Love Will Tear Us Apart

Why is the bedroom so cold? You've turned away on your side. Is my timing that flawed? Our respect runs so dry. Yet there's still this appeal, that we've kept through our lives. *This is a roleplay blog*

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THE PROLOGUE

❝ civil blood makes civil hands unclean. ❞

❝ i am a child of a money hungry, prideful country. ❞

❝ hands so bloody, tastes like honey. ❞

❝ i’m finding it hard to leave ❞

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❝ i find myself alone at night unless i’m having sex. ❞

❝ i don’t let him touch me anymore. ❞

❝ i’m not something to butter up and taste when you get bored. ❞

❝ i have spent too many nights on dirty bathroom floors. ❞

❝ please don’t go away ❞

❝ it’s too late. ❞

❝ i can’t stop thinking that i almost gave you everything. ❞

❝ i can’t stop wishing that i never gave you anything. ❞

EYES CLOSED

❝ i know where to lay. ❞

❝ i know what to say. ❞

❝ it’s all the same. ❞

❝ i know how to play. ❞

❝ if i keep my eyes closed he looks just like you. ❞

❝ he’ll never stay, they never do. ❞

❝ if i keep my eyes closed he feels just like you. ❞

❝ you’ve been replaced. ❞

❝ i’m face to face with someone new. ❞

❝ tell me where i went wrong. ❞

❝ tell me how to move on. ❞

❝ he don’t realize that i’m thinking about you. ❞

HEAVEN IN HIDING

❝ no time for wishful thinking. ❞

❝ i can put up one good fight. ❞

❝ i can put on a show. ❞

❝ don’t you see what you’re finding? ❞

❝ this is heaven in hiding. ❞

❝ i don’t have no time for conversation. ❞

ALONE

❝ i’m still alone in my mind. ❞

❝ i know you’re dying to meet me. ❞

❝ baby, as soon as you meet me, you’ll wish that you never did. ❞

NOW OR NEVER

❝ i don’t wanna fight right now. ❞

❝ we’re running out of time. ❞

❝ i’m calling it a night. ❞

❝ trying to talk to a wall, but you could never tear it down for me. ❞

❝ i want you to love me now or never. ❞

SORRY

❝ i’ve missed your calls for months it seems. ❞

❝ i still know your birthday. ❞

❝ sorry that i can’t believe that anybody ever really starts to fall in love with me. ❞

❝ sorry i could be so blind, didn’t mean to leave you and all of the things that we had behind. ❞

❝ i run away when things are good. ❞

❝ it seems i broke your heart. ❞

❝ someone will love you, but someone isn’t me. ❞

GOOD MOURNING

❝ there’s a place where love conquers all. ❞

❝ don’t trust the moon, she’s always changing. ❞

❝ she begs to be loved. ❞

LIE

❝ breakfast is cold. ❞

❝ i’m watching you choke down the words that you said. ❞

❝ i get the message you wish i was dead. ❞

❝ if you don’t love me no more, then lie. ❞

WALLS COULD TALK

❝ i’m about four minutes from a heart attack. ❞

❝ i think you make me a maniac. ❞

❝ damn, if these walls could talk. ❞

❝ shit is crazy, right? ❞

❝ that ain’t your baby no more. ❞

BAD AT LOVE

❝ he’s calling me a bitch again. ❞

❝ i believe that we’re meant to be. ❞

❝ jealousy got the best of me. ❞

❝ i always make the same mistakes. ❞

❝ i’m bad at love, but you can’t blame me for trying. ❞

DON’T PLAY

❝ i don’t give a damn what you say to me. ❞

❝ i’m moving on. ❞

❝ motherfucker, don’t play with me. ❞

STRANGERS

❝ she doesn’t kiss me on the mouth anymore. ❞

❝ she doesn’t look me in the eyes anymore. ❞

❝ we’re not lovers, we’re just strangers. ❞

❝ she doesn’t call me on the phone anymore. ❞

❝ i must’ve crossed a line. ❞

❝ i must’ve lost my mind. ❞

❝ i miss the mornings with you laying in my bed. ❞

❝ i miss the thought of a forever, you and me. ❞

❝ all you’re missing is my body. ❞

ANGEL ON FIRE

❝ nobody seems to ask about me anymore. ❞

❝ nobody seems to care about what i think. ❞

❝ look at me. ❞

❝ i’m faded away. ❞ 

❝ you know, i used to be on fire. ❞

❝ i’m standing in the ashes of who i used to be. ❞

DEVIL IN ME

❝ i scream too loud if i speak my mind. ❞

❝ i don’t wanna wake it up, the devil in me. ❞

❝ you said i’m too much to handle. ❞

❝ now i gotta wake it up, the devil in me. ❞

HOPELESS

❝ boy, you make it look so easy. ❞

❝ sorry, baby girl, but i can’t tonight. ❞

❝ you know the truth hurts, but secrets kill. ❞

❝ you and all your friends hate me. ❞

❝ it’s easy to forgive. ❞

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“do this sort of thing regularly, do you? – breaking & entering?” because that was what they were doing; no two ways about it. connor led the way, and jim followed quickly: he was no CHICKEN, that was for damn sure. “scared? of what? i’ve done way worse than this.”

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“I do it often, yes. Whenever I get bored” he shrugged and turned around so that he could focus on the door he was trying to pry open. Looking over his shoulder directly at the other, he smirked. “Mhm, my kind of guy” he teased and winked before he looked at the door again.

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Connor’s tears simply started a domino effect of emotions; Tamaki was soon welling up, the small kisses seemed heartfelt and the rain poured down over them. Forcing a weak smile, he tried to look up to the usually calm man. He most definitely seemed more real than ever, breaking down the coy grins and Fido jokes. “You never have to cry again… okay?”

He was a horrible person, through and through. And one way or another people noticed that and just left him. It was karma biting him in the ass. And even though he sometimes wondered what it would be like to just be nice, he can’t find it within himself to be that, to be nice. Maybe he was born to be mean and cold. Maybe he was meant to be horrible. And it was rather sad to think about that. Hearing his words, the tears only got worse as a choked sob left him.

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It was strange, of course to make such a move on the same sex, but somehow it was needed in this moment. All the teasing was fine but to see someone he was growing towards break down, his own walls built up. Every side was blended into each other; the romantic Host, the intelligent student, the caring son. It all came together to make Tamaki. Forgiving the rain for the cold, his cheeks were heating up with the gentle kiss but he never broke it for a moment, only keeping soft, light pecks to the lips.

He was just so tierd, so drained. Recently all he had been doing was remember the things that have happened in his life. He was amazed that he have lasted this long. That only proved that he was stronger than he thought he was. He rarely cried but when he did, people always reacted. How the cold Connor Walsh could actually be human. As he felt the pecks Tamaki left on his lips, he sighed and relaxed.

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“You have no idea how many times I hear those specific words every single day” he said and chuckled softly. As he tilted his head, he walked up to him and pouted. “Are you scared? A little chicken?” he teased, ruffling his hair before he turned around and entered the house.

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Tamaki would have said something but he was soon cut off by the kiss on the lips. His heart seemed to come to a crashing halt, the emotions and confusion rushing through him. He just managed to keep a small enough distance to keep the conversation quiet. “Saying you “can’t” love someone isn’t right. You don’t know if you just stick with the “can’t love”. Everyone can….but you need to let them in.” His voice grew smaller by the second, but in impulse he leaned in to return the kiss, pouring every ounce of emotion and reassurance into that small moment.

Looking at him and his freshly kissed lips, he frowed when he heard his words. He wanted to tell him why he couldn’t let him in, why he had to protect him the best he could. Yes, they were far away from Annalie, but he still feared that she would find him. One way or another, she always found him. He didn’t have time to reply before he felt Tamaki’s lips on his own again, Pulling him closer, he kissed him back with a soft sigh. Long overdo. Even if the situation wasn’t ideal, they were actually kissing. And that was more than he had thought would happen.

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The rain just managed to cloud his vision as he was pulled back, turning to face Connor as he begged him. He knew the cold words were trying to hide it but for the wall to break down like this, still proved to be a shock. “Pushing me away is just allowing those voices to win you over.” He spoke in a low voice, trying to reason. Despite being overly flirtatious, Tamaki did in fact have his intelligent moments, and he was smarter than he appeared. “I know how it feels, to try and be strong but inside you are terrified to let anyone in. I have seen it in others so many times, but these voices are just that. Voices. If you want a voice to rely on or listen to. Listen to mine, because I certainly will not leave you.”

His hand let go off the other as he closed his eyes, trying to block everything out. He had been keeping everything on the inside for so long. No tears for months, he’s been numb. Like a machine. He knew that he didn’t deserve to be happy but still he needed to be just that; happy. And he had been happy but he lost that, he always lost everything that was good in his life. So he knew that if he let the other in, he would lose him. “You will leave, they all do” he whispered and started to pace around. Having a hard time breathing, he looked at him and cupped his face. Leaning in, he planted a soft and tender kiss on his lips. Putting as much passion as possible into that short kiss, he then leaned back. “I can’t love anyone again”

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Tamaki felt his heart break into shards. Pieces was too small a word to even describe as he could feel the jagged pain in his chest. He just about managed to choke back a sound similar to a sob, but he gathered his strength to hit back with one more poisonous line. “Not everyone can move on as easily as you, Connor Walsh. Think about that next time you play your games.” The Host stepped back and began to walk away in the rain, desperately trying to wipe away any traces of tears. Although he seemed pure, he had to be strong. So many times he had to stand up and finally be a man his name could carry with pride. It was such a shame that despite that moment, he wished this rain drenched night would end differently.

He had been in love before, that was why he didn’t do it again. Losing Oliver was the worst thing that had ever happened to him. That break up changed the man, it changed him for the worse. As he stood there, the water washing down on him and his body getting colder by each passing second, the words hit him hard but he didn’t react. He just stood there as he heard Tamaki walk away. Closing his eyes, memorise flashed before him once again. Panicked hit him, he felt like he was in Philly all over again. That Annalise was looking for him, that everyone was looking for him. To be alone, that was what he had to be. To protect people, to protect himself. But the selfish need for companionship was still there, all thanks to his previous relationship. So he turned around and just walked, trying to reach Tamaki before it was too late. Grabbing him, he took deep breaths. “Don’t go, don’t leave me with the voices”

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“I’ve used that line far too many times to know that is bullshit.” He growled under his breath, glaring up at Connor. What else was there to say? After trying to acknowledge that he was straight, somehow his emotions were messed up over a guy, with the same arrogance as him. Now he felt the same as many customers felt. Like it was indeed a fantasy. “Well, I fell for you because of that… so too bad for you.” Tamaki mirrored Connor’s own words before turning his back in the rain. Too late to hide his emotions, but his words were surely damaging enough. 

Running his hand through his messy hair, he closed his eyes. God, he just needed to be alone. He needed to protect him from the disaster that was Connor Walsh. He was a killer, he had blood on his hands. No one deserved to be with him, especially not someone as pure as Tamaki. Because compared to him, he was. He was so pure. Those words sent a chill down his spine and he had to clear his throat to pull himself together. “I don’t feel the same way. I am not interested. Move on” he shrugged, the pain on his face was visible but thank god, his back was facing Tamaki.

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“So what? You’re just going to walk away?” Tamaki scowled, following Connor as he walked ahead. He didn’t even care that the rain was scattering around them while he tried to yell ahead. “The first sign of someone actually welcoming you into their life and you just hide? Does it scare you to think that someone in this world could actually have genuine feelings for you, huh?!” The rain merged with tears, as the Host yelled back. “Well, does it?!!”

Not answering him, he turned around again and walked faster. That was when memorise hit him like a truck. All of the horrible things he had done with the rest of the gang. All of the thngs Annalise had made them do. He swore he could smell the smoke from that specific bonfire. And that only made his blood run cold and heart pound in his chest. Panting as his body started to ache, he was so close to the breaking point. But he tried to keep the emotions at bay. “You’re not my type. I was just messing with you” he lied.

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“You think this is a joke?” Tamaki scowled up at the figure before him. “Do you just expect me to crawl back when you need it? You seem to forget I’m a Host, not some cheap escort!” He was struggling to fight back the tears, first expecting the confession to just be another playful jest when in reality, it was now escalating into genuine feelings. “Don’t try to talk me down with a cute confession and expect everything to be fine. If you have something to tell me, say it like you damn mean it!” He barked at him, forgetting the tears were now staining his cheeks. “I’ve been lead on for far too long, to just be let down again…”

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As he tried to run away from his tormentor, his heart broke with each word that left his words.  But Connor was great at hiding his true emotions under layers and layers of ice and teasing. He didn’t let people in and for a good reason. They always got hurt or killed. They always ran away when things got tough. To be with Connor Walsh was a death sentence. So he had no idea why he had confessed, why he had asked him out. Maybe for a short moment of bliss, he thought he could be happy again. Taking a deep breath, he stopped dead in his tracks and turned around. “Well, I am a walking, talking let down so too bad for you”

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❛ I can’t believe you asked me that. ❜ ( tamaki : @prxncelytype HAVE FUN )

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Looking at him with a blank stare, his shoulders slumped down and a shaky breath left his parted lips. His gaze fell onto the floor as he tried to collect his thoughts, trying to calm down from the outburst he had just experienced. Did he confess that he was attracted to him? You bet he did. Fucking idiot. And had he really just asked him out? Yes, he sure had. But from that reaction alone he already knew that it was one sided. Nodding slowly at the realization, Connor stood up and just walked away, he had to be alone.

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❛ I can’t believe you won’t drop it already. ❜ [ from evan / @wordfail !! ]

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Rolling his eyes when he heard his words, Connor couldn’t help but chuckle. “Oh I do love to push people’s buttons in. Especially when they give me these kinds of reactions” he said and smirked, tilting his head to the side as he studied him. “Oh did I hurt your pathetic feelings? Well, tough shit” he snapped and shrugged, standing up and walking away. Yep, Connor was back.