meaning you've been at it for nearly three hours.
"Ugh, give me that." You reach to yank the pencil from his grasp, fingers lingering on his as you frown. "Why are you wearing a ring?" you ask.
Yuta glances at the silver band around his finger which has been there so long it may as well have been part of his body. It feels strange for you to be touching his hand, so he drops the pen and lays it flat on top of his thigh.
"It was a gift," he replies with a tone that welcomes no further questions. You're surprised by the hardness of his voice, only nodding as you hold the pencil properly to write. Yuta thinks that perhaps, one day he will tell you, but it's not a story he wishes to recall in any sort of detail. You're quick to change the subject, asking him to read off the measurements so you can fill them in. It seems that you're apt for reading the moods of others, so much so that Yuta sends you his silent appreciation.
***
The weekend comes and goes all too quickly, and before he knows it, it's Tuesday again, and up in your room, you're arguing with Yuta about which colors to use in your project.
"Warm colors are not scientific," you insist. "Our project is biology, so it should be green. Life equals green, or whatever."
"Why do you suddenly care so much about the quality of your work?" Yuta shoots back. He's not angry, the argument being more so teasing than real. But he's learned recently that he kind of enjoys seeing you get riled up, so when you first expressed your discontent with his color choice, he decided to hang back and see where the altercation would go.
You sigh sharply and squeeze your eyes shut for a second. When you open them, you reach into your desk drawer and pull out something he can't see, because you've already shoved it into your pocket.
"I need a break," you say. "Let's go."
You're walking out of your bedroom with intention in your every movement. Yuta follows, letting you lead him through the house, then outside behind a garden shed. He's sandwiched between two feet of space between it and the tall wooden fence surrounding your home. You stand just before him, thrusting your hand into your pocket to pull out... a pack of cigarettes?!
"Come on, it's just CBD," you say, rolling your eyes at Yuta's stunned expression. "My mom knows a lady who rolls them by hand."
As if that makes it any better. There's a lighter in your other hand as you slip a cigarette between your lips. Expertly, you hold it over the small flame and take the first drag.
"What does you mom do?" Yuta asks. Neither of you have talked much about your families, but the way you speak about your mom makes him curious.
You exhale, and smoke billows around him. "She's a ballet instructor."
"Oh."
You're puffing on the cigarette as though it's natural to you. He watches the way you drag on it, counts out how long it takes, and he likes the way you blow the smoke out through your teeth. It's captivating, and he feels for a moment that he might be in a movie.
"Oh, sorry," you say, holding it out to him. "Did you want some?"
Yuta slips the cigarette between his index and middle fingers, observing it as he contemplates whether to try it. He raises his eyebrows at you before bringing it to his lips. "You're sure this is CBD?"
You nod. "Scout's honor."
So, he takes a drag, trying to copy your exact motions down to the exhale. He coughs a little, but aside from a smoky flavor on his tongue, there is no noticeable difference.
"Do you like it?"
Yuta shrugs and passes it back. "I don't really feel anything."
You roll your eyes and scoff at him. "You need to have more than one hit, dummy. It's not supposed to feel like much of anything."
He doesn't understand your logic (he rarely does), but he watches as you finish it off, flicking ashes into a small hole dug into the dirt under the shed.
***
"How do you get away with your nose ring?" Yuta asks.
He's sitting at your desk with his hands hovering over his laptop keyboard, halfway facing it while also trying to look at you over on the bed. Summer has come more quickly than anticipated and with it, the project's deadline is fast approaching. It's the weekend, but you called an emergency study session to start working out the fine details of the presentation.
"I get away with a lot," you reply. "My mom works for the school board so I'm basically invincible."
Yuta is pretty sure that he has finally met someone more emo than he is. Despite the leveling out of his relationship with you, you still give the entire school the cold shoulder, and aside from the project, the rest of your work remains untouched. You're reading manga in class now, having replaced your giant hardcovers with smaller volumes. Yuta doesn't know you well enough to know that you only read manga when you're doing poorly.
You take it to a whole other level, though, with all your frowning and the dark clothing. But today is different. You're on the bed lying on your stomach, wearing a blue tank top with your hair pulled back, kicking your feet while propping your chin on curled hands. You're more talkative than usual, and you seem relaxed as a warm breeze musses up your bangs.
"I did them myself," you say after a few moments. "All you need is a sewing needle and some rubbing alcohol."
You can google this, but when some people are depressed, their pain tolerance increases. Some meds can affect it too."
Yuta could only stare. "Right."
You always seemed to know so much about medicine and the body. Despite the lack of work ethic you exuded, you seemed really into the anatomy chapter in class. Since he'd started spending more time with you, he'd learned that you had a true affinity for science. You liked knowing how things work, how A relates to B so you could understand it better.
"Would you do one for me?" he asks.
You visibly hesitate, but your expression is a concerned one. "Are you sure? It hurts like a motherfucker, Yuta."
He nods. "Yeah, I think I want my left ear. Stop looking at me like that."
Your giggles fill the room, and it's the sweetest sound ever to grace his ears even if it's at his expense. "I'm tougher than I look," he says indignantly, smiling widely.
The work has been abandoned. You scramble from atop the covers and quickly murmur your destination before bouncing out of the room. You return a minute later with a sewing box, a red wash rag, and a bottle of rubbing alcohol.
"Come to the bed," you instruct him. He does, accidentally disturbing a napping Momo when he lowers himself down. You set the sewing box and rag down on the desk right on top of the script the two of you'd been half-assing for the last hour. He watches as you soak a bit of the rag with rubbing alcohol and turn around to face him.
There will be blood," you say seriously.. "Red so it doesn't stain, or my mom will bitch at me."
Yuta leans back on his palms as you stand to his side and reach up to hold his earlobe so you can disinfect it. The scent of the alcohol burns his nose a little, but part of him likes it. You hold him by the chin with one hand and rub small circles over his earlobe with the other. He watches you as you work and realizes that he likes seeing you in your element. Your brows are drawn in concentration, but your hands are steady.
You pull back, dropping your hand from his chin and your eyes meet his. "You ready?"
Yuta nods, trusting you fully not to hurt him more than necessary. You turn to reveal a sewing needle and the red rag from before. You place the rag in his hand before moving to situate yourself in front of him. He's waiting for you to go for the same position, but you're hesitating, biting your lip and you pinch the needle between two fingers.
"Uh, sorry," you say, and he thinks it's the first time he's even seen you act even a little flustered. You stand just to his left side, the outside of your knee brushing against his ribs and you're holding his chin again. Yuta's heart rate jumps at the contact.
"Want me to count?"
He shakes his head and squeezes a squishmallow in his fist. And then you're putting the needle in and he sucks in a breath. He makes a mental note to apologize to the plushie later because right now he's damn near destroying it.
"You feel okay?" you ask. Your voice is serious, concerned yet steady.
It stings, it burns, a fucking needle just went through his flesh, but the pain seems somehow faraway now. Your face is just a few inches away from his, and you're so close that he can smell the traces of hemp cigarettes on your breath. He is aware that blood soaking the wash rag you're holding against his neck, but he's too lost in your gaze to care as he answers breathlessly, "hardly felt it."
Your half-lidded eyes flick down to his lips. His heart hammers against his chest and he can see your pulse jumping on your neck. And he's reaching for you, acting more on instinct than rational thought. He thinks of sliding his thumb across the expanse of your jawline, of tucking a stray hair behind your ear. Blood roars in his ears and he lets his eyes flutter closed as you lean in, and his nose just barely brushes yours-
Then your phone is ringing, shrill and annoyingly intrusive, and you jump backward as you both flinch. Yuta feels hot, his shirt suddenly too thick and the room suddenly too small. He takes over holding the rag as you answer the call, getting up to go into the hallway.
Yuta's mind is reeling. He'd almost just kissed you...WHY DIDN'T HE JUST DO IT? He's cursing himself, cursing the cowardice that seems to be his default setting. What would've happened if your stupid phone hadn't started ringing?
And his thoughts are cut off when you burst back into the room and start cleaning up the papers strewn about your desk. Yuta notices the frown marring your face, any trace of your excitement having disappeared.
"My mom's gonna be home in like five minutes, so you gotta go," you say quickly. "Like now. Or she's gonna ground me."
"What about my ear?" he asks, rising to his feet. It's so painful and he's wondering how in the fuck you truly tolerated doing this to yourself.
You groan. "Yuta, I'm sorry, but you have to go. I'll text you what to do with your ear later."
And so he gathers his things, bids Momo farewell, and walks himself home with a bloody rag and a confused spirit.
Nothing like that happens again. You don't bring it up, and he takes it as a message to do the same. Even still, his mind will wander to the feeling of the tip of your nose touching his, and he often wonders if he'll ever get the chance to touch you again.
***
A few weeks later, the project is nearing completion, and Yuta can't deny that the final draft is coming together well. He has spent every Tuesday and Thursday afternoon at your house while Momo oversees production and the two of you share snacks. He's learned that you prefer fruity flavors over milky ones and that you can devour an entire bag of seaweed snacks in ten minutes. It amuses him deeply, especially in comparison to the darkness you exude on a normal basis.
He's also learned that you love cats, and you sleep with three squishmallows every night. You have a green thumb when it comes to houseplants, and you paint every pot yourself. So, Monday night he asks his mother to get an extra bag of seaweed snacks so he can bring it to you the next day as a surprise.
But when Yuta arrives to the classroom that morning, you're not sitting in your unassigned-assigned seat. You beat him there almost every day now that he's doing library duty with Yuji, so he shrugs it off until it's well past roll call and you're still not there. At the next break, he shoots a text asking where you are, feeling awfully lonely without the usual annoyed glares sent from his left side.
Lunch comes and he's anxious when he looks at his phone to see there's been no reply. His thumbs hover over the screen as he debates whether to send another text, knowing it will annoy you, but his curiosity threatens to win the battle. Yuta glances up to see Yuji holding out a small handful of multicolored rock candy.
"I hate these," Yuji says, making a face. "You want it?"
Yuta blinks at him. “Uh, no, thank you.”
The other boy groans before tossing them right into his backpack, surely now gone forever. Yuta cringes a little, suddenly wondering what other…treasures might linger at the bottom of Yuji’s bag. But then his phone is buzzing in his hands and Yuta’s heart rate jumps thirtyfold. And it’s you (you’re alive!), and the excitement he gets from the three words you’ve sent is embarrassing, but he doesn’t care.
>the doctor
>why
<you missed a quiz.
>idc
A smile tugs at Yuta's lips. Of course you don't. His fingers fly over the keypad as he types out the question that's been burning in his mind all day.
<am I still good to come over?
And you're quick to reply, making him wonder what was taking you so long before.
>u might get there before me but there's a key under the cat statue
Yuta is triumphant throughout the rest of the day. It's around 4:15 by the time he makes it to your front door, buzzing from how excited he is to deliver the bag of seaweed snacks. He glances around the porch, searching for the statue that looks like Momo to retrieve the alleged spare key.
The door is unlocked, so he concludes that you are home after all. He quickly returns to the key to its holder and closes the door behind him. It's dark inside, all the curtains drawn and the lights shut off. Momo is not there to greet him, and you are nowhere to be found. Yuta calls out your name in question.
There's a trilling sound as Momo descends the stairs and pads over to him, weaving in and out from between his shins. Yuta bends to give her some pets, but she darts away toward the stairs once more. She looks back at him before running up, tail flicking back and forth as she meows, and then it clicks.
"Oh!" he says. "Lead the way, ma'am, by all means."
So he follows, and as he reaches the top of the stairs he hears the sound of running water.
It's deja vu. He's seen this film before and is currently living in the end credits waiting for another scene that will never come. Is this the sequel? The parallels are so uncannily similar that it has to be a joke. It's a prank- it has to be. Your name tears from his mouth as he tries the doorknob knowing that it will be locked. And as predicted, it doesn't budge, so he knocks once, twice, three times, but there's no answer.
"Yuta, stop!" you say from the other side. Even from those two words, he can hear the distress in your voice. He feels desperate, shaky, and he knows he has to get you to open the door before you do something stupid. The words tear from his lungs,
"I will break this fucking door down if you don't open it right now!"
The water stops running. The only sound is Momo scratching at the door, trying just as desperately to get you to stop.
And it's you, and the sight makes his blood run cold. There are so many horizontal marks on your arms, and there's blood seeping from each one. Yuta is acting purely on instinct as he surges toward you.
He grips your forearms uncaring of the blood that's going to stain his skin. You're hyperventilating, hot salty tears streaming down your face as Yuta tries to get you to look at him. You're rasping something shakily over and over, and he's trying to get you to speak up so he can hear properly.
"Talk to me," he says gently. "It's okay."
He reaches to grab the washcloth hanging by the sink to press them to your cuts, but before the fabric makes contact, you burst into tears once more and shake your head frantically.
"No!" you cry. "Get the red ones from under the sink."
And it clicks for him then. This was not an isolated event, evident by the tall stack of red washrags and how you'd been so dead set on using one when you pierced his ear. You rarely wore short sleeves even when it had been so hot lately. He remembers grabbing you in the hallway at school and how you'd clutched at your arm then.
He holds one rag to each of your arms and instructs you to keep them there. On the bathroom counter is an assortment of pill bottles, each of which had your name printed on them with your date of birth. Drugs like fluoxetine, alprazolam, and lithium, all of which are ones he's been on himself over the years. A certain numbness flows through him as he detaches himself from the situation.
How close of a call was it? How long had you been planning? What triggered you? When? You've left him speechless, completely stupefied because of course, he should've seen the signs.
"Unlock your phone for me," he says calmly, handing the device to you. You comply. He scrolls through your contacts until he finds your mother's and instantly he taps the call button.
"Hello?"
It's a woman's voice, an unfamiliar one. Yuta keeps it brief, not wanting to upset you further by going into detail and acting like you aren't in the room.
"Yes, I'm staying with her until you get here. We're in the upstairs bathroom."
Yuta does not raise his voice. He does not scream, does not yell. He only regards you with sadness in his eyes as his fingers wrap around yours clutching the bottle.
"Yuta, why?" you wail.
It breaks his heart. It shatters his soul in a way that he knows is going to affect him longer after this moment, but he has to do it. Yuta tilts his wrist and lets the pills fall into the toilet until the rattling stops and the bottle is empty. There are tears streaming down your face and your eyes are wide with something that chills his blood as he glimpses you.
"I can't let you," Yuta says in a calm voice. His throat feels tight, like he might scream or burst into tears any moment, but he wills himself to remain composed for your sake. He cannot break when you need him so dearly.
You're sobbing as the words tumble from your mouth while you sink to your knees. "You don't understand..."
And Yuta's kneeling before you, resting both of his hands on either of your shoulders to pull you into him. You let him wrap his arms around your shaking body and he lets you weep. It's uncontrollable, it's animalistic, it's desperate and the sadness infects Yuta's heart. 17 years of pain, trauma, and too-heavy crosses fill his ears and poison his soul.
The two of you stay like that until your mother arrives several minutes later. Yuta hears the garage door open through the bathroom floor. You're still clinging to him, your sobs having turned into soft yet consistent cries and sniffles. He hears the jingle of keys and a set of footsteps that fly up the staircase until a woman stands in the way of the bathroom door.
You look like her, Yuta thinks. Your mother's tired eyes meet his and she thanks him. Yuta gently guides you to sit on the edge of the bathtub, feeling awkward to touch you so intimately in front of your mother. Your face is a mess, red and puffy with an empty expression that squeezes painfully at Yuta's heart.
"Yuta..." you say, gazing at his face sadly.
He knows it's his cue to leave, but his feet are rooted in place beneath the weight of your presence. He doesn't want to leave you. He thinks of the cries that ripped from your throat just moments ago, knowing that he will hear them in his dreams now. But it's not his place to rescue you. You'd said so yourself- you're not his girlfriend. So he squeezes your arm, keeping his eyes downcast, before rising to his feet and ducking out of the bathroom door.
Walking home is torture and sleep does not come that night. Nor the following, because his mind is devoted to replaying. And he goes to school that Monday half-awake and swaying as he stands in the breakfast line with Yuji. He sees your tear-stained face and empty eyes, the despair riddling your voice.
And he's heard nothing from you. No one at school asks about you, not even the teachers who see the empty seat that no one will take because it's yours. They see the dark circles painting his undereye, yet there is no mention of your name. He is so clearly on the edge of falling apart, but the world moves on around him despite claiming to care.
One week after that Monday, Yuta goes to the records clerk in the administration building during his lunch period. He asks for your emergency contact by name after briefly explaining your episode. The clerk agrees to give him your mother's phone number after insisting that he's your cousin. And those digits are gold to him, more precious than any gemstone money can buy.
"She's been admitted to a psychiatric facility," your mother explains. "We've pulled her out of school for now. Just want to give her time to get better, you know?"
All Yuta can see is you dressed in a hoodie with no strings and pants with no zippers as you trudge silently through hospital hallways. Your face devoid of all emotion, numb to the world as you recover from your dance with death.
Your mother said it's what you wanted, so Yuta had no choice but to let it go. So that following Monday, he goes to school. Not one person mentioned your name in passing, nor did they ask him about you.
But days turn into weeks, and months into years, and Yuta never saw you. Texts go ignored and every social media account you'd had was deleted. Selfishly, he feels that you've abandoned him, as desperately as he tries not to blame you in any way.
He walks by your house one afternoon to see a moving truck parked in the driveway as strangers, not you or Momo, march in and out of the front door. The cat statue on your porch isn't there, and Yuta's heart sinks to the ground. You're gone.
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