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[firstlove-v]

[firstlove-v]

All of the things that I've lost, I will find again

Everything I've done doesn't define what I am

All of the things that are broken will still be fixed

Same old heart with the same old tricks

Hold me close and I'll hold back

Love lustful insomniac

[firstlove-v]

[firstlove-v]

The Craft (1996)

[firstlove-v]

I am constantly trying to communicate something incommunicable, to explain something inexplicable, to tell about something I only feel in my bones and which can only be experienced in those bones.

[firstlove-v]

[firstlove-v]

It's you, it's you, it's all for you everything I do

[firstlove-v]

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[firstlove-v]

You take the wheel

I don't wanna do this anymore

It's so surreal, I can't survive

If this is all that's real

[firstlove-v]

Fluorescent store lights, you shine through the night

Illuminate my pores and you tear me apart

Mercy on me, would you please spare me tonight?

I'm tired of this searching, would you let me let go?

Beetlejuice - 1988

[firstlove-v]

You don't know how far I'd go

To ease this precious ache

And you don't know how much I'd give

Or how much I can take

Just to reach you

Happy pride, never be scared of being who you are.

[firstlove-v]

I don't smoke

Except for when I'm missing you

To remember your mouth, how it

Tasted true

And I don't smoke

Except for after I've held you, baby

Being with you

Makes the flame burn good

[firstlove-v]

… I'm not doing anything

I'm not doing anything

My body's made of crushed little stars

And I'm not doing anything

I wanna see the whole world

[firstlove-v]

Summer comes, winter goes

Spring, I skip, God knows

Summer comes, winter goes

Spring, I sleep, Heaven knows

Every time it turns to May

All my sisters fly to me

To paint, paint

[firstlove-v]

And then there was the issue of her

I didn't even like myself or love the life I had

And there you were, with shinin' stars

Standin' blue, with open arms

You touched the detriment most of the friends I knew already had

[firstlove-v]

And how long will it...

Take?

Before you start to hate yourself

And go straight

To the arms of someone else

And I'll just

Wait

'Till those arms belong to me and I'm not

Saying that you love me

I'm not saying any...

Thing

[firstlove-v]

I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life. And I am horribly limited.

Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath 1982