a secret cardiophile's hoard

32/F/bi into dark cardio/resus/CNC DMs open 👍

[fatalrhythms]

to be continued~

get the rescue script here!

[fatalrhythms]

couldn't figure out why i was suddenly getting all this MAGA shit recommended to me. turns out i recently followed wwcpde, whose likes are full of the bullshit. i never put anyone on blast but i just can't figure out how someone who's in a fringe kink community can be like that. 🤢like here you are bitching about who can use which bathroom when most of the people you're standing with would have you fucking committed for the things you get off to? really?? we all enjoy fantasizing about dying women here but you draw the line at them sharing a bathroom with someone who has a cock????

[dontyoudaregiveup]

I see a lot of people very very ashamed of liking resus stuff bc it can be perceived very harshly and I just wanted to throw my two cents into the ring, as a Certified Freak with at least one kink that's on QUITE a few "no thank you" lists bc it's also a deeply traumatic and stressful thing to experience (cnc, dubcon, rape play, etc):

Everyone fucks weird, whether they want to admit it or not, bc the brain just does whatever at literally all times. I'm terrified of choking, drowning, and having a heart attack, just like I'm soul-deep afraid of being assaulted, but fear is right there next to excitement in terms of chemicals in the brain, so here I am! You're not a bad or cringe person for having thoughts or playing pretend or talking about your kinks in appropriate spaces!

Also resus stuff is literally the height of intensity and drama in media, which is incredibly fun. The idea of someone (professionally or personally) being so dedicated to YOU and you ALONE because you have such dire immediate needs that need to be met that they'll drag you back from death bruised and battered and broken is likely really appealing to a lot more people than they realize. Especially today, when it's easy to feel so isolated, that sort of thing is VERY nice to fantasize about.

Like oh...I mean so much to you that you'd work yourself to exhaustion and break my bones just to make sure I'm okay? I don't get to deny help bc this is so vital? It's not rude to accept so much, even when I can't reciprocate? You're doing all this even knowing I cannot repay you right now, or maybe ever?

Imo, it's just about vulnerability and power and control and being taken care of and trusting someone (and having that trust broken with the highest possible consequences in dark resus), and that's just bdsm with a different aesthetic.

Be nice to yourselves. No one fucks normal, I promise.

[dreamruses]

You said it better than I could!

[dreamruses]

I found your blog while exploring Tumblr, and I want to say that your art is beautiful! I love that you've been able to create a community based on this kink; it's something I'd like to achieve in the future. I want to tell you that finding your blog made me feel less alone and more validated. Please don't stop creating!✨🐇

Oh thank you for stopping in and being so kind. I can't take any credit for the community, it was already here when I arrived. I think @heimlich-heathen was earliest to creating resus-specific art , that I know of. Breaking new ground for the rest of us. But I am so glad that you feel validated by it! I hope others will feel the same. I'm about to go on a "back in my day" rant so feel free to skip the rest of this back in my day...... No but seriously when I was a kid I dreamed about a community where I could actually find resus content, instead of flipping through channels hoping to find Baywatch on tv lol (spoiler: it was never on). Now that niche kinks are more readily found and accessed, I hope people who feel alone will take advantage of it. It's a small group, for sure, but the internet enabled us all to come together and realize we're all actually normal. Also, I recently learned that you process shame by talking about it with others. So if a kink is something you feel shameful about, talking with someone else who gets it is going to help you to "digest" that feeling and move forward to a happier version of yourself. I'm not saying you feel shameful i'm just...im..this is just for the general public....of...this specific niche community. rant over. You keep drawing too! Firstly your drawings are fantastic. Secondly you are already creating your community whenever you add something to it. I'm sure it'll just keep growing from here.

[fatalrhythms]

part one | part two

[fatalrhythms]

part one | part two this is a script i wrote for @lektoheart's rescue theater. i really recommend supporting development, and not just for sandbox mode; scripting things like this is easier than it looks and lots of fun.

you can get this (and two other scripts by me) here!

[fatalrhythms]

"Once again, Cas went into ventricular fibrillation. She was hit with a second, stronger shock, her heart convulsing briefly in her chest. It began to beat feebly in between long stretches of asystole, necessitating more compressions. Agonal breaths continued to rattle and wheeze through her chest without drawing any air. It appeared as though the rhythm could change in their favor at any moment, but as of right now, she was still in arrest - and they were running out of time to reverse it. They had already broken protocol by working on her this long." Cas, a 27-year-old cardiophile with dark fantasies and poor self-preservation instincts, meets a fitting end until a team of paramedics fight to bring her back. tw: contains graphic depictions of CNC resulting in clinical death. read "smother me" on Ao3

[fatalrhythms]

long time, no see. 💓

the good news: i got engaged!

the bad news: everything else lol

mostly just mental/physical health problems + family bullshit i won't elaborate on. i work a lot of hours now and don't really have the time or inclination for things like roleplay, but i do still enjoy making cardio content, and it would be a shame if no one else got to enjoy it.

on the engagement: he's truly the best thing that ever happened to me. we're both terminally weird people + best friends since we were teenagers and i can't wait to just skip ahead to the point where we're already spending our lives together. thanks for coming to the world's grossest ted talk.

i'm gonna be posting some resus writing in a bit + i have some scripts i wrote for Rescue Theater i need to record at some point. sorry for ghosting, it's what i do best!

[bloodybosom]

[fatalrhythms]

correct me if I'm wrong because I've been a cardiophile almost since birth, but there seems to be a real whump-to-cardiophilia pipeline. as in, I can read most whump and think "well this is just cardiophilia with extra steps"

[fatalrhythms]

if the idea of someone's life hanging in the balance turns you on, you may be entitled to a new fetish

[fatalrhythms]

correct me if I'm wrong because I've been a cardiophile almost since birth, but there seems to be a real whump-to-cardiophilia pipeline. as in, I can read most whump and think "well this is just cardiophilia with extra steps"

[yumykon]

[fatalrhythms]

sorry to anyone who saw that last post and sent me a DM only to get ghosted for a few days! dealing with sudden (non-cardio-related, dw) health problems that make it painful for me to use a phone/keyboard/anything that requires the use of my right arm lol.

slowly getting back into things though!

[cardioboy508]

A request from @darknesshell22 🫀🫀💗💗

[blackpump]

New take on an old fave. I'd love to feel what she's feeling...

[fatalrhythms]

A text-based dark cardiophilia adventure.

TW: CNC little CYOA i wrote a couple of weeks ago based on an old fantasy of mine 🥰

[gaspingandcompressing]

If you post ACTUAL CPR/resuscitation scenes including REAL victims who are most likely ACTUALLY DEAD and 1000% unable to consent to being filmed, let alone be consumed for your own sexual desires… no questions just blocking. It’s not educational either. Don’t even try.

CHILDREN CANNOT CONSENT TO BE SEXUALIZED.

REAL VICTIMS WHO ARE ACTUALLY DEAD (A REAL LIFE REQUIREMENT FOR RESUSCITATION) CANNOT CONSENT TO BE SEXUALIZED.

Y’all are actually breaking my soul.

Super disappointed with what’s been going on and being posted on here.