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nobody’s surprised lakjdfh but i’m moving fergus back to my multi! i intend to carry across threads, catch him over at @astrificare

#ooc.#i miss mon fils but i'm just never here and most of the time i am it's out of Spite for the show #i can be petty and bitter on my main blog just fine!!

timeacross‌ / doctor.

“ i wouldn’t imagine you would. be happy, young man, i’ve imparted some knowledge. that’s always an occasion for a bit of cheer. “ he looks at him, with a bit of a tilt to his head. “ am i? yes, i suppose it would seem that way. “ he nods, just as he thought. “ no, he wouldn’t, would he? he doesn’t have the same affection for the scottish as i do. “ he did, after all, choose a scottish voice, did he not? he shakes his head a bit, “ i seem to have forgotten myself. i’m the doctor. what’s your name? “

❝ and some confusion, monsieur. ❞ this is, fergus thinks, one of those times it is better not to ask anymore questions. he feels that way when milady talks about her medicine, sometimes, though he trusts its result, and the more he tries to understand, the more he does not. fergus has never been particularly educated. ❝ you...know this man? ❞ the man --- the doctor? --- introduces himself, and for a very long moment, all fergus can do is stare. ❝ i am fergus. fergus fraser. i’m sorry, the doctor? i know somebody who goes by this. there’s more of you? ❞

#timeacross #timeacross ( seven 01 )#ic.#( v. dw ) everything that ever happened or ever will.

messmikkelsen

#haven't watched the ep but i know this is the only thing i care abt #and marsali being [chef kiss]#fergus' FACE where is my reaction to 'of my heart'#also jamies if u don't make this his tag i s2g #( re. ) i have always trusted you.#fergus.#milord.#outlander spoilers //#spoilers //

hi just thinking abt how fergus doesn’t have a surname until he’s 30, and he doesn’t even have the name given to him by (presumably) his birth mother until then bc Someone decided to change it and he just kinda...doesn’t connect to being claudel all that much. he doesn’t have a birthday and only vaguely knows how old he is, probably through claire’s guesswork as much as anything else, and he just...has nothing that’s about him and where he comes from except his language and he doesn’t even get to use that much

#headcanon.

timeacross‌ / ???

“ it’s a bit too early for that, then, is it? homo sapiens, the latin for wise man, it means you. humans. “ always eager to do a bit of educating, and it won’t cause any ripples. he doubts teaching a non-descript young man the meaning of a latin phrase is enough to change anything. he doesn’t reprimand the other for speaking out of turn. “ hm, yes. did he walk with a certain swagger to his step? a step that breathed narcissism and poorly concealed vanity issues? though, i suppose those two mean the same thing. “

❝ i...do not think i have heard this at mass. ❞ fergus doesn’t speak latin, after all, and if he is honest, the man’s words are confusing. ❝ you’re human too. ❞ it sounds a little more like a question---but then, has he not met someone who is not human? has he not seen...wonders he can still scarcely believe? fergus is, he has to admit, happy to have both of his feet firmly here, where they belong. ❝ i suppose so, yes. he didn’t look scottish. ❞

#timeacross #timeacross ( seven 01 )#ic.#( v. dw ) everything that ever happened or ever will.

mannsachd‌ / brianna.

❝ FROM WHAT MAMA HAS TOLD ME, i understand you have a lot of experience with change. from france to scotland, and now fraser’s ridge. i can’t imagine it was easy. ❞ brianna was lucky ; although her childhood was laced with lies and secrecy, it was stable. more than anything, it was safe. never was she forced to worry about anything, ( she still did, for such is in the nature of A YOUNG GIRL IN THE MIDST OF BECOMING A WOMAN. ) and she was spoiled rotten by her doting father. what she wanted she was more often than not given, sometimes even without begging for it. fergus hadn’t had that. but then one day mama and jamie had stumbled into his life and taken him with them. this brianna was grateful for, because she’d finally been given what she’d always wanted but never gotten a brother. ❝ i was lucky to have him. just as lucky as i am to have jamie now. and you. ❞

❝ i do not mind change, really. when i was a lad, i thought everything was an adventure. and i had milord there. ❞ for the most part, at least; not all the change in fergus’ life has been about where he has lived, but he grew from a boy into a man with his father far away, and that was, perhaps, harder than moving countries. fergus has always considered home to be where his family is, for as long as he has had a family. ❝ and marsali and i married in the west indies. it has been...quite a journey. ❞ he considers himself as scottish as he does french, but fraser’s ridge is full of scots. it is almost like lallybroch, like home. better, for milady is here, and murtagh, and now a sister, too. ❝ i’ve never had a sister, but i think i like it. ❞ if faith had...but she did not, and discovering a sibling at their age must be very different to growing up with one. ❝ milord is...the best father anyone could ask for. and we have many more cousins, in scotland. ❞

#mannsachd #mannsachd ( 01 )#ic.#( v. 04 ) take a silent breath; hold in the change.

hi i’m literally only here to bitch about the fact that fergus is claire & jamie’s oldest, real kid and i sure would love it if literally everyone would stop forgetting that

c&j have been in-laws since he and marsali married in season 3 and grandparents since the middle of season 4 THIS IS NOT A NEW THING JUST BC BREE AND ROGER ARE GETTING MARRIED ADOPTED CHILDREN ARE JUST AS FUCKING “REAL”

#anyway saw a quote on a photo set and i am FUMING #i love bree so much but i just wish they'd stop making out like she's the only Real fraser kid #ooc.#tbd.

oathbroken‌ / m. balfour.

‘ No, I am — bothering you. ’ He’s teasing him, actually, and having far too much fun with it. No smile reaches his lips, however. ‘ I am sorry. Clearly you do not want to be dealing with such — distracting things. ’

❝ i don’t know what you are talking about, m’sieur. ❞ he thinks this is a game. he thinks monsieur balfour is playing with him. but thinks is not the same as knows, and if there is food on offer, fergus wants to be sure. his stomach is bottomless. ❝ you’re never a bother. where is this food? ❞

#oathbroken #oathbroken ( 01 )#ic.#( v. 01 ) no stranger to the world; no stranger to the wind.

#do u hear that? it's the sound of my tears #this picture truly said becca's rights #CONTENT??? CONTENT OF MY KIDS????#fergus.#marsali.#( re. ) i'd join you to face the devil himself.

timeacross‌ / doctor.

“ yes, yes, we’ve established that. what kind of man walks up to a ‘stranger’, as you say, and just gives them something? homo sapiens aren’t exactly the most giving race. hm. “ thinking face on. holds a hand up, don’t interrupt. “ describe him, will you? “

❝ i don’t know, but it is what happened. what does homo sapiens mean? ❞ he’s not entirely sure he’s supposed to have spoken, but he has anyway. fergus frowns. ❝ i---i don’t know. my height, maybe, he looked rich. ❞

#timeacross #timeacross ( seven 01 )#ic.#( v. dw ) everything that ever happened or ever will.#actually idk if he knows this is the doctor since it's a doc from before 11 met claire

call. @meinliied / nina.

❝ there is someone in the house! ❞

#meinliied #meinliied ( nina 01 )#ic.#!grishav #nina bc i love her but also i want to use fergus' au #he's a tiny fabrikator from ketterdam who lives in one of the places on west stave #doesn't know who his parents are but grew up in the brothel bc he was born to one of the women there #not the menagerie alksjdf and he's a pickpocket and is basically in hiding bc he's grisha but he also gets on the wrong side #of one of the gangs by pickpocketing the wrong person. probably not the dregs #but there are a lot of gangs and it's easily done #BUT with pre-series nina being at the house of the white rose i figure she might know of him??

perhaps i love too much is just so much bc it’s fergus acknowledging that his love for jamie is just as important and necessary to him as his love for marsali, that his world isn’t just romantic love, and for him to say it aloud both generally as an 18th century dude and as someone who’s just been told by the person he looks up to the most that he doesn’t know what love is is just so much bc maybe he does love too much and maybe it’ll make jamie think less of him or it’ll wound him in the end but he still chooses that love over sacrificing it just to stay on jamie’s good side

perhaps i love too much

#headcanon.

call. @timeacross