Field Of Clouds

Journaling

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I decided to create a new journal Diary. Maybe that’s what I need lately I feel like shit, I cannot think clear, And seems that I have no purpose in life so maybe I could track my activity and what’s Triggers My mood.

So in this journal, includes;

Life

Financial

Work

Mood etc.

Life

There is a quote.

“Live the life you want to live”

I am the one in control and I just want to do everything I want. But sometimes there a burden with worries and problems that I need to face it, at every point I want to live a happy and positive life.

Maybe I have to follow the steps assuming that it will changing my life even better. There are;

• Clear mind - more open and see things from different perspective, learn new things, set up new goals, Do you things that make me happy and lastly change the way I think.

Make your mind to flow like water, free to flow anywhere and takes up the shape of the vessel it is placed on.

• Happiness doesn’t come with money - Appreciate all the little things in life as they won’t happened to you again.

• Life is all about having “fun” - Having fun I will help you to uplift your mood

Financial

This is what I always think about it is a personal problem. I have this kind of financial distress.

Work

The longest work experience after I graduated from UNI. There are no such thing that I want to keep working on this company because No career path, No salary increase, No environment and etc

Mood swings

What mood swing can happen any time at any place it is and emotional ups and downs. It changes a personal energy level, sleep pattern, self-esteem, concentration, and different things might trigger mood swings. Example unhealthy diet and lifestyle.

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#16aug2021

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Today is may 29 2026

i went to starbucks today, its quite nice and cozy. i like the place tho, but i guess i have to come early. lately i feel bored and gampang banget bosen, i do not know why. misalnya seperti aku lg disini aku bisa aja bosen like i want to move to another place. tapi sama aja kalo misalnya aku ga disinipun. hmm...

i try to have some routine, but yeah. mudah bgt bosen, huhu"

is it call “socially selective” atau mentally overstimulated.?

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Today is 26 May ay 2026

i feel bored, like my routine is always the same. From wakeup, starting the day, praying, cleaning the room, wash dishes, scrolling for some ideas, open laptop, get ready if i want to buy coffee, arrived at coffee shop, open laptop again, doing things, go back home, laying, open laptop again, scrolling, laptop again until 21.00, going back to bed.

It's actually almost the same, monday to saturday.

Recently, i have been focusing on microstocks, and canva to create element and submit them. I know everything is progressing and not come up instantly but....

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April 15 2026

I want to Bandung last saturday with mam cause she came for reuni invitation. As we arrived we went to asstro herritage and around 9ist i srightfowrd to pasar cihapit, i did some reserch to where i going and which place i wanto discoverd but ended up here. I had breakfast at mama eha and bought batagor, i walk around i feel happy cause like i have time and i can go everywhere. after just waking by i kinda counfuse cause there are so much places i want to visit. then i walk by to coffee shop named two cents, and wow many people there nothing to excpect tho. the coffee shop is quite cozy, modern but calming inside i went upstairs far from the crowd ofcourse i found little spot that suits welll. so i just sat, relax, just a couple hours i guess.

i feel like, wow its really nice that you can have nice morning coffee everywhere you want, famous coffee shop i guess and you sat in best spot then no schedule, works, noise to bother. you were thinking where is next destination. maybe what i was thinking same as people who were in they travel trip.

i really want to discover more, enyoing life and lots money.

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"You can truly design your dream life. And being specific is the way to do this. The Universe will give you anything you want as long as you align with it energetically and provide the blueprint. So turn into the creator of your life. Design your perfect life."

Home with good location, easy to access to anywhere. Like boulevard, park, library, coffee shop, hospital, highway, eating ares, rest area.

Near TIM, just wall to fore or tuku, near metrotown and station. Rumah dengan halaman yg besar dan luas, tidak banyak pohon tapi cukup teduh. Seperti rumah di daerah kemang, prapanca, ampera, pejaten, simprug daerah jakarta selatan. Rumah dengan 1 lantai, luas di dalam, tidak banyak partisi dengan ubin jaman dahulu atau granite.

ini halaman belakang luas dengan rumput dan tanaman hias/bambu kuning/pisang menutupi tembok yg tertata. Jadi pohon hanya ada di bagian tembok saja. Ada tempat duduk di tengah untuk aku duduk pagi dan sore.

bagian depan tertata rapih pohon pohon.

ini diah rumah impian aku.

Masya Allah. Bismilah.

Interior, warna dominan putih, rustic, tiles, hallway,

interior kamar: warna putih atau light cream, banyak storage sedikit barang. Hanya ada ranjang, big rug, sofa, side tables, abstract painting, more lamps, meja kerja yg besar, lemari baju sepatu tas dan aksesoris, display untuk my products. Dinding di buat motif, di setiap sudut ada lampu gantung, lampu meja, lampu neon panjang, bagian atap nya rata saja/

Tempat kerja, karena aku kerja from anywhere aku lebih suka meja yg panjang dan besar dengan rak rak di atas nya, storage tertutup dan terbuka lalu jendela besar yg bisa di tutup sempurna. Lampu meja dan lampu rak.

Karena aku bosenan dan gak suka yg monoton, aku akan buat beberapa meja dengan posisi yg berbeda dan desktop lalu aksesoris nya. Beberapa monitor tambahan, speakers, tanpa tv, lalu sofa or kursi gaming. Ada tempat mini corner untuk coffee making spot dan mini freezer. Make it focus, cozy and cold.

Table setup could be like this, window di bagian samping saja. Mungkin ini for table 2 setups.

Mini corner for coffee making, ada tempat duduknya juga. Setup nya seperti ini ada tambahan kulkas mini dan close storage.

Feels nya seperti ada di coffee shop but they have bookshelves.

Moving on to area luar.

sisi rumah di buat seperti ini tertata walking area, dan tanaman hias.

Small garden, cukup untuk sehari hari dari sayuran, buahan.

Rumah aku juga dekat sekali dengan Toko kopi tuku, hanya berjalan kaki sudah sampai. Aku bisa datang pagi menjadi pelanggan pertama mereka, have breakfast before memulai aktifitas, atau datang sebelum mereka tutup gerai.

Hummingbird eatery. Hanya beberapa blok saja dari rumah, lunch atau dinner aku biasanya datang ke tempat ini.

Another local coffee shop nearby.

I am sure i've loved to come here like everyday.

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April 1st 2026

Yesterday was well spend. I had lunch at w steak, with complimentary birthday cake and sirloin steak with bee. Then bought gelang at smb. So grateful for everythings. Turn out 32 this years.

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Monday, 30 March 2026

Its been like forever, finally here.

Kopi bang randen.

I think last time was 2 years ago. As usually i just need same and sometime. Can not decided which place i should go, there are various of options. So here we go.

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Selamat Idul Fitri, selamat lebaran 2026.

Lebaran hari sabtu tanggal 21 Maret 2026. Aku udah ke Bandung dari hari kamis dan macet banget sampai 9 jam perjalanan. It was quite Eid, nothing much. Puasa tahun ini i felt a bit slow, stay home, i can't buy coffee, not spend time much outside. Lebih banyak taraweh dari tahun sebelum nya, which is good.

How do you feel? I feel calm and content, not thinking about something that bother me, or even attach to someone. More like, if i want it i do it if not then do something elses. I think healthy mind and mental is really important, i can control what i want to show, tell and give.

Today is: Tuesday, 24 March 2026.

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Have no idea what do i have to do.

15jan26

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JPN

A bit late but here are the story.

Aku pergi ke Jepang bulan September 12, 2025. It was my first time. Kita pergi ber 5 saja, bener bener have fun dan pengalaman yg tak terlupakan. Di jepang sekitar 10 hari, kami ke Osaka-Kyoto-Tokyo. Lebih lama di osaka, tinggal di airbnb tidak lah buruk tempat nya rapih dan semua ada disana. Orang jepang sangat suka pakai baju hitam putih or minimalis tidak ada yg overweight, semua nya skinny . Mereka sangat cuek, dan dingin. Aku suka sekali di osaka, belanja dan menghabiskan waktu di Dontonbori. Jalanan yg penuh dengan org jepang dan turis, semua barang lucu dan bermerek dari sepatu, tas, makeup dan boneka. Aku bener bener suka sekali, banyak makanan lucu dan menarik. Untuk harga bervariasi dari 300-2000 juga banyak. Sebenernya banyak yg harus di explore lebih ke setiap sudut, tp kemarin sudah lebih dari cukup. Aku binggung awal nya naik kereta di sana karena arah dan jalur nya, di stasiunpun penuh dan saat keluar pun penuh sekali alhasil aku hanya mengikuti saja. Kita ke Osaka Castle, dontonbori, dan castle lain nya lalu ke usj. Ke usj sangat menyenangkan, tp karena aku sudah pernah dulu jadi ya tidak ada yg aneh lagi. Disana banyak sekali combini, like sevel, lawson, famima dann makanan nya enak enak wajib sekali dicoba. Makanan nya seperti burger fish nya sevel, onigiri salmon, roti mayo, nasi putih, salmon grill dan banyak lagi. Hari yg kutunggu tunggu yaitu ke OSKA EXPO, exibitions terbesar dari banyak negara dalam satu tempat. It was amazing yet tired. Pergi dari jam 9an pagi karena baru bisa masuk jam 12 siang, di stasiun nya sudah ramai saat masuk, dan benar saja kita harus antri di bawah terik matahari siang, antri sekitar 2 jam omg. Bener bener panas sekali tidak ada pohon, untung saja bawa payung meskipun bukan payung UV. Aku dehidrasi dan kepanasan sekali saat ini, antri penuh sekali line up nya... ahhh tidak bisa dijelaskan karena mau balik arahpun ya ga bisa, mau ke toilet pun ga bisa hiks jadi harus antri sampai loket masuk. Kita hebat sekali haha. oh ya aku langsung gosong dan belang dari muka dan tangan.

to be continue---

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Happy New Year 2026!

Yes 2026, now. Beberapa minggu ini sering sekali ke Kopken Pekayon, idk sering merasa jenuh, kadang monoton dan pergi keluar adalah stress relief untuk ku pakai mobil dengerin lagu, dingin dan datang ke koken. Yeahh, feeling better after that. Tapi karen udah mulai keseringan, bosan itu kadang datang lagi.. ahhh.

Oh hey, umur ku sebentar lagi 32thn loh!! I really can't believe it. Aku bersyukur karena aku lebih baik sekarang, aku lebih syg diri ku dan lebih banyak mengerti diriku. Mulai dari trigger, mood, hal yg aku benci suka, dan seperti apa aku ingin diperlakukan, Aku juga sering mengucap afirmasi serta manifestasi, harus lebih sering sih dit. Diluar sana tuh apa ada yg hati nya sepi? hari-hari nya sepi? padahal misalnya dia setiap hari kerja, dan ketemu office mates di kantor tapi tetep sering sepi? ada ga sih..kaya ga bener bener tau dan menyentuh hati dan hidupnya. Sekarang bener bener ga bisa percaya sama cewe ato cwo sekalipun. Hidup nya udah kelewat bebas dan terlalu mudah dari satu hati ke hati selanjutnya. Mengebu di awal atau private tapi tenyata punya dan bahaya.

What scares you? Orang yg bermuka dua, bagaimana dia punya kehidupan di belakang sana. Saat dia takut akan kesepian lalu cari pelampiasan sana sini, yg belum selesai dgn hati nya sendiri akan masalalu lalu memulai hubungan dgn org baru. Atau yg sudah punya hubungan tapi dia melalaikan nya. Jauhkan lah hamba dari orang seperti itu.

Aku pengen minim interaksi langsung dengan orang. Aku own my business and run really well. buy stuff, home, car, aboard, dll. without cares about people.

07jan2026

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Wednesday, 26 Nov 2025

Sudah lama sekali aku tidak ke tempat favorite ku yaitu Koba, tempat yg selalu aku datangi saat aku butuh recharge dan here i am now. It been like 3 months aku terakhir kesini sebelum aku ke jpg bulan september. I miss this place. Aku selalu duduk di tempat yg sama, memesan kopi yg sama dan semua itu sudah cukup sekali bagiku. I love my own solitude it is really content.

Cuaca hari ini terbilang cerah, ga hujan. Kegiatan ku sekarang? run my own business as usually . I loved, i so lucky in many aspects dan always treated well as a top tier priority everywhere i go.

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Nov. 25. 2025 I Tuesday

I am happy

i radiate love and positivity

i am so lucky, everything always work out for me

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13 october 2025

Aku pikir aku sudah sembuh dr diriku sendiri, ternyata belum sepenuh nya. Apa yg salah dari proses ini?

Aku hari ini merasa sepi seperti muak sendiri, terlalu lama aku tidur sampai aku pusing dan ga mau tidur lagi. Akhirnya aku keluarlah ke coffee shop meskipun cuma sebentar at least aku refresh sebentar. ah aku sebal perasaan ini, ga karuan sepi gada temen ngobrol, cerita atau ketawa iya sih aku suka sendiri keluar tp pengen ada yg nemenin aku juga. Karena aku gamau cerita sm org random akhirnya aku curhat aja deh sini unek-unekku hari ini senin 13 oktober 2025 10.58 at kopi nko smb. coba sekarang siapa org yg aku percaya sih? kenapa ya org datang dan nanti dia pergi juga? buat apa dong kenal orang ? kalo datang dan pergi seperti itu....

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Aku janji ga bakal sia-siain kamu, when you see me as a daylight of your life for the rest.

6 oct 2025

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Feel safe, secure, happy, loved, provide, respect

Always have quality time, travel aboard, discover new coffee shop or restaurants, a company each other hobbies, go to library

Just chilling and cooking/baking

A company, help, and show up

loyalty, honestly

respect, support

Provider men are drawn to my softness, grace, and self-worth

Safe, trust, fire

provider, care, prorities,

calm, helpful, no judging

Oct, 5

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Japan

The next is Sapporo, Okay?