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Feliz aniversário, Esquilo!

Fico feliz pra caralho de saber que você tá vivo e ter aparecido. Sinto falta da sua pessoa. Aparece por aí, temos muito o que conversar :)

I don't know if you ever gonna read this. I don't even know if you still alive. I never thought that we could be like this, not knowing about each other, but obviouslly, there is no reason for us actually know about each other so...

Anyway, I was wondering a lot of things latelly. I decided not coming here anymore, so probably this is the last thing I'm writing. I was also wondering if it's gonna be like this forever, if you'll be part of me forever. Did you see that we have Linkin Park back? Could you imagine how much I wanted to talk to you about it? I was watching their show thinking that you were de only person I wanted to talk about that.

It's not about romantic love but about wanting and missing this person in my life. You're part of me, a good one, and after 10 years? more? I actually don't know, I understand that this is forever. I'll always have the "I wish I could talk to him about it" feeling. I'll always miss the person that I am around you and how you always make me feel. I'll always wonder how things could have been in another life. I'll always expect your message at midnight on my birthday. I'll always want to send you a message at midnight on your birthday. I'll always feel that's you calling when I have an unknown number calling me. I'll always expect find you around the corner in Floripa, even if you're not there anymore. I'll always listen to your playlist and expect that you listen to mine. I'll always listen to some songs and think about you (specially LP). I'll always want you as my friend and I'll always consider you the Barney to my Robin, great partners with a sad end.

These are feelings that I'll have forever and I'm glad that I can feel somenthing so great and trully for someone. I don't think that everyone can feel something like this in their life, maybe I'm lucky, right?

Anyway my friend, I hope life is great and magical as suppose to be and I hope you're always around my corner, squirrel. If you need me, you know how to find me.

See you someday. Maybe. Bye.

letsbelonelytogetherr

— Ocean Vuong, On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous

letsbelonelytogetherr

“In Vietnamese, the word for missing someone and remembering them is the same: nhớ. Sometimes, when you ask me over the phone, Con nhớ mẹ không? / flinch, thinking you meant, Do you remember me?

— I miss you more than I remember you.”

timbllr

via weheartit

I feel that I should talk to you, and that’s all that I want. I knew that you weren’t ok and something had happened, and I’m so sad that I was right. I want talk to you but I’m also afraid of putting you in trouble and make things worse. So I’ll wait here and I’ll send you every good thought and every good feeling that I have. I hope you’re okay, or at least trying to be.

Sometimes I think that this is it. That we’re not gonna talk again but “it’s a full moon here tonight, which makes me think of you, because I know that no matter what I’m doing, no matter where I am, this moon will always be the same size as yours”

I guess it’s my turn to write words to the wind and not knowing if you’re gonna read this. But it’s just something I’d like to take out of my chest. First of all, I hope you’re okay, I deeply hope that you’re fine and happy. I’m here watching fucking transformers, a movie that shouldn’t make people cry but here I am, remembering so much stuff because of this movie and feeling really ridiculous for crying. The truth is that I miss you, I miss the time when things were “easier” and we could spend a whole night drinking and laughing. Did you know that you’re probably the only person in the world who can make me smile without a word? Anyway, that’s it, I can just feel love for you. Your spot in my heart is here forever.