𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐣𝐮𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐞.

𝙰𝚃 𝚁𝙸𝚂𝙺 𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚃𝙷.

[fierlis]

❝   I KNOW AT RISK YOUTH.. 

                                                I AM AT RISK YOUTH. ❞

[finnswolfhard]

✞ Nick Clark S1xE1 ✞

[fierlis]

outxofxashes​:

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Becca had been on a supply run for the group with Nick when they came across the drug store, her head had been pounding for a couple of days now and she was hoping that the place they’d found hadn’t been hit as hard as other places. Pulling out her bag, she started to get all the paracetamol and other standard drugs she could. She’d go behind the counter in a minute, but they needed the basics as well. Heading back to where Nick was, she turned to look at him as he shook the bottle. “If i wasn’t so glad to see hard pain relief, i might’ve punched you for shaking that in my ear.” She teased. “Thanks Nick.” She said as she opened the bottle and took the recommended dose with her water. “Do you want to see what you can find, back here, and i’ll purge the front?” She suggested.

the ending comment once she takes the bottle has nick’s lips hiking upwards at a corner, hands sliding back into his jean pockets while he practically hovers for a moment as if to put his cheek on display, in a childish manner for her to take the shot. ❛ how could you punch someone as lovable as me? especially after i was like the fairy pillfather and saved you from a bursting brain.❜ nick leans back now, hands freeing from the confines of his pockets and reaching to pick up the backpack. he’d make note of the medication that has little purpose and focus on what they would need in that moment. ❛ we’re running low on space in the bag, so lets just try to get what we need first and make a second trip back for the rest. judging by the state of it and the location, we don’t have to worry about any looters. ❜ or so he hoped since fate liked to prove him wrong on certain assumptions.

[fierlis]

𝑺𝑶𝑭𝑻 𝑻𝑯𝑶𝑹𝑵𝑺 𝑽𝑶𝑳. 𝑰 .    (   sentence  starters  taken  from  /  inspired  by  volume  one  of  ‘ soft thorns ’  by  bridgett  devoue .  triggering  themes  may  be  implied .)

@scarfacewastaken​ said: ❛  time  will  either  heal  you  or  kill  you .    ❜

they said he didn’t grieve normal like everyone else did. while they were off picking up the pieces from being shattered, nick was stomping his fractured shards into dust. he couldn’t explain how many times he’s bargained his own life with the grim reaper as a way to cope. his own self-destructive methods for temporary relief. when time finally came back around, nothing had healed. the hole he would feel in his chest was still present and it killed parts of him he knows would have made better decisions. in a way, nicholas had died the day his father did. nick was the one who endured everything that came after.

❛ it’s not time. we choose whether or not we heal from what’s happened or we let it kill us. all time does is bring changes and once we look back on how far we’ve come from that tragic event, we think time is responsible instead of the choices we made afterwards.❜ nick murmurs after a short silence. it was evident the elder clark didn’t trust huck in the slightest, but he still withheld a conversation when she came around --- judging, observing and assessing like his mother. despite his open disdain for how madison treated him, he couldn’t deny how much he was like her. even troy called him out several times after a few arguments. nick finally shifts in the seat, arms wrapping around his waist before he continues cautiously. ❛ the choices you’re willing to make-- ❜ gestures towards huck nonchalantly, but his gaze is sharper than chipped ice. ❛ -- would you be able to heal from it or would guilt eat you alive? ❜

[ohisms]

𝑺𝑶𝑭𝑻 𝑻𝑯𝑶𝑹𝑵𝑺 𝑽𝑶𝑳. 𝑰 .   (   sentence  starters  taken  from  /  inspired  by  volume  one  of  ‘ soft thorns ’  by  bridgett  devoue .  triggering  themes  may  be  implied .)

❛  you  are  the  brave  one .   ❜ ❛  you  make  me  brave ,  &  i’ll  forever  be  grateful  for  that . ❜ ❛  i  was  born  with  wide  eyes  &  a  fragile  heart . ❜ ❛  i  feel  everything  so  deeply .  ❜ ❛  i  am  not  yours .  ❜ ❛  you  never  asked  if  i  wanted  a  guest .  ❜ ❛  this  is  why  no  one  loves  you .  ❜ ❛  beauty  does  not  solve  problems .  ❜ ❛  someone  once  told  me  they  were  scared  of  the  truth  in  my  eyes .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  remember  love  as  a  child .  ❜ ❛  a  fantasy  in  real  life  is  also  known  as  a  lie .  ❜ ❛  i  was  eager  to  prove  i  was  good  enough .  ❜ ❛  scars  may  fade ,  but  they  last  forever .  ❜ ❛  i  always  scared  everyone  away .  ❜ ❛  i  kept  this  dream  hidden  away .  ❜ ❛  i  used  to  think  love  wasn’t  for  me .  that  i  wasn’t  worthy .  ❜ ❛  your  love  is  like  an  exorcism .  ❜ ❛  you’re  the  one  who  reminded  me  i  have  a  pulse .  ❜ ❛  there  is  an  unspoken  truth  between  us .  ❜ ❛  i  crave  you ,  even  though  i  know  you  will  destroy  me .  ❜ ❛  you’re  just  standing  there  watching  me  burn ,  wearing  that  crooked  smile  of  yours .  ❜ ❛  i  know  i’m  not  perfect ,  but  i  felt  pretty  damn  close  to  it  when  i  was  in  your  arms .  ❜ ❛  in  another  lifetime ,  we  have  definitely  done  this  before .  ❜ ❛  i  never  thought  i  would  be  a  good  mother .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  love  you  back  together .  ❜ ❛  we  have  this  divine  bond  between  us .  divine  in  the  way  that  it’s  certainly  not  from  this  lifetime .  ❜ ❛  my  soul  craves  a  love  that’s  undeniably  real .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  experience  why  we’re  here  on  earth .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  tell  you  everything .  ❜ ❛  hell  is  watching  something  that  was  your  everything  slip  away  &  not  being  able  to  do  anything  about  it .  ❜ ❛  i  can  tell  that  when  i’m  with  you ,  you’re  with  her .  ❜ ❛  why  is  it  that  everyone  can  see  i’m  suffering  but  you ?  ❜ ❛  let’s  pretend  like  we’re  friends .  ❜ ❛  it’s  so  painful  to  talk  to  you ,  because  i  just  remember  everything  you  turned  out  not  to  be .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  know  how  to  fall  asleep  anymore .  ❜ ❛  are  you  pretending  to  forget  me ,  too ?  ❜ ❛  i  can  still  close  my  eyes  &  trace  every  curve  &  dip  of  your  soul .  ❜ ❛  those  who  don’t  believe  in  ghosts  have  never  had  a  broken  heart .  ❜ ❛  god ,  you’re  beautiful .  ❜ ❛  i  know  i  should ,  but  i’m  not  ready  to  give  up  your  memory .  ❜ ❛  i  never  told  you  how  much  you  hurt  me .  ❜ ❛  i  keep  falling  in  love  with  souls  that  feel  like  yours .  ❜ ❛  being  alone  was  never  hard  before  i  met  you .  ❜ ❛  you  must  think  i’m  crazy  for  missing  something  i  never  even  had .  ❜ ❛  i’m  lonely ,  but  i  don’t  want  company .  ❜ ❛  you  walked  away  far  too  easily  for  me  to  believe  it  was  ever  really  love .  ❜ ❛  you  never  loved  me .  ❜ ❛  when  you’ve  been  fed  lies  for  so  long ,  you  eventually  lose  your  appetite  for  love .  ❜ ❛  i  have  nothing  left  to  say  to  you .  ❜ ❛  you’ll  never  know  all  the  ways  i  died  for  you .  ❜ ❛  ‘goodbye’  is  easy .  everything  after  that  is  the  hard  part .  ❜ ❛  even  though  you  turned  out  to  be  a  liar ,  within  me  grew  a  love  that  was  the  most  pure  &  honest  thing  i’ve  ever  known .  ❜ ❛  nothing  was  ever  easy ,  but  maybe  that’s  the  beauty  of  it .  ❜ ❛  i  am  everything  that  you  are  not .  ❜ ❛  love  is  a  necessary  tragedy .  ❜ ❛  there  are  people  who  don’t  want  you  to  heal .  ❜ ❛  remember :  you  are  not  their  prey .  ❜ ❛  you  have  more  power  than  you  know .  ❜ ❛  the  most  dangerous  thing  we  can  do  is  forget  how  to  feel .  ❜ ❛  you  will  be  safe  in  the  right  hands .  ❜ ❛  love  makes  us  immortal  in  the  hearts  of  others ,  but  mortal  in  our  fear  that  it  could  all  be  gone  someday .  ❜ ❛  we’re  only  haunted  by  the  things  we  refuse  to  accept .  ❜ ❛  we  are  not  born  broken .  ❜ ❛  time  will  either  heal  you  or  kill  you .  ❜

[spyride]

                        KNIGHT INDUSTRIES MICRO-PROCESSOR.

[aliienatcd]

Just to be clear - 

        Even if we have never interacted, you are more than welcome to send me memes. Sentence memes, text memes, questions about my muse. It’s a great way to start something new between muses. If you want to interact, but none of my starters are interesting, send me a meme. If you want to know my muse better, send me a meme. If you just have nothing better to do and want to see if something will develop between our muses, send me a meme. 

[fierlis]

he   wasn’t   a   professional   when   it   came   to   medication,   but   from   the   moment   becca   leads   him   into   the   drugstore   and   begins   rummaging   for   proper   headache   relief   medicine,   nick   knows   she’s   not   going   to   reach   for   the   hardcore   shit.   his   thought   comes   to   fruition   when   she   returns   to   his   side   with   a   bottle   of   advil   and   a   successful   smile   on   her   face.   meanwhile,   the   young   clark   is   shaking   a   prescription   bottle   of   naproxen   at   her.   ❝   advil   is   okay   if   you’re   unable   to   contact   your   doctor,   but   everyone’s   dead.   now,   you   skip   all   the   over-the-counter   bullshit   and   go   straight   for   the   real   shit.❞   

starter | @outxofxashes​

[rpcmasterlist]

reblog this post to be added to the THE WALKING DEAD MASTERLIST with your muse’s name, whether they’re canon or original character (or if they’ve got a TWD/FTWD verse) and whether they’re from TWD/FTWD.

[fierlis]

consider this a fresh & cleanSTARTER CALL.

[fierlis]

 ❝   for   the   six-thousandth   time,   i’m   not   infected.   if   you   put   the   gun   down,   i’ll   explain   everything.❞      well,   not   everything   but   the   important   bits   and   pieces   of   how   he   was   having   a   serious   adrenaline   rush   and   that   was   what   caused   his   shaking.   it   wouldn’t   be   the   truth   because   nick   was   certain   this   woman   wasn’t   about   to   lower   her   gun   on   some   druggie   going   through   extreme   withdrawals   and   losing   the   mind   he   couldn’t   wrap   around   killing   his   best   friend   ---   twice.   his   best   friend   thought   getting   up   after   a   bullet   to   the   chest   was   social   norms.   tiktok   would   have   eaten   that   trend   the   fuck   up   on   a   silver   platter.      ❝   if   i   was   bitten,   i   wouldn’t   be   asking   you   to   not   shoot   me.   ❞

starter | @snowinabottle​

[fierlis]

 she’s   the   apocalypse’s   very   own   angel   with   her   sunlight   for   hair   and   oceanic   eyes.   whether   she   noticed   it   or   not,   nick   knows   that   everyone   at   the   prison   would   have   his   head   mounted   on   a   wall   should   anything   happen   to   their   little   songbird.   he’d   kept   his   distance   since   he   arrived,   not   wanting   to   draw   attention   or   cause   trouble,   especially   once   his   mother   blabbered   about   his   troubles,   but   beth   didn’t   let   that   deter   her   from   volunteering   in   aiding   him   on   a   run.   the   prison   needed   more   supplies   and   formula   for   judith,   however,   with   the   governor   and   his   crazy   ass   people   at   war   with   rick’s   people,   it   became   dangerous.   nick   was   a   newcomer   and   therefore   no   one   would   think   he’d   be   aligning   himself   with   officer   friendly’s   group.   everything   was   going   great   ---   until   nick   begins   to   think   about   how   beth’s   life   was   in   his   hands.   she   was   his   responsibility   and   it   scared   him.   ❝   i   don’t   mean   to   sound   like   some   ungrateful   asshole,   but   why   did   you   choose   to   come   with   me?   everyone   else   keep   their   distance.❞

starter | @bgreene​

[fierlis]

  it   wasn’t   in   his   nature   to   question   things   that   most   people   would   raise   a   brow   at.   both   brows,   to   be   exact.   but   as   he   watches   the   woman   rummage   around   the   house   looking   for   SOMETHING   that   may   or   may   not   be   sugary,   his   brows   dip   down   very   slowly.   he   barely   knows   her,   barely   even   said   anything   after   snatching   her   inside   the   house   before   the   herd   spotted   them   both.   was   the   house   even   fucking   cleared?   dear   god,   did   the   house   have   a   backdoor?   ❝   um, ❞   voice   is   accompanied   by   a   heavy   bang   when   his   hip   hits   the   chair   from   his   abrupt   standing.         ❝   i   ---we--   forgot   to   check   the   house   and   make   sure   it’s   clear   of   walkers.   i’ll   go   do   that   while   you...do   you.   ❞

starter | @nitebit​​

[fierlis]

consider this a fresh & clean STARTER CALL.

[aliciasdaryl]

[fierlis]

❛ can you shut up ? ❜

questioning minds starters. ( accepting. )

           mid   sentence   cut   and   nick   allows   some   bits   of   silence   to   slither   in,   giving   the   false   illusion   of   compliance.   not   many   people   could   be   so   relaxed   with   a   herd   passing   by   and   still   continue   to   have   idle   chit-chat,   but   not   many   people   were   nick   clark.   he'd   managed   to   make   conversation   about   the   one   time   he   tried   to   cut   his   own   hair   and   had   patches   missing   for   weeks   --   a   story   that   althea   clearly   doesn't   give   a   flying   fuck   about   in   a   startling   situation   such   as   this   one.   nick   does   his   best   not   to   snicker,   the   sound   still   seeping   out   every   two   seconds   before   he   laughs   lightly.   he   was   no   fool   to   the   danger   and   only   sought   a   mere   distraction   to   better   pass   the   time.   ❝   relax,   they're   not   going   to   hear   us   over   themselves.   besides,   you   have   to   admit   that   me   going   to   school   and   being   called   patches   for   three   weeks   was   kind   of   funny.❞

[fierlis]

From @madison-clark

❛  why  are  you  pushing  me  away ?  ❜

She looks worried at her special child.

Of course he had every dammid reason to be mad at her. But she only did it to protect HIM. Why the hell does he not understand this?

"Nick, I know that you cared about Troy. But you can trust me, he never really was a friend! At end he would have tried to find a reason to kill us.. Everybody of us! So please tell me, why are you pushing me away? Or are there still another reasons? "

//I don't know if starter calls work in this way lol.. I tried it.

questioning minds starters. ( accepting. )

❝   can   you   just   stop   TRYING   to   explain   your   reason   for   doing   it,   mom?!❞   his   voice   cracks   somewhere   within   his   scream   and   it   causes   him   to   realize   the   pain   in   his   throat.   the   sob   beckoning   from   behind   his   lips   and   the   heat   pooling   in   tired   eyes.   despite   trying   to   find   solitude   to   cope   and   manage   witnessing   troy's   demise   by   his   own   mother's   hand,   he   still   can't   seem   to   breathe   easy.   he   can't   stop   replaying   the   image   over   and   over   like   some   fucked   up   tape   stuck   on   loop.   she   wants   to   make   nick   see   reason,   make   him   believe   that   it   was   out   of   survival   that   troy   had   to   die.   but   nick   is   SMARTER   than   she   gives   him   credit   for   and   he   knows   the   real   reason   ---   one   she   doesn't   have   the   balls   to   admit   to   herself   more   than   him.   he'd   always   questioned   his   feelings   for   troy   on   a   daily   basis   and   openly   spoke   about   his   confusion   with   the   young   man.   nick   never   outright   said   he   loved   troy,   never   really   said   he   cared   either.   their   entire   relationship   was   troy   knowing   what   he   wanted   and   nick   being   too   STUBBORN   to   act   on   it.   would   he   have?   perhaps   the   haunting   revelation   that   he'd   never   have   a   chance   is   what   hurts   the   most.   maybe   this   is   why   he's   so   fucking   angry   and   pushing   madison   away.   or   maybe   it's   because   she   killed   someone   who   was   the   same   side   of   his   very   own   coin.   did   she   see   him   as   a   threat?   could   she   kill   him   just   as   easily?   after   all,   nick   and   troy   weren't   too   different   from   each   other.

❝   you   didn’t   do   it   for   me   or   for   the   sake   of   keeping   everyone   safe.   you   did   it   FOR   YOU.❞   he   half   expected   his   voice   to   come   out   in   a   yell,   but   instead   he   can   only   whisper   it   mostly   to   himself.   nick   didn’t   scream   or   yell   much   to   display   his   emotions   —   he   did   quite   the   opposite   and   bottled   everything   up   inside.   he   shut   down   because   it   was   BETTER   than   dealing   with   it.   pretending   that   his   mother   didn’t   kill   the   one   friend   he   had   and   only   person   who   understood   him,   was   better   than   crying   and   screaming   until   his   lungs   torn   in   half.   what   good   would   it   even   do   if   she’d   just   call   him   crazy?   shaking   his   head,   nick   wraps   his   arms   around   himself,   shoulders   raised   and   tense.   ❝   it   doesn’t   matter   anymore.   troy   is   dead,   so   you   have   one   less   problem   in   your   life   again.❞