God these OCD loops are the fuckin woooorst.
I haven’t had the ability to stop them the last couple days and it’s like self harm every time I continue spinning out. But I literally cannot stop.
Then when the thing I’m anxiously awaiting happens, the relief that washes over me and immediately calms my nervous system is incredible for a few minutes. But then the itch comes back. It’s never fully scratched.
I fuckin hate it.



















