They're both fresh out of the shower that morning, feeling tired, both not sleeping very well the night before.
She cover her body with blanket while sitting on the bed, looking at him, putting on his shoes on the other side of bed. Her eyes linger to the hanger, where his basketball t-shirt hanged.
"I wonder how do I look if I wear that"
She said to herself.
A small heart attack came to her chest remember that probably his ex already tried that shirt.
She sigh.
Exhaling a very long breath.
"Go to sleep," He said.
"Yeah I will.." She replied with small voice, a sad one.
Hoping that he didn't notice that tone.
And unexpectedly he leaned his back to her, she surprised. Their face now is just 10 cm from each other.
"What are you doing? Asking for a kiss? Usually that's my part. Why you're doing it now? When I finally I don't have any reason to see you again?"
A lot of questions pop up in her mind.
But she didn't say anything and start to aim her favorite spot: his lips.
Your lips my lips, apocalypse..
Do you know how mellow that sad song by Cigarette After Sex? Apocalypse?
That tune start to play in her head while he start to open his mouth. Play with her tongue and she felt that, she placed her hand on his right shoulder.
Secretly hoping that he will place his hand on her body, but nothing happen. It's just the kissing sound in that quiet morning.
He enjoys it, it kills her.
She took off her hand of his shoulder and start rubbing his neck. Making sure that his head won't turn away at least for now.
"Don't go now, please. It's still 7, you can be at your office much later, right?"
She start to caress his face, just like couple hours ago when she bite his ear softly, just like last night.
"I'll miss you. Your voice, your laugh, everything”
All of those sentences only exist in her head, she wants to cry already.
She pull herself out of him.
"That's it. My last kiss."
He stand up, wearing his jacket and said "I think all of boys has this kind of jacket."
"Hmm? What kind?"
"The worn out one, the one jacket that the color is already ruined, hahaha"
"Hahahaha yeah I have one too," she replied happily, try to hide her sad face.
He start to taking his shoes and that red basketball shirt, putting it inside his bag.
She felt a lot of small stabs in her chest.
This is it, this is the very last time she's gonna see those eyes.
"Fuck! I can't cry now. No, I can't."
He wear his backpack, she stand up and then again, unexpectedly he open his arms to her.
She embrace it.
She immersed her face into his chest.
Whispering very loudly: I love you.
He kissed her forehead three times.
"You never do this. From the last 6 meetings we had, you never do this to me. Why now? Do you get this feeling too? A strong intuition that this is our last meeting ever?"
She said those questions again to herself.
"Take care there, okay?"
"Yeah, okay, you too."
"Why can't we be together? Why you aren't giving us a chance? Can I stay with you?"
"Don't sit on the toilet, okay?" He said a joke that break that hug.
"What? Hahahahaa" She replied while letting his body slowly drive away.
That body that use to be with her for the last three days. That right arm of his that used to be her pillow every night, slowly turns into a hug until they're both fell asleep.
"I'll miss your heart beat and I'll miss your perfume.."
A voice inside her start to talk again.
"Yeah my friend sit there once and the toilet is breaking apart! Hahahaa so don't do it!" He still continue with his joke.
"Hahahaa of course. So, got everything in your backpack?"
"Hmm I think so.."
"You don't forget to take your small glass again, right?"
"I think it's already in my bag."
"Okay, then."
She carried a small glass of his the last time they met, they use it to drink together. She make sure that nothing of his belonging comes back with her to her home town.
"Well, take care okay?" He said while open the hotel door.
"Yeah okay, take care too."
"Yup, bye!"
"Bye."
The door closed, her head wants to explode. Her heart is in pain, her eyes can't hold back her tears anymore.
She reach her phone, playing a song that he played the first time they drink together.
Steffani's voice start to fill the empty room.
We waste our time till late night
And I couldn't even wished for more
Cause I can tell the stars in the sky
They give me a sign
That I can hold my future in your arms
She try to screamed letting go of her feeling faster, making her running out of breath.
I wish I'd met you earlier, I really like talking to you
That was the last lyrics that she heard.
She looks around, no one is there.
That's it, enough. I have to let you go
She start to text her friends, looking for some distraction.
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