dude like why are you melting down about this i cant find any public posts calling you out or anything you basically exposed YOURSELF on twitter. im not here to harass you over something stupid like that bc like whatever its fictional ffs. but seriously calm down? i can't find ANYTHING on you online involving this? im sure it's private harassment but if someone tried to call you out sure some people would be on your ass but like? the vast error team got a callout and that didnt stop them? (cont)
probably nobody would know about this if you didnt post about it. i just literally do not understand why your mode of action would be to publically announce what ppl are trying to Get You for instead of being quiet about it. i think you need to like delete your tweets and temporarily step away from the internet to collect yourself. people like that cannot be reasoned with. people still fight tooth and nail to enjoy stuff from creators that are "called out" over dumb shit. (cont.)
like i said VE got called out for being like racist or something bc one of their characters talked similarly to aave and they're #1 or #2 (cant remember) on mspfa. i think you need a bit of a reality check that, while i dont know the situation since it's not even like... a thing people KNEW about but you making it public is doing nothing but hurting you.
First; Don’t be rude. The lack of empathy is staggering with you kids these days.
Second; OKAY SO. The reason I had a meltdown, and “””exposed””” myself is because I have this thing, called self-destructive tendencies. If my life is going too good, I self-implode, and abandon everything that was going well for me, including social media, and I make very VERY huge attempts to make everyone associated with those social media accounts hate me, because I can’t deal with it any longer.
I suffer from severe paranoia, on top of a bunch of other bullshit, so I figure the reason I do this is because I’m paranoid that it’s going to happen anyway, so it may as well be on MY terms, y’know? So, yeah, the point kind of IS to hurt myself, in a way, so I can have a negative association with the account(s), the art, and the people, so that I won’t feel bad about cutting and running, and so that those people will forget I ever existed, and also not feel bad about hating me should I suddenly do something that they deem ‘problematic’ or bad. Especially in the current fandom sphere, it’s better off for people to think they have the moral highground over someone when that someone suddenly decides to throw everything to fire, and burn down whatever they may have built up.
Also to add on, over on twitter I was constantly seeing a lot of incredibly hostile and cruel posts toward people who like the same things as I do, or who support the same sort of pro-ship idealisms I have, and it was sort of the straw that broke the camels back. When i say it was inevitable, I mean I was going to inevitably just break, and not be able to deal with people being negative and cruel to people who didn’t deserve it, and thus abandon my social media.
And there were people who actually HAVE called me a pedophile after the whole shebang( which started as someone just being like ‘hey unfollow this person if their personal beliefs make you uncomfy’ but spiraled because kids in that area of twitter are just incredibly cruel even to CSA survivors if they are deemed ‘wrong’ in any way shape or form, ). Said posts were QRTs or replies to my now deleted thread on twitter( which was poorly worded and made in the heat of the moment, because while I’m not super emotional, when I do let myself have a taste of emotionality, it’s always explosive and idiotic ), so finding them is probubbly going to be hard to do? i guess? i don’t wholly understand QRT since I never used it myself.
i specifically do dumb things when I self-destruct so that everyone can move on from me as fast as humanly possible, and so I can move on quickly as well.
After talking it out with my therapist, I am going to keep Abodebound, and just update when I feel comfortable doing so, when my paranoia and want to destroy myself have subsided( also probably when I’m back on meds, so that I don’t just burn everything to the ground AGAIN when I start feeling antsy ), so... Yeah. Yeah! Hope this clears up why I did what I did, for seemingly no reason?