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[fatalheartbeatforever]

Don't you understand you just mean 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 to me. I 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 you. I 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶.

[unsent-note]

I wish I could control who you talk to. I wish I could erase every conversation that isn't with me but I'm scared that if you knew, you'd never forgive me.

[fatalheartbeatforever]

She gives life to my body, meaning to my vessel, a reason to persist. My love, you are my everything.

[fatalheartbeatforever]

my heart yearns for you, melt my insides and you'll see my heart beats for you even so. my love will never die

[fatalheartbeatforever]

I'm back, could I ask if your posts are targeted? They seem pretty targeted, but I could very well be wrong

Thank you for entertaining all my questions lol

some had previously been written revolving around certain people, but it applies to most people i become obsessed with, so it's targeted in a way, but not in its entirety

[fatalheartbeatforever]

You look wonderful today <3

[fatalheartbeatforever]

Just Us

that's all that matters, me and you, nothing else, forget everything else, just be mine, and i'll take care and love you

[fatalheartbeatforever]

I'm the only one who truly cares about you. I love you.

[fatalheartbeatforever]

The only thing I want to see is you next to me, the rest of the world can go fucking die

[s1ck-pup]

[fatalheartbeatforever]

Love me, why would you love me, just love me please, you need to love me, c'mon, it'll be good for you, don't you wanna be happy, I'll never be happy if you don't, I'll die if you don't, just love me, you can trust me, I'll treat you well, love me

[fatalheartbeatforever]

I wish I could make everyone who has ever stolen my heart have to accept what they've done, they caused this, they made me love them, if I could I would remove everyone they ever cared about, because if it's just me then there is nobody else for them to run to, if I had the opportunity to do it, to make sure they all loved me forever I would, it's not right, you made me depend on you knowing what would happen, and think it's just alright to do whatever you want, without a care in the world, I want to turn them all into the perfect family, I never want to have to be alone again, I can't keep handling this, I'm going to die at this rate I will make them all love me one way or another, I know where they all are, I know what they all like, I will get power somehow, I'll work towards it, hire investigators, whatever I need and I'll ensure I never am lonely again, I never have to lose someone I depend on again, and I don't care what the fuck I have to do to get there

[fatalheartbeatforever]

That feeling when you want to break everyone the autonomy of everyone you care about so you can finally feel safe, without caring what it does to them or anyone else, when you have to come to terms with the fact people having free will is a threat, and you only hope for this love to be guaranteed, as your dependency is harming you and you require absolute loyalty to feel safe, you need the keys to the kingdom because you realize if they make a wrong move it hurts you, you need the absolute, and you hope for power or even more so opportunity to place everything in motion to ensure you are loved, to ensure you have a place to depend, to feel safe I can't stop shaking, I need to feel safe, no matter what the hell I have to do

[fatalheartbeatforever]

The screaming dichotomy where you simultaneously hope to sacrifice and put aside yourself for others while simultaneously having whatever alternate version of a conscience you possess yelling at you to force everyone into submission and have what you really want, I guess this is why terms like yandere exist, a split between what you try to be for others and what you truly need for yourself, locking you in an endless battle, where you beg and cry in your head to control your body and just put all the painful nuances of the earth to rest, I only wish for severance, let my forced existence in the world change, or at least let me escape this need for survival, i feel like an animal deserving of being put down, tired of this choice people seem to have, while i'm trapped behind myself in my own life, will i ever be 'me' can i ever exist without something allowing me to finally breathe, it seems so cold and bitter, yet i only wish i was but an animal, hunting for someone that can be fully mine, i'm tired of reality tearing me apart, and i can't change what's been conditioned into me to feel safe, so all i can do is feel this contempt towards the entire world, with the bitterness of broken dreams and cancelled promises

[fatalheartbeatforever]

Curiousity killed the cat, question how are you posting *so fast* and with such heart clenching detail and length? I adore your posts even if its only been an hour

Some of them I already had written, others I am writing as I go

[fatalheartbeatforever]

You know you are my heaven, my paradise. You give me life. You give me a purpose. I'll give you everything, just trust me.

[fatalheartbeatforever]

Carve my name into your skin sweetheart