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BLACK IS ALWAYS A GOOD IDEA

SKULL FINGERS SHIRT

SKULL SHIRT

OUIJA SHIRT

JUST DO IT LATER SHIRT

HAND SHIRT

CAT SHIRT

CUT OUT BACK SHIRT

TOM PETTY SHIRT

I DON’T TRUST ME EITHER

CAT TANK

MOON SUN TOP

SKULL SWEATER

OUT OF THIS WORLD SHIRT

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i’m junior

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he’s so sweet. he was really trying to close the pizza box correctly. junior is a nice kid and i am his biggest fan.

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look... folding the box is hard. but if you do it with style like this kid, no one cares if you fail

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Sakura Print

Strawberry Print

Galaxy Print

Cute Robot Print

Blood Drop Print

Purple Cartoon Print

Mono Checker Print

Mermaid Scale Print

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ATTENTION

On the left- Is Landon Patterson, A transgender girl in my school district who recently was crowned as Homecoming Queen.

On the right- Is me, a 16 year old transgender boy.

Both of us are trying to save up for our transition, so I have made- to the best of my ability, a way to help fundraise, while also spreading positivity to others. These shirts (and other items with the same design) i have made are (hopefully) the answer.

The shirts pictured above are available at my store. All profits I receive from the one with the pink text are going to be donated into Landon’s Transition fund.

All the profits to the one with the blue text will be donated to my transition fund.

I do not believe in taking profits from items related to equality movements for casual personal use, so i can guarantee that 100% of the profits earned will go to either Landons Transition, or mine, depending on which item you buy.

The designs come in a range of background colors, and are also available for purchase as skirts, phone cases, iPad cases, throw pillows, stickers,mugs, travel coffee cups,posters, etc. And the money will still go towards our transitions.

Pink shirt for Landons

Blue shirt for Alexander

We are both very much in need of the money for our transition, so even if you are unable to purchase a shirt or donate, please reblog this image so others may find this.

And feel free to share the links to my store on other social media, so that people off of tumblr may find this. Make sure to let them know that the two ‘Trans Lives Matter’ designs are the only ones where profit is guaranteed to go to one of our funds, unless they contact me through my store and specifically tell me their purchase money of another item must go to one of our transitions. Thanks!

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by Jim Benton

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It took two of us multiple minutes to figure out this joke.

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can someone explain this to me?

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HAPPY POT ROAST, CHILI, AND POT PIE SEASON

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Okay, I'm fucking pissed and y'all are gonna listen to me.

First of all, if you’re against cg/l relationships in anyway then you can go ahead and stop reading. I don’t want to hear it.

Now, I really liked the Little community, okay? I thought we were all a big, supportive family with our stuffies and our bubble baths and our mac and cheese. But no. Obviously that’s not what it is.

I’ve been seeing a whole bunch of hate in this community, specifically towards underage littles. That doesn’t make any goddamn sense. You’re all littles, you’re all the same. It doesn’t matter whose parents had sex first. You’re all human, for god’s sake. Let them be little.

“But Dd/lg is a kink and underage teens shouldn’t be involved in sex-related communities!”

No. It is not.

Regressing into your Little Space doesn’t have to be sexual, and actually, most of the time, it isn’t. Lots of people use their Little Space to take a break from the stress of adulthood. Little Space is just coming home from a rough day at work, taking a strawberry-scented bubble bath, playing with stuffed animals, watching Disney past your bedtime with your Daddy/Mommy/Caregiver, and then snuggling up for the night with a bedtime story. It isn’t always some kind of “Choke me, Daddy!” bullshit. Let them be little.

“But underage Littles might become potential targets of older predators! We’re just pushing them away for their own good!!1!”

You’re pushing them away from what might be their only source of safety and comfort.

You’re pushing them away from their community and making them feel unwelcome.

You’re not making them safe at all. You’re putting them in danger. You’re destroying their mental health, and making them feel like the entire cg/l community hates them.

Leave them alone. Let them be little.

You can be little. You can be sexual in your Little Space if you want. You can be a boy, a girl, nonbinary, any race, any sexuality, any age. You’re still a little.

But if you chase away and insult Littles because of their AGE, you better be DAMN sure that I will defend them.

Let them be little.

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Beyond which the “But predators!” rhetoric is victim blaming. We need to attack those adults who would prey on underage littles, NOT underage littles themselves. Always support victims because predators will find ways to prey on children any way they can, and creating an environment which silences victims only enables them.

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THIS IS WHY I SUPPORT EVERYONE

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yes. just yes

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HE THOUGHT HIS LIL FRIEND GOT BAKED INTO A COOKIE I AM 100% DONE AWHH

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If you're becoming a daddy dom, here are a few tips for your DD/lg relationship

I’m writing this post because I know there are a lot of new daddies. I am a little and I have been in DD/lg relationships before. But my current daddy is a newbie to the whole dynamic. So this post is just a few things that you can do for your little!

1. Hold her hand while crossing the street, watching a scary movie or…just because.

2. Leave loving notes all over the place to surprise and delight your littles’ heart.

3. Brush her hair, help her bathe (bubble baths preferably), treat her stuffed animals like living creatures and talk with them.

4. Know all her stuffies’ names.

5. Punish misbehavior with time outs, spankings and occasionally make her write out an apology or things like “I won’t sneak a cookie before dinner” (50 times is good).

6. Take her to fun places that appeal to her inner little. Places like the zoo, a kids movie, build-a-bear, the swings at the park, an aquarium, or of course, the Disney store.

7. Reward good behavior with treats and kind words of encouragement.

8. Never lose your temper just because you are having a “bad day”.

9. Know all of her favorite foods, allergies, and all of her favorite things; whether it be color, hair bows, dress, or stuffies.

10. Bedtime routines. If you’re going to do something, make sure (if circumstances allow) that you do it everyday without fail. If you stop doing something you always did before, it makes the little feel as though they’ve done something wrong to lose that treat. Examples: brushing her hair, reading her a story, or just tucking her in at night.

11. A good Daddy Dom does not make idle threats. If you threaten a consequence for a certain behavior you are looking to change, and do not carry through, not only will the little not learn to break the habit, but they will take your threats with a grain of salt. Also, it may make the little feel unimportant if a consequence is not followed through with.

12. Always spend time reassuring your little of your love after a consequence. They need this assurance, and the knowledge that you still love and care for them. Aftercare is incredibly important. After all…this relationship is built upon trust.

13. Send your little a text message (or many) throughout the day if you must be apart. It warms their little heart!

14. Surprise her with a new stuffie from time to time. Maybe if they are down or are sick. Flowers and a stuffie is sure to brighten her/his day.

15. Watch a Disney movie of her choosing with her. And it doesn’t hurt to know her favorite one…and all the songs from it. Mine is Tarzan or Wreck it Ralph… in fact… they’re all my favourite.

16. All boo-boos, whether scratches, bruises and scrapes need to be looked after by her Daddy. Nothing makes a little feel safer and totally cared for than having a feel-better kiss, or their Daddy getting them a cool band-aid (Hello Kitty works well). Be sure to lavish them with lots of TLC!

17. If your little makes you something: no matter how big or small, you should always make them feel like their creation is cherished. Hang it up, save a pic on your phone so they see you like it and plan to look back at it…anything at all. Nothing is sadder than a pretty picture, colored with love and care, that is left sitting and collecting dust, and then forgotten.

18. If your little is in a playful, youthful mood (and you are not), do not roll your eyes, get mad or yell. Simply and calmly tell them that Daddy is not feeling playful right now. Everyone can’t be fun and playful all the time. Littles understand that…even if upset about it at times. So tell them, and that way no one’s feelings get hurt, or feels like they did something wrong.

19. Aid the age play dynamic. Do such things as carrying, lifting, and reaching high places for your little. It helps them feel as though they are seen as vulnerable and protected. Also, asking things like, “Are you sure you don’t need Daddy’s help putting that straw in the juice box?”, or “Maybe I should do that, it’s a big job, too big for you.” It keeps the little feeling happy and loved.

20. Ask your little to sit on your lap from time to time. It’s an instant smile and a blush trigger. Other things also work like tying their shoes, brushing their hair or buckling their seatbelt.

These are all simple and spontaneous things that you can do to make your little beam with pride from the attention given to them.

Have a magical, sparkly day! From - Daddy’s Princess.

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keeping these in mind!

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Happy sigh. .. Daddy is naturally impeccable at this.

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my current boyfriend certainly isn’t a Daddy (he actually doesn't like me calling him that unless it’s jokingly said) but he does a lot of this for me... he knows i’m a little, and even though it isn’t his style, he still tries to embrace the little in me. he’s willing to work on the dynamic just without the titles (although he does call me by my little name when he thinks i’m not paying attention [which i totally am])

me, in 4th grade: gifted classes! 12th grade reading level! smart child!

parents: omg lets raise our expectations forever

me, now: average intelligence compared to my classmates! incredibly anxious and emotional! in need of help!

parents: tsk tsk, ur better than this.

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Some people just can’t drink. Plain and simple.

There are those who may have gotten a little “out of hand” with their drinking. Maybe they needed to grow up or deal with some traumas in their past. However, there are also those like me who can not and will never be able to drink successfully. We can go into issues like disease concept and higher power as to why these reasons may be, but that’s for a later time.

If you are one of these people like I am, then the harsh truth is that you can’t drink. Ever again… for the rest of your life.

If you fall into this category of people, it is safe to assume that you may have or may have had some fears when first entering your journey of recovery. It’s natural. I had many fears when I was getting sober, but I slowly learned that these fears were all in my head. It is the experience of it all that taught me the lessons about fear and its control over our hearts and minds.

So let’s call it for what it is. Fear is a liar.

1 – You’re Afraid You Won’t Have Fun Anymore

This was without a doubt, my biggest fear when getting sober.

I knew I couldn’t use drugs anymore. They did something to me that I can’t describe. They consumed me, they ruined me. The funny thing is that with all of the negativity and pain they brought into my life, I still couldn’t picture my life without them.

I love excitement. I love chaos and I love going fast. It makes me feel alive. Drugs gave that to me. They gave me the rush that I longed for.

RELATED: 3 Reasons I Miss Being A Drug Addict

So what was I going to do? I honestly couldn’t decide. I could crash and burn in an adrenaline-fueled life of misery, or I could get sober and live a peaceful yet long and boring life.

Relieved was I to find out that recovery did not equal boredom. Quite the opposite actually. Here’s why…

Recovery gives you options. You will learn to manage money and manage time. You will be able to prioritize and balance your life so that you have resources required to gain meaningful experiences. Just this year alone I have…

gone to Scotland.

gone skydiving.

went to Bonnaroo with my best friends.

gone home to Philadelphia multiple times.

I play soccer with my friends every Saturday.

went to at least 15 amazing concerts.

bought my dream car.

went to the Jersey shore for a week with my family.

Here’s the proof! Yes, that’s me about to jump out of a place.

The list goes on. For the sake of not coming across as arrogant I will stop listing all the awesome experiences I get to have now that I am sober. But the point is that you can have these experiences too!

Fearing boredom in recovery is understandable. In fact, it is to be expected. You must trust me. You will quickly find that recovery will give you the freedom to do all the things you used to talk about with your friends in the bar.

We all have one life to live. So go live it!

2 – You’re Afraid To Lose Someone

UUUGGGHHHHHH

Look, if the only thing you and your partner have in common is that you get high together then you have a shitty relationship.

There are few things in this world that are sicker then an intoxicating relationship fueled by drugs and sex. I get it, there is something very inviting and appealing about those lust filled love affairs that many of us have been in. The truth is that over time, they just get sad.

Arguments and crying and desperate pleas of codependency, it’s messy and it keeps people from discovering themselves.

No matter how much you love someone, if you don’t understand yourself then it will not be a healthy relationship. An honest relationship consists of two people that challenge each other to be better people. Real love is about growth and addiction is the opposite of growth.

Now that we got that out of the way, there is good news!

If you are in a meaningful relationship with someone who loves and respects you, they will love and respect you just the same if you get sober. It may feel like it is a weakness, but people really admire people who fall on their face and pick themselves back up again. We admire it because it takes courage, and courage is the most desired human characteristic of all.

It’s true.

If your partner really loves you, all they will want for you is contentedness and satisfaction. At first, some things may change and be uncomfortable but I promise that in the end it will all be worth it and your relationship will be healthier because of it.

If fear of losing someone you love because of judgement or stigma is holding you back from getting sober, then maybe you should reevaluate the relationship. If someone leaves you because you are trying to make a positive change in your life, then it probably wasn’t meant to be.

It will take time, but recovery will do wonders to heal a damaged or unhealthy relationship. I’ve never met anyone who said that their marriage suffered because one of them got sober.

3 – You’re Afraid What People Will Think Of You

Someone told me years ago that what other people think of me is none of my business. I understand what she was saying, but it never really made me feel any better.

Eventually, I learned that most people don’t really care about me enough to worry about what I do with my life. It’s not that no one cares about me or loves me as a person, it’s just that everyone has their own lives and very few people spend their time worrying about what other people are doing.

The one’s that do spend their time worrying about how you or I want to live our lives, well… they could use a hobby.

One of the most valuable lessons I have learned is that things are always changing. Things that I used to think were a really big deal turned out not to be.

Yet, this fear still has merit. It’s very scary to wonder what your coworkers will think. What will your friends think if they find out you went to rehab? or what will the neighbors say if they find out you go to AA meetings? It’s an understandable fear, but it’s also an irrational fear.

At the end of the day, it’s really not a big deal. Just do what you have to do and over time you will find that most people will be proud of you for the positive changes you have made in your life. You will find that other people really don’t care. Finally, you will discover that the ones who do judge you really don’t matter.

This Is Just My Own Experience

In the grand scheme of things, I still have so much to learn about myself so I want to be sure not to come across as a know it all. I have way more questions than answers, and I find that every time I find an answer to a question, another question pops up. That’s life.

But what I do know is that I have spoken on the phone and in person with hundreds if not thousands of people who need help. They all sound so desperate to change. They all act like they want. No, like they NEED to get sober. It’s always one of these fears that holds them back.

We fear boredom, we fear losing someone, and we fear judgement.

What I need to be absolutely clear about is that none of these fears will cause you harm. Once you decide to not let fear control you, then freedom is truly yours.