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indie rp / towa from slow damage

[fleshpaints]

independent Towa from Slow Damage  — NOT SPOILER FREE. written by arph ( he / him ) . oc , off-platform, double & crossover friendly. est. 2026

Your body, this flesh — it's only a thing ; not even worth labeling as human. Gaping holes in your memory complement the ones worn on your skin. You don't know what love is, but you know the smell of turpentine and ichor, the caress of pain, and you revel in it. Between your jagged lacerations and smoke filled haze, you grasp desire , splattering it across the canvas. ( The world around you is in euphoria. )

guide. about. verses. navig. mun.

[ryumisadei]

[fleshpaints]

"god doesn't love you more than anyone else."

When it comes to the grove's very own blasphemer, critiques of the Gods are nothing new. Towa isn't much of a believer himself, an oddity in the garden of recollection. While his peers fawn over Fuli, preserving every memory with careful consideration, he only cares about the desires nestled beneath.

Oh, and Professor Anaxa is like an ocean, both steady and calming, yet turbulent too. If Towa reaches in, how deep will he go? He wants to take Anaxa apart and splatter him across his canvas. ( That is of course, if the Professor doesn't deconstruct himself first. )

Conversation may not suit him, but picking at the professor does. Like a worm at the skin of an apple, he scratches at the surface. Leaning in with a conspiring smile he asks, "Oh? And what about you Professor? — I know better than to think that I'm your favorite. I guess you don't love me more than anyone else either."

[fleshpaints]

bold what applies - italicize sometimes - strike out never. tag some friends to play along! & repost don’t reblog!

SUN • egotistical • melted wax wings and fingers • stretching sunburnt skin • the most generous soul • blood in the fruit • halos • anger on fire • high vitality • thunderous laughter • is pride really a sin? • halogenic aura

MERCURY • expansion of the mind • silver-tongued • an everlasting wanderer • polyglot • high dexterity • handwritten letters • innately critical • en vogue • eyes in the trees • hidden libraries • there’s always room for improvement

VENUS • in love with strangers • iridescent waters • love potions for your mirror • selfless devotion • shattering crystal • seafoam upon sand • the golden ratio • drowning in your own passion • material value & high principles • luring • plush lips

EARTH • fresh springs • tree hugger • we can start again tomorrow • a blazing rainforest • respects survival of the fittest • nature’s adversity • lazy bones • constantly evolving • flowers sprouting from wounds • a granite altar • fossilized remains

MOON • illusory • silver shimmer off the ocean • secrets and gossip • cycles of reincarnation • a crybaby • physically ethereal • shared glances with a stranger • cat eyes • mistrusting their intuition • fear is a prison • ornate magic wands

MARS • healthy competition • attraction and repulsion • magma and rubies • a blade being forged • wrath wrath wrath • malefic • intense eye contact • cannon fodder & fireworks • blood floods • copper taste on your tongue

JUPITER • red robes and a suit of armor • beacon of stability • leader by birth • thunderbolts and lightning • guilty but can’t stop • secret rich kid • golden touch golden tears • innate optimist • failure isn’t an option • constantly reaching for more • unfinished symphonies  

SATURN • traditional • overbearing energy • a sculptor of reality • this existence is a karmic one • has a heart it’s just.. way down deep • law, order & justice • avoid all necessary risk • the sound of shackles clanging • sisyphus’ struggle • grappling with the reality of time • self-governing

URANUS • psychedelic funk music • overflowing cups • a rebellion with skin • looking good in photo id • oblivious but caring • middle fingers in the air • double rainbows • icy diamond exterior • holographic • afraid of their own mediocrity • pearlescent smoke

NEPTUNE • an elegy for the lost • dissolving boundaries • white horses • the burden of mystical conditions • deceptive • escapism is their reality • a polarizing entity • artists soul • paranoia • searching for the unseen • a siren’s swan song

PLUTO • angel statues over graves • power • the cycle of necrosis • transformative • unfathomable depths • an ivory tower toppling over • screaming at the sky • violets and irises • eclipsed darkness • speaks with their shadow • sex, death, rebirth

tagged by: stolen

tagging: @treatiseofmind / @foxedtail / and anyone else can say I tagged them if they want to do it :-)

[fleshpaints]

I finished my starters and all my asks so :> if anyone wants to plot or wants me to send them memes let me know

[oksick]

巳蛇

[fleshpaints]

starter for @foxedtail

There is no reverence in him for the holy or the divine, yet he walks with purpose through the inlaid stones of the shrine's pathways. The amount of times he's been found faced down in an alleyway after imbibing one too many drinks far exceeded any attempt to ask for help or wish upon the unseen.

It's loud...

The sight of sparklers, food stalls, and families gives him that same sense of forlorn distance that sets in during the holidays. He dips his chin bringing the tip of his cigarette towards the lighter's flame to distract himself. With a deep inhale, the burning end sparks red like a single eye in the night to match its holder.

Always amongst, but never a part of, Towa weaves through the crowd like a gossamer thread. At the shrine door, he makes himself known with two strong thumps of his knuckles. He hadn't even asked if this was where he'd find Wei Yiren. Perhaps this entire journey would be a waste of time.

Still, he calls out, "... Open up, I brought alcohol."

[vvormsuture]

I need to finish playing this game, towa's hair perplexes me

[fleshpaints]

Taken from the art book. I feel like there’s a lot to say about body autonomy & violence as a stand-in for emotion for this game (even beyond Towa and extending to the supporting cast)

I want to elaborate more on “body” as a headcanon further down the line but for now sharing this reference of his scars which in game Towa does say “are his own” no matter who inflicted them

[fleshpaints]

me @ towa

[fleshpaints]

snapdragon & tulip  !

hiiii ! :>

BOTANICAL HEADCANONS

snapdragon : is your muse merciful ? why or why not ?

MERCIFUL — not in the way the heart stutters forgiveness in the face of apologies, or time heals with distance from memories, but rather merciful in the way sinners whisper at lattice confessionals, hushed voice on their knees, begging deities that do not listen.

They spill their desires and are heard without judgment, and he takes it in like ambrosia for the soul. Darkened, mangled, decrepit, rotten, and those scarred lips say I'll make your wish come true. Like salvation they bask in blinding light with trembling hands as their darkest desire are illuminated, unearthed, and unshackled from the deep depths of their most secret psyche.

Merciful, like penance can be achieved in this life time.

tulip : how does your muse view people in general ?

VIBRANT COLORS IN FLUX — a thousand emotions, personalities, and desires coming together. There's something ingrained deep, a voice that taught him long ago: everybody has threads to pull. One to make them sing, one to make them dance, one to make them do whatever you want. You just have to find the right one.

For someone who is the perfect picture of indifference, he observes revealing truths about people before they can even discern it about themselves. The downward lips of displeasure, the light of amusement in their eyes. Yet there is a divide between person and self, human and thing. He is an object yet to learn how to evolve from the inanimate to the living, and so he remains distinctly an outsider. The one eyed observer who has yet to find a place to belong.

[fleshpaints]

😞😞😞 I didn’t realize tumblr shows posts outside of chronological order so sorry if I interacted with anyone’s super old post rip

[trashmemes]

MIDNIGHT MASS SENTENCE STARTERS   —   quotes pulled from the 2021 netflix limited series. feel free to make alternations.

i know i’m not who you expected to see this morning.

you aren’t a good person.

i loved you my whole life.

do you feel at peace?

i have absolutely no purpose at all.

look at us, back where we started.

god doesn’t love you more than anyone else.

i would go anywhere in the world with you.

it might come down to just minutes, maybe seconds.

everyone gets theirs wings clipped at some point.

i’m sorry that we never told you.

just tell me what you need.

don’t tell me what to do.

i’m sorry for what you’ve been through. i’m really, really sorry.

we don’t have to be afraid ever again.

you’re here and that is enough.

i’m not scared, not of you.

you never felt like a sin.

this isn’t the way. this is never the way.

i learned early there’s no point trying to stop you drinking.

he said to run.

it just felt too easy to leave, like i shouldn’t be able to just leave.

did it hurt you?

i never remember my dreams.

we made our choices.

i just need you to listen. can you promise me that?

everything has its season.

i’m tired of you lying to me!

our whole lives have been wasted.

it isn’t about us anymore.

that’s not how god works.

i forgive you.

forgive me.

i did my best.

[promptfairy]

❥     𝐁𝐎𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒    [   𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙳 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂    ]   .

headcanon prompts with questions based on plants   &   what they represent in flower language .  happy roleplaying !!  ♡

abatina :   is there anything in life your muse has changed their mind about over time   (   due to becoming more educated on the topic ,   certain experiences  ,   etc .   ) ,    or that they   would   change their mind about under certain circumstances ?  

acanthus :   is your muse deceptive ,   or willing to lie or deceive to achieve certain means ?   why or why not ?   

aloe :   how does your muse handle grief ?

amaryllis :   what is something or someone that your muse takes pride in ?   how do they express that pride ?   

anemone :   how does your muse view the world ;   as a cruel   &   unforgiving place ,   a land full of wonders ,   or something in - between ?  where does that world view come from   (   what experiences ,   life lessons ,   etc .   ) ?  

angelica :   where does your muse draw inspiration in life ?   what motivates them ?

apple blossom :   how does your muse go about expressing or not expressing their sexuality ?  

bachelor’s button :   does your muse actively seek romantic companionship ,   or cherish the liberties of being single ? 

basil :   does your muse have a love - hate relationship with anyone or anything ?

bay tree :   does your muse seek glory   &   accolades ,   or do they favour a simpler ,   more personal life ?  

begonia :   how cautious is your muse ?   are they prone to noticing red flags ,   or paranoid to the point of untrusting most everyone ?   why or why not ?  

belladonna :   how does your muse respond to silence ?   do they take comfort in soundlessness ,   or seek to fill the void with noise ?   

bluebell :   does your muse learn from their past ,   or are they prone to repeating the same mistakes ?  

carnation :   what is your muse’s relationship with their gender ?   how do they express or not express this relationship ?  

chamomile :   what is your muse likely to take away from a painful experience ?   are they one to be haunted by adversity ,   or to use what they’ve gone through to become stronger ?  

chrysanthemum :   how does your muse express romantic love ?  how do they feel about love as a concept ?  

daffodil :   is your muse one to be loyal in relationships ,   or are they likely to quickly move from one bond to another ?

daisy :   did your muse ever feel as though their innocence had been lost ?   what moment in their life could be described as the end of their innocence ?  

edelweiss :   what was the bravest moment in your muse’s life ?  are they known to be courageous from then on ?  

fern :   does your muse believe in magic or cosmic forces ,   or are they more likely to think their life is ultimately a matter of their own control ?  

forget - me - not :   has your muse ever forgotten something that is or was important to them ?   are they afraid of forgetting things like that ?  

gardenia :   is your muse one to confess romantic feelings early on ,   or to conceal them for long periods of time ?  

gladiolus :   describe a moment from your muse’s life that they will never forget .

goldenrod :   does your muse believe in luck or fortune ?  why or why not ?   where do they believe these things come from ?  

heliotrope :   does your muse believe in soulmates ?

hibiscus :   how does your muse view the gentler ,   daintier things in life ?   as things worth preserving   &   caring for ,   or things only bound to wither   &   disappear ?  

holly :   how strong is your muse’s sense of intuition ?  are they aware of it ?   do they ever fear that it is only paranoia ?  

hollyhock :   how strong is your muse’s sense of ambition ?  what’s something they strive for in life ?  

hyacinth :   is your muse athletic ?   does it come naturally to them ,   or have they had to work for their physique and/or skill ?  

hydrangea :   how much does your muse value communication in their relationships with others ?  are they prone to being misunderstood ?

iris :   if your muse could convey one last message to someone they have lost or left behind ,   what would it be ?  

ivy :   what are your muse’s views on marriage ?   do they believe it is something strictly for love ,   or an institution rooted in business   &   social benefits ?   do they desire or have they desired to be married ?

lavender :   how easy is it to gain your muse’s trust ?  once their trust is broken ,   how might one go about mending it ?  

lilac :   what was your muse’s childhood like ?   how has their upbringing affected them as they’ve aged ? 

lily :   how does your muse view their mother ?  

lotus :   has your muse ever felt as though they’ve been reborn ?  have they ever desired the feeling of a fresh start ,   or a better understanding of themself and/or the world around them ?  

magnolia :   describe your muse’s relationship with nature   &   the natural world .  

marigold :   is your muse prone to jealousy ?  how might they handle envious feelings ?  

mint :   does your muse view themself as virtuous   &   moral ?  what do these words mean to them ?

nasturtium :   describe your muse’s relationship with their birthplace ,   or homeland .  

oak :   who would your muse consider the strongest person they know ?  

pansy :   does your muse often reflect on their own actions ?   do they ever think a lot about the past ,   and what they could have done differently ?

parsley :   describe a holiday your muse enjoys ,   and why they enjoy it .

peony :   what would a   ‘  happy life  ’   look like in your muse’s eyes ?

poppy :   what comforts your muse ?

rhododendron :   is your muse receptive to warnings   &   advice given by others ?

rose :   how much does your muse value other people ?   do they wish to have many friends ,   lovers ,   and/or associates ?   are they an easy person to love ?

sage :   what is your muse’s legacy ?   what do they want to be remembered for   &   what might they actually be remembered for ?  

salvia :   is your muse possessive over people or things that matter a lot to them ?  how do they express that possessiveness ,   or lack thereof ? 

snapdragon :   is your muse merciful ?  why or why not ?

southernwood :   how seriously does your muse take themself ?   do they prefer a solemn   &   intellectual atmosphere or do they delight in jokes   &   banter ?  

sunflower :   what brings your muse the most joy in life ?  

tulip :   how does your muse view people in general ?  

violet :   how does your muse respond to betrayal ?

willow :   how does your muse handle sadness   &   depression ?

zinnia :   how has the loss of fallen comrades and/or loved ones affected your muse ?   has it taught them anything or given them any new perspectives ?

[fleshpaints]

like this and I'll send you a meme from your reblogs :-) if you don't like it no pressure to answer!

alternatively here is a starter call for plotting

[dailyclassicart]

Carl Gustav Carus - "Painter's studio by Moonlight" (1826)

[fleshpaints]

Please like for a plotted starter call and I'll slide into your dms (or you can take this as an invitation to slide into mine. I am working so replies are slightly slow) >:)

If you're a multi-muse I will look through your muse list and offer something for multiple characters!

Thank you everyone for following, I wasn't sure if anyone was aware of this old game & it's been years since I've been on tumblr, but I'm very excited to be back.