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some guy on the internet

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welcome to my blog, I like to post all my interesting thoughts and miscellaneous bits of writing here.

disclaimer: photography used is not my own, all photographs are sourced from Pinterest.

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Like a selfish child, I want only what I know I cannot have.

Like a stubborn child, I still cling to the words you said forever ago.

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Let me love you forever— fully and wholly, for there is no other way i can love if not with every fibre of my being. Entwined in you, growing like moss.

Let me show you how it feels to be adored. To be loved boundlessly without conditions, without judgement.

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i am sick—ill with worry—for i fear even my greatest love hath forsaken me.

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To be seen is one thing, to be known is something else entirely. To be known is one of the most terrifyingly vulnerable states a person can be in, yet it is also the most rewarding and beautiful.

many people have seen me, but they haven’t cared to know me.

You see me, yet you still care enough to know me too.

It is that moment i realised you wanted truly to know me that i will always treasure.

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together we dance alone in this world, content and unbothered.

a vast distance separates us—

but true friendship is everlasting, and i will hold out my hand for you forever.

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the past will always be more romantic than the present but the present will always be more real than the past.

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i wish i could say i wrote for you, but i rarely write for you.

i am a selfish creature, i write only to heal my own hurt

and i have a lot of hurt—but not nearly enough words to heal it.

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even though it’s over i’ll still treasure everything you said to me like fragments of glass from something that broke long ago.

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the jealousy eats me alive

i’m sorry i’m like this

i’m sorry i can’t move on

i’m sorry i’m still holding on, thinking one day you might let me be yours.

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I’m like a bird in a cage of my own disparity.

The door is wide open, the world calls for me

But captured for so long i have forgotten how to fly on my own.

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The silence hurts more than your words ever could,

each minute spent waiting is agony.

Put my heart out of it’s misery if you must but I beg you, do it swiftly.

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a poem i enjoy.

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Am I a good dog? or is it just that I bite my tongue when you step on my tail.

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A Comfortable State of Suffering.

Utterly sick of trying but not yet ready to give up— not yet ready to let go of this dream i’ve held for so long

Like a burning star hot to the touch it seers my skin but i keep holding on to that familiar pain.

- poem by fishnotebook

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a line from my favourite poem, Tears by Edward Thomas

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