fIschhIrn

🏴‍☠️19 y.o. he/him🏴‍☠️

[fischhirnn]

Welcome to the wormhole. Please remain seated and savor the aroma of my personality's decay.

Hello! My name is Zebedee (RUS/ENG), I'm a FTM mаsоchist demiromatic and pansexual, probably monogamous. I really enjoy mental and physical suffering, although I have never had a partner (and, I admit, still don't) to experience it more directly. Unfortunately, I don’t always have the time or opportunity to respond, but I would be happy to chat! I also should note that I suffer from GAD, OCD, hypochondria and emotional lability.

I'm into: ВDSМ; boot worship; hybristоphiliа; pet play; knifе play; blооd play; аnthropоphagy/cаnnibаlism; аsphуxiа; аutoаssаssinophiliа; biаstоphilia; неmаtolagniа; sadоmаsоchism; kidnapping; Stockholm Syndrome; Lima Syndrome; Stalking, humiliation; praise; prey/hunter and villain/sidekick dynamic; sapiosexuality.

I think it might be a bit hard to list everything I like, hehe. Besides my intimate interests, I'm also interested in literature and entomology, and I really love osteology, taxidermy, and paleontology! I admire the golden age of piracy (1650-1730) and pirates in general, shipbuilding, and the sea! I'd be happy to talk about it if you'd like.

DNI: Minors.

Honestly, I don't care how bad or wrong you are, or what values ​​and views you hold, if you want to talk to me. I'd be happy to talk to you in Asks!

Also I have a second blog specially for shitposting: @rufdeswurmlochs

[fischhirnn]

You don't have to talk me into anything if that's what you want. Just make me submit, it's easier for both of us.

[fischhirnn]

When you said you wanted a "paranoid partner," you meant you wanted someone who would one day decide to disfigure their face because they were convinced their grооmer leaked intimate photos of them taken at 16, and now every single person on this fucking planet knows what they did to their body for that jerk, right? Or did you mean a slightly different manifestation of paranoid behavior?

[fischhirnn]

Or perhaps you meant the kind of paranoid behavior where your partner is convinced someone is always watching them in the shower and is about to attack them? Or the kind of partner who's convinced you're a spy sent by ill-intentioned people, meeting with them solely to embarrass and dishonor them? Or the kind of partner who covers their windows with duct tape and foil because they think someone's about to launch a missile through their window?

[fischhirnn]

When you said you wanted a "paranoid partner," you meant you wanted someone who would one day decide to disfigure their face because they were convinced their grооmer leaked intimate photos of them taken at 16, and now every single person on this fucking planet knows what they did to their body for that jerk, right? Or did you mean a slightly different manifestation of paranoid behavior?

[fischhirnn]

how do you put up with di ventus i live with them and think their creepy. congrats though i guess

Hello, anon.

Please don't send me anonymous messages anymore. Go out and touch some grass, get a personal life, find a job. Life will seem a lot more interesting if you stop telling strangers that their friends are acting creepy.

[fischhirnn]

At first they say, "I'll accept you no matter what," but when it turns out you're a mythomaniac with persecution mania, a paraphiliac, and a paranoid, they ask you to see a psychiatrist.

[fischhirnn]

I will slowly eat you piece by piece until we become one.

[fischhirnn]

I see.. what would be easy for you to access? If they were photos, or text based, or on tumblr? I’m curious if there’s a way I can reformat them …

Hello again!

The problem isn't the format, but the website, which was blocked by the Russian Federation due to total censorship. You shouldn't change your principles because of me; you have plenty of players who are comfortable using the resources you've provided.

I also looked at some of your websites, but I just didn't leave a reply. Mostly because I was shy.

[fischhirnn]

there’s plenty that you should love, and plenty to be seen. Why don’t you try to get a few cookies? I have plenty to give you, and I promise it’ll be worth your while

Hello, nada-nothing-no-one (or just Cookie Jar, whichever you prefer).

Your game is very interesting, but unfortunately, it's quite difficult to observe from my country, as I need additional tools to access the sites. It would probably be easier to do this on my PC, but most PC tools are paid. I can't afford them.

[fischhirnn]

I want to be your Pavlovian dog. Teach me what I should love.

[fischhirnn]

[fischhirnn]

want to play a little game?

https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/144989585

Hello, anon!

It's so sweet of you to attach the scary picture. Sure, let's play if you want!

[fischhirnn]

Some people like to give gifts to their loved ones on holidays. Jewelry, books, dishes, clothes. I'll give you my severed finger for your birthday to show how much I care about you.

However, my sacrifice will never be enough to show how dear you are to me.

[fischhirnn]

Put your fingers under my skin, I want to be closer.

[fischhirnn]

hi! i hope this hasnt been asked yet. what are your favorite books? AND favorite genres?

-🌸

Hello, 🌸!

Honestly, I don't think I've ever been asked this before, so you're probably the first.

My favorite books are probably "Invitation to a Beheading" by Vladimir Nabokov, Lovecraft's "At the mountains of Madness" collection, and Steinbeck's "Cannery Row". Pretty typical I suppose.

I don't read books within any strict genre boundaries, so I can't say I like any particular genre. I enjoy science fiction and realistic fiction, as well as historical fiction, but I read a lot of books outside of those genres.

Thank you for your question, 🌸!

[fischhirnn]

r u as obsesed abt them as they aparently r abt u?

Hello, anon!

To be honest, I'm not sure if you can call it an obsession, but I like them and I enjoy talking to them. They are very caring and interesting, so I wanted to get to know them better.

[fischhirnn]

whats ur opinion on tha parasocial anon?? u 2 seem p close from their blog im acc js curious

Hello, anon!

I love parasocial anon, they are a good person! I have been talking to them for a while now and they're really charming.