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Elijah or Fen // 26 // trans man (he/him)

[fenjammin]

Commissions are open!

Hey guys, so since I’ve moved out and am paying my own bills, I’ve opened up commissions again. There will be unlimited slots for a while, so come get them while you can!

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Examples under cut:

[shottxyz]

[kurulover]

I hate that when you’re stressed enough your body just starts falling apart. I think it should realize you’re already stressed and don’t need that and start functioning better actually

[kurulover]

[xigbillclinton]

[tall]

[andhumanslovedstories]

There’s an emotion only unlocked when you live in a house with multiple stories. I call it “the stair emotion” and it’s when you realize the object you need is on the other side of yet another trip up and down those goddamn stairs. It’s the closest I get to transcending the desire for material goods. Maybe I don’t need that notebook. Maybe I don’t need anything.

[unadulteratedhideouttrash]

[koobiie]

shoutout to everyone who wants to infodump but cant string together coherent thoughts to form sentences and instead just look at you like this

[me-and-michael]

Leviticus really said yes life will be harder because I choose to be with you but I choose to be with you despite it all

[redrageoused]

out now, go watch

prints :)

[holly-hill]

Thinking about Naim Reid. Thinking about Naim going to the pastor and his wife. Thinking about Naim going to a police station and coming out to a cop.

Thinking about how the beginning of the movie introduces the idea that he is so fearful — afraid of the snake, afraid of heights, and the threat of the spider. Afraid of his and Ryan’s reflection as they’re making out. He’s so scared, and he’s just a kid, and we see over and over again this childlike trust he has in the people who are supposed to help him.

Why does he go to Hunter’s parents? Obviously there was some aspect of jealously, but Hunter and Ryan were also actively hurting each other. He doesn’t just watch them make out. He watches them pelt each other with fucking rocks and I think it was scary enough for him to regress into the idea that they genuinely needed help.

So, he does what he was raised to do. He asks for help. He watches Hunter get dragged in to the dark and he goes to the cops and he asks for help. He has that nightmare and he asks his mom for help. He’s attacked by an evil entity and he runs into the gas station asking for help and NO ONE IS HELPING HIM. Not the church, not the cops, or Izzy, or his mom.

In the end at the mill, entity Ryan tells him again that they want him to be afraid. Then in the daylight IN THAT SAME PLACE his mom confirms it. She tells him he needs fear. HE ALREADY HAS IT. He was already afraid at the beginning of the movie!!!! He’s been afraid the whole fucking time !!!!

And as my good personal friend Henry Chang once said “If you cannot be unafraid, be afraid and happy.”

So, he stops asking for help. He runs, and Ryan is there, and they cannot be unafraid but they will be happy — and I guess I’ll just be thinking about it for the rest of my life

[davinaclaires]

JOE BIRD and STACY CLAUSEN as NAIM and RYAN LEVITICUS (2026) written and directed by Adrian Chiarella

[ashortcuttomushrooms]

[Image Description: A gifset of a scene from Leviticus 2026. Ryan says to Naim: "Okay, so you leave town. Then what? It's just gonna look like the next dickhead you're into. And the next one after that. If I'm gonna live with this thing, then..." He pauses before continuing: "I don't want it to look like some other dickhead. I want it to look like you." End Image Description]

[Plain text caption: Joe Bird and Stacy Clausen as Naim and Ryan

Leviticus (2026) written and directed by Adrian Chiarella]

[dolltistic]

I want it to look like you.

[insomniac-ink]

I enjoyed this movie, no notes they cooked

[hystericalend]

seeing the bus scene in a new light after my rewatch because ohh my god ryan was actually just so ridiculously giddy about naim liking him back. they go and talk to this girl who tells them that the entity looks like who you're most into, and ryan's shifting awkwardly from foot to foot bc welp. guess the truth abt his crush is out there now. what can you do. but then he looks to his left and naim is just as awkward, eyes flicking to him and then away. and wait, hang on a minute. ryan's entity looking like naim is a given, but naim's entity looks like him too. when jessica yells at naim he puts a protective hand on his back because that's something he feels suddenly allowed to do now, knowing what it means that naim's entity looks like him. and when they're on the bus, naim still reeling from the near miss, ryan talks him down, holds his hand, refusing to let fear ruin this. bc he's had a crush on the new kid since he came to town, and he had to work up a shit ton of courage to lead him to the mill and take that first leap of faith. he hadn't lied, when he told naim it was his first time. what he had with hunter was nothing like this. and now he's there on the bus with naim, and even after all the insane shit that's happened and is still happening, he can't help but be stupidly excited by the fact that naim likes him back. yeah this evil demonic entity might never leave them alone, but ryan's just found out naim likes him to the point that it takes his form to tempt him and as fucked up as that is it's kind of validating too. naim likes him, and he kisses ryan back when he leans in, shifts in his seat to give him more room, and you know what? fuck it. ryan's gonna give him the best hand job of his life on this bus right fucking now

[no-chair]

highly recommend everyone watches Leviticus:)

[fenjammin]

"Leviticus didn't make any sense it's just what if gay but scary there's no continuity no one makes any sense so much is left unanswered and vague"

it is about conversion therapy

[molombo]

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