the life of a ___ year old.

if i ever had a place to put my thoughts..

[fehvwar]

I'm ready. My 2k15 Goals: 1. Expand your knowledge, so you can expand your art. 2. Stay an amateur. 3. Stay the motha fuckin course. 4. Make a better effort to stop cursing. 5. Practice yoga. 6. Lift heavy. 7. Get away.

[fehvwar]

Good Riddance. The lessons 2k14 taught me: 1. It's not all about me, stop complaining. 2. Don't be afraid to be yourself, I think you're pretty awesome. 3. Others will take me seriously, as soon as I do. 4. Holy Shit, I'm gonna turn (insert age here). 5. Don't always try & be nice because you're uncomfortable. 6. Don't always act like a bitch just because you can. 7. Pay more attention to what you do on a day to day basis. 8. Put your pride down. 9. Don't eat alone, but don't dine with fools. 10. Stay the motha fuckin course. 11. Stop cursing so much, the kids are young enough to actually repeat you, don't be that "young" adult forever. 12. Don't jump oceans for others who will not jump a puddle for you. 13. What do you bring to the table? 14. Just don't be afraid.

[forgottengenres]

[yellingapple]

[fehvwar]

Alex.

Hey “Boo”,

Lol, I’ll never forget you and that damn nickname. I’ll never forget our endless letters & our bike rides to the mall, hanging out there because we couldn’t do anything in the apartments without someone telling your mom about it. We had to sneak over to Dobas just to be able to chill and get into some young love kind of shit. Lol I still remember meeting your mom for the first time and being so scared because she yelled a lot, but I eventually learned that behind that big voice of your mom’s, was an even bigger heart. Dannielle too, oh lord that girl didn’t like me at all at first, but you know I rubbed off on her eventually. Your family will always be on my mind and have my best wishes. I’ll never forget the good memories you gave me and the lessons you taught me as a best friend.

You were my first love and always will be. We had that young love vibe going on and looking back at it, it now just makes me smile. We sure did ride that roller coaster of teenage love and drama for most of our high school years. We laughed, We cried, We yellled, We broke up and We made up. We dedicated too many songs to one another & called popcorn too many times at 12 midnight just so we can stay up all night on the phone. Losing you took me back down memory lane. Because once it was over, I just thought of the bad times in order to move on and get past whatever it was that we were. I knew that the universe said we weren’t to be together because there were other people meant for us to be with, but that never meant that I didn’t love you or that you didn’t love me. It just meant that we were put here to walk the path together until it was time to let go. With us, it was all or nothing.

You just got married and you just had a baby and I knew that one day, we’d cross paths again and I’d be able to just tell you how proud I was of the life you were living and for you to do the same. I wanted that moment for us to just be happy for each other and keep it going without having to look back. I know I’ll never have that moment, but I know now that you’re up there watching over your family, your beautiful wife and your gorgeous little girl.

It hasn’t quite sunk in about you being gone. I know it’s real, but reality hasn’t hit me yet. That day, I woke up with such a heavy heart, I was upset about something that I couldn’t quite grasp and the moment I found out, I knew why. Seeing your pictures and what people thought of you is heartwarming because you touched so many lives. You touched my life the moment I saw you in front of Amanda’s apartment; You’re engraved in my history forever, and even though it was almost 10 years ago, I’ll never forget who you were and what you meant to me. You showed me that young love isn’t always perfect, but between you and me, it was. It taught me about myself and helped me grow with the man I’m in love with today. You’ll always hold a special place in my heart.

Love, R.R.P.

[alwaysbewoke]

You Have The Right To Remain Out Of Prison

an especially useful and important infographic if you’re black. this and advice from levar burton.

[fehvwar]

Who to blame?

We blame others because blaming who we see in the mirror every day makes it harder to sleep at night.

[fehvwar]

Today.

I'm stuck on this feeling that I haven't been able to shake all week. Life hasn't always been the greatest but I believe that's what life is all about. The only guarantee about life is change. Nothing ever stays the same and you either fight it or go with it. I'm not afraid of change. I'm afraid of losing the people I love because of change.

[epicreads]

The Age of YA: A Timeline of Historical Fiction by Epic Reads

(Click the link to the get the full list of books, view this at a larger size and get the printable version!)

[fehvwar]

Drowning.

Do you ever feel like you need to do more with yourself? Do you ever feel like your drowning and it's almost as if you get to the surface and all of a sudden you notice your feet are cement blocks and back down you go? Do you ever feel like you can't share your dreams with the world because the world isn't ready for it? Or just maybe the people in your world aren't ready for it? Do you ever feel like you were made for something more than what others believe to be? Maybe my problem is that I seek validation in external influences when I should look within. My problem is I care too much when I should learn to care less. My problem is I carry the burden of others who don't care to carry it themselves. My problem is that I try my best to be real but I'm faulted by others who choose to live in a dream than in reality. I believe in dreaming, but I don't believe in blinding the truth because I don't want to deal with it. Life isn't going to wait on me. I can either fight it, or learn to live it. And I'm learning to live it, I just hope those who are part of it, stay with me. Because my ambition to live is growing on a daily basis, and it may be a little too big for some, and just enough for others. I'm ready for this next chapter and what is to come. But my real concern is, is everyone else? Man I need to let that go.

[fehvwar]

What you see is what you get.

I've realized, life is complicated. Something you said yesterday could end up changing today. Because between yesterday and today, actions led up to a different perspective than you had 24 hours ago. I've realized, at the end of the day, it's about you and what you need to do to be better. I've known this for a while, but the only thing I find that complicates this state of mind for me, is my love for others. I've realized, people are always going to disappoint you. But with disappointment comes lessons learned, new journeys, new experiences, new something. Not everything you seek in disappointment is a disappointment.

[carriefishers-archive]

[fehvwar]

People will always walk in and out of your life. Some will stay longer than others. Some for a reason, some to teach you a lesson; and the most important one, to teach you about yourself. We won’t be able to distinguish which people are here for which reasons until they make their impact. And sometimes, that impact will be love and clarity. Other times, it will be hurt and sadness. Either way, it will teach you something. And what you gain has the ability to make you that much better off. Because truthfully, we are never too old to learn how to be happy.

- Unknown

[fehvwar]

What is Love?

You know what love is? It's that feeling where your heart literally feels so heavy from being full of life. Every moment, good and bad stored into a tiny beating muscle, filtering the blood that runs through your body, holding onto every moment. With your chest pumped out just a bit to show how proud and full your heart is. Only for a split second do you feel overwhelmed with its responsibilty, but are quickly reminded that it's worth every bit of risk. THATS LOVE.

[majorcurators]

Isn’t This How You’re Supposed To Feel When You Wake Up Every Morning?

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[forgottengenres]

Having feelings is hard. Feelings make us vulnerable to pain, to shame, and to unwanted interpretation and legibility. Feelings can also open us up to the world; they give us a surface through we can relate to others, but also through which we can be wounded.

Hannah Manshell (via thatlitsite)

[fehvwar]

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true. Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

Steve Jobs