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wait what did you ship that was so bad

Legitimately nothing that I’ve told anyone. 

The backlash came as a direct response to me self-destructing, as I’ve said before! Just me, being a dumb fuck, and deciding life was good, so I needed to end it and return to the void from whence I came!

In all honesty, I don’t even ship anything that could be considered ‘bad’ by their standards, I just support people who do!

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Anyway! While I HAVE re-added a previous icon, I am in no way shape or form going to properly come back to this blog. I’m sorry if you liked my art, but I just don’t want to be any sort of popular in any fandom at all ever! Thanks for understanding, especially to people who still, somehow, support me!

So, please unfollow this blog!

It will be staying up, just because I want to keep the url, but thats aboat it!

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“Antis are terrifying” no, you’re just being a fucking freak and you need to chill the fuck out. Either delete your shit or keep it up, but nobody wants to hear your sob story about this shit so act like a fucking big kid and stop bitching.

I. Don’t know how to reply to this without coming off as an asshole, so uh? All of my art HAS been deleted off this blog, and off my twitter, but I can assure you none of it could ever warrant being called a ‘fucking freak’ and accused of being a pedophile when I myself am a CSA survivor? Like jeepers, if that previous anon thought *i* needed to chill out, then you need to chill out by a TON! D:

EDIT: Hold up, one second -- My brain JUST processed somethin here --

‘Sob story’ ‘Bitching’ I. DO YOU THINK IM TYRING TO GET SYMPATHY???

I. IM NOT???? How could you take ‘I want to destroy myself, and thus paint everything in a bad light so everyone will hate me’ AND THINK I ACTUALLY *WANT* PEOPLE TO FEEL BAD FOR ME??? BECAUSE I DONT???

I’m sorry for using caps lock but! I was explaining the situation, and hoping more people would turn against me???? Oh my god! Oh my god!!!!

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I GUESS the tl;dr of the last post is people in ‘Anti’ Twitter are terrifying, and kind of fucked up my mentality on the entire subject of liking problematic content, AND i have some real fucky paranoia issues, bruh.

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dude like why are you melting down about this i cant find any public posts calling you out or anything you basically exposed YOURSELF on twitter. im not here to harass you over something stupid like that bc like whatever its fictional ffs. but seriously calm down? i can't find ANYTHING on you online involving this? im sure it's private harassment but if someone tried to call you out sure some people would be on your ass but like? the vast error team got a callout and that didnt stop them? (cont)

probably nobody would know about this if you didnt post about it. i just literally do not understand why your mode of action would be to publically announce what ppl are trying to Get You for instead of being quiet about it. i think you need to like delete your tweets and temporarily step away from the internet to collect yourself. people like that cannot be reasoned with. people still fight tooth and nail to enjoy stuff from creators that are "called out" over dumb shit. (cont.)

like i said VE got called out for being like racist or something bc one of their characters talked similarly to aave and they're #1 or #2 (cant remember) on mspfa. i think you need a bit of a reality check that, while i dont know the situation since it's not even like... a thing people KNEW about but you making it public is doing nothing but hurting you.

First; Don’t be rude. The lack of empathy is staggering with you kids these days.

Second; OKAY SO. The reason I had a meltdown, and “””exposed””” myself is because I have this thing, called self-destructive tendencies. If my life is going too good, I self-implode, and abandon everything that was going well for me, including social media, and I make very VERY huge attempts to make everyone associated with those social media accounts hate me, because I can’t deal with it any longer.

I suffer from severe paranoia, on top of a bunch of other bullshit, so I figure the reason I do this is because I’m paranoid that it’s going to happen anyway, so it may as well be on MY terms, y’know? So, yeah, the point kind of IS to hurt myself, in a way, so I can have a negative association with the account(s), the art, and the people, so that I won’t feel bad about cutting and running, and so that those people will forget I ever existed, and also not feel bad about hating me should I suddenly do something that they deem ‘problematic’ or bad. Especially in the current fandom sphere, it’s better off for people to think they have the moral highground over someone when that someone suddenly decides to throw everything to fire, and burn down whatever they may have built up.

Also to add on, over on twitter I was constantly seeing a lot of incredibly hostile and cruel posts toward people who like the same things as I do, or who support the same sort of pro-ship idealisms I have, and it was sort of the straw that broke the camels back. When i say it was inevitable, I mean I was going to inevitably just break, and not be able to deal with people being negative and cruel to people who didn’t deserve it, and thus abandon my social media.

And there were people who actually HAVE called me a pedophile after the whole shebang( which started as someone just being like ‘hey unfollow this person if their personal beliefs make you uncomfy’ but spiraled because kids in that area of twitter are just incredibly cruel even to CSA survivors if they are deemed ‘wrong’ in any way shape or form, ). Said posts were QRTs or replies to my now deleted thread on twitter( which was poorly worded and made in the heat of the moment, because while I’m not super emotional, when I do let myself have a taste of emotionality, it’s always explosive and idiotic ), so finding them is probubbly going to be hard to do? i guess? i don’t wholly understand QRT since I never used it myself.

i specifically do dumb things when I self-destruct so that everyone can move on from me as fast as humanly possible, and so I can move on quickly as well.

After talking it out with my therapist, I am going to keep Abodebound, and just update when I feel comfortable doing so, when my paranoia and want to destroy myself have subsided( also probably when I’m back on meds, so that I don’t just burn everything to the ground AGAIN when I start feeling antsy ), so... Yeah. Yeah! Hope this clears up why I did what I did, for seemingly no reason?

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I’m glad people agree that Biff/Temple is good shit

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the read more is in the ask answer spot and not the post for me, so the post below the actual ask and answer box isn't behind a read more or anything, but also if I click the read more that's in the answer thing, then everything that's in the actual post also shows up in the answer spot.

Welp! I can’t believe it, but I broke the ask post! Oh my god this site is so broken even with x-kit

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I - I think I broke the answer post? Is it appearing weird for anyone else? Like with a Read More in the ask and not in the actual post???

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[KHR ship anon, actually the salm anon for both asks] thank you :) this manga got such good ships and it's just a fabulous manga it deserves more >:D spreading the KHR love here >:D

Oh heck ye! I love KHR to no end too, and I’m also a total sucker for the plethora of ships <3<3

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Does that mean abodebound is on hiatus/abandonned ? I respect your decision either way

It’s on Hiatus! I won’t abandon it, since I’ve put so much work and effort into it, and it’d be a huge waste if I did abandon it!

Mostly this is a break from the fandom at large! i still love Homestuck in it’s original form, but the fandom just makes me feel very bad about myself, and my headcanons!

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Anyway! Hows everyone doing today!! Good I hope!!!

I kinda forgot to say it here, but I’m taking a break from the HS fandom! I won’t be drawing any HS for the foreseeable future, and will mainly be focusing on OCs or anime fandom stuff!

If that’s not up your alley, feel free to unfollow! I won’t hold it against ya!! 38D

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@pichu-universe

NO IT DOESN'T! The mlm couple only gets a handhold and the girl who was so far written as a lesbian marries a guy!

it still preached dangerous rhetorics, used the "rapist gay" trope to justify a guy's homophobia, said that not liking homophobes makes you intolerant, said the wlw character was playing the victim...

so many things were wrong it's wasn't perfect at all.

Let me preface this by saying; Don’t be dicks to this person, everyone. I’m just giving a reply, and don’t want anything to come of this otter than this.​

And also, yes the manga isn’t perfect. i know this. But it’s an emotional investment I’ve made over the last however long I’ve been following it, so colour me ecstatic that it ended in a way I was not at all expecting - I had assumed Taichi and Futaba would end up together permanently, to have ti end as all non-BL manga end when it comes to a gay character. With the gay character not having his perfect happy ending, and instead being dumped to the wayside.

1.) Masumi is now confirmed Bi, what's the issue? I don't see one.

2.) It wasn't the 'Rapist Gay' trope, it was the guy being a survivor of child molestation, and not having the proper therapy to deal with it, and thus lashed out at gay people. You can clearly see him being able to think on it further in the manga, and have him work on overcoming it by being friends with Touma.

3.) I don't remember Masumi ever being said as 'playing the victim'. What chapter was it in? Legit it may have become muddled in my head.

4.) Let people enjoy things, and find them emotionally compelling, without shitting on them just because it wasn’t up to your standards. For many, many people, it was an amazing manga, with a wonderful ending, that actually ended with the gay character getting the happiest ending possible. He married the man he fell in love with.

Let me remind you, Ao no Flag was published in Shounen Jump+. It was published. In Shounen. Jump+. If that doesn’t speak a lot of likely how difficult it was to get by editor and publisher censors, I don’t know what does. Yes, gay people are getting more and more freedoms in Japan, but that doesn’t change the fact the country is still very socially disdainful toward them, and a vast majority of gay portrayals in non-BL/GL manga is derogatory, harmful, and disgusting in general. This is especially rampant in the Shounen Genre, and a lot of Weekly Jump titles of the past, and present. The only JUMP! manga to be able to successfully have LGBT+ characters in it, without them being harmful stereotypes, is Hunter x Hunter.

I cannot stress enough how huge Ao no Flag is. How big of a step it is to have a manga that actually explored gay romance, and ended with the gay character actually getting his happy ending with the man he fell in love with when they were kids. This never happens in manga. Ever. Unless its a BL. Which, again, Ao no Flag is NOT a BL.

Anyway! Again, guys, don’t be dicks. I am calmly explaining things, so be kind! Or else!!!!

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E.... Everyone.... If you like manga, and are gay, please go read Ao No Flag/Blue Flag! It’s. So good. A Shounen Romance manga that has the perfect ending.

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I just read all of abodebound and i really liked it ! The kids are very fun i love them ! I'm cheering you on for the next updates !

I’m glad you liked it! And t) (ank you!

I’ll kelp doing my best to get the next update out!! 38D

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Aw darn! Okay! I'll wait, then. c: Thanks, though. -transguy Lyle

No problem, Lyle! I promise I’ll get at least two whole updates out this year, at least, so you can learn more about in-canon lyle!

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can.. you tell me more about Lyle..? Or would it be spoilery? -transguy Lyle

It would be spoilery, sorry! I’ll do my best to get updates out, though, so that more about him can be revealed!

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what’s the latest with idarat & hiveswap?? or are you not allowed to tell us?

I’m pretty sure I’m not allowed to say! But... I will confirm that I *HAVE* spoken to What Pumpkin! 38D