Jud

Just a trans* guy fighting my way through life......

[goodreadss]

Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different?

CS Lewis, Art Journaling (via goodreadss)

[goodreadss]

I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself.

Franz Kafka (via goodreadss)

[fatally-yours-]

Solid farm day, even though it's hotter than balls out there. Not a good day when you only own black clothes!

[fatally-yours-]

Is it bad how long I spend editing pictures of myself? Like it just makes me feel better 😕 I guess it's bad because I don't actually look like this. But anyway, hopefully one day I'll have facial hair 🙈 #ftm #femaletomale #transgender #femaletoediting #transdude #transman #transpride #pridemonth #pride

[punkyetsad]

[goodreadss]

“I didn’t want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that’s really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you’re so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.”

Ned Vizzini, It’s Kind of a Funny Story (via goodreadss)

[perrfectly]

[fatally-yours-]

It's not about forcing happiness, it's about not letting sadness win #transgender #testosterone #femaletodepression #transguy #ftm #thewonderyears #somebodykillmeplease

[fatally-yours-]

Left pre-testosterone...right 4 months on T #transgender #testosterone #ftm

[fatally-yours-]

So today marks my 4 months on testosterone 👍🏻 not gunna lie I feel like absolute shit. But without testosterone I'd feel so much worse. I always struggle at this time of year for some reason 😔 but being on T/making progress with who I am is keeping me going, like literally. 4 years ago at this time I couldn't even function in everyday life. I couldn't even go to work I was so fucked up. Just interacting with people scared the shit out of me, well it still does but at least I can do it now....kind of. I would really like to crawl into a dark hole right now and stay there, but I'm not going to, because I know if I keep going it will get better 😶 life has handed me a sick cold sore just for luck too 😒#ftm #testosterone #femaletodepression #transgender

[fatally-yours-]

Nearly that time of year again bro. Been struggling a lot this year and miss your words of wisdom. I feel like you'd be proud of the man I'm becoming. I love and miss you everyday, sleep easy my big brother from another mother. I love you Lee

[fatally-yours-]

Chillin' with my favourite lady in the whole wide world ❤😍 #bestnanever

[fatally-yours-]

Leaving the house on a Sunday! 😮👀 #transgender #trans #femaletomale #ftm #youmeatsix #manchesterbound

[fatally-yours-]

Look at my leg hair! Ok so it's not much, buuuut I had like zero pre T 😊 so that's pretty awesome. Also my new YouTube video is up. Link in my bio ⬆️😘 #ftm #trans #testosterone #transguy #transgender #femaletomale #femaletoleghair

[fatally-yours-]

My mental health is kicking my ass these past couple of days 😔 This album kept me alive (as well as their other ones) so let's hope it helps all these years later #sensesfail #stillmyalltimefav

[fatally-yours-]

This beaut got me a gosh darn laptop for my birthday!!! 😊🙌🏻 #bestfriendever

[fatally-yours-]

Best Birthday present ever off my momma ❤ #bestmommaever