Iâm Micah, he/it. I am AuDHD and I am diagnosed with HSD, suspected to have hEDS.
This blog while originally made to explore my alterhumanity and interact with my community, has turned into a more personal account where I share the stresses and intricacies of my life as an animal. My identity is rather loose and I moreso identify with the notion that I am an animal and that I am the birds in the sky, the fish in the sea, and the deer in the road. However I include a âtype list.
I prefer to label myself as nonhuman as I feel constantly in a state of animalsâ mind, but I may refer to myself otherwise and do not mind using alterhuman or therian to refer to myself. I also prefer feline bio terms; paws, fur, claws, etc.
What does psychological mean for me? I know that autism causes my experiences. While my experiences are involuntary, my identity is. What does spiritual mean for me? I connect deeply with the life around me, and it is hard to put into words what spiritual means for me. What does physical mean for me? I think therefore I am. I constantly experience animality.
Iâve been awakened for 5+ years. As well, I am an artist of all forms and will probably occasionally post artwork related to my intended content here.
Theriotype List
â ? â means I am kinsidering it. â means I experience this type most often.
Cougar â
American Lion
Dire Wolf
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I may sometimes talk about my own interests here and that includes transformers mainly, RDR2 and old western cowboy life, archosaurs, gaming (wide variety; VotV, Path of Titans, Subnautica, MCSM, Roblox games like Grace, Twenty One, or Phighting, Minecraft, and Stardew), writing, vulture culture, and some other things that I forget.
I interact from @bugjunky !
About My Blog
This blog will focus on my experiences with nonhumanity, mostly consisting of me yapping but I will also freely contribute to those who ask! This blog was also created in hopes of interacting with the alterhuman community more. This is a multipurpose blog!
Please do feel free to send me asks! It can be about anything! Any interactions are welcome! However âŚ
Do not send me asks for donations of any kind.
This makes me uncomfortable.
I do not have enough money to donate.
I do not have enough reach to help any genuine donations.
I say genuine as I have received far too many scam donation asks.
I will block anyone who requests donations in my inbox.
I will not defend my boundaries. This goes for any donations of any kind. I regret having to add this but I have had far too much spam in my inbox.
Tagging Guide
#cougarchirps yappinâ
#cougarcreations art related posting! Paintings, digital artwork, or traditional creations.
#rechirp reblogs
I have no DNI list. I block freely, just use common sense interacting with me.
Canât believe my last post was 2 months ago ???? It wasnât meant to be like âIâm never posting on this account againâ đż but just that I may not post often so here I come to write my semi monthly post.
Really got into fishing recently. Super fun, gets me outside and active and it gives me good dopamine from accomplishing something that isnât a video game related task lol. BUT! It also brings me closer to nature in a way it satisfies my urge to hunt. Surveying the environment, changing my tactics based on it, adapting. The catch feels amazing.
Canât wait to start doing catch and cooks since Iâll be living right next to a huge lake soon. Iâll really just be hunting my own food. I wish I knew how to actually hunt as well Iâd be replacing all the beef in my diet with deer meat. So tastyyy. Might even think about a garden as well, with these damn grocery prices.
Be curious to see if any other alterhumans like to fish or hunt? :3
I think the more Iâve matured and the longer I ruminate on my own alterhuman identity the less I feel the need to post on this account. An alterhuman identityâ for meâ can be closely compared to my transgender identity.
Not many people have a whole account dedicated to being transgender, but if they have a different account they might bring it up. I posted here when I didnât really know who I was, and I wanted fellowship and community to help me understand myself. It did work, but I realised I didnât need it much anymore because I was comfortable not feeling the need to label myself as much anymore.
Sometimes I am just an animal and I feel at peace going to sleep with only that and nothing else, and the same goes for gender identity.
I hope in the future I may just as comfortable casually addressing my transgender identity in other spaces as I could my alterhuman identity. I strive for acceptance of my identity and my person.
Celebrating Yule traditions for the first time with my family this year. Iâm excited! One of the things my family is really looking forward to is decorating a Yule log together and creating a julbock to stand by our fireplace.
HAPPY PRIDE! I've been feeling very fired up about how repressed Pride has felt. Allies that ask for assimilation are fickle and will abandon you if you don't look like an old navy commercial! We can't chase societal acceptance at the cost of shrinking ourselves!
Iâll be honest, I didnât want to admit this after I had poured so much time into the survey and have still forgotten to close it. I felt discouraged and unconfident that I couldnât properly represent my community, so I abandoned the project. I donât want what is supposed to be uplifting to turn into something that my community sees as putting them down.
I still appreciate everyone that participated in the survey for that one episode I havenât made yet, and I may never make it, but I will be holding on to it in case I ever do. <3
The transgender to non-binary pipeline through alterhumanity is too real ⌠didnât want to admit it for a while, but Iâm just straight creature now. Masc? Femme? Donât know her. Just the
Hi! Are you an alterhuman and want to be part of a single-episode educational advocate podcast episode? I need your help in providing survey data!
If you arenât an alterhuman, please fill out the survey still if you have the time!
Iâm trying to give a voice to others in my community and promote acceptance of alterhumanity. Filling out the survey helps me a lot!
Just a warning, this survey will ask about discrimination. If you do not want to answer any of the questions, please do not take the survey. The discrimination section is an extremely important part of the survey. All responses will be anonymous!
There are no exclusionary limits to the survey, I want it to be as inclusive as possible.
Please reblog the post, share with friends, etc. I would like this to reach as many people as possible.
I'm currently answering this, only issue I have is that the queer section doesn't have an other option! There's so many queer labels that I'm struggling to pick the limited ones that are close enough
Shoot I am so sorry about this :( for some reason it slipped my mind to add an other option there ???? I did sort of make the survey in a rush because I have a short amount of time to be making this podcast episode. It should be fixed soon!
Hi! Are you an alterhuman and want to be part of a single-episode educational advocate podcast episode? I need your help in providing survey data!
If you arenât an alterhuman, please fill out the survey still if you have the time!
Iâm trying to give a voice to others in my community and promote acceptance of alterhumanity. Filling out the survey helps me a lot!
Just a warning, this survey will ask about discrimination. If you do not want to answer any of the questions, please do not take the survey. The discrimination section is an extremely important part of the survey. All responses will be anonymous!
While Iâm glad people are offering to guest speak, this podcast will be put in a contest that would need a name to credit an individual with. If you donât have a problem with that and still want to guest speak, reach out to me in DMs! I may not invite a guest speaker, but the option still remains open.
There are no exclusionary limits to the survey, I want it to be as inclusive as possible.
Please reblog the post, share with friends, etc. I would like this to reach as many people as possible.
Accidentally left this sitting in my drafts for ages oops.
Gosh I think about my hearthome a lot, and it usually goes into consideration if I am questioning a âtype.
This probably isnât the case for everyone, but my hearthome is (while generally being VERY large) where Iâve always lived as a person; The northern mountains and prairie grasslands of North America.
Iâm not sure what draws me so closely to the temperate deciduous forests of North America, but they are home to me. I know the trees in whatever place I live quite intimately because their life cycle is just as important as mine and I depend on it.
But the grasslands and prairies are largely influenced by where I grew up as a child. Riding horses on trails as a little kid in the North Dakota wilderness I felt I wanted to live there forever. I hated seeing traffic lights and gas billowing out of concrete pillars every day.
I tend to have some internalised hatred towards myself because of my therianthropy (Iâm not sure what the phobia for it is called)* which results in slightly purist rules I project onto myself.
*later edit, I have learned itâs called alterhumisia.
Such as âfeline and canines are such polar opposites that it would be impossible for me to be bothâ.
And despite that, I have still always experienced the instincts and behaviours of both in a blend that has always felt extremely natural to me. So Iâm having to fight my self-imposed rules and in doing so learn to love myself a little more. I am allowed to be what I am!
Hate feeling like wolp/coug at work; it feels like a pigeon clamoring to the concrete roof of a building and remembering the time before the people tore down their wild rock faces they nested in so long ago.
So anti-therian sentiments are pretty much always a front for hatred or discomfort towards queer people, the mentally ill and people of other races/cultures, I think we all agree on that, but I think it can also be clear at times that the people who spout this stuff don't have much respect for animals point blank.
Like, often the points they make come from a place of disgust at the thought of someone imitating nonhuman behaviours ("so you eat from a bowl and shit outside?") and its interesting to me how these behaviours are painted like they're... unbecoming. Like you should be above acting like an animal. It feels, to me, like they're subconsciously attached to the notion of animals being of "lesser intelligence" or lower ranked than humans, therefore being influenced by them is an embarrassment.
Some people, generally younger folk who wanna be edgy when they can't wrap their head around something from what I've seen, see an alterhuman or furry or whatever and threaten to hunt them or skin them or any other kind of act of animal cruelty they can think of. That speaks for itself, obviously, but also like... I've seen anecdotes a good few times of therians who've made genuine expressions of their nonhumanity in conversations, only for it to be interpreted as self deprecation. Most people can't seem to take the image of an animalistic person seriously in itself. You can see this in normie reactions to therianthropy and you can see it tenfold in their reactions to furry.
I believe that we're not gonna see progress in how alterhumans are treated till we make progress in accepting the wider marginalised groups that overlap with our own movement. But even so, its glaringly obvious how people can't even comprehend the thought of relating to animals as more than a curiosity or spectacle. They're seen as simple. They don't have language we see as complex, they don't do maths, art, philosophy, inventing to the same extent as people. They eat, shit, kill and fuck. They're purely biological. They have no inner world. Therefore, they're below humans.
Except... humans do all that stuff too. And most animals do the same things humans are so proud of themselves for, just in their own way. The only real difference is that animals don't go to great lengths to fill whatever void each human seems to have inside that pushes them to keep searching for a reason to live. Animals are better in tune with themselves, I think. Humans can't fathom that its okay to be internally fulfilled by simple things. They especially can't fathom how animals piss and shit and fuck without shame. It kind of speaks to a severe disconnection from nature, which we're unavoidably a part and product of. Many of us live in a culture where we're taught on some level to be ashamed of our basic needs. Its becoming increasingly hard to view ourselves as products of a mushy bloody biological world when our society values only the civil and the intellectual.
Hateful people will use this divide we've created as fuel to hurt others. You don't need me to explain to you how all throughout history bastards have done horrible things to innocent people for horrible reasons and all the while perpetuated an idea of their victims being apparently uncivilised. Treating the Other as subhuman, forcing them down to the same level we see animals as being at, is unfortunately nothing new. I believe part of the reason humans struggle to accept therianthropy is that therianthropy, in a way, elevates animals to beside humanity, and that's difficult to comprehend. It kind of forces you to question the hierarchy of living creatures you've built inside your head. Actively choosing to accept animalistic qualities into yourself 1. communicates implicitly to those around you that there's something about animals to respect and admire beyond usefulness/amusement, and 2. is inherently a pull towards the sensory, biological and "gross", which we don't make a whole lot of room for in our current world. We're taught to suppress the instinctual, and we're also pushing nature itself away more and more. Wanting to take joy in your own body and wanting to experience fur, scales, claws, meat, noise, the flesh and bones and mannerisms of an animal is deeply sensory. When someone is confronted with desires and self-perceptions like nonhumanity and the beliefs about the world it challenges... its easier to conclude that therians are pushing themselves down, rather than lifting animals, and the urges humans can't accept, up.
It's sad if you ask me. So many cultures around the world, now and in the past, live in tandem with animals and plants and soil and sea. We can live equal to the nature around us, because we are nature. Fuck, alterhumanity isnt even a newfangled thing. Folks have been emulating animal characteristics for all sorts of reasons for all of time. Animals are more than tools or commodities or things spawned in to make the landscape more interesting. I can't speak for any community beyond my own but all over the world folks have been chill with nature in all sorts of ways and actually respected the existence of the things around them instead of harvesting everything for personal gain.
I think we therians kind of have a duty to learn more about this stuff and try to advocate for the care of the creatures we've accepted into ourselves. Whether or not you're on board with your existence in a human society, you've been blessed with a voice to speak with. I'm not a genius and I can't tell you every single thing you should research or get involved in if you want to change the world, but maybe next time someone tries to fuck you over for being what you are, ask them "what's so bad about being an animal?"
I find it interesting how the subconscious mind knows my biology better than me. That something maybe close to instinct knows the genetic code of every creature I find, and it knows my genetic code too. And it knows it isnât human.
No I donât have delusions that my genetics arenât human, I speak metaphorically.
I find it really interesting that something in my mind knew subconsciously what very specific canid I was, but without the information could only steer me in the right direction. In the past I identified as a dhole, but it wasnât quite right. I knew it was close to something but it just wasnât right so I no longer identified with it.
However, my subconscious pointing me in the right direction with dhole lead me to the possibility of being a dire wolf. I identify quite deeply with them and while I didnât immediately go âthatâs meâ to dholes, I did with dire wolves. Morphologically, dire wolves are a LOT closer to dholes than they are to gray wolves which I had also considered in the past but knew it was way farther off. The subconscious is always so interesting to me.
I have never had âtype related dreams before up until a couple of nights ago and I didnât think anything of it at first but I do keep thinking of it at random instances in my day.
The dream was a little confusing because itâs hard to describe what perspective I was in. I was standing on a rock. I was a prehistoric raptor of some kind, either a dromeasaur or troodontid, with warm-toned black feathers. I had a somewhat dished face like velociraptor, but an overall bulky build and a size closer to utahraptor but slightly smaller. I have looked over every single raptor ever discovered from both families and nothing matches what I looked like. Aside from looks, the perspective of the dream was weird because the only reason I know what I looked like was because I was in the third person. I was staring myself in the face, but not looking at a reflection. Thatâs the easiest way to describe what it looked like, but third-person doesnât really seem quite right, because it was almost as if however I was seeing myself was through the eyes of my human body. I couldnât see that I was in any human body, but I knew I was looking at myself through one.
Such a weird dream. Iâm not even really sure if I identify with what I saw.
