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Worried what I’ll say next
By ink or by text
Tear down these walls and find
A beautiful heart, but a dangerous mind
You know the words are true
The lines written for you
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-Lines-
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Worried what I’ll say next
By ink or by text
Tear down these walls and find
A beautiful heart, but a dangerous mind
You know the words are true
The lines written for you
That is You
•
I’m not going to lie
The piece of me
(That is you)
Must die
Like a good tooth
Pulled from the gum
Nothing left,
But the numb
-Do You Remember-
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I’m dealing with depression
Self therapy session
Do you remember
What I meant to you?
Do you remember
What I’d do for you?
Modern day stress
Got me feeling less
I’m a mess
Nothing left
Feels numb,
Inside my chest
Feeling dumb
You got my best
Nothing left
For the rest
I don’t want to feel this way
Lay in bed, sleeping all day
Never having words left to say
Wishing I could just walk away
So far away, you’re far away
More and more every day
Far away, you’re so far away
Do you remember
What you meant to me?
Do you remember
All my insecurities?
Far away, you’re so far away
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From me <\3
~Discussion~
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Okay kids, let’s discuss
All my mistrust
Can’t trust
Don’t trust
Won’t trust
Hard to believe this
Rely on Jesus
To fill this hole
When I’m not whole
.
I miss your lips
Your finger tips
Curves and hips
I miss your pain
Hatred and distain
The way you complain
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I’m feeling alone
Life in monotone
A cure unknown
And if you can’t tell
The fact is I hide it well
I’m in hell
.
I don’t like change
Or human exchange
Allow me to explain
.
This pain is more real
Then Our marriage ever was
~ Quietly Screaming ~
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Awkward in society
Battle with my anxiety
Sharing through my poetry
Hoping no one notices me
Or takes a good look and see
And finds my life is a tragedy
.
I remain silent from a far
The screaming in my head
May suggest that I am not dead
But my emotions certainly are
.
I feel fine, I am lying
Suicidal thoughts, I am fighting
Searching inward, I am trying
In my bed at night, I am crying
Loneliness, i am denying
.
Dark hole in my soul
Not feeling whole, no control
I just don’t know, is it time to go?
Mind blown, I’m alone, I’m alone
.
You say I’m missing human connection
Sick and tired of this lecture
I’m so numb, I have no reaction
My self esteem is already torture
.
How you going tell me how I’m feeling?
You have no idea what I deal with
I’m sinking, heavy and deep in
A dark, so thick and full of bullshit
.
Sick of stressing
Sad expression
My obsession
Is my depression
Learned a lesson
Still second guessing
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I’m addicted to this pain
No drugs, no alcohol, just the pain
I’m alone, with this pain
.
If you were in my position
Would you run or would you listen?
As people point out your bad decision
.
I may never be “me” again
And that makes me broken
Closed the door, no longer open
None of us heal the same
.
We don’t heal the same
Letters Never Sent (Part 3)
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Eric,
•
He wasn’t what I thought
I’m so sorry, it is to late
My mistake, but you won’t take
Me back again, damage is done
Alone, world is against me
You were my rock, ground unstable
I am not able, to turn back time
Chaos everywhere, guilt I wear
Like a brilliant red dress
That people notice and address
Dark room full of loneliness
I wish some one would of told me this
Was a bad idea in the first place
I wouldn’t have listened
Blind to the position
Now I’m wishing
I didn’t want new when I need you
I was ready to let you go
Say my goodbyes and let you know
That the grass is greener, or not
Blockage like a blood clot
Trying to pass through life
In strife, end it by the knife
Say good bye to your wife
Goodbye, farewell, goodnight
•
To Whom it Concerns,
•
I remain silent
Emotions violent
Did you just email me?
Is this where we find ourselves?
The space between us, infinite
Distance between unfortunate
Did you just...
Fuck
Letters Never Sent (Part 2)
Babe,
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He looks at me with adornment
Holds the door open for me
Has conversations with me
Takes me out and lays me down
You took me for granted
Always feelings disenchanted
Never having the whole you
The full you and now I ignore you
What am I to do, stop crying
I’m laughing but inside I’m dying
Fuck
•
Amber,
•
Don’t call me babe anymore
You closed that door
Not your babe no more
Loyal and driven, faithful
Man of my word, floored
Can’t believe you are ready
To throw this all away, forget me
I’m not insane, no rinse and repeat
Our love is six feet deep
Grave stone is blank
And to think
Forever and a day
Turned into “ I can’t stay ‘
And I do
Become “ I don’t, I won’t
Not for you, this is about me “
Loving you is all I did wrong
Learn from my mistakes
This one cuts deep
Hills to steep
Futures bleak, pride I keep
That is You
•
I’m not going to lie
The piece of me
(That is you)
Must die
Like a good tooth
Pulled from the gum
Nothing left,
But the numb
You
•
Subtle reminders
And subtle nuisances
Linger on my lips, my skin
Marks of satisfaction
Of excitement
Like tattoos, black and blues
You occupy my thoughts
Tiptoe in my soul
But no one knows
Because we never tell
Longing for belonging
We are thirsty
Mouth so dry it hurts me
Love like a desert
As you insert me
Don’t worry, our story
Is no longer one night
I’m falling and I’ve caught you
Yearning when I’m without you
Desperate when I’m around you
“You” as a smiles creeps
Another night we lose sleep
In to deep, as pleasure seeps
Skin to skin, hand in hand
Passion vast like the ocean
Out stretch beach as
As far as the sun reaches
Breath deep as, I exhale so
We come together as
“One” blank expressions
My impression, is discretion
And Happy New Year
My dear, a new year
Means new beginnings
Beginnings worth giving
A chance and a try
Send our past with a “Goodbye”
Greet are future with a “Hello”
She has me writing again. The writers block was real because I forgot how to feel.
Letters Never Sent (Part 1)
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Dear Eric,
•
Let us not pretend
That you don’t hide behind
That paper and pen
And now I have to read about me
Again and again
But you never gave me what I needed
You had time for the kids
The fire department
Your YouTube channel
Your cars and your work
Time for camp and volunteering
You have time for volleyball
But you never had time for me
To lay on the couch and be
Cuddle in bed or satisfy my need
Or have a real conversation
•
Dear Boots,
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I would of loved you to the end
And now you’re with someone
Who only needs you on the weekend
I miss feeling feelings that are real
Abandoned is how I feel
You’re so cold, I’m freezing
I was good to you and your boys
Does he even know you for you?
The broken, being held together
With duct tape and glue
You love him more then you ever did me?
Is that true, if only you knew
No one will treat you the same
Now our family is empty frames
Crazy,
How much I miss you
When I’m not with you
You say you’re needy
And I need to be needed
You succeeded
Where many fail
This is our tale
To tell how we want to tell
Capturing my heart, my mind
My pen my rhymes
Take your time
Yes, confused
Become my muse
Take a chance
Slow dance
As we slow dance
My Heart
My Heart
•
You are to nice
But I have the trowel in hand
And laying the concrete thick
Brick by brick, building this wall
Strong and high as the sky
No one will be able to take advantage
You are protected now
From the liars and the cheats
You’re a gentle heart, beat by beat
We shall defend while we mend
Cast off the condemned
There is no easy cure
For the ailment you’re recovering from
•
I need heals
Life’s little mysteries
Package in a box
And discard amongst the trash
Is it negative or positive?
I’m not okay
You’re suppose to be my wife
Not this knife, lodged in my heart
You said you would be here for life
And when times were hard
All I needed was a hand to hold
And you just packed your emotions
And left, leaving a shovel in my hands
Your laugh like daggers, reminders
Don’t confuse kindness for weakness
I did this alone and I’m stronger for it
My heart is fragile, protected with walls
So high, so strong, no trust, no sympathy
Don’t pity me, envy me
I’m not afraid to be on my own
Like you are, when did that happen?
So I tried something new on my YouTube channel.