Lovebug/Love/Berry | he/they/it | adult | accidentally realized I might have MaDD after 5 years of mildly toying with the idea | traumatized 💔 | follow and int from lightishlilac
I'm Lovebug/Love/Berry, he/they/it, I just accepted I probably have MaDD and I wanted to have a blog for it! Shocked this username wasn't taken omg,,,
So from what I know I have a MASSIVE blanket where every subparacosm has a fairly linear story? I don't really have a paraself I think but I've definitely got a hell of a lot of parames (personally this means I'm living through specific paras, it's usually the same set of them). They're almost entirely fictparas, hence the user (I have a couple ones that are kinda between fict and fact but they're like fictionalized versions of historical figures so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ no idea what that is)! I guess I'll list them eventually? I like naming them too! So that's cool! I might draw my paras too? And parames? We shall see
I've called my daydreams "thought stories" since I was 8 when I developed the symptoms that have lasted *checks notes* 13 years (‽ it's been that long‽) but I wanna rename my blanket now that I know that. Considering my title is a CK3 reference cause that quote haunts me, I'm kinda considering CKDream! But maybe it'll be something else! We'll figure it out someday!
Sometimes I use plural pronouns for myself, however I am not plural. No idea where this came from but it has happened
I'm psychotic too, I don't think it impacts my daydreaming tho? I think they're fairly separate. I have some pretty serious trauma that definitely is the reason for this lmao it started happening the same time my trauma became obvious
Proship/Comship/Neutral + Zionists + Fakeclaimers + people who believe in cluster B abuse or label any disorder as inherently "evil" or abusive DNI please!!
Naming my blanket after CK3 is so funny cause I'm not. A player. Of CK3. I just watch videos about it. And when I saw the line "I need your clothes to build my cozy little jester nest" it rewired something in my brain and also I ended up with paras from it
send in a number (or multiple) and if you feel like it, an accompanying paracosm/para!
(apologies for how wordy these are. i am not a man known for my brevity)
reblog and have fun with these! (and if you reblog this or send me an ask, i'll send you one too)
how long have you been daydreaming for? (bonus if you can remember: what was your first daydream scenario/paracosm?)
if your paracosm had a popular fandom, what do you think it'd be like?
do you have any paracosms that aren't huge, but that you fall back on when The Time Is Right™️?
WOULD YOU RATHER: have your daydreams projected onto a screen attached to your head at all times OR be entirely unable to daydream ever again for the rest of your life?
what para of yours is most like you? self inserts and paraselves don't count!
how did you come up with your paras' names? did they come to you randomly or did you spend hours researching name websites?
imagine your paras have at least a basic knowledge of driving (or even just like, cars). can they parallel park? (bonus points if you explain it like in this post)
do you do extensive worldbuilding for your paracosms? if you do, what are some of your favorite elements?
if your paras found out you were their creator, how would they react?
if you have a self insert/paraself, how similar are they to you?
is there any time of the day where you can't/don't daydream?
are your daydreams linear and structured, or do you jump all over the place?
what's a song you've been daydreaming to lately, and what's your favorite moment in said daydream?
do your paras age with you, or are their ages static? does it feel weird to be older than a para you were previously the same age as?
if you had the opportunity to leave this world and live in your paracosm forever, would you? why or why not?
(if you have multiple) which paracosm of yours is most grounded in reality? which is most fantastical?
make one of those "[blank] spoilers without context" memes for your paracosms. then explain it (or don't :))
who is your second favorite para, and why aren't they your favorite?
what would your paras' typing styles be like? do they use lots of emojis? sign off each text like a letter? type with lots of weird spaces and ellipses?
do you move a lot when daydreaming, and if so, in what ways?
have you ever wanted to make a piece of media of your paracosm (comic, animation, visual novel, novel, tv show, etc.)? what are elements that would be apart of it?
when you actively want to start daydreaming, what is your mind's process? do you tune back in like it's a tv show? flip through imaginary files? let it come naturally?
do you ever daydream about yourself (not a self insert, just you)?
do you have any two paras that are polar opposites to one another? (they don't even have to exist in the same universe, just in general)
what para would you absolutely hate in real life?
FREEBIE! drop some long-winded lore or some memes or whatever you want ^▽^
when you experience a daydream block or crash, what are things you do to try and fix it? (or ways you cope. lmao i get it)
for fictparacosms, do your daydreams affect how you perceive the media and/or the fandom?
if you ever write down things about your daydreams (truly anything at all — notes, dialogues, descriptions, etc), share a random snippet with no context.
if your paras had madd/daydreamed immersively, what would they daydream about?
for any pairings (romantic, platonic, familial, whatever), what is the dynamic between your paras like?
if you could make a bingo of common elements of your daydreams (paracosm-specific or not), what would be on some of the squares?
if you have tried to make your paras in character makers (picrew, meiker, etc), what is an aspect of your para that these makers never/rarely have?
are your daydreams clear in your mind's eye?
if you have multiple paracosms, what would it be like if they had a crossover?
I think the weirdest part of my paras and subparacosms is what I like to call Shipverse where all my F/Os and S/Is vibe together. This is the closest I get to paraselves and it's only because they're already designed to be me
Interestingly this has turned into a blanket inside a blanket. CKDream contains Shipverse which contains several subparacosms. Subsubparacosms if you will. They are both the canons they originate from and a strange vaguely connected one. There's a few connected ones for related sources but mostly they are separate except for Shipverse Prime which is a haphazardly stitched together collected universe with all of them. They rarely know each other. I hop between regions of stories. It is a nightmare
How long will it take to reach subsubsubparacosms. How deep can I go. Is there an end to the subparacosms. How many can I stack. I will learn someday. It took 12 years to reach subsub. 13 to realize a subblanket (?) was the reason. Will another year create the elusive subsubsub? Who knows
Like do I post about my paras?? The stories?? Should I draw them?? Do people do that?? Cause I'd do that. I love to draw characters I have unhealthy attachments to
It's so annoying how frustratingly difficult it is to translate daydreams into actual words in a text document! Because it's oftentimes not that the daydreams are just things i'm imagining, vague ideas of what happens or is said, no no no. I'm straight up thinking, very specifically, word for word what happens. I'm straight up sounding out sentences like i was reading a fanfic but in my head. but the moment i actually try to translate these words into, well, Actual Words, they just disappear!!! Whyy
