This sadness will never end. All this life ever gave me was just loss and pain after loss and pain. I don’t think anyone will read this or care about it. All I know for sure is that the only way I can put a full stop to this is by putting a stop to my life. They say your heart does stop beating once in a while but it rectifies itself and starts beating again. The moment my heart stops and does not rectify itself, the moment I close my eyes for good, that’s when I will finally find my peace. I battled all of this by myself on my own until now. I know it is a downhill battle. I failed. I failed to protect myself, I failed to save myself. The only person who could gave up on me too. It’s okay. I will no longer be here writing my own out. I will let it bottle up. I will let it pop that vein in my brain or my heart and gift me my death. I hope it does. Thank you to everyone. If you knew me or if you did not, I thank you nonetheless.
I always thought I could be a firefly. Turns out I was just a moth attracted to death all along.















