i want it to look like you

nurse they let her out again..

[sophthecoolperson]

forever thinking about the theory that Ryan and Naim DID actually see each other in the forest while naim was running away from entity Ryan and Ryan was (presumably) doing the same. Their timelines seem pretty adjacent in the lead up to meeting at the bus stop because they seem really tired, as if they both hadn’t slept that night while running away from the entity.

The fact that Ryan throws the rock as well just seems so off for entity Ryan, because the real Ryan had never thrown rocks at Naim before and so it seems more like an attempt at self-defence to entity Naim.

It’s so heart wrenching when you realise that omg this is the POINT. This is the point of the movie that they are so blinded by their fear that they attempt to hurt the ones they love most— they FEAR the ones they love most, unable to disconnect the fear of the being from the feelings towards the beings.

That small point of confusion as well— when they both pause to think wait- it might actually be you- until Ryan throws the rock, because HE is the one who was always the bravest and the one that risked it all to show his goal: kissing Naim, putting his hand on his back, touching him on the bus, etc. while in this moment this manifests itself into deciding against this bravery and going all out with fear— hence throwing the rock before risking Naim being the entity despite doubts he may have had.

This, inherently, being what the curse wanted in making them fear each other so much that if the entity didn’t kill them the real ones might.

[hystericalend]

having seen your tradie/ blue collar ryan whelan agenda, i got an incredibly strong flashback to when i came out to a sparkie friend of mine and a few weeks later i found on his google search "how to support gay friend"... any thoughts on how his tradie friends would come about it? been loving your content btw :)

hey tysm!! i have thought about this a LOT but to be totally candid a lot of it is me talking out of my ass bc i am not a tradie who spends all day on a work site so it's hard for me to concretly picture that dynamic and how ryan would fit into it rip

BUT ! working with my understanding from brothers and cousins and other men who i know who ARE tradies, sad to say i think ryan's first year as an apprentice is probably really fucking rough. as i've written in fic and said in previous posts i do believe post-bandee ryan is stubbornly open about being gay bc he wants to avoid forming relationships with people who might eventually reject him for his queerness, so he's open about being gay from the beginning. but that doesn't mean i think he's advertising it on the worksite per say, just that he doesn't avoid mentioning it if it arises naturally. like I think he could get a couple months in to his apprenticeship before one of the bosses makes a point of asking whether ryan's got a missus. maybe ryan hesitates, or maybe he doesn't, but i believe ultimately when he responds he just says it like it is. "yeah i do. he's called naim."

i think at first that's just gonna be met with confusion. fuck you mean he? awkward laughs like ryan might just be a bit slow and misunderstood the question. and though ryan laughs a long and grins with all his teeth, he doesn't let it pass. nah i meant the he actually. boyfriend. i'm gay.

hard for me to speak on it since again, i've never experienced the social dynamic of a chippie worksite firsthand but i can't imagine that would go down smoothly. he'd probably get the cold shoulder from a lot of the older/more traditional men, maybe even slurs thrown around behind his back at a volume to make sure it's heard. sometimes they don't bother waiting till his back is turned and just say it to his face. i think ryan deals with this treatment like he dealt with it in bandee. head down and getting on with his work. he and naim are on their own in the city after all, and he has rent to pay and a fridge to fill. no point crying about it.

but gradually i like to believe it would get better the deeper he gets into his apprenticeship. ryan works his ass off and is brighter than a lot of the 17 year old year 11 dropouts the older guys are used to taking on, so he shoots up the ranks pretty quick. and he's also just genuinely likeable. even if they are homophobic, a lot of the guys he works with just kind of. put it aside bc ryan whelan's a fun bloke and s'pose it doesn't matter where he puts his dick as long as they dont have to hear about it.

reactions to him being gay remain consistently ones of surprise given the fact ryan doesn't present stereotypically queer, but after a moment of wait rlly? i like to believe most of the guys more around his age don't shun him bc of it the same way some of the older men do. to a lot of them it's just another thing they know about him. ryan whelan is always good for spare screws and a light, is the funniest cunt you'll ever meet, and his missus is some guy named naim (fuck kinda name is naim? they're sure to tell him. outta all the guys you could settle down with you chose a bloke named naim?)

beyond just tolerance though i loveee to think about ryan eventually making some genuine ride-or-die mates. he's getting drinks with them at the pub and playing footy on the weekends, and bumming a free ride to see a game at the mcg when they have a spare ticket (bc it's always ryan they call when they have a spare ticket). eventually a few of them even meet naim and though naim is . hysterically awkward around a painfully blokey group of straight guys, they're so kind and genuine he warms up to them pretty quick. they of course, love naim to bits and make a point of jovially clapping ryan on the back like ya snagged a good one mate good on ya.

i also like to think that (though rarely once he's out of his apprenticeship years and holds a lot more authority on the work site) when some dickhead decides to say shit out of turn when they find out ryan's gay, his mates refuse to stand for it. though ryan isn't the type to rise to bait (think frog bullying scene!) he'd be lying if he said he doesn't get a little kick at having to talk down his mates from punching a homophobic cunt in the mouth.

this got way too long but ultimately: ryan's mates aren't going to pride but they will slap a cunt for calling ryan a fag. tune in next week for when during smoke one of them umprompted asks ryan about the intricacies of gay sex bc his girlfriend has been telling him a lot abt the male g spot and he's . yk. curious (ryan solemnly claps him on the shoulder and tells him ya need to let your girlfriend finger you mate can confirm will change your life. )

[gnawu]

i loved the moments where naim was such a brat towards ryan btw. wish we got to see more bratty naim

[hystericalend]

I LOVE BRATTY NAIMMMM i know once they're out of bandee he becomes a problemmm lol like wdym when ryan goes so there's nothing you like about this place? naim laughs at him, says "nothing" and then blows smoke in his face before kissing him that's INSANE work hello . you're so different at school. the way you walk, talk, everything about you. and when ryan gives attitude he just tackles him to the ground laughing as they go tumbling into the grass.. more generally naim has this impulsive pettiness about him that im obsessed with like i just love to think abt him becoming more confident as they grow older and sassing ppl constantly + him knowing exactlyy what he does to ryan and using it to his advantage all the time

[frenetic--energy]

I was rereading your post about that scene where Ryan goes into the bathroom and the entity tears his ear and it's soooo heartbreaking he really thought it was the real Naim 😭 😭

It did make me think it feels like in the movie Naim is usually aware that it's the entity and not the real Ryan, while Ryan gets tricked by it way more. Do you think there's a reason why?

Also curious how you picture the first time Ryan ever sees the entity and how that went down??

Love your posts!! You have a way of making things even more painful than they were in the movie ahahah.

agreed, it looks like ryan is tricked by the entity far more than naim. obviously naim knows how the entity 'works' a lot sooner than ryan does so he's aware basically from the get-go that there is A Thing that looks like ryan but isn't ryan. ryan unfortunately doesn't have this privilege, he encounters the entity at least twice before he realises what's going on or starts to suspect that entity!naim is not real naim

from memory i'm pretty sure the only scene where ryan is 'tricked' onscreen is the bathroom scene at school. this scene in particular i think is really delish because if you all recall, it takes place directly after the bus scene. ryan shoots naim a flirty 'come hither' look before ducking into the bathroom. naim moves to follow, but becomes seemingly self-conscious after seeing how crowded the corridors are, and then turns to leave. imo it is established that the entity can appear to you while others are around, but only hurt you/interact with you if you're truly alone. there's a reading certainly that naim doesn't follow ryan into the bathroom because he think it's the entity and not real ryan, but i don't think this is the case at all. i think naim chooses not to follow because he's anxious about being caught, being seen. the moment where he decides not to enter the bathroom is directly preceded by this little glance-around after a girl walks behind him. to me it really reflects their first kiss, naim catching sight of his reflection and then flinching away.

this is interesting to me because i think naim is self-conscious of and frightened by his queer identity in a way that ryan simply isn't. ryan has been (clearly) getting with other boys for some time, he's a lot more certain in his identity. for naim, the entity coaxes him into a sense of safety, security, comfort—it says i see you, i see what you are, and then violates him. conversely, ryan's experience of the entity is much more about community and acceptance, it's naim asking him on a roller rink date!! we know from their conversation in the mill that ryan is really desperate for affirmation from naim, any kind of sign or hint that his queer feelings are reciprocated. this is what he's missing with hunter, a sense of commonality, togetherness, community.

all of that to say, i think that ryan is more consistently tricked by entity!naim simply because it provides him with a different experience than entity!ryan does for naim. ryan has been the closeted gay kid in this small-town shithole for god knows how long, and for naim to come along and give him reciprocity and tenderness and love is so novel and exciting. i think he's lulled by the entity because he desperately wants these things. in naim's case however, he's still coming to terms with his queer identity and we know from his dialogue with the counsellor that these feelings have been upsetting and scaring him for a long time. the thing that the entity is offering him in the moments before violence is recognition, and it's recognition of a part of himself that he's spent his entire life fearful of, hiding from others, and rejecting. he's less enticed by the entity because it represents something he's deeply frightened of, while ryan is seduced because it's offering him something he's been reaching for and grasping at for a long, long time.

[hystericalend]

i've been replaying this on loop and i'm feeling:

1) mesmerised by the terror in naim's eyes and how he goes totally non verbal when he's scared like fucking hell joe what shit have u been through to be able to display fear like that. the way he's so terrified he's choking on it, unable to speak or do anything but frantically tap on the glass as tears well in his eyes ugughfhfg it's so fucking visceral i feel sick I LOVE YOU JOE BIRD

2) dazed by how gently ryan talks naim down. hey! it's alright. naim, it's alright, it's alright! look at me. hey, it's alright while he has both hands on his waist like oh my god ryan whelan you beautiful kind boy. what's that quote like "No one will understand the violence it took to become this gentle"... he's so careful and soft with naim it makes my head spin

and finally, arguably most devastating 3) the fact that ryan reassures naim by saying it can't get you there's people right here naim, it can't get you! not realising that it isn't true. bc naim not only witnessed ryan being attacked by the entity at the roller skating rink but also hunter the night he was killed. he watched hunter be strangled through glass just like this, and even though naim broke through the door and chased after calling his name the entity still killed him.

like for ryan this is just naim freaking out because he's frightened of the entity but for naim he fully thought he was about to die. and when he looks up at ryan through the glass, he's not just scared, he's also likely thinking in that moment of hunter and that night, and how ryan is going to watch him be killed just like him.

[hystericalend]

thank you to that person on tiktok who posted a ryanaim edit to we will not be lovers by the waterboys that song has become my ryanaim anthem like look at this shit

LIKE ?

??!?!?!/1/1?

[hystericalend]

a big thing abt the nature of ryan and naim's intimacy that i would love to see more people writing/talking about is the fact that ryan has the ability to just . switch off naim's brain. there's hints of it in their mill kisses but it's so clear in the bus scene and it makes me want to scream bc !!!!! i know we all bully naim for how much noise he was making but it's actually such an important marker of what naim gets out of intimacy with ryan—a chance to give up control, let his mind go blank, and just feel pleasure. naim is so quiet elsewhere in the film. he's a mostly silent crier, goes non-verbal when he's frightened, spends most of his time picking at his nails in too-big clothes with his head down hoping nobody notices him. joe described naim as an observer, someone who watches on from the sidelines, paralysed by anxiety, shame, and an endless stream of what ifs. but when he's with ryan we see naim teasing, laughing, talking more than he feels he should and getting embarrassed about it. and when ryan's touching him, we see naim pause for a moment, teetering on the edge of uncertainty, but all it takes is soft look, a gentle "it's okay" from ryan, and naim is able to let go. in the bus scene, for once naim isn't worried about what he looks or sounds like, totally lost in the feeling that ryan's giving him. and through that we get to see that for naim sex with ryan isn't just about getting off, it's one of the only times he can let go of all his anxiety and think abt nothing else. nothing else except ryan, and how good he's making him feel.

[hystericalend]

ryan picking up naim from work like those videos of dogs waiting behind the front door for their owner to come back. he's sat prone behind the wheel eyes locked on the entrance until finally naim walks out looking exhausted and makes a beeline straight for ryan's ute. as soon as he climbs into the passenger seat ryan huge grin tail wagging JUMPS on him and naim just sits there taking all the kisses ryan peppers all over his face bc he's long since learned it's better to let him get it out now or he'll pout the entire drive home

[bandaidrights]

- Naim's anxiety makes him bite his nails like crazy, nails, lips, or inside of his cheeks, hes gnawing on one. Ryan notices these things fairly quickly and learned how to distract him from the anxiety. If Naim's hand goes to his mouth, Ryan grabs it and holds it, when Naim's lip gets pinched in-between his teeth, Ryan gently pries his lip out with his thumb, then kisses him. He then talks him down from whatever is overwhelming him

- their future friends worry for them because theyre attached at the hip and always somehow show up with a new bruise or cut. They make jokes about them being a bonded pair, do not separate, but the jokes are true. They think their relationship is very toxic and unhealthy and it takes them a while to understand why theyre the way they are

- Ryan loves holding Naim's hand/waist/knee/just touching him in general in public. He loves that Naim reciprocates too. Naim was a bit hesitant at first because new town, but after no one batted an eye at them holding hands, or even a quick kiss on the cheek, he got way more comfortable.

- Naim's oversized jackets and hoodies fit Ryan really well so he just takes them sometimes. Naim "forgets" to wash it when he gets it back at the end of the day. He sleeps in it

[hystericalend]

You spoke about this scene recently and I loved this moment so much I have to add on.

I particularly loved the scene of Naim looking out the car window because of how it followed Ryanaim’s “So there’s nothing you like about this place?” “Nothing.” Naim referring to Bandee as a shithole, feeling as if there is nothing for him there. His mom was the one who wanted to move there anyways! Then immediately cut to the scene of Naim looking out the car window, watching Bandee pass by with wide eyes and an even wider smile. He looks happy, certainly, but also almost optimistic? Excited?

Maybe I’m making things up? Or looking at things too simply?? But my verdict: All it took was a little Ryan Whelan for Naim to begin to embrace Bandee. ദ്ദി╥ ᴗ ╥)

yes omg it's just such good juxtaposition adrian knew exactly what he was doing. naim continues to put on his distate of bandee bc he's a grumbling bratty teenager, but the truth is bc of his developing relationship with ryan he doesn't hate the town as much as he continues to parrot. happy optimistic excited all three! don't think it's a lie that he thinks bandee is a shit hole and there's not much else he likes about it, but ryan has him lovesick daydreaming looking at powerlines like.. i think there is something you like abt this place naim. something you like A LOT .

[withdevovotion]

based off this post by @hystericalend

some time after leaving bandee, ryan comes home from work and figures him and naim should probably try watching a queer movie or two (because, hey, they can do that now!)

so they’ve got the option, and now they’ve got the time as well, and a cheap laptop naim grabbed off ebay a couple months back — and maybe it's not perfect cinema conditions, but it's enough. and brokeback mountain is a famous movie, or so ryan has apparently heard, and it's about gay cowboys, which sounds kind of funny.

an evening in and time to kill. ryan laughs when naim hesitates over the play button.

"just play the fuckin movie," he says, falling back on the bed. "can't be that bad."

naim pretends to smother him with a pillow. ryan sits up, sighs faux-long sufferingly when naim wraps an arm around his shoulders. presses play.

the movie is.....that bad. they hit the shirt scene, ennis finding his shirt shoved somewhere inside jack's closet, bloodied and hung up, and it's — okay, it's game over. naim is crying, sure, wet face silent tears, but ryan is sobbing, full on tears. that gross kind of sobbing, snot all over the shoulder of naim's shirt and tears in both their hair and everything's going to need a fucking wash after this.

"don't die," ryan is getting out, somewhat hysterically, "don't leave me, if you leave me i'll die, naim," a pause for another soggy miserable noise, "naim naim naim, jesus fuckin christ," and then more sobbing. it's a lot of tears, more than naim thought imagineable from ryan, the kind of thing that would be funny if it wasn't so harrowing. they both stay sitting in front of the laptop for another 15 minutes after the credits roll. just processing.

that's an end to the queer movies for a couple weeks. next time, ryan and naim agree later, they're going to try something a little lighter. like call me by your name, or something. ryan is pretty sure call me by your name won't be that sad.

[hystericalend]

joe bird in every q&a bringing up that technically naim and ryan aren't even together bc they've never had the conversation. Brother . they're being tormented by a demonic entity that takes the other's form bc it's who they most desire and at the end of they film choose to leave behind everything they know and set forward with only eachother. You rlly think ryan is gonna pause the music and go "wait, are we boyfriends??" ..

[withdevovotion]

one day long after they get out, they're somewhere in melbourne with a couple new friends and somebody says, "so how did you get together?" and ryan looks at naim, and naim looks at ryan, because, like. hang on

[hystericalend]

ryan having to explain to their city friends that his way of wooing naim was bringing him to an old abandoned mill, joking that he had a funnel web on his shoulder, then wrestling him to the dusty floor and kissing him .. all their friends looking at naim like ... so this worked for you huh .. and naim's like no you dont understand!! he tried to pick up this pipe and his muscles looked rlly good ok

[hystericalend]

"entity ryan lowkey seemed like it actually wanted naim LOL" yeah bc it's supposed to.. entity ryan panting like a dog, tongue wetting his lips, eyes blown and heavy lidded as it chokes naim, forcing his way into his mouth. how violating is that for naim? to see ryan's face as he's hurt, and have him look like he's getting off on it? the entity isn't just violent it's sexually violent, bc encounters with it are designed to be traumatising. the entity's attacks are sexually charged so that queer kids associate desire with harm, and fear it.

[frenetic--energy]

yes and this behaviour from the entity is also reflecting cultural anxieties about gay men! gay men as predators, as transgressors, as pedophiles and rapists. it works to position queer desire as something that is inherently violatory and licentious—immoral, lustful, unrestrained.

the entity is a really tidy piece of symbolism in this regard. it communicates this notion that queer desire and queer relationships are not an appropriate avenue for connection or tenderness. it reduces queerness to sex (violent sex at that!) and removes any possibility for these kids to continue to think of their queer identity as something which brings them joy or comfort. as OP says, these encounters are engineered to be traumatising, and as i’ve gotten at in a previous post, the entity is wholly concerned with lulling these kids into a sense of security, making them let their guard down, and then violating them at their most comfortable. it reflects cultural anxieties about gay men and trans women inhabiting public spaces—especially bathrooms.

and, of course, the scene where entity!ryan puts his fist in naim’s mouth takes place in a bathroom! i don’t think this is a coincidence by any means, i think it’s a really delicious hermeneutical shorthand that helps us to view that scene in the correct light. entity!ryan is essentially raping naim onscreen, and it’s taking place in a locale which is deeply embedded with cultural anxieties about the alleged predatory and violent tendencies of gay men and trans women. it’s supposed to be horrifying not because it’s a fun piece of body horror, but because naim is being symbolically raped by a thing with the face of the man he loves.

[hystericalend]

"entity ryan lowkey seemed like it actually wanted naim LOL" yeah bc it's supposed to.. entity ryan panting like a dog, tongue wetting his lips, eyes blown and heavy lidded as it chokes naim, forcing his way into his mouth. how violating is that for naim? to see ryan's face as he's hurt, and have him look like he's getting off on it? the entity isn't just violent it's sexually violent, bc encounters with it are designed to be traumatising. the entity's attacks are sexually charged so that queer kids associate desire with harm, and fear it.

[hystericalend]

i'm sorry if you've already talked abt this, but i figured your opinion on this may be interesting !!

do you think there were any distinctive differences between entity ryan and entity naim? by that i mean how they treat the real version of the other ... if that makes sense.

i'm inclined to believe this is true, given that the entity is obviously a bastardized version of all your desires, so i'd assume entity naim behaved differently for. real ryan

sorry if that didn't make sense you are probably one of the number one ryan whelan understanders and i wanted to get your take on it!

hey! i’ve had vague thoughts abt this exact thing floating around since my first watch and i totally agree with you. given the entity manipulates your desire to tempt you, there are definitely different undercurrents to how entity ryan tempts naim and how entity naim tempts ryan. 

to start with naim and what we see explicitly in the film, entity ryan lulls naim into a sense of safety by exuding a sense of assuredness. the first time naim encounters entity ryan at hunter's funeral it's cold and cruel, walking away from him and saying "told you to fuck off" (which is all necessary given naim's last interaction with ryan at the roller skating rink). but when naim follows, brokenly cries and admits he feels lost, the entity responds by pulling him in close, stroking his face and kissing him. not to subspace naim truth on main but we see a lot of naim finding mental relief through ryan's touch bc of how ryan allows him to let go of his spiralling thoughts and be lost in feelings of pleasure/intimacy. throughout the film naim is someone constantly seeking assurance and help from others. he tries to get it from the counselour at the police station, repeatedly tries to get it from his mum. naim desires safety, someone to tell him that things will be okay, that they've got him, and that's what naim finds so appealing about being with ryan--ryan turns his brain off and grounds him. we get to see him experience this with the real ryan in the mill and on the bus, ryan leading their intimacy and naim allowing himself to just enjoy it. what the entity draws on to tempt naim is not only his sexual desire, but the sense of safety ryan gives him. at the screen door, the entity tells him i was never scared of this naim bc that's what naim wants to hear--that ryan isn't scared, and so naim can lean on him.

now for ryan, i think it's similar, but there's a slight different colour to it . something i think abt a lot in regards to ryan is the "make what stop?" exchange with hunter before the ritual. if we put things in perspective ryan has been hooking up with hunter for at least a while before naim came to town (i suspect a considerably long time tbh), but when they get found out, when they're told they have to stand in front of the church and undergo this ritual to "make it stop" hunter looks ryan dead in the eyes and says "make what stop?" and leaves ryan totally stranded. this lays the foundation for what ryan desires from naim: reassurance that he’s not alone in this. ryan desires his feelings to be returned, their relationship to mean as much to naim as much as it does to him, and for naim to stand by ryan despite what the town or anyone thinks about them. ryan is constantly bidding for naim's validation. "so there's nothing you like about this place?" + getting quietly upset whenever naim brings up leaving bandee (and thus, leaving ryan), it's the prospect of naim leaving ryan behind that elicits the famous: i don't want it to look like some other dickhead, i want it to look like you. i've always felt that in contrast to naim who still feels like he's figuring things out in terms of being queer, ryan knows who he is. ryan knows he's gay, and though he might have a complicated relationship with whether being gay is "wrong", he knows it's not something a ritual can make go away. ryan doesn't need reassurance about his identity, he just wants to know that naim is with him. that who he is is not something he has to go through alone. 

so. entity naim. i think the entity presents itself to ryan shy and quiet like the real thing, but a version that feels less shuttered, and is more forthcoming with naim's feelings and his desire. i can just imagine big wet eyes looking up at ryan as naim openly asks for what he wants, hands roaming freely, sounds not bitten back. it's naim, but a naim less afraid, who can be open about his desire for ryan and tells him straight up i like you, i want you, i'm with you.

it’s also very interesting to compare hunter and naim’s interactions with the entity vs ryan’s. for naim and hunter, the entity comes for them when they’re alone and keeps them there, because hunter and naim both want intimacy with ryan without an outsiders perception of it. but for ryan, the entity lures ryan into safety by taking him to a public place because that's exactly what ryan desires--for naim to love him openly, to treat him like a boyfriend and not only touch him behind closed doors. so even after already having a violent encounter with entity naim, when he comes by his house again and asks him out to the roller skating rink, ryan follows. i don't care the town knows about you, the entity says to ryan, drawing on his desire. i'm the same anyways. and i want to be with you. 

TDLR: the entity weaponises naim's struggles with his queerness and his desire to feel safe and assured. ryan is more secure in his identity, but craves for his feelings to be validated and not left alone and that's what the entity drawns on to tempt him.

hope this analysis was moderately satisfying?? interested to hear your thoughts. honoured im up there in the ranks as a ryan whelan understander ahahah. thanks for this honestly i love any chance to talk abt entity naim bc even though i am happy with leviticus as it is i wished we could've gotten just a smidge of entity naim on screen.. i yearn for the visual of joe birds big wet sad eyes luring ryan into a kiss and then turning cold when the entity becomes violent i just know he would have absolutely devouredddd sigh

[dearthshine]

having now seen this movie 4 times in theaters i can say with full confidence that keeping it a tight 90 was the best decision possible. i understand where folks are coming from when they want more of the source material and i certainly wouldn't have been mad at a 2 hour runtime but this is one of those movies where we are given just enough information to work with and you can fill in the gaps yourself how you see fit and there is so so much wiggle room for fanon and it is ALL DELICIOUS.

[hystericalend]

yes getting more of ryan and naim would've been a joy to watch bc stacy and joe's chemistry is electric and any scene of them together had me glued to the screen but letting the audience draw on their own experiences to fill in the gaps is what makes this film so special and so personal for every viewer. to quote adrian chiarella: "this is an artform where if you do it right, it's about the audience joining the dots themselves...the film itself is not really the film, it's just a prompt for what's going on inside the audience's head"

[hystericalend]

a) ryan whelan secretly watched brokeback mountain on some shitty illegal streaming site on his phone when he was 14 and was in a dissociative state for days

OR

b) post bandee movie night left ryan whelan sobbing snotty disgusting hysterical clinging to naim like you can't ever leave me pls don't ever leave me i can't live without you