to live means to choose

an independent roleplay blog for estellise sidos heurassein from tales of vesperia.

[firedxprincess]

hello friends idk how long i'm here for i just felt that itty bitty spark for a second and zoomed over before it was gone hopefully it stays

bUT UM clearly i went inactive for a little while there? on here and cheria and ;; i've been wanting to come back for forever really i've just had a rough time getting back into the tales fandom, tbh!!! but i will push past it

hopefully

and idk yes hello i should probably j u st....... drop all the threads i owe unless there's specific ones anyone wants to continue. then i'd be super glad to! ;u;u;u;;uu;

but cries i'm still a really big snail okay i am on other blogs i can hand the links out to if anyone's interested and i work two jobs now! wheezes so that eats u p my time a lot but

ye ye yeye yeye i miss everyone hello pls love me

pls give me your twitters or line or something i can get those cool apps i have an iphone now yes my twitter is over here i talk about random stuff all the time i'm sry in advance

i am just rambling but oKAY i'm gonna

try to wake my ladies back up rolls up sleeves

[firedxprincess]

"Finally, I thought that would never end..." And of course, now that it has and she has time for herself, it's late-- Go figure.

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shhhhhhHHHHHHHHH no you don’t it’s an illusion

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ｈｕｒｔｓ| ｓｔａｒｔｅｒｓ

"Never give up, it's such a wonderful life."

"Some things are best left unspoken."

"Do you know how it feels to let you go?"

"I feel so lost."

"Talk to me. Tell me your lies."

"Just take my hands. I'll make it all better."

"I don't feel safe."

"All my life I've felt this way, but I could never find the words to say."

"Since the day I left I see your face in every crowd."

"I feel lust like a sick disease."

"I know you need me too."

"I'm going home."

"Remember when it was just you and me?"

"Don't bring me back to life."

"Such a beautiful lie."

"I need somebody to die for."

"Love is not that easy!"

"Someday when you wake up happy you'll thank the Lord that I'm gone."

"It's a long way down when you're alone."

"I'll forget about you."

"Don't cry, please don't cry."

"I came so close to giving up."

"When I go, you will be someone new."

"There is no turning back."

"I've got nothing left to live for, but no reason yet to die."

"I see you when I close my eyes."

"Can you hear me?"

"I'm tired of being afraid."

"You'll be better off on your own."

"All I want for Christmas is New Year's Day."

"Home is where the heart is."

"You know I love you."

"We all get hurt by love."

"I can't sleep."

"I will give you my devotion until the end of time."

"I have no reason to forgive you."

"I'm afraid of myself."

"Nothing that I do will ever be enough for you."

"I wish that I was stronger."

"I could never live without you."

"Can you keep a secret?"

"Why are you out by yourself so late?"

"I'll never leave you again."

"My heart is empty."

"There's nothing left to lose."

"I'd rather be lonely than by your side."

"Look at what you've done!"

"Don't leave tonight."

"I can't hold my head up high with the weight of the world on my shoulders."

"You will never be forgotten with me by your side."

"Carry me away from the pain."

"Is this the end of the love that had just begun?"

"Things we never say are often best left alone."

"I can't cry any more tears."

"I wish I could stay with you tonight."

"Things are going to get better."

"Things aren't going to get better."

"Time waits for no one, so do you want to waste some time tonight?"

"I've been waiting my whole life to tell you how I feel."

"There is no light inside of a broken heart."

"No matter where they take me, death I will survive."

"Don't let go."

"I need you."

"I don't need this life."

"Stay with me. Please."

[firedxprincess]

i'm sorry i'm terrible and keep poking in for a minute and then disappearing for a long time again

i just

still trying to push through. i have no intention of leaving this blog or cheria so just--

yeah please don't forget about me or anything i'll be back soon asdfdsfafsadf

[firedxprincess]

just an update of sorts, i guess! since i've been mia from here and cheria for so long

but um outside of that i'm still struggling! it's hard to be on rp blogs a lot of the time. but i'm pushing through that slowly, i think. that's been an issue for a long time too so nohing really new there but

i keep getting these hurdles thrown at me. mainly involving my dad and step mom and feeling like they're just looking for reasons to come at me now and communication issues and me being too scared ot stand up for myself and

yeah

yesterday i found out that my cat has a tumor, so that's knocked me pretty far down in the dumps. but i'm hoping everything will be okay asdfdsfasdfasf she'll be getting surgery and just have to keep my fingers crossed after that

but um um yeah that's it, i think. i'm sorry i keep disappearing for so long asdfdfasdfsadf lately i've been more on my euphie blog than my other ones so ;u; i'm still trying to work my way back into the tales scene tho because i miss everyone a lot asdfdsfasdfsadf and i also c u marlu hi i miss you  a lot too ;u;u;u;;u;

[steadfastxvigilante]

"Count yourself lucky. Flynn was in the kitchen just a while ago."

[firedxprincess]

"Was he?" As much as she adored and cared for Flynn, missing his cooking was something she really would consider herself lucky for. "Is everything alright?"

[firedxprincess]

"I've missed quite a bit again, haven't I?" 

[neylakiiroisenkou]

Estelvoid.

From: Tales V - 4koma version Original Artist: Sumimaru Koichi Scan, cleaning, translation and editing: Neyla ~ Kiiroi Senkou

[firedxprincess]

[lexancillajustitiae]

"Is something the matter, Lady Estellise?" 

[firedxprincess]

"Flynn! N-No, everything is fine, I was just thinking!"

[steadfastxvigilante]

"Good to have you back, Estelle. Are you sticking around for a while or is this a quick visit?"

Because, frankly, Yuri could be gone tomorrow and not return for weeks. His was always sporadic like that.

[firedxprincess]

"It's just a quick visit this time. I still have a lot to do, but... I missed everyone, so I decided to come by and see who I could. What about you, Yuri?"

Their differing schedules sure made seeing each other harder these days-- But she was thankful and happy to see him regardless.

[vidmorna]

Adorable.

He couldn’t help but cover his mouth as he attempted to stop the bubbling chuckle before patting the top of her head with a smile.

   ”So talented!” he coo’ed in ‘awe’.

[firedxprincess]

Even if she had been excited revealing the picture, she became a bit bashful when it was received well and she was rewarded with a familiar pat on the head.

"Do you really think so?" Though it wasn't long until her smile was back in full-force, green eyes eagerly looking up at him.

[steadfastxvigilante]

"Been a while."

[firedxprincess]

"It has. But it's nice to be back."

[vidmorna]

"❤︎"

[firedxprincess]

It's time to excitedly show off these drawings.

And maybe play with his hair, too.