[fightingthemachine]

After 48 Days i have now turned on my computer for the first time.

2 weeks of nothing but work have exhausted me, and i just want to relax for a few hours, playing videogames.

I plan on unplugging the PC again, after use

[fightingthemachine]

I don’t want to start my computer back up. At all. I was honestly looking forward to putting the pictures on it, and play for an hour or so. But i now my fear of falling back into bad habits keeps a balance with the thought: “I could go for an hour of Dark Souls or Fallout” Thats a start i guess

[fightingthemachine]

A week done, despite being very tempted yesterday: I went out to take some photos and the only way to know for sure if they are actually good, is to display them on a bigger screen. Guess i am going to have to wait with that until the memory is full. I have noticed i picked up the habit of staying in bed a little longer after waking up, being on my phone. I am going to have to cut that time a bit, before it's my next bad habit.

[fightingthemachine]

Good thing my time is filled entirely with sleeping and working this weekend.

[fightingthemachine]

Ok, i have to admit, that i am getting bored from time to time. The weather is really bad - i am pretty much stuck inside. I have timeslots to fill, that i didn't have before.

[fightingthemachine]

The beginning

Yesterday i made the decision to rid myself of my pc. I would spend all my time on it. Every waking hour that i wasn't at work i spent playing games, watching anime or YouTube videos and browsing the internet. Today i pulled the plug and put a note on the monitor: "out of use since may 2nd 2017" A big part of why i made the decision was because i was put in a state of executive disfunction with my need to be on the internet. I would plan on cleaning the apartment, or doing laundry. But the next day i would procastinate. I could always do it later, right? Never did it then, until it was very urgent, or even later. Being on the computer was my status quo. Everything else cost energy. I think the reason for that is that being in my body is tiresome, because i am not used to it. On the computer i was an incorporeal mind floating through the internet. My consciosness skipped the input devices. So in this "experiment" i am not only trying to see how long i can last without a computer (i am using my Smartphone as normal, i am not too comfortable with it, so i am using it mostly for this blog now) but also trying to get back in touch with my body again. As a "substitute drug" i will now carry my camera with me at most times. I am currently contemplating, if i should just get a new sd card once my current one is full, or if i allow myself to transfer the pictues to my pc. That much for the first entry of this log.