* I, WAS THE MORE DECEIVED.

priv. selective NOELLE HOLIDAY from deltarune's WEIRD ROUTE written by virgil. | c.

[flashbck]

TELL ME TO GROW WINGS, AND WE'LL FLY OUT OF THIS STUPID TOWN.

private & selective noelle holiday of deltarune's weird route. written by virgil. tw for unreality, mutually-abusive relationships, & suicide.

* CARRD / PROMPTS TAG * PROMO ART SOURCES: hellspawnmotel & gorbortgrimblemeister * Sources for all fanart used in icons can be found in the carrd.

[funtergeist]

tell me to grow wings... and let's fly out of this stupid town!

[poohsources]

🐝  *  ―  𝑨𝑵𝑮𝑺𝑻𝒀 𝑾𝑶𝑵'𝑻 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

❛  i won't apologize for the way i chose to survive.  ❜ ❛  i won't ask you to love me.  ❜ ❛  i won't be another thing you ruin and walk away from.  ❜ ❛  i won't be here when you finally decide you need me.  ❜ ❛  i won't be the reason for you to stay.  ❜ ❛  i won't be your second choice anymore.  ❜ ❛  i won't forgive you just because you finally feel guilty.  ❜ ❛  i won't hold you back anymore.  ❜ ❛  i won't keep setting myself on fire just to keep you warm.  ❜ ❛  i won't let myself hope for you again.  ❜ ❛  i won't let you do this alone.  ❜ ❛  i won't let you turn this around on me.  ❜ ❛  i won't make it so easy for you this time.  ❜ ❛  i won't tell you when i miss you.  ❜ ❛  i won't wait forever just because you're scared.  ❜ ❛  won't you at least say goodbye this time?  ❜ ❛  won't you be lonely without me?  ❜ ❛  won't you be sorry for once?  ❜ ❛  won't you look for me when i'm gone?  ❜ ❛  won't you miss being loved like that?  ❜ ❛  won't you miss me?  ❜ ❛  won't you regret this when it's too late?  ❜ ❛  won't you remember that i tried?  ❜ ❛  won't you tell me what i did wrong?  ❜ ❛  won't you wish you had said something kinder?  ❜ ❛  won't you wish you had stayed?  ❜ ❛  won't you wonder what could have been?  ❜ ❛  you won't admit that you hurt me because then you'd have to care.  ❜ ❛  you won't be able to fix this so easily.  ❜ ❛  you won't be the reason for me to stay.  ❜ ❛  you won't even look at me anymore.  ❜ ❛  you won't find me waiting for you ever again.  ❜ ❛  you won't get another chance.  ❜ ❛  you won't get to break me twice.  ❜ ❛  you won't have to worry about losing me anymore. you already did.  ❜ ❛  you won't keep using my love against me.  ❜ ❛  you won't know what to do with yourself when i stop needing you.  ❜ ❛  you won't remember this the way i will.  ❜ ❛  you won't say it, but i know you blame me.  ❜ ❛  you won't understand what you lost until i'm gone.  ❜

[miikpal]

shattered

[inquireanerdyberd]

It's cold.

So cold.

An icy grip clutches his SOUL. Holds it tight, refusing to let go. Every breath he takes leaves a chill from his beak, and every minute he clings to life, his consciousness falls deeper into the abyss. Yet he continues to persist. To what end? Not even he had an answer. All he remembers was a sheet of white and every molecule in his body turning to ice.

Would death have been a kinder fate?

As he begins to awaken from his nightmare, frostbitten wings lay numb in the hospital bed. First thing he sees is more white. This time, from the sterile ceiling. He inhales deep. An agonizing pain fills his lungs. The boy cringes as a frosty mist escapes from an exhale. Hard to breathe... hard to move... hard to notice he was even awake at all.

Yet the deer did. The one he so desperately wanted to protect. Was she... okay? He couldn't see her... He couldn't see anything. His gaze remains affixed to the florescent light, as if wondering when the Angel would take him away from this place. Yet... what remained him tethered to this mortal coil was the soft voice of his visitor.

*N... No... elle...

the bluebird croaked,

*A-are you... unharmed...?

[flashbck]

IS  SHE  UNHARMED?  what  a  question.  here  he  is,  laying  in  a  hospital  bed,  in  a  room  that  is  sweltering  in  its  warmth  in  an  attempt  to  thaw  the  ice  that  has  .  .  .  what,  formed  around  berdly's  SOUL?  noelle  doesn't  know  what  “  snowgrave  ”  did  to  him,  in  the  real  world,  as  opposed  to  that  waking  nightmare.  he  should  be  dead,  she's  pretty  sure.  and  yet  here  he  is.  awake,  and  talking,  albeit  slow.

“  i'm  fine,  ”  she  lies,  as  steadfast  as  anything.  going  to  twist  that  imaginary  ring  around  her  finger  again.  “  i'm  more  worried  about  you,  berdly.  ”

a  long  pause.  swallowing,  she  takes  up  a  familiar  post,  pulling  a  chair  to  his  bedside  and  sitting  down.  closer  to  him,  the  air  seems  to  drop  a  few  degrees.  guilt  churns  in  her  stomach.  seeing  him  like  this,  it's  so  .  .  .  surreal.  it's  berdly.  he's  never  been  so  unwell  before.  she's  seen  him  with  your  everyday  cold,  but  this  is  something  much  colder.  this  is  something  she  did  to  him.

“  i'm  sorry,  ”  she  says,  because  they  must  be  past  the  point  of  lying  to  themselves.  “  i'm  so  sorry,  berdly,  i  don't-  i  didn't  know  i-  you  were  just  trying  to  protect  me,  but  .  .  .  ”

her  gaze  shifts  away.  “  .  .  .  i  guess  i  can  protect  myself.  ”

she  should  feel  guiltier.  she's  pretty  sure  she  should  feel  worse  about  this.  not  to  say  the  guilt  doesn't  weigh  down  her  SOUL  and  drag  her  every  step,  but  she  thinks  maybe  she  should  be  inconsolable,  actually,  instead  of  just  horrifically  numb  when  she's  not  speaking  to  him  directly.  she  shivers,  leaning  in  a  little  closer.

“  i'll  protect  you  this  time,  ”  she  whispers,  “  okay?  ”

[gorbortgrimblemeister]

Conformity.

[flashbck]

queueing some stuff... replies and starters are comin' .... slowly but surely ...

[ourheartt]

𝗢𝗨𝗥𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗥𝗧𝗧. selective && mildly headcanon based undertale / deltarune MULTIMUSE. written by marble ( it / they, 21+ )

CARRD. sideblog to @flowercrowne.

[ieatratsyummy]

They could never make me hate you, complex female character whose reaction to trauma was not pretty and digestible like how people think it should be.

[flashbck]

i wgant to write so much more stuff and send asks and and and this is so fucked up that i have to start getting ready for work soon

i'll get to any remaining/additional starters & asks later tonight !! i'm so excited to be back in the rpc and Very excited abt this blog so im glad u guys are too teehee...

[flashbck]

so wiped after work so i'll probably only be poking around in people's inboxes for the night . . . those starters will get done soon though <3 !!

[flashbck]

i wgant to write so much more stuff and send asks and and and this is so fucked up that i have to start getting ready for work soon

i'll get to any remaining/additional starters & asks later tonight !! i'm so excited to be back in the rpc and Very excited abt this blog so im glad u guys are too teehee...

[flashbck]

@atemoss | starter call.

GOD.  STUPID  NOELLE,  thinking  this  would  have  done  anything.  changed  anything.  she  sits  at  the  edge  of  the  lake,  absolutely  drenched,  water  still  dripping  from  her  hair  and  nose  and  clothes,  breathing  hard.  kris  is  laying  on  the  ground  beside  her.  she  would  reach  over  and  check  on  them,  but  they're  breathing  just  as  hard.  hardly  a  corpse.  stupid,  stupid,  stupid.  why  would  she  think  that  would  work?

“  faha,  ”  she  gasps,  half-heartedly.  “  that  was  stupid.  oh  my  god.  ”

noelle  laughs,  breathless  and  winded,  hunching  over  on  the  shore.  she  can't  bring  herself  to  look  at  them.  “  sorry,  kris.  guess  i  got  –  got  carried  away-  ”

she's  just  noelle.  what  did  she  think  would  happen?  nothing,  nothing,  and  nothing.  she's  still  here.  they're  still  here.  the  lake  water  in  their  hair  and  soaking  their  clothes.  she  could  have  killed  them  both.  she  kind  of  wanted  to.  the  thought  is  nauseating.

“  i'm  really  sorry,  kris,  ”  she  repeats,  quieter,  staring  out  over  the  lake.

.  .  .  they  should  get  cleaned  up,  before  susie  gets  back.

[flashbck]

@sxulandparts hiii

" you  weren't  supposed  to  hear  that. "

[ asks & prompts ] always accepting!

.  .  .  HUH?  noelle  blinks,  brow  furrowing.  okay,  she  wasn't  supposed  to  hear  that  voice  in  her  head?  but  she  did.  real  cute,  kris,  that  you  think  you  can  just  that's-not-allowed  your  way  out  of  this  conversation,  but  that's  not  how  it  works.  not  anymore.  noelle  is  tired  of  her  wants  being  ignored.

“  okay,  ”  she  says,  crossing  her  arms.  “  but  i  did.  so  go  ahead,  kris.  tell  me  what's  going  on.  why  i  can  hear  .  .  .  “  her  eyes  flick  around,  like  she's  making  sure  they're  truly  alone,  at  the  edge  of  the  lake.  ”  .  .  .  why  i  can  hear  your  voice,  even  if  you  aren't  speaking.  "

a  step  forward.  she  prods  a  finger  into  their  chest.  “  what  is  going  on  with  you?  first  the  dream  excuse,  then  the  prank  excuse  –  there's  no  denying  this,  kris!  i  know  you  want  to,  but  we  have  to  face  the  truth  at  some  point!  "

[flashbck]

@inquireanerdyberd | starter call.

HE  WOKE  UP.

it  wasn't  something  she'd  been  thinking  about.  not  really.  noelle  has  had  too  many  things  on  her  mind,  lately,  and  it's  horrible  to  say  it,  but  berdly  has  not  been  one  of  the  top  five.  god,  it's  terrible,  and  noelle  knows  it.  of  course  she  does.  he  doesn't  deserve  that  from  her  -  he  deserves  a  good  friend,  a  best  friend  rushing  to  see  him  first  chance  she  gets,  not  .  .  .

.  .  .  well,  not  this.  noelle  walks  through  the  doors  of  the  hospital  the  afternoon  after  kris-

her  eyes  slide  across  the  empty  waiting  room  in  front  of  her.  she  twists  two  fingers  around  the  ring  finger  of  her  left  hand  as  if  twisting  a  ring  that  is  not  there.  there  is  a  dull  throbbing  pinch  where  the  thorn  dug  its  way  in.  it  hurts  when  she  presses  on  it.  she  keeps  doing  so.  the  receptionist  looks  at  her,  and  noelle  looks  back.

“  hey,  hun,  ”  she  says,  warmly.  “  he's  gonna  be  able  to  go  tomorrow.  ”

noelle  blinks,  taking  a  long  moment  to  realize  she  means  noelle's  father.  right  -  dad  will  be  at  the  festival.  good.  that's  good.  she'll  have  the  chance  to  say  goodbye.

“  i'm  here  for  berdly,  actually,  ”  she  says,  voice  feeling  far  away.  the  receptionist  pauses,  then  nods.

“  second  room.  ”  she  knows.  she  looks  at  the  door  with  nothing  but  guilt  every  time  she  walks  by.

noelle  strides  into  the  hallway  with  hooves  clicking  on  the  floor.  it  sounds  like  her  mother's  gait.  she  swallows,  coming  to  a  stop  in  front  of  the  door.  she  hesitates  for  just  a  moment,  in  front  of  the  door,  before  taking  a  deep  breath.  he  deserves  to  know  what's  going  on.  she  opens  the  door.

he's  not  dead.  it's  a  hollow  relief,  though,  to  see  him  awake.  noelle  closes  the  door  behind  her,  hesitating  there  in  the  threshold.

“  hi,  ”  she  says,  quietly.  “  how  are  you  feeling?  ”

[knuckle-velv3tt]

[flashbck]

wow everyone's more enthusiastic abt this blog idea than i thought . . . teehee exciting :] i suppose i'll kick things off with a starter call! feel free to specify muse if you're a multi or even specify where in the timeline you'd prefer your starter <3 otherwise i'll go wild >:)

[zachrp]

ᝰ🚬 𝚉𝙰𝙲𝙷𝚁𝙿 .ᐟ RANDOM TEXT MESSAGE PROMPTS. CHANGE ANY PRONOUNS IF NECESSARY. SOME MATURE THEMES MAY BE PRESENT.

[TXT] : answer the question.

[TXT] : you left your jacket here.

[TXT] : ignore that last message.

[TXT] : must be my fault somehow.

[TXT] : this was a bad idea but i'm doing it anyway.

[TXT] : guess i misunderstood the vibe.

[TXT] : i'm only texting you because i'm drunk.

[TXT] : i can't stop thinking about your hands.

[TXT] : you're not gonna believe this..

[TXT] : i'm blushing shut up.

[TXT] : okay wait no don't answer that.

[TXT] : i didn't say anything because i didn't want to argue.

[TXT] : be honest with me.

[TXT] : are you free tonight?

[TXT] : i'll explain later, just call me now!

[TXT] : i like it when you looked at me like that.

[TXT] : i should stop texting before this escalates.

[TXT] : i keep rereading that message.

[TXT] : are you trying to distract me on purpose.

[TXT] : i hate that you were right.

[TXT] : you'd be so proud of me right now and also disappointed.

[TXT] : cheers to bad decisions.

[TXT] : i had a dream about you.

[TXT] : i thought you were coming?

[TXT] : wow that's crazy.

[TXT] : it's whatever honestly.

[TXT] : your stuff is still here.

[TXT] : open the door.

[TXT] : what are you doing right now?

[TXT] : don't screenshot this.

[TXT] : don't make me ask twice.

[TXT] : i'm grabbing coffee, want one?

[TXT] : what are we?

[TXT] : no really it's fine.

[TXT] : you don't have to lie.

[TXT] : i don't feel great.

[TXT] : don't rush i've only been waiting.

[TXT] : i forgot the grocery list.

[TXT] : don't do this over text.

[TXT] : did i do something wrong?

[TXT] : i don't trust myself around you.

[TXT] : running late sorry.

[TXT] : you make it hard to be good.

[TXT] : i told myself i wouldn't text you tonight.

[TXT] : are you mad at me.

[TXT] : please answer me.

[TXT] : i told you not to do that.

[TXT] : can i come over?

[TXT] : i'm outside.

[TXT] : you're being unfair.

[TXT] : that's not an excuse.

[TXT] : can you stay on the phone with me?

[TXT] : are you busy?

[TXT] : please tell me you're okay.

[TXT] : i think i fucked up.

[TXT] : i need to vent.

[TXT] : do you want food?

[TXT] : this is messing with my head.

[TXT] : i should not be imagining this right now.

[TXT] : are you mad at me?

[TXT] : please say something.

[TXT] : can you lie for me?

[TXT] : i found your keys!

[TXT] : i just thought you'd let me know.

[TXT] : i know you're awake.

[TXT] : stay the night.

[TXT] : you look good and you know it.

[TXT] : this reminded me of you!

[TXT] : this conversation is not helping my self control.

[TXT] : i love how you only respond when it's convenient.

[TXT] : i love you and i hate that i love you.

[TXT] : you left me on read.

[TXT] : i cleared my schedule.

[TXT] : i can't keep doing this.

[TXT] : are you alone?

[TXT] : stuck in traffic.

[TXT] : you could've just said no.

[TXT] : i don't want to be alone.

[TXT] : who are you with?

[TXT] : something has to change.

[TXT] : if you were here right now i'd be in serious trouble.

[TXT] : i'm done.

[TXT] : don't tease me.

[TXT] : i'm getting worried.

[TXT] : oh okay i guess we're not talking anymore.

[TXT] : where are you??

[TXT] : i'm thinking about you.

[TXT] : i hate nights like this without you.

[TXT] : can you come get me?

[TXT] : look up.

[TXT] : i trust you.

[TXT] : i need help.

[TXT] : this is flirting right?

[TXT] : i changed my mind about earlier.

[TXT] : it's fine do whatever you want.

[TXT] : it's not what it looked like, okay?

[TXT] : my brain won't shut up about last night.

[TXT] : please come get me before i make worse choices.

[TXT] : that was not funny.

[TXT] : i'm proud of you.

[TXT] : i don't know why i'm telling you this.

[TXT] : i'm sorry, i should've said something sooner

[TXT] : please don't be mad..

[TXT] : are you coming over or just teasing me?

[TXT] : i won't bother you again.

[TXT] : i almost sent this three times.

[TXT] : did you get home safe?

[TXT] : you don't owe me anything clearly.

[TXT] : i miss you.

[TXT] : guess who i just ran into..

[TXT] : i can't sleep.

[TXT] : i need clarity.

[TXT] : tell me to behave.

[TXT] : okay fine you win.

[TXT] : hello?

[TXT] : you did good.

[TXT] : do you miss me?

[TXT] : i'm bored, entertain me.

[TXT] : are you safe??

[TXT] : you're unbelievable.

[TXT] : i shouldn't have said what i said earlier.

[TXT] : i hope you're asleep because this is embarrassing.

[TXT] : don't ever say that again.

[TXT] : are you flirting with me?

[TXT] : you owe me gas money.

[TXT] : stop avoiding me.

[TXT] : call me when you see this!

[TXT] : you still mad?

[TXT] : can we talk in person?

[TXT] : can i crash at your place?

[TXT] : you're going to get me in trouble.

[TXT] : i'm spiraling.

[TXT] : you're doing this on purpose.

[TXT] : okay i'm done texting now.

[TXT] : you look cute.

[TXT] : glad you had fun.

[TXT] : i'm exhausted.

[TXT] : i'm trying to be respectful but you're not helping.

[TXT] : why would you think that was okay??

[TXT] : i want to move on.

[TXT] : thanks for the heads up i guess.

[TXT] : you left your panties here for a reason didn't you.

[TXT] : you know exactly what you're doing.

[TXT] : please don't tell anyone.

[TXT] : remember when we said we wouldn't do this again.

[TXT] : i can't find my shoes.

[TXT] : do you always do this or just to me?

[TXT] : tell me you don't miss me so i can shut up.

[TXT] : you crossed a line.

[TXT] : you up?

[TXT] : you didn't have to do that.

[TXT] : don't get smug.

[TXT] : i'm on my way!

[TXT] : i should not be saying this.

[TXT] : remind me to tell you later.

[TXT] : come over.