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Where I file records of my unwillingness to participate in life. Or less like that. 18. Still sane.

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yes, feel free to unfollow me you sons of creatures i will be leaving this blog for good. BYE

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I'm actually excited for next semester but I'm not ready to face people, and will never be. :-(

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The past nights were uttered words that were locked in my series of dreams, never to be spoken of. My family and friends have lingered at the side of my bed, present all evening clothed in black and white. There we were, joined in a bundle, speaking to each other drunk and happy. 

Then, the morning came. I rolled over my bed and opened my dreary eyes. It felt like I've been faced with nothing but illusion. 

(i.e my dreams are doing the actions for me instead of me doing them in real life)

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WHAT TO GET (to lessen the bum this vacation!!!)

1. A JOB 

This might take me some time so let's just proceed to the next ones. 

2. A WATERCOLOR SET 

Saw several watercolor painting artworks by different bloggers that made me want to try and do something more with my hands. 

3. YOGA MAT

I've been so eager to start doing yoga but I can't start doing so because I don't have the major material for the exercise. Even if I improvise, it will not be as effective (i think). I tried putting up those foam puzzle piece mat so I could do Aero and other exercises (curl ups, push ups other physically and emotionally draining activities) but I ended up sliding and hitting my knees on the floor. 

4. BOOKS 

I don't have to explain this. 

There are more things I have in mind but these are my top priorities for now. Happy Summer to all of us! 

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Babble Time: A pretend writer

A literature major with limited words and a lost pen.

It is not my intention to be in a class where bunch of kids (now, elites) have their pens and papers ready to express and impress their co-students and professors with thoughts that either make people wonder or blow everyone away. I admire them and will continue to be inspired by their wit and talent. But there are times when I find some of them cheap, pretentious, and sometimes, annoying. I judge and I judge from what I see and read. And what I read are not ideas, I read words that are handpicked just to create sentences that will make people, "what the fuck????" or Google translate words that even Google has no idea of. The choice of words are very important in making sentences if you do want to express that idea of yours. But it is not necessary to search for highfalutin words just so your readers can be blown by your out of this world thought/s or opinion. Well, guess what? No one understands your supposedly profound line or sentence. It makes it even more pretentious and dumb. My writing is not as impressive or well written as yours, them (your favorite writers) and fucking Shakespeare but I try to lessen grammar imperfections by reading and watching films that give me the style I want. If you want to express, just be natural about it. Don't be a show off. 

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March had been a great month for me and my family. It started and ended on a smooth swaggy scale, well, apart from me being broke as feck after a week of spending for transportation and food. I am really relieved that another month's over and we get to enjoy the heat that is now making everyone freak out. My grades are fine as hell but I hope I can do better next school year because I only have four long semesters remaining. Yes, FOUR SEMESTERS (two years) MORE BEFORE I END COLLEGE. Two years and I'll finally walk away from the biased and stressful life, that is ~*collegio*~. I know at this stage, the game won't be easy. But my gear is ready for any battle that will come. Hashtag game face: ON 

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The Philippines is an archipelagic country located along Southeast Asia. With more than 7,000 islands comprising with major divisions namely Luzon, Visayas and Mindanao, The Philippines is considered as the 12th most populated country in the world. A former colony of the Spaniards and of the...

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Your three main points given are well elaborated. The Philippines are indeed trapped in a system where the rich holds the poor and the poor being clogged by the former. The unfortunate also has this mentality that they will survive as long as *there are people capable of helping them without exerting effort to somehow lift their lives up. And it's the saddest realization I gained regarding this topic. 

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I have been very anxious lately about how my grades would turn out after 4 months of struggling with some subjects and staying up late for projects that were very VERY stressful. It's almost a week after the exams and a lot of my blockmates feel the same way. Obviously, we are not that confident with everything especially with one subject that most of us hit rock bottom. The most worried I am, by far. I hate it when I feel something negative and in the end it becomes fucking true. Always. 

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dear fun fans re bleachers

hi everyone!

it’s jack. i’ve been getting a lot of questions about Bleachers and felt like all of you deserves to hear about it directly from me. first off, i can’t thank you all enough for the amazing support. you’re my fucking favorite.

there is no world in which I’ve ever thought about leaving fun. my new project is not about one thing taking over another, its about adding something new to the equation. sometimes you go months without any good ideas, and then sometimes you are flooded with things you need to create. i’m sure a lot of you can relate to that in the work that you do. while on tour the past 2 years with fun. i started recording an album. i didn’t know what it was at the beginning. it was just happening. i’d go to the studio on off days, work all night in my hotel room, create time where there wasn’t any etc etc etc. i felt compelled to make bleachers exist during a time when it wasn’t necessarily ideal to do so. that’s something that’s special about the work you love - you don’t always get to chose when you need to do it.

neither bleachers or fun. are side projects. to be honest, i truly dislike the term ‘side project’ and I’ve been hearing it a lot lately. its a simple way of categorizing something that maybe isn’t simple or maybe shouldn’t be categorized at all. i’ve never been able to categorize or fully wrap my head around my love for fun., and now i feel the same way about bleachers as well. i don’t have kids, but it feels similar to the way people react when you ask them what its like to have a second kid. bleacher + fun. == my children. i’m so cheesy i hate myself!

i’ll put it this way - i plan on making the work i feel compelled to make for as long as I’m alive. i don’t think you would want it any other way even if it’s occasionally non traditional. but i do think you all deserve to know where my head is at for as long you as you all are being so supportive of me and my bands.

can’t wait for the months to come. gonna make a new fun. album, tour with bleachers and release the full album —- AND just new things all around. talk soon!

love, jack

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this have cleared some things up. good to know they're not separating or sumth similar to that...

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MOONSHINE JUNGLE TOUR MANILA 2014

Lights everywhere and people singing along! I couldn't make up for another Saturday night with my friend and strangers who enjoy the same music and artist as me. Bruno and the band were fantastic, as always. They performed 16 songs, starting with Moonshine and wrapping it up with Gorilla. There was one part when Bruno was already thanking the fans for a great welcome and we were all surprised and mad (esp. me) because he has not performed Locked Out and Gorilla yet BUT then he came back right after the supposedly last song, Just The Way You Are and banged with the drums and performed his last two songs (the aforesaid songs). IT WAS THE HAPPIEST AND MOST DEPRESSING THING THAT NIGHT FOR ME. THE BEST PART WAS THE GREEN LIGHTS OF HIS GORILLA PERFORMANCE AND THE FIREWORKS BLASTING AT THE END. It was just so beautiful that I cried seconds after they left the stage. I still can't believe I witnessed another Bruno Mars concert. I can't wait for a 3rd comeback!

*MY EMOTIONS ARE STILL UNSTABLE AT THE MOMENT. 

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Official Statement from a grateful Ex-Hooligan

On September 10, 2012 I was officially let go from the Bruno Mars band.  The reason I was given was a change in musical direction.  I will miss all of the guys dearly and wish them the best of luck with all of their musical endeavors.  I also want to take the time to thank each and every fan that I was blessed to meet or talk to while being part of the Hooligan family.  You have all touched, inspired and revealed to me how beautiful life is.  That being said, life does go on and I am a Daddy at the end of the day (as many of you know).  So as much as I’ll miss touring and life on the road, I won’t miss it as much as having my daughter by my side.

Lastly, the one favor I ask is to let Bruno, the band, or anyone affiliated be without the burden of questioning or opinions.  By now, Bruno and the Hooligans have moved on and do not need any reminders at their shows or over the internet via social media.  I kindly appreciate it and they will too.

I’ll bow out gracefully with a very meaningful lyric by The Beatles…

"And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make."

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if all else fails, i would have to ingest my parent's unwillingness to pay another fee for summer classes and carry the burden of having a failing mark... but i'm still hoping that our professors will have mercy on those who exerted their best effort in filling out this semester's last exams, especially me. i'm in great need of prayers just so I could pass (a grade of 3.00 would cut the worries) all my subjects. 

the fucking desperation

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I once came across your name; a string of letters that reminded me of the past that can never come back and will never do. It sparked something within me. Realization coursed through my veins like blood pounding in and out of my heart. We changed, you and I. And we drifted apart like perpendicular lines that crossed paths only once. I don’t know what changed- just that something did. Our friendship deteriorated but we pretended not to notice so we won’t have to try and save it. Died quietly like a star. Which reminded me of something. I read once about ambiguous loss. It is a death without a body involved. Gone yet still remains. It is a suffering you feel for people who are still alive yet already dead to you. And you. You are an ambiguous loss. My ambiguous loss.

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Just one episode of Teen Wolf and/or My Mad Fat Diary would suffice the burden of me trying to understand and connect different terminologies that would soon be forgotten upon finishing the exams. I hope I can make it through this week.

GODSPEED, people. 

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There are movies (and songs) that make me fall in love. Like fall real hard. And this film is one of them. 

I compare this film to Ruby Sparks for some reason that they both have strong feels towards a material or an object. Don’t get me wrong but, Ruby Sparks and Her do not exactly share the same plot but I find it very similar in a way that their major characters are into writing, which makes it more interesting.

"Her"

I’d like to emphasize how in love I am with Joaquin Phoenix’s character, Theodore Twombly. Probably one of the few characters I deeply have feelings with. He’s a sad writer working in a high tech writing company (and when I say high tech, it is high tech~) where he writes letters for others. He’s divorced, alone, and plays video games during his spare time. Until one day, the world introduced an OS that changed everyone’s life, particularly, Theodore’s. 

It was heartbreaking, yes. But perhaps, a sad ending is what makes the whole story beautiful. I couldn’t contain the emotions I was having while watching the characters exchanging lines that crushed my heart to bits.