emotions

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Minstake #0

The one who set things in motion. The one who created a monster. The one who broke me.

I’m confused about him - I miss him and hate him.

And on Instagram I follow a guy who looks just like him... :/

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mistakes & growing pains

mistake#1, mistake#6

I’m growing and it’s painful ;) Well, no, not really. I mean I keep growing & learning what I like and luckily Mr Mistake #1 and Mr Mistake # 6 can be involved. I mean the growth and pain are self-inflicted, and they are welcome to participate.

Nothing v. kinky though....

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mistake #7

I love your voice, and how thoughtful and gentle you are. I enjoyed talking to you and the evening we spent together was just so different from anything else in my life. Maybe this was not a mistake after all? I really hope we meet again…

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A few months later we meet again.

It now hits me that meeting you at Grand Central was crazy romantic. Sometimes life is like the movies...

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Mistake #6

We are “friends” and sleep together for a few months. Then there comes a day when you leave. Forever. And all the “goodbye” I get is a weak wave of your tired hand from behind a row of cabinets. Not ok.

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It’s been a while. We meet again, we have drinks and we talk, and I tell you about a guy I went out with a few times a while ago. You angrily ask why I did that and it’s funny. You are in a relationship and still the question sounds like you you are bothered by the fact that I was seeing someone else.

It makes me want to sing “I don’t belong to you and you don’t belong to me.”

And then we have sex again.

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Yet another meeting. You say the red dress and lingerie I’m wearing is a good choice. I know I don’t look my best but it turns you on anyway. You ask me to to put red lipstick on and I happily comply.

We ruin my red dress but the sex is amazing.

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Mistake #6

We are “friends” and sleep together for a few months. Then there comes a day when you leave. Forever. And all the “goodbye” I get is a weak wave of your tired hand from behind a row of cabinets. Not ok.

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It’s been a while. We meet again, we have drinks and we talk, and I tell you about a guy I went out with a few times a while ago. You angrily ask why I did that and it’s funny. You are in a relationship and still the question sounds like you you are bothered by the fact that I was seeing someone else.

It makes me want to sing “I don’t belong to you and you don’t belong to me.”

And then we have sex again.

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mistake #7

I love your voice, and how thoughtful and gentle you are. I enjoyed talking to you and the evening we spent together was just so different from anything else in my life. Maybe this was not a mistake after all? I really hope we meet again...

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Mistake #6

We are “friends” and sleep together for a few months. Then there comes a day when you leave. Forever. And all the “goodbye” I get is a weak wave of your tired hand from behind a row of cabinets. Not ok.

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Mistake #5

Under the influence of way to much bad white wine and some vodka, I made yet another mistake. A bad idea (as all of my mistakes). This would have been ok in college, I should have known better, etc., etc.

No use crying over spilled milk, what is done, is done.

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A guy asked me what I want in a relationship and in bed.

"Possibilities," I said. "I want to be able to choose to go to a place, to do something. Not necessarily do it. I just want to know I have the option. People say it's the 21st century disease. Well, maybe. But that's what I want. And that's the only thing you can't give to me."

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Mistake # 4 - a rerun

Because I was in the mood and the tension between us was so built up.

It was great and now he doesn't recognize me in the street. Oh well...

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Mistake # 4

A weirdo and an asshole I fell for and still can't get over. Of all the mistakes I have made, this is the one I wish I haven't made.

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Mistake # 3

Mistake # 3 was someone I should have never hooked up with. But being a vain woman, I liked the way he looked at me, the way he talked, the way he held me when we danced. And I did like the way he kissed me.

Still, I should have known better.

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Mistake # 2

A drunken mistake, I should add. Cute, self-assured, and a coworker, which makes it a bad mix. Don't like the way he talks in bed.

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Mistake #1

Smart, cute, funny, sexy. Great kisser. Great in bed. Married with two kids.

Very much into my high heels.

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Today will not be the first day of the rest of my life (single and fabulous, of course). Today will not be the first day of a new chapter. Today will just be yet another day of my existence. Yet another day to make huge mistakes and blog (brag?) about them here.