BeYOurself

"Do not care. Do not have hope. Don not love. Do not get hurt. Do not be a *human*."

[flyingmanga]

Life by Suenobu Keiko

[flyingmanga]

Aku no Hana by Oshimi Shuuzou

[stylermimi]

[find-some-way]

Is this toxic love worth it?

How much Can I take?

You pierce me with words everytime you can

You doesn't care about the scars you left

You just keep doing more

I might be learning by your side

But sometimes It costs so much

Pieces of me are going away

I just wanted your support

Because I doing the hardest thing I ever done in all my life

But you keep testenting me

Keep making feel bad about getting better, about getting stronger

I have to deal with so much

This world is not made for me

Because every hard work I make

You make it about you

You take out all my effort

How many times, you will destroy me, for your own good?

[find-some-way]

I balme you,

That hurted me.

Because you promised to love me.

Promised to take care of me.

But in the end you hurted me!

I told you I wasn't ok,

I told you I didn't want it,

Yet you didn't care.

You just hurted me,

More than once.

You chose someone else,

Over me.

And I'm bleeding.

[shoujoromance]

[ryousa]

[c-o-l-d-b-l-o-o-d]

[find-some-way]

For those who will remain:

I'm sorry, for been selfish. I know that it won't make any difference to say I couldn't help it, but all I wish for you, for those who I love, is to not blame yourselves. I tried pretty hard, I went for therapy , I was taking my medications every day but nothing changed. I couldn't love myself! I always felt like I was on the edge, ready to jump down. I couldn't relax, I couldn't feel like I belonged somewhere, I couldn't feel like I belonged in this world... I felt like everything in me was wrong and it hurt so much, I felt so much pain that I thought I could suffocate from it. And I always became sad realizing that I am still alive. If you all reading this, maybe I finally made it, I finally ended the pain.

Think this as a ultimate act of love for myself, when I finally thought only in me, just...me! Like taking out a piece of beef stuck in your teeth, I finally could breath while not breathing.

One more time, I'm sorry. And I love you! I really did love you, I'm sorry for not staying. Please, do not blame anyone. It was me, and juste me. Live the rest for me. Love you very much.

I hope this never have to get to you, but I have to write it down, just in case.

BLSB

[fairygoulish]

I'm built different. like incorrectly i think

[obeythespiral]

[find-some-way]

I am not looking for approval, I am not looking for attention and just want thi to end. This uncontrollable emotions that make this way. I hate this, HATE IT!

[find-some-way]

I want to hurt myself until I can peel every terrible layer of myself.

[find-some-way]

I try to get away, but I always end in the same way. Beacause I can't get away of myself.

[shoujo-dreamland]

[lilybird]

cherry blossom shower 🌸

click for quality. also - happy birthday, @sleeptowns !!! i'm blowing u so many kisses!!

[find-some-way]

Why everyone make fun of my pain?