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I am an alcoholic. And I’m only 20 years old. Make it stop.

Literally i didn’t understand your accident but now it’s so real and I’m so hurt and I had no idea I loved him that much.

I wish I didn’t call, and be sent to voice mail and then I see your snap of you with your new BFF...

I love you Rowan

I am sorry. You’re the only man I have truly ever cared about besides blood. I felt like I would do anything for you even though I’m never with you or never even spent the night with you or never even had more than just a few hours with you. Our last conversation was really bad and you unfriended me on Snapchat and it hurt more than anything. We haven’t talked for months yet you text me and tell me that you were in a motorcycle accident but you’re OK and you thought I’d wanna know. I really didn’t think you cared I thought you hated me I thought you wanted nothing to do with me and that’s why you didn’t fucking care anymore. But yet you still texted me when you knew something was wrong and when something is wrong we talk. I’ve been so scared to talk to you because I love you so much and I never wanted to ruin it and I thought that I ruined it and maybe if I left you alone I wouldn’t ruin it as much but you texted me first I don’t know how to handle that but it’s so good but so bad but I just want to love you and I just want to like fly there right now but I know that I can’t I’m so happy that he’s OK. I’ve never ever had this muchEmotion for someone before and it’s really overwhelming no matter how much I try and believe that it’s not true it’s true and it’s so hard to realize that me and Rowan have an unbreakable bond that will never be broken no matter what happens. And if there comes a point like right now or we don’t talk or where we didn’t talk or maybe remarry other people grow and Gardner will still be in my heart and still always be what I want no matter what I pretend I want instead. I will always want him and always want our life together because Raeden Gardner is the only one that will truly ever love me and understand me the way that I understand him in every way. I wish he didn’t push me away and I wish I didn’t push them away and I wish we lived in the same place and I wish that we could be 25 and married. God bless.

I dunno why I started acting like this.

I dunno I dunno I dunno.

Hold back. Don’t break.

Don’t open up. Don’t let people know.

Keep my doors deadbolted.

Keep wondering about me.

You don’t know.

I don’t want you to know.

Don’t make decisions based on fear.

My heart pounds more and more.

Why do I keep making mistakes.

I’m too scared.

I’m too scared to be myself.

Hold my ground.

Lying is easier than being me.

Holding myself to a standard.

Never keeping my views.

Take away any part of me.

I will do it wrong.

My bags are so heavy.

I don’t wanna carry these anymore.

Make them disappear.

Your not what they want.

Change.

Being someone else is better than me.

Keep my bubble of inconsistenty.

Keep your heart bolted up.

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Idk anymore

It’s hard when so many people I know have tried killing them selves many times. And I see it all over the internet about people killing them selfs or almost. I relate so much it’s frustrating because no one elSe gets it. But me too. I desperately want to die. I hate living. But here I am. I’m not sure why.

I want to cut my skin

I havnt felt this way in a long time. I felt it all day. Just make the pain bareble. Just slice my skin open and let it be. No one will know. I can go around and I’ll be okay. But he will see my body. I’m supposed to be grown. But all I want is some relief.

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cute date idea

you drugging me, kidnapping me and making me your personal sex toy <3

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True

Everything feels bad and I feel guilty and I know things are weird and I’m fucking up but me and my best friend have no idea what’s going on in each others life’s. It’s awkward I hate it. I wanna die I’ve never wanted to self harm and sice open my wrists but no I’m too old to do that I tell myself and than the guy I’m dating but not we arnt calling it dating would see all the cuts and it wouldn’t go well: I’m so depressed I really wanna kill myself lately. It’s horrible I’m so alone and I don’t wanna be home but I’ll feel guilty if I’m not home and that’s weird and I need to go do something with my life but I’m not yet and I feel like I’m failing but I’m not and I think things are really fucked up with my mom and I’m I’m so tired of hating my family but I’m so tired of their bulkshit I don’t understand. All I want is a nice sharp knife cutting me.. I’m sorry.

I did something bad

I know myself, I know I can’t use substances. But I did. And I loved it. And it made me feeel better. And that’s why I can’t use them. Because they will be the love of my life.

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When I said I like it rough I meant the sex not the whole fucking relationship cunt

I want you to know, I know what you did was wrong and I now know it. You took advantage of me when I didn’t know better. I know that know. And I’ll never let another man treat me the way you did.