#firefighterpoet

[firefighterpoet]

-Do You Remember-

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I’m dealing with depression

Self therapy session

Do you remember

What I meant to you?

Do you remember

What I’d do for you?

Modern day stress

Got me feeling less

I’m a mess

Nothing left

Feels numb,

Inside my chest

Feeling dumb

You got my best

Nothing left

For the rest

I don’t want to feel this way

Lay in bed, sleeping all day

Never having words left to say

Wishing I could just walk away

So far away, you’re far away

More and more every day

Far away, you’re so far away

Do you remember

What you meant to me?

Do you remember

All my insecurities?

Far away, you’re so far away

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From me <\3

[firefighterpoet]

You

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Subtle reminders

And subtle nuisances

Linger on my lips, my skin

Marks of satisfaction

Of excitement

Like tattoos, black and blues

You occupy my thoughts

Tiptoe in my soul

But no one knows

Because we never tell

Longing for belonging

We are thirsty

Mouth so dry it hurts me

Love like a desert

As you insert me

Don’t worry, our story

Is no longer one night

I’m falling and I’ve caught you

Yearning when I’m without you

Desperate when I’m around you

“You” as a smiles creeps

Another night we lose sleep

In to deep, as pleasure seeps

Skin to skin, hand in hand

Passion vast like the ocean

Out stretch beach as

As far as the sun reaches

Breath deep as, I exhale so

We come together as

“One” blank expressions

My impression, is discretion

And Happy New Year

My dear, a new year

Means new beginnings

Beginnings worth giving

A chance and a try

Send our past with a “Goodbye”

Greet are future with a “Hello”

She has me writing again. The writers block was real because I forgot how to feel.

[firefighterpoet]

That is You

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I’m not going to lie

The piece of me

(That is you)

Must die

Like a good tooth

Pulled from the gum

Nothing left,

But the numb

[firefighterpoet]

Letters Never Sent (Part 1)

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Dear Eric,

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Let us not pretend

That you don’t hide behind

That paper and pen

And now I have to read about me

Again and again

But you never gave me what I needed

You had time for the kids

The fire department

Your YouTube channel

Your cars and your work

Time for camp and volunteering

You have time for volleyball

But you never had time for me

To lay on the couch and be

Cuddle in bed or satisfy my need

Or have a real conversation

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Dear Boots,

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I would of loved you to the end

And now you’re with someone

Who only needs you on the weekend

I miss feeling feelings that are real

Abandoned is how I feel

You’re so cold, I’m freezing

I was good to you and your boys

Does he even know you for you?

The broken, being held together

With duct tape and glue

You love him more then you ever did me?

Is that true, if only you knew

No one will treat you the same

Now our family is empty frames

[firefighterpoet]

Could you handle Everything I have to give? Endless amount of love Intense amount of passion You are my inspiration, my dreams The pen, the paper, my muse I will keep this to myself for now Somehow, someway, I will make you mine

[firefighterpoet]

Need to hide these feelings

I’m feeling for you

Need a new muse

Someone to think about

Swipe right, swipe right, swipe right

Tinder girls know what I like

How did I get attached

Friendship, but found a match

Can she be my next fix?

We are going to meet up around six

[firefighterpoet]

Train Wrecks N’ Me

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At first glance

The poem called Dance

Is about a one night affair

And I’m such a man whore

That is your mistake

Written about my struggle with faith

A new paradox

I opened Pandora’s box

A new addiction

New affliction, disposition

Giving me a nudge

As you sit back a judge

Attracted to the train wreck

I’m not perfect, wanting respect

Write it down, then reject

It is trash, heading for the exit

I’m not a writer, I’m no poet

Feeling like a cry baby, but go and get

A beautiful disaster for the night

So uptight, struggle and I fight

Freestyle my pain, it’ll be alright

Your my favorite girl

Changed my world

Bringing the bad out

And there is no doubt

This shit is deep, for real

Emotions won’t deal

Your touch is all I want to feel

Your kisses I wanna steal

Your passion your lust

Don’t need your trust

Don’t need your love, oh no

Don’t need you to know

I’m falling down this hole

Between your legs, in your brain

Driving me insane, so insane

Status change, I refrain

Sex in the rain, can’t complain

Top down, champaign from the bottle

Pedal to the floor, full throttle

Dance for me, take it off for me

Go down on me, don’t tease baby

Where do we go from here?

People watching but we don’t care

Everyone is a critic on Tumblr

I haven’t even started yet

Let us not forget, my regret

No wait, that is a different sonnet

[firefighterpoet]

-Lines-

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Worried what I’ll say next

By ink or by text

Tear down these walls and find

A beautiful heart, but a dangerous mind

You know the words are true

The lines written for you