Lost In Thoughts

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Confessions of a socially awkward anxiety ridden person: when you go to the grocery store, come home realize you lost you fit bit, go back search the entire store still can’t find it. Go home for 3 hours before deciding to go to the store for a 3rd time. But you have to change your clothes and hairstyle just in case some one might recognize you as the creepy person running around looking under produce.

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Haikyuu simple volleyball watercolor painting

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Homemade Christmas Gnome

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So excited, early Christmas present to myself!!

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You know how a lot of protagonists, such as superheroes and Disney princesses, seem to always have a dead mother/parents? What if they were not dead just divorced?

Like in the little mermaid, Ursula could be ariel’s mom’s best friend and to get back at king trident for the nasty divorce and getting custody of all the children she convinced his favorite daughter to turn against him and leave for the human realm.

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2020 is the year of the introverts: when a positive Covid test at work becomes the best excuse to avoid social interaction for the whole weekend

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Too poor for ice cream but still need to wallow in eating your feelings = jello

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Why is toast so good?

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Sociology/anthropology/psychology shower thoughts on friendship

So I was in the shower thinking my thoughts 💭 and I started to ponder friendship. Do you ever wonder if friendship is a social construct like gender/gender stereotypes? Like the stereotypical best friends you see in movies and tv. I’ve always dreamed of having that kinda best friend since I was little but I constantly found myself in a group friendship setting, no single best friend but multiple good ones. A group which seemed to change members multiple times as I grew up.

It always made me think I was just a bad friend. I lost friends and gained new ones and lost those ones in an endless cycle. That I wasn’t interesting enough to keep a single person’s attention in order to become their best friend. I was thinking and thinking of what is wrong with me. I try to be a good friend, I’ll drop everything to pick you up when your car breaks down, I’ll take you to the doctors when you have the flu and are too sick to drive, I’ll listen to your midnight phones call when your parents are getting a divorce. Maybe I’m too narcissistic, I tend to lack interest in people’s lives, I have trouble reaching out first, I have no confidence being one on one with someone and be entertaining.

I’m a bad friend I’ll admit that but maybe I’m also just not a best friend type of friend. Maybe I’m a group friend. Maybe I do better in a small group where I don’t have to be spending my introvert social energy all the time. Where I can duck out of the conversation for a breather. What if friendship isnt just the best friend type of friendship but also the group friend or I’m here if you need me but I don’t have the social capacity to talk to you and see you everyday type of friend.

I think we need to culturally expand friend expectations, draw outside the norm in how we define a friend.