quetcy lozada must die

🔧connie/consequence. 23. he/him. bigender (tme) femme. bisexual mosher. massive bitch. nudes @pipebimbomb

[felinepipebomb]

“Well, I was an older brother. So I had to do a lot of things first. My father was a self-made man, and he would beat me senseless. But he was a Scotsman, and stubborn. I'm his son, and I'm stubborn, too. I go on being stubborn.

If you have to wait until I can make it safe, OK, I'll make it safe. And if I have to use myself as the battering ram, I'll do that too, the best I can. (I'll tell you a deep, dark secret: Underneath that facade, I'm a terrified little sissy, just like everybody else. But I never let it show.)

I always say to people, "If you share my dream, why don't we walk together?" And that's my only organizing tool.”

-forever thinking about this Harry Hay quote

[lucy-vanpelts]

when the music fucks you with the strap #yes

[bluejaymarin]

"What the hell is wrong with you people? Every famous tr*nny that has allegations is not Marsha P. Johnson. Yes, the government conspires to put a lot of innocent trans women in jail on fallacious charges, but Patricia Taxxon is NOT one of those women. We all know the bitch can make music, but what happened to standards? What happened to bare minimums? You a fan of P. Taxxon? You wanna help P. Taxxon? Then get some counselling for P. Taxxon, introduce her to some older women, change her twitter password, but don't pretend like the woman's a hero"

[felinepipebomb]

re: my last post also I have personally had Several people irl try to alienate me from community using the type of online tactics ppl on here r getting mad about. I’ve had ppl with malicious intent spread both true things about me (i.e. when an ex friend of a friend tried to out me as an addict to a bunch of ppl) and false things about me (my stalker is apparently telling ppl I’m a sex pest w no elaboration, presumably to obscure that i cut her off for pressuring teens into sex & drug use they didn’t want).

I rlly get how shitty that is when it’s in real life, especially for marginalized people with limited resources who rely on community the way that i do, and i still stand by everything i said. I have a younger trans friend who keeps getting attacked on the subway lately. my gf has to spend most of her time outdoors in summer when she wants space for herself bc she’s unhoused, but keeps getting harassed by chasers at the park. i have an unhoused trans friend sleeping on my couch rn bc the ppl she was closest to kicked her out over a text where they didn’t like her tone. Like. There r bigger things to get up in arms about than the shit all of you are putting ur energy into. buy us some pepper gel you fucking losers.

[felinepipebomb]

how come every time im on here its just a stream of people acting like an obnoxious person w an internet following was exiled, murdered, & left to rot in the streets just bc they got banned or sent gross asks on social media.

like don’t get me wrong it is absolutely bigoted how marginalized ppl on this website r banned at the drop of a hat, esp for POC and trans women. but i rlly lost patience for this the week everyone on here was making art, fundraising, & trying to raise urgency abt a trans person on here (who was housed, and did not make money thru this platform) getting banned for ‘inappropriate behavior’ when a trans child had been brutally murdered shortly beforehand and no one said anything.

I just don’t really believe that most of you are actually invested in the safety of trans women, or trans people generally, when the only trans ppl you defend are the ones who entertain you & justify your shitty opinions, and only when it’s convenient to you and doesn’t require more than @‘ing a mod on a website. Also like. The kinds of trans guys that draw the sketchy fetish porn you like & deflect ppl pointing out its transmisogyny by calling them bigots? those guys r usually the ones pressuring tgirls into group sex at raves and then getting them kicked out of their housing. The woman ‘intellectually’ defending pedophilia online most likely is being fucking weird to some teenager irl and that teenager will almost always be a young transfem w much less material support. The people u follow bc you think they’re edgy or hot who sometimes post stuff that seems a little racist but they were super high and probably didn’t mean it? They meant it! Ive met enough of these types of chronically online ppl to know this, and to know that they almost always have other ppl (usually broke trans ones Without a hoard of online fans) paying their bills.

And even then, I’m not saying it isn’t fucked up that any of these people get harassed or banned bc those things aren’t why they’re being harassed, they’re being harassed bc of transphobia & transmisogyny. But it’s annoying as fuck to go on here and see ppl pretending this is the Real oppression when there r so many refugees & homeless ppl in our community, there r so many ppl struggling and OD’ing and getting beaten, and this weird little fucking fan-poster cult couldn’t care less. Yes, stop expecting perfection from trans women, stop demanding trans women don’t show anger-why is the focus of that sentiment only on the author u feel parasocial about, and never on the trans woman she raped and alienated? Why is it ‘protect weird trans people’ when it’s the people you don’t actually think are weird, not the 60 year old who lives down the street and calls herself a crossdresser and is fucked up on painkillers, or the young guy who just got out of the psych ward and has visible ptsd flashbacks that make you uncomfortable?

Like if the only trans ppl that people seem interested in defending here are the ones who are famous and housed and saying fucked up shit online bc they have the time to do so then idt u rlly care about trans people, i think you care about ur fun in-group and stop caring when these issues affect anyone outside of it

[natalieironside]

Shout out to trans women who aren’t computer scientists or musicians or avant-garde artists or whatever.

Shout-out to tgirls who work at Taco Bell. Thank u queen, society would collapse without you

[snkrfnd]

Over twenty years ago my big brother got me a job at a Taco Bell in the St. Louis suburbs-West County. He warned me that it was the “gay Taco Bell”, but since I was coming from the “gay Howard Johnson’s” I wasn’t shocked. It turns out it was the black trans women Taco Bell complete with black trans women in management. And they’d worked out an arrangement with the local teen Narcotics Anonymous group so that twice a week we would shut down the drive thru and the dining room and exclusively serve 60+ teens in various stages of recovery. And many of the women I worked with were in various stages of being out or transitioning and they were from all generations from teens to over 50. One woman I worked with had a regular corporate job presenting as a man 9-5 Mon-Fri and then came to Taco Bell and worked 6pm -2am Friday and Saturday night so she could be herself surrounded by other black transwomen in those stolen weekends. And we had customers come from all over the metro area because they knew they could be themselves in the dining room. I only worked there from 1999-2001 but for young me, this was a vital, formative experience. Some of the girls came from north city all the way out to the “gay Taco Bell” on Manchester in west county because they heard it was safe to work there. Like- I know times have changed but they haven’t changed much in 20 years. I’m still convinced that for lgbt youth, finding a job at your city’s version of the “gay Taco Bell” is key to survival.

[natalieironside]

Thank u for sharing this with us

[booasaur]

Minx (2022) - 2x01

[westernsunrise]

the fundamental problem on this website is that if a homeless person tried to talk to most of y’all you’d be scared out of your minds

[westernsunrise]

see because people are actually seeing this i feel like i need to make it abundantly clear what i mean by this: in the united states context, the majority of social problems are just disappeared. the mentally ill are often relegated to their homes, to asylums (these still exist), to hospitals. the disabled, fat, and disfigured likewise. people called “criminal” disappear into the criminal punishment system and often never emerge.

if you live in any city in america, however, there are homeless people. they are the social problem that cannot be disappeared so easily. drive along a freeway outbound from the urban center to the suburbs and look into the trees. you’ll see tents, tarps, evidence of human habitation. walk through a downtown, even in coldest winter, and you’ll see bottles that weren’t there yesterday and clothes inexplicably abandoned. people tend to either not look at these things or to look at them and name them garbage. eyesore. they don’t consider what it would be like to carry everything you own on your back. how little energy you would have for recycling or cleaning up after yourself if you had been kicked out of your shelter at 7am that morning and now had to find a nook to hide out in to escape a -5F windchill. maybe you can go to a local public library, but maybe you can’t because you twitch or smell bad or talk to yourself and people only look at you out of the corner of their eye so they know what description to give the armed security guard at the front desk.

when i’m talking about looking at your unhoused neighbor, i’m talking about looking at them first. i’m talking about smiling and waving and maybe striking up a conversation. i’m talking about offering to grab lunch. i’m talking about indulging them even when they make you uncomfortable.

on memory care floors in hospitals you often encounter the problem of nurses who have been taught how to engage patients with memory issues but who do not give proper patient care because it makes them uncomfortable. they don’t want to lie or play pretend or do anything that takes them out of their very rigidly defined reality. an old man wakes up and tries to get out of bed because it’s time to feed the cows. he wonders where his wife is. it would make his nurse uncomfortable to tell him that his wife knew he needed some rest so she went out to feed the cows, so they tell him that his wife died five years ago and he doesn’t have his farm anymore. they break his heart rather than allow him to live in a better time for a little while longer.

back in december a man sat across from me on the train who was clearly struggling. i started a conversation with him about his art he was holding, which he told me were illustrated children’s books in a language he had always known. it was a syllabary i certainly didn’t recognize, and the illustrations weren’t anything i’ve seen in children’s literature, but we were suddenly both artists on the train. i showed him my journal and he complimented the pasting job on some of my collages. then he started to talk about angels. about his angel specifically, who had died and left him behind on earth. he missed his angel so much that he planned to commit suicide before christmas. i talked to him about his angel, and about love and grief and pain, all of which we could share. he began to call me jesus. i could have told him he was wrong, that i wasn’t even into the abrahamic religions, etc., and it would have broken his heart. instead i walked with him up from the train station—and got him through the armed transit cops who tried to stop him because he didn’t have a ticket—and gave him a picture of a loving savior, and a world that would be better for having him in it. instead of hugging some faggot, he ended up hugging a jesus that loved him. it was an odd situation. it made me a little uncomfortable. it may have been one of the few instances of kindness that he got that day. it may have been the first time in a while that someone who wasn’t unhoused or working the bread line actually started a conversation with him.

imagine if no one ever looked at you. don’t say some cute shit about “oh, i wish no one ever perceived me.” no you don’t. you wish you could control people’s perception of you. but what if people weren’t only not looking at you, but they already thought they knew you. you’re twitching so you’re on something. you’re staring at nothing so you’re dumb. you’re asking for money or food so you’re a leech on society. you’re talking to yourself so you’re dangerous. they don’t look at you but they know you. so they don’t speak to you bc they already know what they’re gonna find.

two and a half weeks ago my mom was found dead on the streets of san antonio. she’d been homeless there for about 12 years. i’d only just gotten stable enough to reach out to her. the woman i contacted at the day home she went to every month to get a haircut, her nails done, and to wash her clothes said she was doing well, that she was clean, that she was very polite, that she was smart. she had two dogs that she’d cared enough about to have microchipped. their names are fin and sophia. having those dogs probably made it so she couldn’t get permanent housing, because most housing programs for the homeless don’t allow them to bring pets. a lot of people choose to keep their pets rather than give them up as a condition of securing housing.

in denver, colorado i once met an unhoused man who had a master’s degree in geophysics. his thesis was on magnetic wells and their affects of satellite orbits. he was a birdwatcher.

when you refuse to look at homeless people, or the things they leave behind (often are forced to leave behind by cops), you are actively participating in the disappearance of a population. do you think you wouldn’t lose part of yourself if safety concerns made you nocturnal? if every time you got enough stuff to set up a good camp some suburbanite called the cops on your tent? would you not talk to yourself if no one else was speaking to you?

a lot of talk goes into the problem how easy it is to become homeless. one medical bill, one missed paycheck and your life is imperiled. well, there are a lot of people who are stepped over every day who already live your worst case scenario, and the simple fact is that the majority of people in the u.s. are too scared of having an uncomfortable or even perhaps scary interaction with an unhoused person to look at them. but i need y’all to know that you are not special. it isn’t just the dirtiest, most addicted, most mentally ill homeless people who are left to die on the streets alone. it is all homeless people. people who won’t leave behind beloved pets, people who couldn’t survive in academia, people who think they’re being gangstalked, people who have jobs, people who have families. if you are one missed paycheck from homelessness, you’re also one catastrophic tragedy, one spark that catches in the apartment on the other side of your building, one chance encounter with the drug that just won’t let you go. not one goddamn person on this earth is better than the unhoused person they step over on the way to get their morning coffee, and i hope to fuck y’all figure that out before you find yourselves disappeared too.

if you actually want to change the fucking world, maybe start with looking your neighbors in the eye.

[kawuli]

random PSA, I know a lot of people use duckduckgo as a Google alternative search engine, but it always kind of annoyed me when I was using it because it felt like No Name Brand Google

I have switched to using Startpage.com and vastly prefer it. for one thing, instead of displaying an "AI summary" at the top of the search results (unless you turn it off, yes I know), it displays the first paragraph of the Wikipedia article, with link, whenever it finds one that's relevant.

also a waaayyyyy better sense of design than duckduckgo

also private, European based, least annoying search I've used lately (RIP old "don't be evil" Google)

[yomikoreadsbooks]

Keeping a list of Google alternatives just in case…

[saxifraga-x-urbium]

i have one of those, scraped from multiple different rec posts:

Search Engines

Infinity Search is an alternative search engine with a special focus on privacy

DuckDuckGo is a popular search engine for those who value their privacy and are put off by the thought of their every query being tracked and logged. Uses bangs, ![site] for in-page search (sells your data to microsoft and draws from fucking bing)

WolframAlpha is a privately owned search engine that allows you to “compute expert-level answers using Wolfram’s breakthrough algorithms, knowledgebase, and AI technology.” A data search engine.

Boardreader is a search engine for forums and message boards. It allows you to search forums and then filter down results by date and language.

Based in France, Qwant is a privacy-based search engine that won’t record your searches or use your personal details for advertising. Uses “&” as a bang search.

Another privacy-based search engine is Search Encrypt, which uses local encryption to ensure that users’ identifiable information cannot be tracked. Metasearch across multiple engines. 

Offering unbiased results from several sources, SearX is a metasearch engine that aims to present a free, decentralized view of the internet. Can be self-hosted. 

Gibiru’s tagline is “Unfiltered private search” and that’s exactly what it offers. Requires AnonymoX Firefox add-on for privacy. 

Disconnect allows you to conduct anonymous searches through a search engine of your choice.

Swisscows provides fully encrypted searches to protect your privacy and security. Built-in violence/porn filter cannot be overridden. 

MetaGer offers “Privacy Protected Search & Find” through its anonymised search. A plugin will allow it to be made a default.

Gigablast is a private search engine that indexes millions of websites and servers real-time information without tracking your data, keeping you hidden from marketers and spammers. Variety of filtration and refinement options for searching. 

Oscobo is a search engine that protects your privacy while you search the web. By not using any third-party tools or scripts, your data is protected from hacking and misuse. Has a Chrome extension to allow use in toolbar. 

https://search.marginalia.nu/ an independent DIY search engine that focuses on non-commercial content, and attempts to show you sites you perhaps weren't aware of in favor of the sort of sites you probably already knew existed. Use old-school searching rather than query-based for the best results. 

https://www.mojeek.com/ 

https://wiby.me/ - It’s goal is to index as many personalized websites as possible, and NOT commercial sites. 

https://4get.ca/ it works a lot like SearX, but honestly better. It doesn’t have its own index, but pulls from many others. I think it’s the best for research, since it allows you to search for answers from different indexes, is easy to configure, add free, and avoids censorship as much as it can.

https://www.searchenginemap.com/ for more on how search engines relate to each other.

https://yep.com/ is a crawler

https://www.etools.ch/ retrieves from Google, Mojeek, Bing, and Yandex, like Searx

https://www.dogpile.com/ 

https://searxng.org/ (next gen Searx)

https://luxxle.com/ - possibly conservative?

https://presearch.com/ - good for academic?

https://kagi.com/smallweb - free/randomised Kagi.

Other Searchers

www.refseek.com - Academic Resource Search. More than a billion sources: encyclopedia, monographies, magazines.

www.worldcat.org - a search for the contents of 20 thousand worldwide libraries. Find out where lies the nearest rare book you need.

https://link.springer.com - access to more than 10 million scientific documents: books, articles, research protocols.

www.bioline.org.br is a library of scientific bioscience journals published in developing countries.

http://repec.org - volunteers from 102 countries have collected almost 4 million publications on economics and related science.

www.science.gov is an American state search engine on 2200+ scientific sites. More than 200 million articles are indexed.

www.base-search.net is one of the most powerful researches on academic studies texts. More than 100 million scientific documents, 70% of them are free.https://cosine.club/ is an electronic music similarity search engine

[drdarine]

I just want my baby sister back. I’m terrified of losing her she’s still just a child, someone who should be learning, growing, and playing with her friends.

Maryam needs your help and support please don’t let her down.

💳 Please Help - ✅️ Vetted # 15

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Amazing artwork by my dear friend Notte💖 @rhymeswithfart

[gazavetters]

Please consider helping and supporting Maryam and her family of seven during this difficult time.

[drdarine]

5 long days have passed, with only one €8 donation. what if something happens to my little baby sister Maryam? Please, take a moment to look at her… Is this really what she deserves? Please don’t turn away she truly needs your help.

[becomeanunconsciousman-deactiva]

if karl marx was born today he would be a baby. and it would be his birthday

[aciidwire]

[pipebimbomb]

I REFUSE TO CALL THIS LIVING LIFE AND I REFUSE TO DIE

[felinepipebomb]

[yunieloid]

About to sound really pretentious but…….. Hate hate hate it when people say fibre arts(and crafts in general), especially knitting, are not accessible and very expensive to get into when historically handmade items have been made out of necessity, especially as a girl who comes from a long line of women who crafted for exactly that reason

For certain many textile crafts can be very bougie if u have the money to buy a lot of expensive yarn, but how you create is what you make of it…. A majority of my crafting projects i make with used materials, thrifted yarns, recycled sweaters, curtains, sheets, etc. Most of my projects dont cost me over $5

I dont know :-/ i think the world would be better if people realized how easy it is to start making things

[theonion]

“Name one ethnic group you’ve attempted to obliterate. I’ll wait. I mean, have you even bombed a single children’s hospital? Please, you’ve got no idea what you’re talking about. Maybe you read a book about the 1948 Genocide Convention? Well, I’ve read Sports Illustrated, but that doesn’t mean I’m a quarterback. You have no on-the-ground experience mass-murdering civilians like I do, okay?” At press time, the acting U.S. ambassador to the U.N. formally backed Israel’s motion to compel the chair of the Human Rights Council to list three families whose lines he had wiped out if he was such a genocide scholar.

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[electronicmail]

Hey how's the ovulation going

im a danger to myself and others

[angelnumber27]

[honeysider]

[esynk]

[were--ralph]

[X]

we live in the worst times

[greater-than-the-sword]

My exact thoughts. Couldn't leave this in the tags.

[cesarescabinet]

To send a message, write a complaint and boycott the company behind Burger King and the other franchises it owns.

This includes Popeyes and Tim Hortons.