Β Β Β Β Β β - #FATESOWN. a PRIVATE rp blog for multiple muses from MULTIPLE FANDOMS, including but not limited to BALDUR'S GATE 3, DRAGON AGE, and STAR WARS. (temporary muse list)
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Β Β Β Β Β β - a study inΒ responsibility, death and rebirth, agency, the duty we owe to each other, love as an expression of life, recognizing kindness as a strength, appearances being deceiving, the self being a mix of who we are & who we think we are & how others view us, & the price weβre willing to pay
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like the betrayalβs always going to be worse if they cared about you and it didnβt matter. someone discards you because they didnβt give a shit, then you can be angry about that, you can feel vindicated in that, you can get over it. but if they can look you in the eyes and say βI love you. I would make the same choice again.β You will never sleep peacefully again, is all.
βI thought they cared about me, but they were lying this whole time.β <- tired. boring. removes all the nuance of this relationship to make it easier to move on from.
βI thought they cared about me, and I was right, and every minute they were there for me, every time they said they were proud, every laugh we shared leaning against each other bruised and breathless, all of it was real. and they still left me behind. They could put their love aside. I couldnβt.β <- insane. will never leave you alone. reminds you that even the worst people are still people and can still care about even the ones they hurt the most and that undoes neither the harm nor the love.
makoto: say how old are you two anyway?
michiru: we started high school a few weeks ago
makoto: huh? but i thought you had to be older than that to legally drive a car.
michiru, eying haruka knowingly: oh, is that right?
haruka: oh, uh, well, i was able to get a license while i was living overseas!
1000% reads like michiru told haruka she's not gonna be able to go driving around while they're undercover as high schoolers and haruka was like "it'll be fiiiiiine"
ok i'm gonna read til groceries get here and then tonight i'll probably finish the forgotten realms character info posts and likely start in on the final fantasy character info posts bc i've got my wols on my mind
velvet's info page will probably go through a few overhauls as i try to remember the ideas i had half-formed about her but never fucking wrote down anywhere.
#//she was. Definitely dead and resurrected at one point.#//but i can't remember if she died a bhaalspawn and was resurrected by ilmater ??#//or if she had been a semi-chosen of ilmater and bhaal had resurrected her with intents to corrupt her#//that sounds more right to me because i feel like there was some sort of wager going on between them for some reason
it was something about either ilmater betting he could save even someone whose very being was corrupted by bhaal's bloodline or bhaal betting he could corrupt someone even as pure as ilmater's would-be chosen
full name. zarae tlabbar
alias/es. lolth's shadow / the dark urge
date of birth. unknown
gender / pronouns. cis woman / she/her
orientation. panromantic / pansexual
occupation. holy assassin
species. drow elf
appearance notes. greyish/purple skin, stark white hair often kept in high twin buns with twin braids flowing down her back, a gruesome scar over her right eye which is now solid black, red left eye, black heart-shaped lipstick right in the center of her lips
relevant content warnings. graphic violence, gore/body horror including eye trauma, questionable bodily autonomy/themes similar to mind control/brainwashing, animal cruelty
hundreds of years ago, the gods lolth and bhaal made a pact. bhaal would provide lolth with what she needed in order to make bhaalspawn, hidden amongst her drow, to use as she saw fit, with the promise that one day bhaal would ask for those children back and lolth would give them freely. but lolth did not, would not.
zarae was one such child, a bhaalspawn gifted to house faen tlabbar for their obedience and devotion. she was raised as a servant of lolth, taught to restrain her violent urges and use them only in lolth's service.
once, zarae submitted to the call for violence that screamed in the back of her mind. in response, the matron mother took on a voice that was not her own and lifted up her dagger, scrag-tooth. lolth had possessed her, claimed zarae's right eye, and replaced it with that of a spider's, which allowed the goddess an extra means of control over her gift from bhaal.
zarae became lolth's shadow, an assassin sent during and after the drow civil war to do away with those who opposed the spider-goddess. eventually, she was sent to the surface, to hunt down those who had attempted to escape.
at long last, bhaal's long-lost daughter was near enough that he could grasp at her again. she managed to claim the lives of five heretics before bhaal's grip tightened.
she found herself in baldur's gate, given freedom and even encouragement to express her violent desires, and bhaal celebrated this by making her his chosen.
lolth, whose grip on zarae had never loosened, equally encouraged zarae to go along with bhaal's plan, to spy on bhaal and spoil his plots when the time came.
until orin killed her sister for usurping her, and when zarae next awoke on the nautiloid, neither lolth nor bhaal could reach her.
portrayal notes. utilizes the lost children of bhaal lore by vae, with permission.
dear genius people who live in my phone, is there a name for the style of wearing lipstick only in the middle of the lips (e.g. not reaching all the way to the corners of the mouth)? in my mind it feels very rococo but i believe similar styles also trended during certain periods of chinese history?
full name. hope
alias/es. the mistress of the house
date of birth. unknown
gender / pronouns. cis woman / she/her
orientation. graysexual / demiromantic
occupation. mistress of hell's house of hope
species. dwarf
appearance notes. tba
relevant content warnings. torture (both physical and psychological), trauma-related mental instability, graphic violence, attempts at coercion, gore/body horror
[ bio tba ]
portrayal notes. i will only write with a raphael after extensive plotting so we can make sure we're on the same page about things like the extent of hope's torture as well as the writers' comfort levels and boundaries. when writing with someone other than raphael, i will utilize my own headcanons about the extent of the torture (it was primarily psychological and almost never actually physically harming herβhe wanted to break her mind so that she would "willingly" physically serve him, and to physically harm her would impede on her ability to "willingly" physically serve him.)
ketheric is such a fun and fascinating character to me. man will really do anything for his daughter (derogatory). he's all faith and zero loyalty. he said ''the gods treat us like we're disposable so i'll do the same to them,'' and i love him for it.
full name. isobel thorm
alias/es. the beacon of last light inn
date of birth. tba
gender / pronouns. cis woman / she/her
orientation. lesbian
occupation. cleric
species. half-elf
appearance notes. the dark design around her eyes is a visual representation of her dedication to selΓ»ne and is not a tattoo but eyeliner, hence it smudges and is not present every day (but is present most days). before last light inn, her hair is black, but the stress of resurrection and maintaining the barrier surrounding last light inn takes its toll and shocks her hair to white.
while isobel was alive, the thorms had always been reverent worshipers of selΓ»ne, faithful and smiled upon as a result. though her mother died young, isobel was raised by her father, ketheric, doting and loving. eventually, she met aylin, selΓ»ne's angelic daughter, and fell in love.
there seemed to be little that could go wrong.
but ketheric did not approve of his daughter's relationship, when her life would be so short compared to the immortal demi-god aylin's, and began to seek out the means to end their love.
before he could succeed, isobel was murdered. she has few memories of how it happened, or when, or why, but when her eyes next opened, it was with a twisted image of her father looming over her. in the decades since her death, ketheric had turned first to shar, then to myrkul, and he was no longer the doting man she once knew.
she ran.
through the shadow-cursed lands, with selΓ»ne protecting her, isobel ran until she came to the last light inn. there, she assisted in plotting the end of her father.
velvet's info page will probably go through a few overhauls as i try to remember the ideas i had half-formed about her but never fucking wrote down anywhere.
date of birth. unknown
gender/pronouns. cis woman / she/her
orientation. panromantic / pansexual
occupation. bard
species. tiefling
appearance notes. pale pink tiefling with horns that begin over her forehead and point towards each other over her head and long, pink hair. black sclera with glowing pink irises. finger tips, tail tips, horn tips, and toe tips are solid black, and she has a solid black neck tattoo that shifts into a lace pattern around her jaw, black eyeliner seems permanently smudged into tear streaks. claw-like nails. dresses almost exclusively in black, sometimes accented with red ribbons.
relevant content warnings. graphic violence, gore/body horror including eye trauma, questionable bodily autonomy/themes similar to mind control/brainwashing, animal cruelty
when velvet awoke on the nautiloid, her mind a void of violence crying out for more, the wriggling behind her eye felt like the least of her problems. her fingers ached for blood, as if her very nails were naked without flesh under them.
with nothing to convince her otherwise, velvet allowed this to be who she was. each kill was a comfort, but not a reassurance. familiar, but not as her reflection. a devil she knew.
before she could separate the violence from her bones, a slew of victims trailed behind her, clawing at her from beyond the grave. each heavier than the last.
when her so-called butler gave her an assignment, she realized with outrage and horror the way she was being used, and for the first time in her memory refused the yearning for violence. as she faced isobel down atop the last light inn, bile rose in her throat and her blood boiled, but she demanded her freedom, even from herself.
whatever she was, she wasn't someone else's plaything, to be used and discarded.
portrayal notes. velvet is a bhaalspawn who was raised to worship ilmater, the compassionate god of suffering, after the child was found abandoned and alone. her parentage was largely unknown throughout her youth, as ilmater's influence served to overwhelm (but not silence) her father's bloodlust. with the nautiloid crash, however, there was little ilmater could do to reach the child he had taken in, leaving her with only the violent impulses that clouded her mind. red ribbons begin appearing more in her clothing after she refuses to kill isobel and especially after arriving at the open hand temple, where people know and recognize her.
aphrodite - original interpretation - private (hex only)
hades - original interpretation - private (hex only)
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lady schala - canon (chrono trigger β tagged as #ct for ts) - request-only
martel yggdarsill - canon (tales of symphonia β tagged as #tos for ts) - request-only
aayla secura - canon (star wars β tagged as #sw for ts) - request only
padme naberrie - canon (star wars β tagged as #sw for ts) - request only
gaila - canon/headcanon-heavy (star trek β tagged as #st for ts) - request only
kagura - canon (inuyasha β tagged as #anime for ts) - request only
michiru kaioh - canon (sailor moon β tagged as #anime for ts) - request only
