maybe Ā she Ā was Ā dreamingĀ . Ā it Ā wouldnāt Ā be Ā the Ā first Ā time Ā sheād Ā conjured Ā him Ā up Ā in Ā her Ā imaginationĀ , Ā kind Ā smile Ā and Ā allĀ , Ā especially Ā considering Ā how Ā sleep Ā deprived Ā she'd been since returning to new yorkĀ . Ā surely Ā this Ā wasnāt Ā actually Ā happeningĀ , Ā because Ā otherwiseĀ , Ā this Ā would Ā be Ā way Ā too Ā surrealĀ . Ā five Ā years Ā was Ā a Ā long Ā time Ā to Ā go Ā without Ā seeing Ā someoneĀ , Ā long Ā enough Ā that Ā you Ā realize Ā you Ā canāt Ā quite recall Ā their Ā features Ā like Ā you Ā used Ā to ⦠ but Ā this Ā likeness  ⦠ eyes Ā widening Ā when Ā their Ā fingers Ā brushed Ā as Ā she Ā robotically Ā took Ā the Ā offered Ā cup Ā from Ā his Ā handĀ , Ā she Ā nearly Ā dropped Ā it Ā in Ā her Ā surpriseĀ . Ā noĀ ,Ā Ā this Ā was Ā beauĀ ā Ā realĀ , Ā tangible , Ā here Ā ā Ā looking Ā at Ā her Ā like Ā theyād Ā never Ā been Ā apart Ā for Ā a Ā dayĀ . Ā she Ā should Ā say Ā somethingĀ , Ā reallyĀ , Ā because Ā standing Ā in Ā the Ā middle Ā of Ā a Ā cafe Ā with Ā the Ā most Ā ridiculous Ā shellĀ -Ā shocked Ā look Ā on Ā her Ā face Ā was Ā getting Ā her Ā nothing Ā but Ā curious Ā looks Ā from Ā passersbyĀ . Ā finally Ā opening Ā her Ā mouth Ā to Ā respondĀ , Ā unfortunatelyĀ , Ā all Ā that Ā her Ā brain Ā could Ā come Ā up Ā with Ā was Ā a Ā forcefully Ā cheerful Ā smile Ā and Ā a Ā patheticĀ , Ā ā Ā thanks Ā for Ā the Ā coffeeĀ ! Ā ā Ā before Ā she Ā turned Ā on Ā her Ā heel Ā and Ā sped Ā from Ā theĀ storeĀ . Ā she Ā turned Ā the Ā corner Ā into Ā an Ā alleywayĀ ,Ā Ā pressing Ā her Ā back Ā against Ā the Ā cool Ā brick Ā and Ā she Ā tried Ā not Ā to Ā let Ā herself Ā start Ā panickingĀ . Ā what Ā was Ā wrong Ā with Ā herĀ ? Ā running Ā into Ā your Ā ex Ā shouldnāt Ā render Ā a Ā person Ā completelyĀ incapable Ā of Ā rational Ā thought ⦠ even Ā if Ā they Ā are Ā that Ā exĀ , Ā the Ā one Ā sheād Ā so Ā desperately Ā tried Ā replacing Ā with Ā all Ā the Ā others ... though , clearly , Ā with Ā no Ā lasting Ā effectĀ .