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I held one of my guns to my head the other night and pulled the trigger. Not hard enough to make it shoot but enough to make it real. It felt amazing. But the other night was not the night.

Like honestly. What do I have to live for? Everything I owned was destroyed in a hurricane besides my truck and boat which both were destroyed after because of my drug addictions and alcoholism. My family has pretty much disowned me again. My best friend is fucking dead now. My other friends don't understand me. I have nothing now. I'm lost and hopeless and don't feel like continuing this madness

If I kill myself tonight after midnight my family may save money on my headstone. April 3rd 1996 to-2018 instead of a different date. Happy birthday to me

I am nothing. I have nothing left. My life was destroyed by hurricane Harvey. I am mediocre at best at everything I do. This world doesn't need me. I contribute nothing to society. I have nothing to lose but my life and it's destroyed too. Why not end it all?

My house was destroyed during hurricane harvey. If anyone was watching the news during it when they mentioned rockport.... which got the worst of it... thats the town i live in. The weather channel mentioned city by the sea neighborhood and said they got the absolute worst. My home was in city by the sea. My house is gone. All thats left is the dirt where it stood now. I get bad days when i think about how i lost everything but most days i stay positive and realize it will take more than a hurricane to kill the spirit of rockport.