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hi im back lol so i was thinking of joining inktober and for the sake of keeping this account alive, do i post my work here?

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Show of hands, how many people did ‘Mindful Education’ hit way too close to home for?

It seemed throughout the series thus far Steven has managed to maintain his innocence, and that itself hasn’t changed. But it also seemed like nothing bothered him- at least not too much. But we’ve been building up to this, and its been a long time coming. 

I think Bismuth was the first time Steven really started to realize that he (and the Crystal Gems) had done some things that were truly morally gray. ‘Us Vs. Them’ was nothing new to him, but it’s different when you’re facing someone that’s one of your own. That didn’t mean the fight wasn’t necessary, but it also doesn’t mean it was any easier to face. 

Jasper was obviously different- she’s been presented as nothing but a villain through the series. But Steven? Given the opportunity he still wants to help, because that’s just who he is. Thing is, you can’t give advise to someone who isn’t ready to listen. It’s not your fault that they aren’t taking the helping hand you’re trying to give, but it still hurts when they don’t. 

Eyeball was a combination of Steven’s most pressing issues (and possibly why she was imagined as the biggest of Stevonnie’s visions). He tried to take the tactic of saying he WAS his mother- not that Eyeball believed him at first. Then she cracks her gem, and lets him help her despite herself. This of course ultimately becomes his undoing. Because Steven managed to heal her gem, she finally believes that he is Rose Quartz and wants him dead. For someone who believes in helping anyone no matter what, and always believes the best in people, this is probably a pretty big blow for him. At the time he was obviously focused on staying alive, which happened to result in sending her spiraling out into endless space. It was necessary, but it was a blow on two fronts: He finally used his mother’s legendary abilities to do what she would have done (heal someone), but ends up doing something that might effectively kill them when things went wrong- which when it comes to light, is also something that she probably would have done.

And it doesn’t sit easy with him. 

Up until this point all Steven ever wanted to do was to be able to fill his mother’s shoes. We already had this:

I’m not Rose Quartz.

But what happens when you discover that the person you’ve been trying so hard to become did things  you would never, not even in your wildest dreams, do? Worse yet: What happens when you do those exact same things?

When you spend too much time trying to be someone else, you start to lose yourself.  Steven feels not only that he has to be Rose Quartz, but that everyone else expects him to be Rose Quartz too. Above all, he just wants to make everyone happy, even if it means sacrificing his own happiness in return. So if that means suppressing everything he’s feeling about what’s happened, that’s what he’s going to try to do. 

And that’s when Rose goes from this:

To this:

You can’t hold all that inside and function long term, you just can’t. 

It’s scary to face the parts of yourself that you don’t like, and even harder to face the things you’ve done that you’re not proud of. But your inner demons are part of you too, and if you don’t face them they will devour you. 

Worse yet they can hurt the people around you and destroy the relationships that keep you whole. If you try to constantly push down the things that are haunting you for the sake of everyone around you, you will only isolate and destroy yourself. 

Garnet Said it best:

To find balance you must understand your feelings. To understand your feelings, you must see them clearly without running from them.

And that is a lesson we could all do to learn.

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Good God the part of this SU episode that hit me the most was how they used Garnet as a visual aid for the kids’ trauma.

Sapphire and Ruby didn’t get specific fears or thoughts, even if that would’ve been very easy to include. Instead, they got imagery that very clearly focused on their reactions and the consequences of flawed coping mechanisms. Ruby is prone to self-destructive hyperfocus on one thought, completely incapable of moving past it. Sapphire is “calm and collected” because she lets thoughts pile up until she completely overloads and shuts down.

With the mechanics of each coping flaw well-established, Ruby settles next to Connie, passing that imagery on to her. Connie was obsessing over the fact that she went into automatic panic mode and attacked that kid (understandably so). She’s scared of herself, and Ruby was there to show how heavily a single worry can weigh on someone so one-track-minded–to the point of both being blind to their partner’s distress.

Sapphire settles next to Steven. The one who’s always okay and always ready to go until he can’t push it aside any longer and completely shuts down. He didn’t even react to their falling to the presumed death. We saw Sapphire’s breakdown with the visual metaphor of that maelstrom of thoughts spiraling in on her like vultures. Now we have a sense of magnitude for what’s weighing on Steven, and how many things he’s been holding back because he doesn’t want to confront them.

Connie’s ready to tear herself apart over one butterfly. Steven didn’t acknowledge the butterflies as they showed up because if he faced one he’d have to face them all, which is far too much.

Garnet was and always is great every time I see her, but wow what a brilliant and gut-wrenching way to show how messed up these kids are…

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Mindful Education teaches you how to not only deal with problems and anxiety but also how different people react to their problems

Ruby and Sapphire perfectly show that people have different ways of not only dealing with problems but also how differently it can affect them

Ruby gets enraged and upset over a single ‘butterfly’ that represents a problem, while sapphire reacts mildly to two

However she is later swarmed by her problems, even then she reaches out for ruby, who is still consumed by her single butterfly, to help her before being overwhelmed.

Eventually ruby calms herself and runs to help sapphire.

This shows honestly that something that seems small to you might affect them on a scale you can’t understand. Also that they might not be able to handle things well as you can but that doesn’t make their problem invalid

While other people can bottle things up until they truly are overwhelmed.

However once connecting with someone they are close to they manage to comfort each other.

It shows that honestly any problem you have can be helped by a good friend or lover being there for you and that’s an important message.

There’s no wrong way to be anxious or upset, and there’s always a way to overcome it through love and trust

thank you for teaching the next generation that Rebecca

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HQ rip of “Here Comes A Thought” from Mindful Education

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Lyrics:

Here comes a thought

Take a moment to think of just Flexibility, love, and trust Take a moment to think of just Flexibility, love, and trust

Here comes a thought That might alarm you What someone said And how it harmed you

Something you did That failed to be charming Things that you said are Suddenly swarming

And now, you’re losing sight You’re losing touch All these little things seem to matter so much That they confuse you That I might lose you

Take a moment, remind yourself to Take a moment and find yourself Take a moment to ask yourself If this is how we fall apart

But it’s not, but it’s not, but it’s not, but it’s not, but it’s not It’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay You got nothing, got nothing, got nothing, got nothing to fear I’m here, I’m here, I’m here

Here comes a thought That might alarm me What someone said And how it harmed me

Something I did That failed to be charming Things that I said Are suddenly swarming

And now, I’m losing sight I’m losing touch All these little things seem to matter so much That they confuse me That I might lose me

Take a moment, remind yourself to Take a moment and find yourself Take a moment and ask yourself If this is how we fall apart

But it’s not, but it’s not, but it’s not, but it’s not, but it’s not It’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay I got nothing, got nothing, got nothing, got nothing to fear I’m here, I’m here, I’m here

And it was just a thought, just a thought, just a thought, just a thought, just a thought It’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay We can watch, we can watch, we can watch, we can watch them go by

From here, from here, from here Take a moment to think of just Flexibility, love, and trust Take a moment to think of just Flexibility, love, and trust

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im going on a date like a date date when i get home to the ph

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I am sobbing.

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Dubber, as Garnet: [monotone, slightly on tune] I will fight so that I can be gay.

Dubber, as Pearl: [not on tune at all] I will fight for the one I was gay for!

Dubber, as Amethyst: …I live here…

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i am weak whenever bokuto tugs/pulls kuroo’s shirt closer

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She’s a master

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People of the SU fandome watch this this is VERY important

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me: sends important text that took a lot of guts to send me: immediately turns off wifi, data, the phone itself, my laptop, hides both in a safe, hybernates self for 1.000 years,