a lost daughter is just called lost.

𝘼 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙨𝙤𝙣 𝙞𝙨 𝙘𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙙 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙙𝙞𝙜𝙖𝙡. 𝘼 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙙𝙖𝙪𝙜𝙝𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙞𝙨 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙘𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙙 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙩.

[fearbeats]

FEARBEATS. a selective afton original character originally set in the fnaf universe and featuring crossover verses. previously at feardrummed and sorevivals. by ant (she/they).

I am angry because of my father. I can hold a grudge like it’s a hand.

WARNING: this blog will include triggering content such as child abuse and neglect, murder, suicidal ideation, and substance use, including underage use. i will attempt to tag major mentions but follow at your own risk as the themes are persistent in her interactions.

doc. memes. opens. multimuse. addison. rachel.

[fearbeats]

@takenhits: ‘ well, this explains a lot. ’

carried over from sorevivals

Ollie and Marko's casual...thing was far from a secret, but clearly, Michael hadn't exactly picked up on it. She supposed that, compared to how he was with David, it probably does look like their trying to hide it. Though that says more about how clingy Michael and David than it does about her and Marko. Hell, she's made plenty of comments alluding to it, they just must have gone over Michael's head. Not...the biggest shock, admittedly.

They had been messing around on their own, and by the fact that Michael finds them in the first place, they apparently lost track of time. At least they hadn't been doing anything graphic. Still, when he initially speaks and she catches him from the corner of her vision, there's a fleeting moment of panic. Admittedly, before she has a moment to rationally think through who is interrupting him, she briefly thinks it's her twin, resulting in her fully shoving Marko away.

As Marko heads off, Ollie realizes who it actually is, and she relaxes, running a hand over her hair. "Didn't think David would send a goddamn search party because someone's a couple minutes late." It was probably more than a couple minutes. "How much do they really need to practice the same four chords anyway?" She'll leave it to Michael to ask any questions he might have.

[fadeintoyou1993]

SOPHIE THATCHER as SADIE HARPER The Boogeyman (2023)

[fearbeats]

@cool2bqueer: "well, this explains a lot" for ollie

carried over from sorevivals

Ollie doesn't really know why she had lingered around the old steel mill that day besides the fact that she wasn't really ready to sleep yet, but at the sight of the younger teens sneaking around, she's glad she did. She recognizes Sam, and she has a vague idea of who the Frogs are. It doesn't take that much digging in any of their minds to realize what their plan is, and it sends her rushing in to get in their way.

Although she keeps an eye on the Frogs, trying to make sure they're not going to do anything stupid, it's Sam she focuses on. She can reason with Sam, right? They both want to help Michael. Even if Ollie has more selfish reasons for wanting to help. She knows Sam doesn't like her, sure, but she can talk to him. Either way, she has to—if she doesn't, there's no way this doesn't end badly for everyone. His comment isn't a great start, clearly lumping her in with what he thinks as the enemy and maybe that's fair, but there isn't much alternative that doesn't end with the kids or her friends dead, right?

"Yeah, I know, shocker of the century, right?" She hopes a strained joke will work as an olive branch. "But listen to me. I know what your plan is. but you got this wrong. David's not the head vampire, alright? It's Max." Maybe not the best to suggest that she's in their heads enough to know what their plan is, but what option is there? Not to mention that she only knows about Max from getting in David's head.

"I'm trying to help you, to help Michael. And frankly, Max is a piece of shit, too. Going after David isn't gonna end well for anyone—fuck, you guys clearly don't even know which one David is." Considering they were about to go after Marko before she got in the way.

[fearbeats]

incredibly messed up that i have to go to iop when my ollie muse is suddenly very loud

[fearbeats]

WHAT DOES YOUR HEART LOOK LIKE?

molten lava and charred flesh

Your heart burned so fiercely that it burnt itself out, leaving horrible scars in its wake; scars inside your chest and on the hands of those who touched you, the hearts of anyone who got close enough to connect to yours. The person you are now is no longer recognizable, burnt up by your own anger and passion and love. The injuries can never be fully erased, but they can be soothed with time and trust and forgiveness.

tagged by @bravebitten

tagging: you

[fearbeats]

@takenhits: ‘ that desert was the death of me. ’ solidarity

carried over from sorevivals

Ollie chuckles a little, leaning on the railing of the boardwalk and looking out over the ocean through her sunglasses. It's definitely a different place during the day, that's for sure. She still doesn't love being out in the daylight, sure, but there's something to be said with the fact that this when she can spend time with Michael without...interruptions. And if Michael feels he's too tired to go out, well...no he's not, not for her. At the very least, it's a fairly relaxed outing, just them wandering around and talking.

"Yeah, I grew up a couple hours outside of Vegas, so I hear you on that one." Both in terms of literally growing up in that sort of environment, and the stuff he doesn't say, but she knows about regardless. The weight of carrying a family on your own is something she can relate to, to some extent. Not that she's offered to share that comparison. There's a tug of guilt at her, knowing so much about him without him ever agreeing to that and her having shared so little in return.

But she can't get into it, and the discomfort is too much to sit with herself, so she shoves it aside. "But we're out of it now, but you're not gonna feel any of that holed up in your room all day." Deliberately ignoring that he's in his room all day because he's with the others all night. Details.

She looks over at him. "I mean, what'd I say? That morning air wakes you right up, doesn't it?" Her tone is genuine, though deep down she knows it won't be a real answer. She knows she made him come out, felt the exhaustion radiating off him when she stopped by his house. He didn't want to come out, and any enjoyment he's getting out of it, any positive answer that comes out of his mouth is because she's in his head, nothing more. And yet she still craves the reassurance from him that yes, this was a good idea, that he's having a good time.

She grimaces, though it's more at her own thoughts than what she's about to say, "Though, honestly, I think the ocean's kinda overrated or something. All that talk of it being beautiful and shit, it's just a big thing of water." She scoffs, "I'm not really a swimmer, if you couldn't tell."

[horrorwomensource]

COMPANION 2025 | Drew Hancock

[takenhits]

THE SUDDEN REALIZATION is the result of buildup over time, a gnawing suspicion and continued notice of something feeling off, but he hardly even planned on finding that answer now. Michael stumbled into it, entirely unprepared for what he saw. Headlines and old photographs— she was younger, but unmistakably Ollie, next to a boy with his name and a striking resemblance... almost. Now, he stands before her with everything he thought he knew yet again in shambles. How many times? How many choices made, feelings that were not his own flooding through his head to follow her subtle pushes? All the confusing things she has said to him left without answers click into place now.

Maybe he should have expected this, staying close to vampires. He wishes the horror of her abilities is what hurt the most. Instead, the thought that none of their connection was ever about him makes Michael feel sick.

"You don't know?" Michael repeats with downturned brows and stiff shoulders, angry and guarded. His eyes don't hide as well, hurt pictured in the sheen over them. "This doesn't just happen on accident, Ollie! It's not about what happened before, you kept doing it!" A nudge to save his life, he could understand ( even be grateful for ), but this? "You— you made me do things, feel things— I knew something wasn't right, and you still... you did it even after you knew me. I'm not him, and I'm never gonna be him. You just wanted me to..." His voice trails off, breathing hard. "Was anything ever even real?"

@fearbeats

[fearbeats]

"I don't know," she repeats, moving her hands away from her forehead and gesturing vaguely, as if that will somehow prove she's telling the truth. "No, it wasn't an accident, but it just happened so quickly, and everything was just...blurring together, and it just...I didn't mean for..." Does it matter what she meant to have happen? She still did it, and it's less about the fact that she meant to have anything happen and more that she hadn't thought about what she was doing at all. "I'm sorry, Michael, I...I don't know what to say, I'm sorry." Though, as she says it, the hazy memory of breaking into his room one night thinking it was her brother, trying to apologize for leaving him.

Looking at Michael now, she can see the differences she hadn't fully noticed before, though the similarities still tug at her. It only enhances the confusion and panic she's feeling now.

"It wasn't like that." Then what was it like? What does she have to say for herself. "Fuck, I don't even know what times I actually did it, I..." It's not comforting, especially in regards to the question of anything being real, but it is honest. She knows there were some times where she nudged him one way or the other, to push her to hang out with her instead of his family or the boys, to go out when he was actually too tired for it. And then she knows there were times where she wasn't in his head. But then there are moments where it feels hazy, where she's not sure if she had been in his head. "I—" she swallows, looking away, "Yes, some of it was. I liked you." Past tense, because she's sure he won't want anything to do with her now. In truth, when she hadn't been so deep in trying to find her brother in him, she recognized more of herself. And beyond that, she saw something else. But it's too late for that, now, isn't it? "But I can't...I don't know what parts, it's all a mess, I'm sorry."

[outxsourced]

SCHOOL SPIRITS 3x01-3x04 SENTENCE STARTERS

all lines are pulled from episodes 3x01-3x04 of paramount's school spirits. feel free to adjust wording and pronouns as needed.

“Are you dead?”

“Do not tell me what we ‘need’ to do.”

“Did you have something to do with this?”

“Did he die?”

“Do you believe me now?”

“I’m feeling a lot of things.”

“You can’t leave just yet.”

“They said we’re too codependent and they are ‘not interested in our drama’.”

“Yeah, that was your first mistake.”

“Yeah, I know you don’t believe that, and you know you don’t believe that.”

“Since when did looking for a logical explanation become the crazy take?”

“Is it safe?”

“God, this place is a constant lesson in futility.”

“Maybe he’s on to something.”

“Who needs ribs, anyway?”

“I can’t let you in there.”

“What does that even mean?”

“I’d recognize that post-ironic glitter gel pen anywhere.”

“For once, not knowing doesn’t feel like a reason to stay.”

“Is this a TikTok thing?”

“I wish I could hold you.”

“I’m sorry, that was corny.”

“I know what I saw.”

“How could you not mention this?”

“If everyone presented themselves as who they really are, would we ever trust anyone?”

“You’re like, the toughest person I’ve ever met.”

“In spite of how it might feel, this is a safe space.”

“We got you the first 300 times.”

“This conversation isn’t over.”

“It feels like you’ve been avoiding me.”

“You said we could talk later. Is now later enough?”

“Nobody wants to be stuck here with you forever.”

“You have no idea what you could be messing with.”

“Maybe sometimes bad things just happen.”

“Don’t let anyone trick you into thinking that you don’t get a say.”

“Do you want me to stay here? I’ll crash on the couch, or the front porch—anywhere that’s level, really.”

“That’s a felony!”

“Please, keep your voice down.”

“What are you doing here?”

“I just wanted to escape from things.”

“You’re not as stupid as you look.”

“You’re spending too much time together.”

“How about a little hustle, sport?”

“Okay, can’t you just give me a break here? I’m asking you for advice.”

[redstonedust]

love wearing all black in public i hope no large gaseous heat emitting orb in the sky comes along and makes my day worse

[fearbeats]

FEARBEATS. a selective afton original character originally set in the fn.af universe and featuring crossover verses. previously at feardrummed and sorevivals. by ant (she/they). psd.

"and bless the daughter but fuck the family. what is a home if not the first place you learn to run from? you've got to bite the hand that starves you, and in doing so praise the place that birthed you. birthed you fucked up. birthed you ugly, and interesting, and ready to scream."

[gloomglimmer-deactivated2026080]

 ›     HORROR   TENSION   STARTERS   PT   I. 

"Don’t   turn   around."

"Did   you   hear   that?"

"You’re   not   alone   here."

"It’s   already   too   late."

"Something’s   watching   us."

"Stay   quiet.   Stay   still."

"They’re   right   behind   you."

"I   wouldn’t   go   in   there."

"Whatever   you   do,   run."

"Keep   the   lights   on."

"I   saw   it   move."

"Don't   let   it   see   you."

"You’re   shaking."

"It   knows   your   name."

"I   can   smell   the   blood."

"Don’t   breathe.   Not   yet."

"It’s   inside   the   house."

"Close   the   door.   Now."

"You   weren’t   supposed   to   survive."

"They’re   coming   for   you."

"It's   already   inside   you."

"I   told   you   not   to   look."

"You're   not   safe   with   me."

"It’s   feeding   on   us."

"This   place   is   cursed."

"Why   are   you   smiling?"

"I’m   not   alone   in   here."

"You’re   bleeding."

"You're   not   you   anymore."

"Get   away   from   me."

"Don’t   trust   what   you   see."

"I   heard   it   whisper."

"It’s   wearing   your   face."

"You   weren’t   supposed   to   find   this."

"The   walls   are   listening."

"We’re   trapped   with   it."

"You’re   next."

"You’re   too   late."

"Did   you   lock   the   door?"

"It’s   already   in   your   head."

"Stop   smiling.   It’s   not   funny."

"That   wasn’t   me."

"You   brought   it   here."

"It’s   under   the   bed."

"You   should’ve   stayed   dead."

"It’s   not   over   yet."

"They   never   left."

"This   isn’t   real...   is   it?"

"It’s   learning."

[cemeterybox]

♯ IT'S FRIDAY, I'M IN LOVE. ↪ the following is a random assortment of lyric prompts taken from the discography of the cure. feel free to adjust wherever necessary.

"inspire in me the desire in me to never go home."

"screaming at the moon... another past time."

"one more day like today and i'll kill you."

"i think it's dark, and it looks like rain."

"your trust, the most gorgeously stupid thing i ever cut in the world."

"i never said i would stay in the end."

"can't you see i try? swimming the same deep water as you is hard."

"the further i get from the things that i care about, the less i care about how much further away i get."

"it's easier for me to get closer to heaven than ever feel whole again."

"it's so cold, it's like the cold if you were dead."

"i must've been asleep for days."

"it still took you a while to get it out of me, i thought you'd do it easily."

"the way the rain comes down hard, that’s how i feel inside."

"it's torture, but i'm almost there."

"i never thought that this day would end."

"any love you once felt for me, has turned into this travesty of selfishness and jealousy."

"why can't i just let you go?"

"i miss the kiss of treachery."

"there was nothing in the world i ever wanted more than to feel you deep in my heart."

"i didn't feel a thing when you told me that you didn't feel a thing."

"don't struggle like that or i will only love you more."

"i've got blood on my hands."

"i've got hands in my brain."

"your face, i'll never see you this way again. i captured it so perfectly as if i knew you'd disappear away."

"i would tell you that i love you if i thought that you would stay."

"for how much longer can i cry like this?"

"your tongue is like poison."

"the world is neither fair nor unfair."

"please love me."

"now that i know that i'm breaking to pieces, i'll pull out my heart and i'll feed it to anyone."

"i don't care if you don't. and i don't feel if you don't."

"i like you to scream."

"if you open your mouth, then i can't be responsible for what goes in or to care what comes out."

"let's go to bed."

"no matter how far away, i will always love you."

"how beautiful you are."

"sometimes i'm dreaming while all the other people dance."

"i will never be clean again."

"you're just like a dream."

"you promised me..."

"oh, kiss me, kiss me, kiss me!"

"its better to forget, than to remember me and cry."

"three long years and your favourite man, is that anyway to say hello?"

"you hold me like you'll never let me go."

"please stop loving me."

[sobblesources]

DETOX JUST TO RETOX ,

a collection of sentence starters taken from fall out boy's album , folie à deux . edited to fit rp needs , adjust pronouns as necessary . tw for drug mentions , swears

❛ i'm coming apart at the seams , ❜

❛ there's a hole where something was , ❜

❛ you'll never remember , your head is far too blurry , ❜

❛ restrain that man ! ❜

❛ he needs his head put through a cat scan , ❜

❛ i'm a loose bolt of a complete machine , ❜

❛ i'm half doomed , & you're semi sweet , ❜

❛ i'd promise you anything for another shot at life , ❜

❛ nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy , ❜

❛ say my name & his in the same breath , i dare you to say they taste the same , ❜

❛ these friends , they don't love you , ❜

❛ i don't care what you think , as long as it's about me , ❜

❛ the best of us can find happiness in misery , ❜

❛ i'm not a chance , but a heatwave in your pants , ❜

❛ free love on the streets , but in the alley it ain't that cheap , ❜

❛ life's just a pace car on death , only less diligent , ❜

❛ we had a good run , even i have to admit , ❜

❛ hell , or glory , i don't want anything in between , ❜

❛ you gotta show the world the thunder , ❜

❛ this is a demonstration , ❜

❛ they always bring up how you've changed , ❜

❛ you could've knocked me out with a feather , ❜

❛ why won't the world revolve around me ? ❜

❛ i don't know much about classic cars , ❜

❛ i got a lot of friends stuck on classic coke , ❜

❛ i'm in love with my own sins , ❜

❛ you can bow & pretend that you don't know you're a legend , ❜

❛ yeah , sorry i just . . . ❜

❛ when he walks into the room , the walls lean in to listen , ❜

❛ i don't just want to be a footnote in someone else's happiness , ❜

❛ does your husband know the way the sunshine gleams from your wedding band ? ❜

❛ i will never end up like him , ❜

❛ oh darling , i know what you're going through , ❜

❛ get unique , ❜

❛ what if you peaked early ? ❜

❛ does he know the way i worship our love ? ❜

❛ sometimes i wanna quit this all & become an accountant , but i'm no good at math & besides , the dollar is down , ❜

❛ i wanna scream i love you from the top of my lungs , but i'm afraid that someone else will hear me , ❜

❛ you can only blame your problems on the world for so long , ❜

❛ no comment , ❜

❛ tell that boy i'll leave you alone , ❜

❛ i can't explain a thing , ❜

❛ i want everything to change & stay the same , ❜

❛ time doesn't care about anyone or anything , ❜

❛ when they made me , they broke the mold , ❜

❛ i will never believe in anything again , ❜

❛ i love the mayhem more than the love , ❜

❛ i got troubled thoughts , & the self esteem to match , ❜

❛ what a catch , ❜

❛ you'll never catch us ! ❜

❛ i'll be fine 'til the hospital , or american embassy , ❜

❛ i still want you back , ❜

❛ i'm the one who charmed the one who gave up on you , ❜

❛ they say the captain goes down with the ship , so when the world ends , will god go down with it ? ❜

❛ maybe he won't find out what i know , ❜

❛ sugar , we're going down swinging , ❜

❛ this ain't a scene , it's a goddamned arms race , ❜

❛ thanks for the memories , even though they weren't so great , ❜

❛ he tastes like you , only sweeter , ❜

❛ if home is where the heart is , then we're all just fucked , ❜

❛ i want it so bad , ❜

❛ i can't remember the good old days , ❜

❛ we take everyone in , ❜

❛ you shine in the sky , ❜

❛ are all the good times getting gone ? ❜

❛ they come & go & go , & come & go , ❜

❛ i've got a lot of friends who are stars , but some are just black holes , ❜

❛ i'm not a crybaby , i'm the crybaby , ❜

❛ hate me , baby , ❜

❛ my friends all lie & say they only want the best wishes for me , ❜

❛ you're a faded moon , ❜

❛ you're a classic , like a little black dress stuck on a little hot mess , ❜

❛ i can feel the weather in my bones , ❜

❛ i am just venting , ❜

❛ i'm a young one stuck in the thoughts of an old one's head , ❜

❛ when all the others were just stirring awake , i'm trying to trick myself to fall asleep again , ❜

❛ my head's in heaven , my soles are in hell . let's meet in the purgatory of my hips , & get well , ❜

❛ what makes you so special ? ❜

❛ let me in , ❜

❛ i'm gonna teach you how we're all alone , ❜

❛ i want to get stuck & be golden in your memory , ❜

❛ have you ever wanted to disappear ? ❜

❛ please take me back , ❜

❛ i wanna blow off steam , ❜

❛ we won , oh we won , ❜

❛ the rest of the proof is on the television , ❜

❛ it's not me , it's you , ❜

❛ you know me, i like being all alone , ❜

❛ don't feel bad for the suicidal cats , gotta kill themselves nine times before they get it right , ❜

❛ oh hell yes , ❜

❛ i'm a nervous wreck , ❜

❛ the drugs just make me reset , ❜

❛ come on in , the water's warm , ❜

❛ your eyes are blocking my starlight , ❜

❛ i'm the last of my kind , ❜

❛ that's all that should matter to you , ❜

❛ got my degree in the gutter , ❜

❛ got my heart broken in the dorms of the Ivy League , ❜

[marisswaggerton]

”fatherless behavior” actually he was there and that’s quite literally the whole problem

[sorevivals-moved]

ollie + negative ebay feedback.

tagged by @longcentury

tagging: whoever idk i have to do this at least 3 time /lh